Chapter 26 Summer is Collapsing - Section 26: Withered bonsai, or the truth (Part 2)

Summer is Collapsing - Section 26: Withered bonsai, or the truth (Part 2) Cheng Jianguo left his son Chengcheng and his wife to look for Shen Yi. Originally, he wanted to spend a year to find Shen Yi in Shanghai. He just wanted to talk to Shen Yi about the whole matter. He explained everything clearly, and he didn't know what had happened over the years, whether Shen Yi still remembered him, his sudden disappearance, whether she was struggling to find him, or whether she was still married and had a child. But he searched for a whole ten years. During the ten years, he forgot his family and the marriage full of deceit. In fact, he was trying to force himself to forget, until finally he completely forgot. .In the end, Cheng Jianguo ran to the police station again and again, and finally found Shen Yi through his friends in the police station.Her appearance has changed, and it is completely different from the appearance of a girl, but it does not affect her charm. In the winter three years ago, she wore a basic beige trench coat, narrow-leg pants and stilettos to open Urumqi North Road The Iron Gate of No. 28.Seeing Cheng Jianguo, she was surprised, but she didn't let him in, but went out to have dinner with him. That night, she ran home once, sitting in the middle of the room in a daze, and in the middle of the night Still ran out and did not return all night.

In fact, back then, Shen Yi also wrote letters to Cheng Jianguo, but his parents withheld them, and he never saw those letters.When Shen Yi returned to Shanghai, she already had a child in her womb, and her grandmother ordered her to get rid of it, thinking that this kind of indecent behavior would make outsiders look down upon her. If she refused, she would definitely give birth to the child in her womb. , and even threatened to commit suicide, the last person hid in the house of his girlfriend who was out of town, gave birth to Shen Han, and then returned to Shanghai and began to live alone with the child.

Shen Yi started dating Cheng Jianguo, but she never told him about her family. Cheng Jianguo always thought she was a woman who already had a husband and children, so, except for the first time they met, even if he had How reluctant to let her go, never staying overnight with her, Shen Yi always thought that he was single, but occasionally found a small family photo from the bottom of his wallet, which must have been forgotten by him. And at the end of the spring of that year, Shen Yi was pregnant again. Although she kept it from her grandmother, she was discovered by her grandmother when she vomited in the toilet. When she was forced to ask her, she refused to say whose child it was, and her grandmother locked her in the pavilion. Inside, she was not allowed to go out all day long, and the telephone line in the house was unplugged, and she was asked to kill the child in her stomach. Grandma also brought Shen Han to him since she was a child. , she can no longer let this happen.And at this time, it happened that Cheng Jianguo was sent by the company to Japan for training for two months. He arrived at Shen Yi's house just before he left, but was sent away by his grandmother and told her that Shen Yi had already gone to Beijing, and he would not Goodbye him.Cheng Jianguo thought it was Shen Yiyi's anger, so he wanted to wait until he came back from Japan before looking for her.

And because Shen Yi was pregnant with a child, she was locked up in the pavilion by her grandmother all day long. She escaped through the window several times to find Cheng Jianguo, but she didn't get any news. She said she went to Japan, and said she would never come back again. .She was desperate, and finally compromised with her grandmother, saying that she would let her out, that she would kill the child, and never see Cheng Jianguo again.After that, she searched alone for more than two weeks, and the pregnancy reaction was also causing her pain and unbearable pain. In this desperate situation, she once again thought of suicide. In fact, after giving birth to Shen Han, she wanted to die many times , but the child was too young. Shen Han was fifteen years old that year. She jumped off the roof of the elementary school next door and died together with the child in her stomach. She had been waiting for this death for fifteen years.

Seeing this, the diary came to an abrupt end. Grandma’s eyes were blinded by tears in the summer of that year, and she never wrote a diary again. Sometimes, she might just take out these papers and flip through them. Grandma definitely doesn't want Shen Han to know about these things about her mother. She wants to protect her daughter and her grandson. And the page spread out on the table was written by grandma on the night of her death. Her hand, which had not held a pen for three years, was a little trembling, because she couldn't see it, and the words she wrote were all based on groping and shaking. I wrote a few lines of barely decipherable words:

Xiaohan, the house will belong to you in the future, and you will have the money to go abroad after selling it. Your mother has always wanted you to do so. In fact, Mr. Cheng once came back to look for you. He didn’t know you were a son until he saw you at the entrance of the alley. He is undoubtedly your father. It’s been difficult for you these few years. You can go back and look for him. I will remember the phone number It's in my phone book, you just need to dig it out. Xiaohan, grandma is very helpless in many things, you are not easy, forgive grandma. The morning Shen Han read all these loose-leaf papers, he drew the curtains of his grandmother's room, opened the window, and all the clear summer air outside poured in, mixed with the familiar smell of fried dough sticks and sweet soy milk since childhood.He doesn't need a phone anymore, even his father is dead, he died holding his own black notebook, with his mother's name written all over it, what else can be explored, perhaps until three years later, he didn't know that his mother had already died He died three years ago, and when his search lost its direction, his life was meaningless, and he could only continue to follow if he chose to commit suicide.

This is the truth. Shen Han spent nearly twenty years of his teenage years struggling to get close to it in a dark tunnel. When he got close, he also found that it was meaningless. His mother, father, and grandma left him one after another. Go, and his boyhood has already landed straight at an unknown moment, and there is nowhere to pursue it. On this day, Shen Han held his grandmother's urn, and sat on a long-distance bus with strange relatives, and went back to the countryside to be buried. Grandma grew up in the countryside, and fled to Shanghai by boat from there during the Anti-Japanese War. There were exploding shells all over the world, and then pretended to be a lunatic in the mental hospital in the concession, escaped one calamity after another, and now finally went back again.Shen Han smelled the countryside outside from the open car window. He walked at the front of the line, with the sound of monks chanting sutras and relatives crying behind him.Only then did he feel that the countless summers in his memory of growing up had become dim, and his vision gradually became blurred until he was out of sight, could no longer hear what they were talking about, and would never come back.

That night, he caught the last long-distance bus back to Shanghai.Late at night, when the iron gate was opened, the smell of incense still lingered for a long time, and the bonsai in the courtyard had completely withered.