Chapter 33 Section Eleven

twenty four A few nights later, while I was falling asleep, I received a phone call from Zhou Zhou. My speech was incoherent, my thinking was jumping, and I was a little slurred, as if I was drunk. I asked her where she was, but Zhou Zhou couldn’t answer. , and finally gave the phone to the waiter to tell me. When I arrived at the bar where Zhou Zhou was drinking, I saw her sitting alone in the corner with a few bottles of "Corona" on the table. I walked over and sat down. She looked at me with blurred eyes and said, "Drink!" Greet the waiter for drinks. The waiter brought beer and I sent it back.I paid the bill and helped Zhou Zhou out of the bar.Zhou Zhou was already so drunk that he couldn't stand still, and while leaning to the side, he said, "Leave me alone, let me go back and drink."

A "Blue Ribbon" can was thrown on the ground at the entrance of the bar. Zhou Zhou stopped when he saw it: "We play football, you keep the goal." I said: "I want to kick tomorrow, now go home and sleep." "I'll kick it." Zhou Zhou pointed to two trees and said, "Stand over there." I stood helplessly in the middle of the two trees.Zhou Zhou stood behind the can, took a few steps back, ran up, swung his legs, and exerted strength-the can flew up, and I was caught off guard, kicking me. I don't feel pain, but my heart is pierced, and I think of our acquaintance.

I hailed a taxi and took Zhou Dan back to the rented house. I put Zhou Zhou down on my bed, turned around to pour water for her, Zhou Zhou grabbed me and said, "Your clothes are all torn, did you fight with someone again?" I was wearing exactly what Zhou Zhou gave me. The T-shirt I bought had a few slits on the chest. I felt sore and hugged Zhou Zhou tightly. Zhou Zhou held the bag in his arms. I felt sick and wanted to take it away. Zhou Zhou hugged me tightly and said, "Don't touch my bag!" I didn't touch it, and fell asleep with my arms around Zhou Zhou. In the middle of the night, I was woken up by Zhou Zhou's crying. I opened my eyes and asked what was wrong with Zhou Zhou. She didn't say anything, but desperately plunged into my arms, wishing she could get into my body.

Listening to Zhou Zhou's breathing, I put my hand into her arms, but she didn't stop me, and then I was out of control. When I woke up the next day, the sun had already reached due south, and Zhou Zhou was gone.There was a piece of paper on the table with Zhou Zhou's words on it. She said that she would go to France after she left. She could not have left, but she voluntarily applied to go there. The plane was at twelve noon today. I was taken aback.The reason why Zhou Zhou didn't let me touch her bag last night was probably because it contained the air ticket, fearing that I would keep it or tear it up.Why didn't I insist on opening her bag to have a look! Why didn't I have doubts about Zhou Zhou's actions last night! Why did I feel unconscious when Zhou Zhou left by my side this morning! I am full of regret.

I looked at my watch and guessed that Zhou Zhou had already boarded the plane. I hurriedly called my cell phone, but there was a voice that the number had been canceled. I looked up at the sky, imagining that the plane flew by in front of me, asking me to see Zhou Zhou again, but there was only the radiant sun in the sky, which burned two lines of tears out of my eyes. 25 Both the postgraduate entrance examination results and the mark line have come down. I once said that if there is no accident, I should be able to enter the re-examination, but there is still an accident. The total score is 3 points less than the mark line, which is incredible.The professional course was 30 points lower than expected, and I took three essays, but I felt that I wrote it well.

I went to school to review the test paper, and the teacher added my score again, and the result was the same as before, not less than the original, and of course not more. I said that I wanted to look at the paper myself to see where the grades were divided. The teacher said no, the school has a system in this regard.I said that I thought I did well in the test, but I didn’t believe that the scores were so low, so I had to read the papers by myself. The teacher was polite and said that I can understand your feelings, but we have to follow the rules and can’t show it to you. Fuck the rules, you can break the rules yourself, but you can't make other people break the rules too.

