Chapter 15 Summer is Collapsing - Chapter 15: Ferris Wheel of Sadness (Part 1)

Summer is Collapsing - Chapter 15: Ferris Wheel of Sadness (Part 1) Ding Chengcheng began to work in Er Qiao's car dealership, which was in the distant Yangpu District, and Ding Chengcheng went there to help him. He couldn't repair the car, so he worked as a helper nearby, because he could. He sees a lot of motorcycles of various models that come to be repaired every day, so even if the wages are a little less, he doesn't care.There is a little green lark scattered in the garage, walking around on the ground when he has nothing to do, and Ding Chengcheng smells the smell of engine oil and feels very full. Seeing the inside of the small tool room He was also excited when he was filled with all kinds of parts. Several times when the master was away, he took out the helmets sold in the window, put them on, and clasped his head tightly so that his ears could hardly hear any sound. , The things seen in his eyes suddenly lost their color and stretched forward. He knew that he was restraining a desire, and he buried this desire deeply in his body, and took a root tightly.

It’s like standing on the other side of the road looking at the window of an extreme goods store, an acquaintance suddenly stood up and waved to him, gesturing for him to pass, but he couldn’t get through, and the cars on the road passed in front of him one after another. Ding Chengcheng took a step forward, and a motorcycle brushed past his body. The road seemed to be dark all of a sudden, because the street lights suddenly turned on. The car lights are connected from the beginning to the end, and you can’t see the end. When the city is busy in the past, the traffic lights can only flicker as if they are completely useless. The lights were turned on, the lights in the window were on, and the skateboard was also illuminated. The young people who had gathered at the door just now seemed to have entered the store, and the person who waved to him was gone.

Ding Chengcheng was very frustrated, he felt that he was slowly losing a function, gradually becoming disabled, and could no longer fly. In the early morning after the rainstorm, the air was so cold that Ding Chengcheng felt like he had disappeared from the city.In the dimness, I heard the sound of trucks approaching rumblingly. It seemed to be a few streets away. Those trucks lined up in a long line, one after another came in and left endlessly, and then it became quiet, a little There was no sound, no one, and the trucks lined up and drove away, becoming silent.Ding Chengcheng woke up from this silent dream, so he couldn't fall asleep again, and the morning still didn't pass.The moving truck stopped with a thud, and the sound of several brakes came and went, and soon there was a chorus of voices, the sound of commanding and moving furniture mixed with the sound of brushing teeth in the alley in the morning, and the sound of the collision of enamel washbasins, it was almost endless, so Ding Chengcheng got up and saw several moving trucks parked two streets away, rusty refrigerators, stacked washbasins, red embroidered quilts for dowry, and old-fashioned modular furniture , the last few men came out of the narrow alley carrying a big bed staggeringly.

The first relocation of old houses has already started. My mother dragged Ding Chengcheng to Xinzhuang to look at the house. It was a neat two-bedroom and one living room. The living room faced south. I had to take the subway to the last stop. When the subway reached the last few stops, the carriage slowly floated to the ground. Coming up, like a train going to a foreign land, Ding Chengcheng saw the huge Ferris wheel of Jinjiang Paradise spinning alone.He thought of his father again. When he was a child, his father took him here. At that time, there was no such a big Ferris wheel, only a very small old one, but when he sat in it and turned to the top, he was still surprised. He opened his mouth wide.Back, when he came out of the subway station, Ding Chengcheng lit a cigarette on the road, but his mother didn't say anything, just glanced at him, then turned away and said nothing, so it was Ding Chengcheng who smoked in front of his mother The first cigarette, he felt very soft in his heart, and felt extremely soft when he exhaled the smoke, as softly as the wind of this summer evening, blowing through the clean collar of his T-shirt.Carrying her mother home on a bicycle, she hummed softly behind her. This is the joy and relaxation that her mother has rarely seen in recent years. She told Ding Chengcheng that the room facing south is for him, and he will go to Buy a big sofa and a comfortable bed.

