Chapter 16 "Warm" 16

Nuan Nuan drove the white car again, and I put the suitcase into the rear compartment, making a low crashing sound. After closing the trunk, I suddenly felt cold. "So it's winter now. "I say. "Yes." Nuan Nuan said, "Get in the car." The heater in the car was very strong, and I took off my coat after sitting for less than half a minute. After another three minutes, I even took off my sweater. Nuannuan just smiled and didn't explain why the heating is so strong, and I didn't ask. The Second Ring Road is surprisingly smooth, and the car usually encounters a green light when approaching the intersection.

Beijing seemed to welcome my departure. Nuan Nuan said that she bought some Beijing snacks and asked me to eat them on the plane. "Don't forget to take it later." Nuan Nuan said. I put it in my backpack immediately, because it should be easy to forget things later. "Cool and cool." Nuan Nuan said, "Can I discuss something with you?" "Yes. ’ I nodded. "Later..." Nuan Nuan hesitated, "I won't get off the car when I get to the airport later." "Are you afraid of crying?" "I say. "Northeast girls don't shed tears in winter," Nuan Nuan said.

"Oh? ’ “I shed tears in the weather of minus thirty degrees, and the tears froze before reaching my chin.” Nuan Nuan said, “It doesn’t feel good.” “No wonder girls from Northeast China are so strong. "I say. "But in summer, the tears fall hard." Nuan Nuan smiled, "Make up for it." "So..." Nuan Nuan said, "I can't get out of the car later." "Because it's winter now?" "Yes." Nuan Nuan said, "But the heating inside the car is very strong, like summer." Nuan Nuan's hands holding the steering wheel are a little tight, her eyes are fixed on the front, and she looks a little serious from the side.

"I don't want to see you cry. ’ I said, ‘If I go to Beijing again, I will choose winter. "It's about winter again?" Nuan Nuan said. "Ok. ’ I said, ‘The big date really has to be in winter. "It's not at this time, I don't know when, I think it will be in winter." Nuan Nuan sang. "yes. "I say. Then Nuan Nuan and I were silent. Outside the window is the airport expressway, and the birch trees on both sides have been dyed a touch of white. I remember when I came a few days ago, the trees looked shy; now they are tearful. Nuan Nuan is a girl from Northeast China, like a white birch standing upright.

And the birches that grow in the frozen land should have been strong. Only Bai Hua's strength can grow here, because they have to watch so many people separate every day. Terminal 2 of the Capital Airport is in sight, and the end point has arrived. Nuan Nuan pulled over and stopped the car, opened the rear compartment with a bang, and said, "Since the 9/11 incident in the United States, the security check has become stricter. You need to act faster to avoid missing the flight." "Yes." 』I put on my sweater and coat, opened the car door, went to the trunk, and picked up the luggage.

"Remember to inform me next time you come to Beijing." A warm voice came from inside the car. "the same as you. ’ I dragged my luggage to the front door, bent down and said, ‘Remember to let me know next time you come to Taiwan. 』"I didn't even last time, how can there be a next time?" Nuan Nuan smiled. I can't laugh. As soon as I leave the heated car, I just feel cold. Nuannuan simply waved his hand and drove away without saying goodbye. I felt even colder. Even in Harbin, I didn't feel like every cell in my body was shaking like now. I dragged my luggage and walked a few steps, my head was a little blank, and my whole body was exhausted.

Let go of your hands, lie back against the wall, and close your eyes. Began to accept the fact that Nuan Nuan is gone. This time I came to Beijing to stay for four nights, only two nights in the hotel, and the other two nights on the train from Beijing to Harbin. Suzhou, Hangzhou, Shanghai, Beijing, Harbin, I seem to be always on the go. To see Nuan Nuan, three thousand kilometers is just an instant; to leave Nuan Nuan, one step is far away. I am about to return to Taiwan, back to the world of 0 and 1, wrestling with the numbers in the passbook. And how to deal with the memory about Nuan Nuan that suddenly hit me when I came home from get off work late at night?