The students are organizing demonstrations again, this time to the Japanese embassy, ​​to annihilate Little Japan's ambition to gain political rights.In the past, no matter what the reason, even if it was for fun, I would join in this kind of fun, but this time I have no interest. After learning about my situation, Yang Yang comforted me and said: "It is unreasonable to judge success or failure based on the quality of an exam article. Why was the feudal society overthrown? Those who come up, and there is no lack of malpractice and collusion, so it’s no wonder that the selection of people is not finished, and an exam can prove a fart.”

I said, "I've been frustrated both in love and exams, and I've recited it home." Yang Yang said: "You must be proud at the wine market, why don't you go have a drink." "Go!" I am like a dry land that urgently needs the rain and dew of beer to irrigate. Yang Yang asked me whether it would cost money to drink free wine, I said of course I drink free wine, but is there any, Yang Yang said why not.He has been in school for almost ten years, and he has become a veteran, and he does not need to spend money on many things.For example, I need to cut my nails, but I can’t find any nail clippers, so I go to the counter where the nail clippers are sold in the school canteen, and ask the salesperson to take one to see if it’s sharp. After cutting ten fingers, the salesperson asked him how he was doing, and he said he didn’t feel it yet. I wanted to try again, but the salesperson said, but you have nothing to cut. Yang Yang said why, and then he had to untie the shoelaces. The salesperson hurriedly put away the nail clippers and said, don’t take them off. Be careful that your feet catch cold. My nail clippers are not good. You still don't buy it.

Yang Yang said that you can go to the supermarket to drink free beer. There is a beer promotion that offers free tasting. The two of us took the newspaper and sat on the floor to drink. There are also snacks. The non-staple food counter next to it has free tasting Pig ears and internal organs, we both have a little, and it’s almost the same. Sometimes when I’m hungry at night, I go to the supermarket to have a glass of beer and eat a piece of pig’s trotter.I said that it is better to spend money to have a good drink, and don't be kicked out after a few drinks.Yang Yang said that if he wanted to drink to his heart's content, he would go to KTV, a new one opened next to the school, with 200 private rooms, where he could drink beer for 24 hours.

We called Zhang Chaofan, Qi Sixin and Ma Jie, walked across the playground, jumped over the wall to the karaoke hall, so that it was closer. Some graduates can't wait to take graduation photos, wandering around the school, stopping to take pictures when they get to a place, including teaching buildings, libraries, dormitory buildings, cafeterias, internship workshops, etc. They still take pictures in hidden places such as groves and behind rockeries, which have special meaning for them. When it comes to graduation, the school is a mess, full of fragments of wine bottles and thermos, discarded books, resumes that have not been sent out, worn out sneakers, rotten bed sheets, brand new brooms and mops, and lunch boxes. The clean tin dustpan and the enamel washbasin with a layer of sludge on the walls are piled up so that the dormitories and corridors have no place to go.Graduation speeches are written all over the walls, their names are etched on the bed boards, and someone shits in the closet to prove that they have lived here.Some students began to prepare for the future, stealing a bicycle and riding it to work, or dismantling the upper and lower bunk beds and moving to a house they rented.The school was very distressed by this, and made banners and hung them at the intersection of the cafeteria: "Nothing can be left behind except civilization; nothing can be taken away except knowledge." Four graduates."