Ding Chengcheng still went to look for Keke, because he saw the Ferris wheel and thought of his father. Ever since he drove Ke Ke out of the attic in that furious evening, he never looked for her again, but his thoughts grew day by day. When Ding Chengcheng saw Ke Ke, the first thing he said was: "Shall we go ride the Ferris wheel?" Ke Ke was stopped by him at the door of the house, and he felt that he refused flatly and unreasonably. Ding Chengcheng grabbed her arm and said, "I don't have a father!! I lied because, I don't have a father, there is nothing Fucking bastard sailor father!!" Ke Ke stopped, and Ding Chengcheng continued, from yelling to muttering: "My father left me when I was young, no, he abandoned me and me Mom, he never came back, and I don’t know where he is. When I was young, a boy without a father was looked down upon by others, so I said that my father was a sailor. Others believed in me, envied me, and liked to be with me Together, listen to me tell those nonsense stories." Ding Chengcheng said this in a hurry, this was the first time he told the truth in front of others, and it was a girl, Keke listened silently Then, after listening to his speech, he silently leaned his face on his shoulder and said, "Let's go ride the Ferris wheel, now."

Jinjiang Paradise is already very dilapidated, all the amusement equipment has fallen off the paint, there are only a few tourists, and there is such a big deviation from the memory of childhood, the torrents there are rushing forward, and the monorails have already shown their relatives. From the looks of it, nothing is more evocative than a dilapidated playground. They all remember sitting in a small boat and rushing down from the top of the rapids when they were young, splashing happy water droplets all over their bodies. There were only the two of them on the entire Ferris wheel, sitting side by side in a hanging basket that swayed from side to side, slowly rising, the ground was getting farther and farther away, the monorail, the rapids, and the wooden horse were all slowly leaving. go.Ke Ke remembered that at home, every time she came home, she was worried about whether her father had left. Her now fragile heart, after Ding Chengcheng's words just now, suddenly got close to him. so close.The gray city seen in the distance, the workshops, the criss-crossing streets, the viaduct, the Suzhou Creek, everything is gray and moving.When Ding Chengcheng saw the small broken Ferris wheel, it was still spinning, and now it looked like a toy. He thought that when he was young, he opened his mouth in surprise in it.It is getting higher and higher, the wind is strong, and the whole hanging basket is shaking. If you want to come here on a stormy night, the whole city is already dark. And life is so fragile.

Ke Ke said: "I still remember the first time I saw you, I was standing at the door of the hospital smoking, you were carried off the ambulance on a stretcher, and there was a girl running around you in a panic." "But when I saw you for the first time, you were standing on the podium, wearing that lake green printed skirt, smoking a cigarette, and smiling at me from far away." Ding Chengcheng said. "Hehe, you're lying again. I've never worn a skirt like that and smoked on the podium. But what about the girl running beside you?" "She disappeared, and I couldn't find her after I was discharged from the hospital."

When they were about to reach the top, Ke Ke and Ding Chengcheng's hands slowly touched each other, they turned their faces, kissed lightly, and left quickly.Ke Ke quickly thought of David, and it flashed before her eyes.And this is not love. They descended slowly, and groups of buildings slowly rushed towards the eyes, much like a dream I had in my adolescence three years ago, falling, falling continuously, so slowly, touching the ground. When I touched my face, I woke up suddenly. When they went home, Ding Chengcheng held Ke Ke's hand, came out of Jinjiang Park, sat in the subway, crossed the road, walked, and sat, they all held hands.They seemed to have walked a long way, and their palms were sweating because of the heat, but no one was willing to let go, just pulling, sometimes shaking gently.How much Coco hopes that the boy who kissed her on the Ferris wheel can save her from the predicament, yes, she is in the predicament, she wants to fall in love with someone again, and be brave again, so that she can completely get rid of David's life. Forget about the little hurt you caused.

At the entrance of the Four Seasons New Village, Ke Ke saw a familiar figure beside the rouge shop from a long distance away, a figure that made her heart warm, Xiao Qiao, Xiao Qiao was wearing a white suspender dress, barefoot wearing those red high-heeled shoes, All the people around are different, those shoes made her so beautiful that it was almost unreal, Keke felt a little bit sad, then Shen Han came, he finally came, and gave the high heels to Xiaoqiao , and Xiaoqiao has already worn it on her feet.Xiaoqiao bought an ice cream in the rouge shop, slowly peeled off the paper, leaned against the sycamore tree next to the rouge shop and licked it, looking around, she was waiting for cocoa.

