Chapter 79 leisurely leisurely (1)

(I wrote a fragment on December 17, 2004 and started to go all out at the end of January 2005) At the beginning of one of his semi-autobiographical films, the American comedy director Woody Allen first broke the barrier of the silver screen, the inherent relationship between the actors and the audience, and told two jokes to the camera as if no one was there to explain his attitude towards life .Once, everyone was studying in the morning, and I was suddenly very excited. I felt that the sky was clear and the people were happy and healthy. You shouted to Chaochao who was sitting in front of me and was studying: "Chaochao, I really like you!" Now I want to write about my girlfriends, but how to start? Then let me use this story to describe How do you "love" a girl?

On the second day of my illness (March 25, 2004), when I was admitted to the China-Japan Friendship Hospital and was waiting for an extra bed in the ward outside the corridor, Xiaoyun called in a hurry. I can’t remember exactly what I said to her at that time, because time is tight, and I just reported my illness (in fact, it seems that I still don’t know much about my illness).That Saturday, at noon on March 27, the teacher led Ma Bo, Wang Zhao, Lianlian, Xiaoyun, and Chaochao to come, which was the first important diplomatic event.I put on my father's pants, went out to eat with everyone, and looked at the photos taken at the entrance of the hospital. Among all the people, only Xiaoyun and I had weird expressions. I don't know what happened at that time.

Needless to say the details of the meal, anyway, I am the least able to order food, and because I have already eaten in the hospital, I only have the appetite to drink tea slowly, and I have no interest in seeing the table full of boiled fish and other delicious dishes.There was laughter and laughter in the seat, and I was still happy as usual, but how could I guess the thoughts of Xiaoyun sitting next to me? The human heart is really a strange thing, no matter how close I am to the other party, I can’t hear her at all Heartfelt.When we parted, I shook hands with every girl, and I started my "delusion of intimate contact" with girls.

In the composition essay titled "Caring for Others, Caring for Life" handed to the teacher by Xiaoyun later, she wrote: "I really don't know where to start, everything is like a dream, it's unbelievable. In the morning Ziyou, who was still alive and kicking, was lying in the hospital ward in the afternoon. After examination, he had a tumor in his chest. The news came so suddenly that no one could accept it. I returned to the dormitory the next afternoon and told him I called and chatted with him, but I felt that he seemed to be fine and optimistic. He has always been like this, so I felt a little relieved. As long as his own emotions are stable, the subsequent treatment will be fine. It was relatively smooth. On weekends, he and some of his friends followed Mr. Peng to visit the China-Japan Friendship Hospital. He was wearing a hospital gown, but I found that he had grown taller, probably because he lost weight! He is in good spirits, but still very weak, his arms are as thin as the squad leader, which makes it unbearable to watch. When we chatted and laughed with him, he was still dancing, but when we were about to leave and shake hands with him, I found his My hands were skinny and my heart was sore. Looking at the back of him and his mother leaving, I silently said to him: You must be strong, and everyone is waiting for you to come back." This composition was moved to the International Medical Department on April 2 , when I was about to start chemotherapy, the teacher gave it to me, Xiaoyun was still a little reluctant, and every time the classmates in the class came to see me, she was basically indispensable.

Xiaoyun also said in that composition: "Among the girls, I am Ziyou's best friend. We usually sit together to tease, or chat and tell jokes. He is sick now, of course we care about him. Although we are not related by blood, but friendship is better than family affection, I believe he is strong, and he will come back to us.” This is very interesting, she did not say, among the boys, I am her best friend, but I dare to say boldly that she is my best friend among girls.Why did I say that? Of course, I was in this situation at the time, but our relationship was not quite like a friend relationship. If anyone became friends with her, it would be too pitiful and would have to die.She can only be regarded as the girl I was most attracted to at the time.

My mother is trying to rescue me, and it is too urgent to describe it; my ward is "a different kind of quiet fragrance, full of spring in the garden". On the afternoon of March 28, all my primary school friends came to see me, and it was a great time.Everyone takes turns playing with the wheelchair in the hospital corridor.I also fed Sissy cake.She is a tall, cheerful girl, which I like the most.Since I was in middle school, my classmates in elementary school were far away from each other. I also practiced taekwondo with her. Naturally, she was qualified to compete abroad, while I was too tired to crawl all over the ground. After practicing a few times, I couldn’t avoid it. Longlong, a friend who was in high school at the High School Attached to Peking University, met Qianxi. They became friends and both love Taekwondo.