Crowds of graduates, wearing academic gowns and hats, are like groups of mutating tadpoles. They don't know what will happen to them tomorrow after landing.Maybe someone turns into a frog and jumps farther and farther; maybe someone turns into a toad and is not welcome by others; maybe someone turns into a bullfrog and is eaten as soon as he lands. When I arrived at the playground and stepped on the runway again, I had mixed feelings.This used to be the place where I ran every night to vent my depression. Now the plastic particles on the track have been worn away, leaving only the hard plastic. It can be seen that many people come here to run. Whether their motives are the same as mine at the beginning? For the anguish of youth.I suddenly ran around the playground. Yang Yang yelled at me: "I'm already high before I drink it." I said, "You guys go there first, I'll run a few laps, and I'll go after I'm done." Yang Yang said: "You are so old, don't worry about it, can you still run?" I said, "Why can't I run?" I originally planned to run five laps at a speed that felt windy in my ears, but after the first lap, I was out of breath and my chest felt tight. After I insisted on running the second lap, my throat felt like it was on fire, and I felt smoky, and I gritted my teeth again After running for half a circle, my eyes turned black, and I felt a little top-heavy, so I had to stop. I was really old, I couldn't run anymore, and I couldn't accept it. The result shocked and helpless me. While running, I ran into a teacher who taught electrician technology on the playground. A few years ago, he often came to the playground with half white hair and half black hair to run. Now he is still running with a head of white hair, but his speed is faster than before. , The figure is also vigorous.Today’s students must not find him in the office when they want to answer questions. At that time, we couldn’t find him when we wanted to find him. When we went to play football, we saw him wearing a pair of sports pants just past the buttocks, with slits on the side. Two white vertical roads, running on the playground against the scorching sun, from now on we call him "Two-thirds Adi".It is estimated that after all these years, the roads he has run add up to almost half of China. I don’t know why he still loves running so much at such an old age. Is it also because of depression? I also saw that the "one-armed man" who once beat us was still guarding the playground conscientiously.When the playground was renovated for the first time, when we were sophomores, the football field was paved with natural turf, and the school took great care of it. They would rather grow locusts than let students play football on it, and specially sent people to guard it.One weekend, we took advantage of no one and turned in to play football.While kicking happily, a man ran over and flicked the sleeve of his right arm, telling us to get out.If he had spoken well, we would have gone, but we couldn't be calmer after hearing such hurtful words.Yang Yang said, I think it is you who should get out, come here if you are not afraid of death, and let you see the blue dragon on my body.In fact, it is the pattern of sweat and mud condensed on the body, just like a giant dragon with teeth and claws.The man took off his clothes with one hand, exposing his only arm which was thicker than his thigh, and said, it seems that you are tired of living, then he rushed up and knocked down Yang Yang with a punch.We immediately rallied and attacked.There is an old saying that if an arm cannot twist a thigh, it will fail if it is placed on him.When we stepped forward to kick him, he grabbed our legs, kicked them lightly, and fell down one by one.Now that his arms are thicker than they were a few years ago, many students must have been beaten by him. After entering the private room, Yang Yang and the others had already had a drink. As soon as I sat down, I was downed three cups.Then I started singing karaoke while drinking.I thought, since I can't run anymore, I should be able to drink alcohol.My previous highest record was 8 bottles without vomit, and now even if I can't refresh it, I still have to keep it. In order to drink, we played guessing games, from fifteen to twenty, to grandparents, from a little bee, to people drifting in the rivers and lakes, from tigers to stick chickens, to heroes, beautiful women and pirates. Zhang Chaofan was the first to drink until he lost consciousness. He lay on the sofa in a daze, without blinking, and asked him if he still drank. He said, "I won't sing anymore." Then he remained motionless, like a dead body. I stretched out my hand to test whether there was still air passing through his nostrils, and called 120. He suddenly sat up like a dead body, holding the bucket of ice cubes and vomited wildly. When the filth was about to overflow, he timely stopped.I made up my mind that if I come here to sing