Chapter 52 Section Fourteen

48 Because of his excellent academic performance, Zhang Chaofan found a stable job logically. He signed a seven-year agreement with a mechanical engineering research institute. The monthly salary is 2,500 yuan, and there are various welfare guarantees and provident funds. Zhang Chaofan is very satisfied. I don't envy Zhang Chaofan's job. If it were me, I would never accept this job calmly. I don't know what the concept of seven years is, and I don't know what can be done during this period. , but one thing is for sure, seven years later I will be thirty years old, people often say thirty years old, I think thirty years old should make a difference.

After Zhang Chaofan found a job, he invited me and Yang Yang to have a meal to express his gratitude to me for lending him my tie and Yang Yang's watch for the interview.During the meal, the topic talked about my job search. Zhang Chaofan suggested that I endure the humiliation and find a job for a while to accumulate some work experience for future development. Yang Yang also said: "Don't be so high-minded. It's hard to find a job this year. It's good to find a place to live. It's not ideal." I said, "I don't fucking care about tallness. If you say light, I might be lighter than Zhang Chaofan. If you say tall, I might be taller than you. I just don't want to go to work."

Yang Yang said: "It doesn't matter if you don't want to go to work, but you can't let Zhou Zhou accompany you to drink northwest wind, what will she think!" I said: "I have no choice, now I can only take one step at a time, let nature take its course!" One morning, I was sleeping in Zhou Zhou’s dormitory, and I received a call from her work unit. She said that she was going to Guangzhou to negotiate with a client in the afternoon. I asked her if she would like to come back and make out with me before going. There are some things to deal with, and there is no time, so I can only go directly to the airport from my work unit. I said, okay, be careful on the road, Zhou Zhou asked me to take care of myself.We kissed each other again on the phone before hanging up.

After I hung up the phone, I was going to go to sleep, but I couldn't feel sleepy, so I got out of bed, looking for something to do. I saw a pile of dirty laundry piled up in a corner and I came up with the idea of ​​doing laundry. I threw all the dirty clothes into the washing machine, a card suddenly fell out of one of my shirts, I picked it up, saw that it was the phone number Dicey left for me, and remembered what she said : "Come and play with me when you have time." Dai Xue received a call from me and said, "I happen to have no class in the afternoon, and I am worried that I have nowhere to go. Where are you?"

I said, "I'm at a friend's house." "I'll find you!" said Dicey. I hesitated for a moment and said, "Then come here!" I cleaned up the house before Dai Xue arrived, and then went downstairs to pick her up at the appointed time, and she appeared in front of me wearing a denim shirt. I took her up four flights of stairs to Zhou Zhou's dormitory. After entering the door, she felt very hot. I took her a bottle of Coke from the refrigerator, and she still felt very hot after drinking it. She complained: " Why is it so hot here!" After speaking, he took off his coat, leaving only a bra on his upper body.

I said: "This is not good, this is my girlfriend's dormitory." She said disapprovingly: "Then what's the matter, can I take off my clothes when it's hot?" "But don't dress like this, as if we're going to do something." "Does it have to be like this? I'm like this in the swimming pool, and I haven't had anything to do with anyone." I looked at her almost naked upper body and said, "I never imagined that your figure is so good now." "What do you mean, wasn't it good before?" "You used to be short and flat-chested. If you didn't squat down to pee, no one would know you were a girl."

"You are so disgusting, why are you talking so obscenely!" "You've already taken off like this, and you still care about this!" "It's okay, just tell me, I'll see how far you can go." "I'm actually quite serious." "Serious?! What is your purpose for coming to me this time?" "No purpose, just chat casually." "I thought you wanted to sleep with me!" "Why do you think so?" "Because there are many men who want to sleep with me, but I don't agree to it casually. You are one of the few that I agree to. You should be relieved by this."

