Chapter 46 19.wind of heaven

want to give to my loved one Sanshun suddenly misses the man he once had a haircut with. I want to keep liking you, keep loving you, Only then will I be happy. why am i here In the bus driving on the bumpy road, Sanshun and Daoying are both recalling the same past. "Okay, I want to say hello to all the passengers who are traveling to the beautiful Jeju Island. Now, I want to tell you about the Halla Mountain that I will climb. It is 1,215 meters high and is called the city plate of the peak of the city. Yue is one of the parasitic volcanoes separated from the Tertiary to the Quaternary in the Cenozoic Era, with Tuchiyue to the west and Lunguyue to the south..."

The lengthy introduction of the tour guide of the sightseeing car, Sanshun went in one ear and out the other.The sudden impulse made Sanshun fly to Jeju Island last night. She slept and woke up all night and didn't sleep well. In fact, not only last night, Sanshun hasn't been able to sleep well recently.She thought it was over, but it couldn't be, all because of the same man. Sanshun turned on the cell phone that had been turned off since seeing him last time, stared blankly, and read the text messages that he had read dozens of times last night. ——I said you.I know you are angry.But don't you think it's too childish?

——I am sulking all by myself.listen to me o —Hey, Kim Sam Soon! And this last text message.Not only these words, but also his voice, which was impossible to hear: "Kim Sam Soon, did you put some strange medicine in my cake? I can't see you, but your traces are everywhere. I, I'm really lonely right now." When the ex-boyfriend who dated Sanshun fell in love with another woman, he once said to Sanshun: Love is in the heart, like the sound of playing the piano, like a bell ringing in the heart.But it turned out that she saw her ex-boyfriend lying again. But the love that Sanshun feels now is not the sound made by playing the piano, let alone the sound made by the clock.Love is in a man's heart, and she could feel it in his voice.The voice of love is the voice that says you will be lonely if you don't see me, it is the voice that says you can't see me but there are traces of me everywhere.

Because I can't see it, but my traces are everywhere.Sanshun could understand what this monster-like man said.Because I can't see it, I want to see it more.So was Sanshun, although she tried her best to pretend otherwise.But she was probably lying to herself. On the morning when I delivered food to you, I saw what you called a farewell ceremony with that woman.At that time, I was so angry that I even felt scared, and my heart hurt like being torn apart.It felt like going to hell.I thought I was the only one who felt that way, but when I thought about what you said to me the last time I saw you, it seemed like I wasn't the only one who felt that way.

——If it is hell.I have also been there.all because of you.Because of you foolish woman! Because it will get some comfort? No, I don't know! It's true what I said to you "I don't know."When I told my sister that I wanted to like you, I was really tired. I really wanted to stop loving. What a shame for a man like you. Thinking of the lies you told me, I wanted to believe it, but I couldn’t. .Alone, my heart is suffering, I think, I must look ridiculous and desolate at that time.Love is so tiring, I really don't know if I want to continue loving or end it. At that time when his thoughts were chaotic, Sanshun saw in a trance that a girl was staring at Halla Mountain in Jeju Island on the TV screen. Then, she stood on Jeju Island looking at the mountain, and he once said to himself appeared on the screen. past words:

--one day.I saw that mountain on TV by chance.Suddenly had such an idea.If I can climb to the top of that mountain.I can really live well. He said that if he can climb that mountain, he will have the courage to live a good life, so what about me? If I climb that mountain, can I continue to love? I am old and fat Yes, I have failed love experiences, can I still eat well and live well? No matter who can climb the mountain that is said to be the closest to heaven, it is possible to make a decision, so Sanshun wants to climb that mountain. "Go ahead and climb up step by step and make a decision up there."

With such determination, Sanshun embarked on the road to Jeju Island.The mother who had slapped herself tenderly sent her daughter away who didn't know why she had to take a plane at night.Before leaving, the mother opened the purse, which she had never opened in her life, and handed the money to her daughter. "Mom, I'm sorry, I thought you hated me all the time, woo woo." The mother said only one word to her weeping daughter: "Well, fool, wipe away your tears and snot, and let's go." In this way, Sanshun plucked up the courage to fly to Jeju Island.After a whole day of sightseeing on the second day of arrival, the station wagon finally took people to the entrance of Halla Mountain.The voice of the tour guide did not stop all the way.

"In the past, there were Alimu Road, Mausoleum Road, Shengpan'e Road, and Guanyin Temple Road, but now, the only mountain roads that can be climbed are Shengpan'e Road. It takes nine hours to go back and forth from here. This road is for skilled It is perfect for experienced people, but this is the most tiring way." Skilled and experienced? Sanshun is neither skilled nor experienced.I don’t know if this is the tour guide’s words to scare people. Sanshun was a little intimidated, but she stopped thinking about it immediately, took out the Walkman she brought, and stuffed it into her ears! With the determination to go, she started This is the first mountain climbing trip in my life.