again in the future, I will definitely not use ice cubes, and bring my own utensils if I want. It can be seen that Zhang Chaofan is unhappy, and I heard that he has recently broken up in love. A month ago, he was drawing pictures in the classroom, and sitting next to him was a girl with a charming face and an elegant temperament. She was the most perfect girl he had ever seen in his life. Zhang Chaofan immediately had the urge to get close to her. The girl occupied two tables, One was for a schoolbag, and the other was for homework. Zhang Chaofan played by ear and wrote a note. First, he wrote: "Student, can you remove the schoolbag on the seat next to you?" After reading it again, I think it’s not right, and it will make the girls mistakenly think that they don’t have a seat, so they come here to grab a seat. If the girls don’t take away their schoolbags, the subsequent plans will not be able to proceed.Then I added another sentence: "I want to talk to you." I still feel that it is not good, it is too serious, like the tone used by the counselor when I joined the party to understand the situation.After thinking about it, I finally changed it to: "Student, can you come out for a while?" and added a ":)" after it. Zhang Chaofan planned to put the note on the girl's desk and come out to wait for her outside the door. If she didn't come out, he wouldn't go back to the classroom, and he would feel ashamed to go back.For this reason, Zhang Chaofan had already put his schoolbag back in the dormitory ahead of time. This time he came to the classroom to deliver a note, but he dared not enter the classroom because the note was wet in his hands.He enlightened himself: What's the matter, the big deal is one more experience of being rejected-but he just couldn't move his legs. After ten minutes of fierce ideological struggle, Zhang Chaofan finally started to walk towards the school canteen. Alcohol is not allowed on campus, but chocolates with wine cores are allowed. After eating more than a dozen yuan, Zhang Chaofan felt that he was not himself. , then staggered into the classroom, looked left and right, found the girl's seat, walked over to put down the note, immediately turned around and left the classroom through the front door, and lay on the glass of the back door to observe the girl's reaction. After the girl got the note, she didn't even read it, she stood up and walked to the front door.Zhang Chaofan was so excited that he couldn't stand on his feet when he saw it at the back door, and felt dizzy. Fortunately, he supported the wall so that he didn't fall down. He didn't expect the feeling of happiness to be so strong. But the girl stopped at the front door, squeezed the note, and waved her hand, the note drew a parabola and fell into the wastebasket at the door. It's over, Zhang Chaofan thought, she must have regarded the courtship note as the waste paper that Zhang Chaofan dropped when passing by, and carried forward the spirit of keeping the environment clean, and threw it into the waste paper basket for him. At this time, the effect of the wine core chocolate was gradually receding, the canteen was closed, and the night wind was blowing, Zhang Chaofan's trembling heart had calmed down, he yawned, and decided to go back to the dormitory to sleep. Lying on the bed, Zhang Chaofan tossed and turned, the girl's moving face was lingering in front of his eyes, first one face dangled, then two, then four, just like cell division , increasing exponentially, when countless girls' faces filled Zhang Chaofan's mind, he opened his eyes and saw that it was dawn, and felt that there must be a result to this matter, otherwise he would not be able to sleep this sleep. After getting up, Zhang Chaofan walked up and down in front of the girls' dormitory building, muttering something, and then went to the small commodity wholesale market to buy a bag of red balloons.On this day, he did nothing else, just stayed in the dormitory and inflated the balloons. At night, more than a hundred balloons were inflated, and he was dying, his face was pale, I ran to the roof of the building and breathed heavily against the wind for half an hour before I finally recovered.Zhang Chaofan moved the balloon on the ground to the bed, in case someone walked around and broke the balloon, but he had no place to sleep.After the lights were turned off, he assembled three chairs and spent the night on them. He fell down several times in the middle of the night, got up and rubbed his buttocks and said, "It doesn't matter if I break, as long as the balloon doesn't break." The next day, as soon as the dormitory door opened, Zhang Chaofan took balloons to the girls' building before dawn, and tied one to every tree.When the girls woke up from their sleep, they pushed open the windows and found that the trees downstairs were covered with red balloons dancing in the morning breeze, and "I L0VE Y0U" was written on each