Chapter 35 Xiaoyun (3)

One day, on our way to the cafeteria, Marble and I were talking about Xiaoyun walking in front of us.Mo Bo felt that her face was too pale, with only a few traces of blood on it.Suddenly, I had a sudden inspiration and said two lines of poetry in an instant.The speed and quality of its creation made me not admire the saying that there is really inspiration in the world. Later, I wanted to add the last two sentences, but they were too tricky and gorgeous. Only these two sentences are true and natural: your face is like a withered rose, A whisper is like clear spring water. Later I showed this poem to Xiaoyun, she was still the same, she smiled and didn't express any thoughts of her own.This makes me feel a little lost.In front of her, even a timid person can become a writer and poet.Like me, I want to say a lot.I've never written poetry to a girl, but I can't help writing it for her.This is not showing off, more because I have regarded her as my friend --- the most intimate friend.My feelings for her are so pure that I dare to tell her anything without hiding anything.And it all stems from her willingness to listen.I'm afraid no one in the class can do this, boys can't, even if a girl is friends with her, it still feels different compared to the boys who recognize her as a friend, which is different from the boys in the class who like her.I have heard a lot about the self-mutilation behavior of some boys in the class in order to pursue her, and I feel very disapproving.Xiao Yun would not like such a boy.This kind of love is too crazy, too irrational.It obscures many truths and makes lovers lose their way.But I take her as a painting, a fiery statue to touch and listen to.I admire her so much, no matter what good or bad things she does, she has charm on her.Because of these charms, she is a whole person, a lovely and unique girl.

Later, for a period of time, I changed my seat and was transferred to another place, and I was eager to return to the original place.I have been fascinated by the experience of interacting with Puff and Xiaoyun, but I will be separated after all.This made me lament for a long time, low back endlessly.After I stopped sitting with Xiaoyun, I suddenly didn't want to talk to her, didn't dare to think about her anymore, and felt very troubled.Ma Bo once told me that Xiaoyun asked him, what happened to Ziyou?Did you make him angry? Why didn't you even want to look at her more?I don't know if Xiaoyun told Ma Bo this, after all, I was too unconfident, I couldn't believe Xiaoyun could ask such a question.I don't need Xiaoyun to think about me. I hope she will always be a distant mirage in my heart. As long as she is here, no matter whether it really exists or not, I am satisfied.Of course, people's aesthetic views are not fixed.I really believed she was beautiful during that time when we were sitting together and "bonding", and then once we were separated I thought she was not so beautiful again.I always think her face seems a little fat, too bloated.Why!This aesthetic should not be taken too seriously, and it has a lot to do with the feelings in my heart.

I would love to have an appropriate title for this essay, one that would nicely summarize her characteristics.But I found that no matter how many words I have, I can't say her.Because she is not an ordinary woman.She is mysterious and unpredictable, and few people can keep their minds calm after seeing her childish eyes with mixed temperament of ice and fire.She is always so poised, we are so naive in front of her, like ignorant urchins, but she can always deal with us happily.No matter how "tricky" we asked any questions, she answered without any concealment or concern.Yes!What worries does she need in front of us immature children?The only time I saw her acting like a naive girl was when Qin Chi wanted to read a letter from her. Xiaoyun hurriedly snatched the letter from Qin Chi as if her big secret had been discovered, showing a shy look in her panic look, with a slightly complaining smile.It was the moment of this flustered expression that I woke up.For such a long time, it's too mythical about her, as if she doesn't have the shy emotions that a little girl should have, like Guanyin Bodhisattva, but in fact, she is also a human being, an ordinary little girl.But she is so ordinary and so extraordinary, like a smiling angel who is always watching you and following you in the sky, always so far away, always giving people fantasy.