"Climb up one footprint after another. Zhang Daoying, who had injured his leg, also climbed up. It is impossible for Jin Sanshun, who has two healthy legs, to climb up. No matter what, the tour guide must have exaggerated." The last, most important and core part of the advice of the tour guide was ignored. "Don't climb up without knowing anything. There is nothing on the top of the mountain except Bailutan without water. Every year, there are people who don't listen to me. As a result, a search team has to be sent up the mountain to look for it. Every car has a Two..."

Twenty minutes later, people saw that a girl began to climb the mountain in order to see Bailutan without water. After climbing for two hours, Sanshun finally tasted something he had never tasted in his life.She felt pain in her flanks, and her legs seemed to weigh a lot. "First, Zhang Daoying thought about fifty times more difficulties than Sanshun before going up the mountain. "Second, the mountain road he climbed was not as dangerous as this one. "Third, for Sanshun, who is not as physically strong as ordinary people, it is difficult to climb Halla Mountain for the first time."

This is the fact that Sanshun didn't know until he went down the mountain. I heard that in Jeju Island, wind, women and stones are the most.No, on the entire mountain, there is not even a flat land the size of a palm, how could it be possible to create so many with such sharp stones—it is simply densely packed with caves.Also, how can these people next to them climb up as fast as they are walking on flat ground.I used to think that I can stand in the kitchen for more than ten hours a day, and I am not weak in terms of physical strength.Now it seems that thinking like this is completely wrong. It has been two hours since I entered the mountain, and Sanshun feels pain all over her body. She has the appearance of being in her twenties—I am clearly in my twenties, and I am not yet thirty! But she only has the brains of a teenager and seven years old. The physical strength of a teenager—no, the old lady who was sitting next to the car just now is already ahead of her and is out of sight.That old lady looked to be in her seventies, and she was not even as good as a grandmother in her seventies. "Hey, if I can get out alive, no matter what...what happens, I will go to the gym again! Go lose weight and keep fit!" The newly bought sneakers didn't fit my feet well, and my toes, soles, and heels all started to hurt.I don't know where to throw the hiking hat I used before.With every breath the pain in the flanks is like a knife, and in this case continue to crawl forward. "Can I continue to love?" This worry is just a luxury at this moment.I picked up the wooden sticks rolling on the stone road to support my tired body, and climbed up step by step with the sticks like this.At this moment, Sanshun only thought about when he could reach the top of the mountain.Maple Leaf Peak has passed, but I heard that I can see the maple leaves in late autumn like "brocade, velvet blanket", but I didn't see it. Even so, Sanshun climbed to the top of the mountain.Others took only four hours at most, but she spent seven hours climbing up, but she really didn't see anything.This is what people call Bailutan without water. "Fucked, ah..." There was no one there, and Sanshun stood on the top of the mountain where there was no one, talking to himself while panting.She didn't listen to the guide's warning, so she climbed to the top of the mountain with such difficulty, and saw nothing except Bailutan without water, which was really unlucky.However, after standing for a while, Sanshun's muttering disappeared, because the cool wind was blowing on his cheeks. She heard what the man had said. ——Let's go together later.The feeling of blowing on the top of the mountain must be different from now. Compared with the flat land, the distance between the mountain and the sky is closer.It would be a feeling of heaven on earth. As he said, looking at the clouds very close and feeling the wind blowing from the closest place to heaven is really cool.Now I finally understand that sentence that feels like I have come to heaven.Walking through the road is like a thornbush of hell, the moment you arrive, you feel that the kingdom of heaven seems to have been waiting for the arrival of Sanshun.The wind caressed her cheeks lightly, and the warm body felt cool under the blowing of the wind. Under the blowing of the wind, Sanshun suddenly thought of the man who used to blow with him, and thought of the man who once liked him. Although his ribs were still aching, he had a sweet smile on his face. "Maybe, I still like you." "I want to continue to like you, continue to love you, only then will I be happy." Having made this decision, Sanshun put his hands on both sides of his mouth, and shouted loudly towards the mountain, the sky seemed to hear it, and replied: "Ah..." "Gold—Three—Shun—Ai—Zhang—Tao—Ying" In this way, the mountains here and there echoed the girl's voice. "Jin—San—Shun—Ai—Zhang—Dao—Ying—" "Jin—San—Shun—Ai—Zhang—Dao—Ying—" "Jin—San—Shun—Ai—Zhang—Dao—Ying."