Maybe I could do something silly, or be less rational and more impulsive and passionate. The enthusiasm may never fade away, but the practical problems continue to challenge my enthusiasm. Just like there is a one-to-four conversion formula between RMB and Taiwan dollar, I tried to find out the conversion formula between enthusiasm and reality, Taiwan and Beijing. That is to say, although the enthusiasm is still there, a question always arises in my mind from time to time: the energy generated by burning enthusiasm is enough to advance the distance, is it enough to bring me close to Nuan Nuan?

I can calculate the distance from Beijing to Hong Kong, Hong Kong to Taipei, these distances are not far; but the farthest distance between me and Nuan Nuan is the Taiwan Strait. That's not a distance that can be measured in length, width, or depth. Is it possible to sail and cross the Taiwan Strait with a ship made of pure things that I will disappear bit by bit? In Taiwan, the other half is called holding hands; in Beijing, it is called lover. I should find the hand in my life in the future, and Nuan Nuan will also find her lover. If we don't even have the same name for our other half, then it may be difficult to be each other's other half.

The phone rang suddenly. When I saw the caller display "Nuan Nuan", I was taken aback and quickly pressed the answer button. I cheered up and called out, "Nuan Nuan!" 』"Cool and cool!" Warm voice said, "Come outside the airport, it's snowing!" He raised his head, the sky was a bit dark, and there was a bit of wind, and a few white spots fluttered in the wind. "I saw. "I say. "Why so fast?" "Because I haven't entered the airport yet. 』"Yeah?" I looked around subconsciously, thinking that perhaps Nuan Nuan was hiding and preparing to show up suddenly when I wasn't paying attention.