"Thank you! There are very few women who want to sleep with me, and even fewer with whom I disagree, but you are one of them, and you should be proud of it." "Who was waiting for me at the school gate every day!" "It's me, but I just want to hold hands with you and go home together, I don't want to sleep with you." "Haven't your thought of holding hands with me developed into bed after four years?" "No, my thoughts are developing in the opposite direction, and now I don't even want to pull my hand." Dai Xue stood up, reached out to take off her bra, and said, "I'll just stay here and see if you want to!" Then she walked towards me slowly.

At this moment, the door opened, and Zhou Zhou stood at the door, watching everything that happened in the room in shock. Not allowing me to make any explanation, Zhou Zhou walked in, put a notepad on the table into his bag, and ran out of the room. I hear crying. 49 Five days later, I received a large package at school. When I opened it, it contained all my belongings in Zhou Zhou’s dormitory, and there was a note that said: Don’t come to me again! It's Zhou Zhou's handwriting. When I came to Zhou Zhou's dormitory, the door was locked. I inserted the key into the lock, but it didn't turn. Zhou Zhou changed the lock.

I knocked on the door several times, but no one answered. I knocked heavily again, but the door was still closed and there was still no answer, but my subconscious mind told me that Zhou Zhou was inside at this time. I slapped my palm on the door desperately, but the door was still closed indifferently. This cold wooden door separated me from Zhou Zhou.I tapped it again and again, but no one responded. My hands were swollen from knocking, and I sat wearily on the floor by the door, leaning my head against the wall, filled with regret.I lit a cigarette and took a deep breath. At this time, the door opened, Zhou Zhou came out and looked around, and found that I was sitting on the ground, and only said one sentence: "You go!" I was about to hit the door, I immediately put my arm into the crack of the door, resisted Door.

My arm was clamped between the cracks of the door, and I yelled "Oops". Zhou Zhou opened the door and said, "It's all right!" I took the opportunity to stand up and go into the house. Zhou Zhou immediately pushed the door against me and said, "Go away, don't come to me again!" I grabbed Zhou Zhou's shoulder and said, "I was wrong, let's be together well from now on, okay?" Zhou Zhou got rid of me and said, "No need, let's break up!" "why?" "Don't you need to say why, how have you lived in the past six months, have you given me a sense of security, how many things have you done that made me bitter!" "I'll change it, I can do whatever you want me to do!" "It's too late, it's too late, I have a new boyfriend now!" "I don't believe it, we can start from scratch!" "I'm not kidding you, we're already in bed." "why did you do this?" "That night, the night I went to Guangzhou, I slept with him." "Who is he?" "my boss." "Do you love him?" "You don't have to ask that." "Then do you still love me?" "I do not want to say." "But I want to know very much now." "I used to love it, but I don't love it anymore." "What about the future?" "I never thought that in the future, you can go, and we will stop seeing each other." "give me one more chance!" "There's no need for us to stay together anymore, let's go, he will come to see me later." Zhou Zhou stepped aside and gave me a way out. I took two steps, turned around and said to Zhou Zhou: "I will come again!" "No!" I walked out the door and heard the door slamming behind me. 50 After that, I called Zhou Zhou countless times, but she either didn't answer, or just said: "Don't call again", and then hung up. Once Zhou Zhou just connected the phone, I said to her at the fastest speed: "Let's get together, I miss you, let's start again." Zhou Zhou said lightly: "Let's separate completely!" and hung up the phone again. When I called Zhou Zhou again the next day, she had already changed her mobile phone number, and the phone in her dormitory was always unanswered. I thought Zhou Zhou might have left there and moved into her boss’s house . Zhou Zhou left me like this, and I have nothing but sadness. People always know how to cherish and the value of possession after they lose it. I started with beer, drank it late every day, went back to the dormitory drunk to sleep, slept until the next afternoon, lay in bed until dark, and then went to the tavern again, life was chaotic and horrible. After breaking up with Zhou Zhou, I looked for a job for a few days. Every time I saw the crowds at the job fair, I thought, what level do I belong to among the tens of thousands of graduates in Beijing every year? I should belong to the kind of self-aware people who decided not to work after graduation, and not to fill the ranks of building bricks and tiles for socialism.