Ke Ke waved to her, and pulled Ding Chengcheng to walk in front of Xiao Qiao. Although there seemed to be a lot of distance between the two of them these days, and they couldn't be separated, she was eager to share her happiness with Xiao Qiao, sweetly, like Like the tiny flowers of the privet tree, it bloomed quietly, but as she got closer, she saw Xiaoqiao suddenly lowered her head, and the ice cream in her hand fell to the ground and turned into a puddle of white slush.Without thinking too much, Ke Ke walked up to her, hugged her shoulders intimately, and said: "Xiaoqiao, this is Ding Chengcheng."

"Oh, we know each other. We attended a physics cram school." Xiaoqiao tried her best not to look at Ding Chengcheng, but she also didn't want to look at Keke. The figure and eyes of Keke who disappeared in a hurry that night made her heart ache. Shrinking into a small hard rock again, she lowered her head, pretending to be indifferent and asked, "So, how are you all doing?" But it was funny, her right hand was still in Ding Chengcheng's palm.But she suddenly saw Xiaoqiao turned her head away, and for a moment their eyes met, and Xiaoqiao's eyes were full of anxiety, sadness, jealousy and slight anger, they all looked down at the puddle that melted on the ground In the slush, a small army of ants is slowly crawling over. Coco suddenly remembered that one night more than a month ago, before the pizzeria closed, she and Xiaoqiao were sitting in the corner behind the counter eating pumpkin cake and fruit pudding. Xiaoqiao said that she recently fell in love with a boy, and that boy The child passes by the crossroads in front of the pizzeria every day. He looks as sensitive and gentle as a rabbit. She remembered her first date on Ding Chengcheng's People's Square. When the red light passed, I turned my head and glanced at the pizzeria where Xiaoqiao worked, and the neon lights suddenly dimmed. No, Keke couldn't help moaning in his heart, it was Ding Chengcheng, and the boy Xiaoqiao had a crush on was Ding Chengcheng. Ke Ke remembered Xiao Qiao's expression when she said that, her face was dark pink behind the counter with the lights off, shining brightly, she silently pulled her hand out of Ding Chengcheng's palm, crossed it behind her back, Xiao Qiao She left first, and Ke Ke followed her into the Four Seasons New Village. The new village was filled with the smell of rice and fried octopus. They walked back and forth, and Ke Ke saw Xiao Qiao walking into the corridor of her house. The sound of high heels hitting the ground slowly disappeared in the shadows.Why this time, repeat the same mistakes again. She was so close to Ding Chengcheng just now, and the ferris wheel and the ground were so far away from them, so it had nothing to do with them. So Coco decided not to see Ding Chengcheng again. Ke Ke had only Xiao Qiao as a girlfriend during this long period of adolescence. She felt sad, and when she got farther and farther away from Xiao Qiao, it was also a real feeling of broken love, as if she was suddenly forced to She tore off the bond of growth and pushed her into a hard world.In fact, sometimes, Ke Ke is so jealous of Xiao Qiao, she has a perfect family, her mother is kind and kind, her father dotes on her tacitly, she has never been in a quarrel, calm, has a boy Silently liked her for so many years.Coco wants to share, wants to steal everything from her, such sinful thoughts pop up in Coco's heart from time to time, but when the two of them are together, it seems that there are only two of them in this world. so calm, Ke Ke still remembers being dumped by David for the first time, she vomited on the toilet of Xiao Qiao's house alone, Xiao Qiao knocked on the door outside, and said, "Ke Ke, open the door, it's okay, everything will be fine , it’s just the two of us, it’s just the two of us here, it doesn’t matter, everything will be fine.” Ke Ke stopped answering Ding Chengcheng's calls, she forgot everything that happened on the Ferris wheel that afternoon, it was too far from the ground, everything was just an illusion.