But I saw people who took out their luggage from the stopped vehicles and walked into the airport, moving in a straight line and in a monotonous direction. The snow in the air fluttered in an arc, and after landing, it still took a few steps restlessly, as if unwilling to stop. "Are you still driving? "Of course. I have to drive the car back to work." My heart sank, and the snow on the ground finally gave up moving. "You called just to tell me is it snowing? ""You like snow, don't you?" Nuannuan said, "I want to hear your happy voice." "I..." paused, then lifted my spirits and said, "I'm very happy." ""Is this a happy voice? It doesn't sound like it." "Because it's a bit cold." ’ ‘Is it cold? ’ ‘Yes. After a ten-second pause, Nuannuan said, "Then let's go in. It's too bad to be frozen." "Let me see more." ’ I tried to squeeze out a laugh, ‘After all, you can’t see it in Taiwan. 』The snow became heavier, the wind became stronger, the ground became whiter, and the body became colder. "Let's go in." Nuan Nuan said. Pulling up the collar, shrinking the neck, the left hand holding the mobile phone is a little stiff, and the right hand is used to change shifts. "I..." His voice trembled, "May I call you by your name?" ""Are you stupid?" Nuan Nuan smiled, "Of course." "Nuan Nuan, Nuan Nuan, Nuan Nuan." ’ ‘Was it useful? ’ ‘Super useful. "I say. "You're not talking nonsense, are you?" "No.It is clear. ’” Talking nonsense again. "Huh." "Nuan Nuan, Nuan Nuan, Nuan Nuan..." When she called out for the seventh time, her eyes started to moisten accidentally, her throat became a little choked up, and then she stopped. Nuan Nuan should have noticed it, and didn't say much. "Is it better?" After a long time, Nuan Nuan spoke. "Ok. ’ I wiped the corners of my eyes, took a deep breath of cold air, and said, ‘It’s much warmer. ’ “That’s the advantage of my name, it won’t be cold if you call it a few more times.” 『I’m very grateful to your father for giving you such a good name. ’ “I’m also grateful that you don’t dislike it.” 『Have you ever heard that someone thinks a diamond is too bright? ""I've never heard of that." Nuannuan simply smiled. It's time for me to go, and if I don't check in, I may not be able to go. "Nuannuan, when can I see you again? "I say. "What do you think?" "Maybe a month, maybe a year, maybe ten years, maybe..." I paused, swallowing my "next life" abruptly. "Maybe it's a minute." Nuan Nuan said. "One minute? 』Maybe it is a psychological effect, I vaguely heard warm laughter. "Hey, cool." "Huh?" 』"Cool and cool!" I thought the voice was a bit strange, it wasn't that Nuannuan's tone had changed, but that I seemed to hear an echo. The voice in the mobile phone overlaps with the echo in the air, just like the Tianxin Stone in the Temple of Heaven. "Cool cool!" He heard it more clearly this time, and the echo overwhelmed the voice from the phone. I raised my head, and the warm white car suddenly appeared, ten meters in front of me on the left. The driveway close to the airport was already full, and the warm car slowly passed my eyes from left to right. "Hey! Liangliang!" Nuannuan rolled down the car window, let go of the steering wheel with his right hand and tried to reach out of the window, shouting: "Coolliang! Goodbye!" "Nuannuan! "Bouncing up, I didn't care about the phone slipping from my hand, and ran towards the back of her car, "Nuannuan! 』After only eight steps, he was blocked by a black car. "Warm! 』I put my hands around my mouth and called out loudly. Nuan Nuan did not stop and left my life at a slow speed. "Cool cool..." The warm voice became farther and farther away, "Goodbye..." I bypassed the black car, rushed into the driveway and ran wildly, desperately chasing the white shadow in the distance. "Warm! ’I shouted with all my strength: ‘I will definitely take you to Nuan Nuan! ’ I suddenly felt an inexplicable sadness. It's like holding the hand of a dying father and telling him that I will listen to him well in the future. It's just a promise that you can't keep but want to use all the strength in your life to keep. In the snow all over the sky, my field of vision is completely white, I stand in the snow, I don't know how to call Nuan Nuan? Nuan Nuan and I are ordinary people, we have pure joys, anger, sorrows and joys, and we also know that happiness must be pursued and mastered. Maybe there is a little courage to face the difficulties, but there is no extraordinary courage to break through or reverse the difficulties. The torrent of the times will rush me to my corner, so should Nuannuan. We will look into the distance, but we don't have the strength to swim to each other, we can only drift slowly until we can't see each other. In the process of drifting, I will look back from time to time to the place where Nuan Nuan and I met briefly. I saw clearly that it was a restaurant, and the sign outside clearly read: "Authentic Hubei Cuisine". Then I heard a warm voice. "Hey, my name is Nuan Nuan. How about you?" ～The End～ written after The time is 2003 or 2004, and the season may be late summer or early autumn. I can’t remember the exact time and season, but I just remember that I was wandering the streets of Beijing in the afternoon, and I met a group of college students, about 20 of them, both men and women, standing on a low wall about one meter high in the shade of the roadside trees. Sit in a row. They shook their legs leisurely, talking and laughing one after another. As I walked past them, I couldn't help thinking that I had a similar youth in the past. "Ruffian Cai!" When I heard my nickname from behind me, I was startled, stopped in my tracks, and turned my head. "Are you really the ruffian Cai?" A male college student stood up and walked towards me. I am an honest person, and I have received professional training, and I will not beat around the bush when encountering problems. So I nod. I asked the student who recognized me, why did he recognize me? Because I am quite confident in my appearance, this kind of non-distinctive appearance is difficult to be recognized. Since I got the