Chapter 20 Chapter 7 Panic Wang Haiyan (3)

Chapter 7 Panic Wang Haiyan (3) There was a deep, deep withdrawal in his posture.I looked at him despondently, reluctant to look away—I felt hopeless.From these distances, I couldn't see him clearly.The sun was burning in my eyes, and that small flame burned all the way to my heart, and my whole body might turn into a piece of coke at any time. It seemed a long time ago, when, also in this place, by this river, I could see him and hear him completely and clearly.But now, by the same river, facing the same person, everything has changed—I can't see him clearly, can't see clearly.I don't seem to know him at all, and have never known him.I called him, but he didn't answer; I stretched out my hand, and he put it tightly in his pocket; I walked towards him, and he immediately stepped back, back, back...

Now there is no way for him to go back and no way for me to go in, it will be completely over and irreversible. The river flows endlessly, and the silt that settles to the bottom will never move again-this is the complete end.How stubborn and strong I used to be, I tried desperately to hold on to him and see him clearly, but I couldn't do it.Water is always water, if you hold it in your hand, it will gurgle away; if you hold it tightly, it will flow more quickly - water will always flow away.I held the university tightly like a rock, but Qin Yu drained the last drop like water. "Qin Yu," I said bravely, "come back with me for the exam."

I can't help but have to give it a try.Even if he is too far away to come back, I will bring him back to the examination room. "Qin Yu, be more realistic. Go back, it will be too late—this is your exam, Qin Yu, Qin Yu!" He didn't move, didn't turn his head, and his muffled voice seemed to come from the back of his head: "It's already late, isn't it?" I took a step forward and stared at him—he didn't move.Countless little hopes awakened in my heart in an instant, I thought he would not retreat, maybe I could pull him back. "Qin Yu, hurry up. Think about it carefully, why did you come here? You have already been punished, and you have to fight to revoke the punishment record. Okay, Qin Yu? I'll take you back, I'll take you Go back. Everything will be fine. No one will blame you, as long as you go back and start the exam, nothing will happen - okay? Okay, Qin Yu?"

There was silence all around, and the violent sunlight melted all sounds.I don't care about worries anymore, and I don't care about panic anymore. Under such a clear blue sky, my worries and panics are just pieces of paper that have been hidden underground for a long time and will finally see the light for a moment. Concealed, my worries and panics frankly made no sense.The early summer breeze blows the leaves, and intermittently sends out bursts of nervous whispers. Apart from the whispers, there is a blank silence all around; .I wanted to talk again, even if I called him again, but I didn't have the courage anymore.I have been wrestling with the panic in my heart, and the more intense this paradoxical battle is, the greater my courage will be—just now at the critical moment of the fight, I suddenly burst out with an unreasonable force, knowing that I will definitely lose, I made the last, most intense, and most powerless resistance, like a fish that is about to jump into the water, but only jumped a few times half-dead on the ground, and finally died in the fishy wetness emitted by itself. Middle—I can’t move now, I was still struggling with the desire to stop a few minutes ago, and now I am completely powerless: powerless to Qin Yu, powerless to myself, powerless to the passing time, powerless to dying emotions—— Once the panic breaks through the ground, it grows into an unshakable towering tree-it has been suppressed for too long.

silence.silence.Still still-- "Long, hurry up and help me die—" I suddenly heard this sharp voice, and couldn't help shivering—it was a woman on the other side of the river, clapping her slippers and slapping Walking in circles, like a trapped animal.I couldn't see her expression clearly, nor could I see her posture clearly. I could only hear her isolated voice, which couldn't be reconciled with the silence, roar again sharply: "Die out—quickly die out! . . . "