Chapter 151 I wrestle with God

At that time, I was interested in my life, not in diseases. If I was interested in diseases all day long, how could I see so many girls in a year.I suffer because of girls.So I didn't know much about the disease at that time, and the feeling of disdain always showed my determination to cure the disease.People think that your life is very painful, but I want to show others that my life is colorful. Is it more fun than usual? One operation, two chest punctures, three bone punctures, four chemotherapy sessions, five hospital transfers, six critical illnesses, seven vomiting blood, empty head for eight months, narrow escape, very happy!After several months of treatment, I really didn't feel that I was strong all the way down.Of course the process was painful, but in order to be able to publicize and show off these glorious histories to others in the future, I endured it.I like to laugh and play at any time. I am like this when I am normal. In the most difficult stage, I still write, read books, watch movies, and do what I want, because I already have my own way of life, code of conduct, Wherever I go, I want to build my life well.But because of the background of illness, it seems to outsiders to feel tragic.I was quite comfortable lying there, and they would hold my hand with tears in their eyes and say, "Son, can you hold on? What a good boy! God is not fair!" I think God is fair, almost After a month, how much knowledge I have gained!What an eye-opener!How many things have you done!How many people do you know!What a wonderful memory!

Also, I am a person with a lot of skills.If I'm a boring person, only sickness can attract them, how boring, I have other ways to attract girls.I wrestle with God. When I was a child, I felt that people were going to die for a while, and I cried for a long time at that time.Then I was busy with other things.If you are going to die, then think about what regrets you have in living until now.I think back to the 14 years of living vigorously, wonderfully and wonderfully, without any regrets. So far, I have been very happy, very exciting, and very free.And why people are afraid of the dark is because they don’t know what they will meet in front of them or what will happen after they die. I really don’t have any imagination in this regard.There was a program saying that cancer is an incurable disease, so what about the incurable disease, did you just stop treating it?Then do it well according to the treatment plan, and I will go on thinking about girls.I don't think what's wrong, if I know the way to go, I have no fear at all.

God wants to give mankind a golden tumor as a gift. The timid person is afraid that he will not be able to bear it, and the strong person will end up with tedious persistence and no fun, so he chose to give it to me, and I will be more capable. Resisting can also create a lot of aftertaste. It is my mother who has to work harder to write so many things in one year.I experience and express.I once made a wish to God to make my life full of legends, God was really obedient, not only made my birth and growth process dramatic, but also made me live in the hospital twice in three years, which is also considered a legend.

But when I got sick, I didn't think of the legend, I was just panting. When I got sick, there were two things that made me proud. One was that I walked out of the class, and the other was that I left the school lying down.A few days ago, I watched "Half the Sky" about a woman who had cancer. The program praised her rare spirit of smiling on the operating table.I looked at it with disapproval, all my photos are all smiling, although, usually people imagine that cancer will be cured. In the operating room, the doctors put a drip on my foot, which I guess made me fall asleep.The blinding lights were overhead, and they asked me to say something more, so I recited When you are old.In hindsight, if I died on the operating table, the last thing I would do in my glorious life would be to recite poems!I have never regarded my feelings as noble, just stories without endings.This is very natural in youth, and youth should be enjoyed well.