nickname ruffian Cai, I have been walking around the campus of Chengda University for several years, but I have never been recognized by a stranger. What's more, this is Beijing, and the person who recognized me obviously speaks with a northern accent. "I'm your reader and I've seen you in person on TV," he said. The students seemed to have heard of me, so they all jumped up and surrounded me chattering, I was in the center of the circle. The topics revolve around what I am doing now, whether I still write or not, the authenticity of my works, and so on. Only then did I know that half of this group of students came from the three universities in Taiwan, and the remaining half came from Beijing. I was startled again. Turns out they were at summer camp or something with a sacred name but really just looking for a reason to play. "Let's take a photo together." The Beijing student who recognized me picked up a digital camera. We huddled in two rows under the shade of a tree, and someone said, "It's too dark here, remember to turn on the flash." "What are you talking about?" The person holding the camera said, "There is ruffian Cai here, so it's not bright enough?" " Wow!" I was overjoyed, "There are five stars in this sentence." Holding the camera, he said twice, and pressed the shutter, and really didn't use the flash. Sorry, the words describing this past may be a bit arrogant, not like the humble and low-key me. But as a writer, you must faithfully present the scene and dialogue of the story. So I can only tell you with tears in my eyes that it is indeed the case. After taking a few more photos, I said goodbye, have fun, and decided to leave. "Do you want to consider writing the stories of our group of students into a novel?" said the student who recognized me. I smiled, waved my hand and left without saying anything. I usually don't do this kind of thing, and at the time I was not sure that I would write novels in the future. The beginning of this year was my last semester teaching at Chengda University, if nothing unexpected happened. My class is scheduled in the evening, and one day I suddenly noticed that there were a few more unfamiliar faces in the classroom. After class, four students came to me and said that they came from the mainland and went to Chengdu as exchange students. I'm curious, so I invite them to my lab for a chat. The four students, two men and two women, come from four different universities and seem to be quite comfortable with life in Taiwan. When they left, I gave each of them a book written by myself as a souvenir. Later, the four of them came to see me again, all on the night before returning to the mainland. A student even bought me a teacup because he felt embarrassed to take my book. "Looking forward to your new work." He said before leaving. After he left, I suddenly remembered the group of students I met on the streets of Beijing that year. Two days later, I started to write. Although it is a simple story, it is not easy to write. In the process of writing, sometimes you also worry about whether you will be stained once you finish writing? In this atmosphere of the times, people tend to lose their inner purity and courage. If one day, men and women in the world can treat each other with a pure heart, there will not be many subjects to write about. Then the novelist can die with hatred. So I can still write now. I have been to almost all the attractions mentioned in the article, but it was several years ago. Maybe my description does not correspond to the current situation, because it is written from impression, and it is inevitable to be wrong. I originally wanted to limit the length to 100,000 words, but it still exceeded about 6,000 words. Please forgive me if the writing is too good to move you, I didn't mean it. If the writing is not good, please tell me and let me know that I have run out of talents. Then I will enlist in the Earth Defense Force to fight against aliens to protect the earth and do something really meaningful. Halfway through writing, another man and a woman came to the research room to look for me. The man is a mainland graduate student and an exchange student at Chengda University; the woman is a graduate student of Chengda University. They met in Taiwan. "You must be boyfriend and girlfriend," I said. They were startled, then the man smirked and the woman nodded shyly. "It's hard work, isn't it?" I said. "It's okay." The boy glanced at the girl and smiled. The girl smiled slightly, looked at the boy too, and said, "It's okay." The three of us chatted for a while. "Senior." She said to me: "He can see you, and he will have no regrets after leaving Taiwan." "He can know you in Taiwan, so he feels that he will die without regret." I asked him, "Isn't it? "That's right." He laughed loudly, "You really are writing novels." She felt a little embarrassed and tugged on his sleeve. I only have one book left, and I plan to give it to them. When I sign the book, I ask them whose name will be inscribed on the book? The two pushed each other to sign each other's names. "Then put both names on it," I said. Then I wrote: forever united, forever in love, never give up, never... "Senior." She said with a smile, "It's ok." "Come on." I said. "I will," he replied. "Yeah." She nodded. They thanked again and left. Two months after they left, I finally finished writing. Many novel authors like to dedicate their novels to certain people. I seldom do this, because I am worried that if the writing is not good, it will hurt the people whose works I dedicate. But if you think it's okay to write, I'd love to dedicate it to someone. It is dedicated to the group of college students sitting on the low wall on the streets of Beijing in the afternoon and shaking their legs leisurely, the four mainland exchange students who did not forget to bid farewell to me before leaving, and a male and a female graduate student who always have a shy smile. There are also people who remain pure in their hearts no matter in any time and space background. Cai Zhiheng in Tainan in September 2007