balloon.This incident became a good story for a while, and it topped the list of 50 cases of school affairs.Zhang Chaofan stood in front of the girl upstairs, ready to confess his love to her after the girl came downstairs.Waiting and waiting, waiting and waiting, I waited for a full day and the girl didn't show up, so I continued to wait until the door of the girl's building was locked, and the girl didn't show up either.Exhausted, Zhang Chaofan picked up a wooden stick from the ground in despair, punctured the balloons one by one, and then went back to the dormitory to sleep.Later I heard that the girl was ill that day, so she stayed in bed for a whole day instead of leaving the house. Zhang Chaofan felt that he had no fate with that girl and wanted to give up.Yang Yang encouraged him and said, "Liu Bei took three visits to the thatched cottage to get Zhuge Liang done. You are still one time away. If Liu Bei had retreated in the face of difficulties, there would not be a three-legged confrontation later. Maybe your happiness for the rest of your life depends on this third time."Zhang Chao Fan asked Yang Yang where to start the third time, Yang Yang said that he invited the girls to dinner, and said what should be said at the dinner table with the help of wine.Zhang Chaofan took action immediately, but the girl said that she had already made an appointment for dinner that night.Zhang Chaofan believed that there must be some boys who acted first, and all the signs of failure showed that it was impossible for him and the girls to succeed.Depressed, Zhang Chaofan and Yang Yang came to the restaurant to drink and drank until they were slightly tipsy. Yang Yang's eyes widened suddenly, and asked Zhang Chaofan to look aside. Zhang Chaofan turned his head and saw that the girl was eating with another girl at the next table. After taking a sip, under the table, the hand was still rubbing her leg, and the faces of the two showed happiness from the bottom of their hearts.Since then, Zhang Chaofan has been devastated. He said that he never thought that his happiness would be taken away by a woman. Yang Yang took the microphone, sang a song and drank half a glass.Fortunately, Xu Wei, Zheng Jun, Wang Feng, and Laolang released an album, and it was included in the on-demand song library. Otherwise, people like us can only drink when we go to KTV. The singer only sang more than 20 songs in the concert, which may be the limit that his voice can bear, but Yang Yang sang no less than 30 songs, and he lost his voice at the end of the song, looking like he was following with a microphone. He lip-synced to the music, but the veins on his forehead were still exposed, and there were beads of sweat rolling down his forehead. I drank wine and listened to Yang Yang's cover, and a sense of loss suddenly surged in my heart: Maybe Xu Wei and Zheng Jun will never be able to write such a beautiful song again. Seeing my own shadow cast on the wall under the light, my cheeks have already puffed up. I used to suck my cheeks. This discovery made me very depressed. I don't know how long I drank it, but I couldn't drink it anymore, and it all came out when I drank it again. I roughly calculated that it should be less than 8 bottles, and the impact record failed. In order not to erupt on the spot, I went to the toilet and picked my throat.Looking at the sky outside the window, it suddenly became brighter, and it felt like our youth was suddenly gone. Raindrops are falling from the sky, God is crying for me. Raise your glass to dissipate your worries and worry even more.I think Zhou Zhou has already arrived in France at this time, and I sincerely wish her all the best. I don't dare to ask for other ideas. I went back to the private room, sat down and continued to drink. While drinking, I felt deaf in my ears, and there was no sound around me, only a group of people dangling in front of my eyes, clinking glasses, punching, smoking, and singing. Looking at the dim light in the smoky room, more than thirty beer bottles stacked in the corner, the MTV screen shaking on the TV, and a group of young people who are about to stand in the 26th and 7th, but don't know what to do, their eyes are cloudy and their faces are full. Thick flesh, clinking glasses with hands and feet, dancing in the emptiness of joy... Suddenly, this scene disappeared before my eyes, replaced by a photo of military training: under a blue sky, next to a row of verdant poplar trees, In front of a row of barracks with red bricks and gray tiles, a group of teenagers aged 18 or 19, wearing military uniforms and white gloves, carrying rifles, looking into the distance, with a look of firmness and confidence in the future, no one knows what they are doing every day. What the individual is thinking in their hearts and what the future will look like is always unknown to them. Then, like a TV with no power, I lay down on the sofa and my mind went dark.