Chapter 94 Chapter Twenty-Four (2)

Zhong Yuemin took out the 20,000 yuan in cash and said, "Kui Yong, since you don't want to be admitted to the hospital, I think I should respect your choice. Please accept the money. It's not much, and it can only be used for emergencies. I'll send some more money in a few days." Li Kuiyong looked at Zhong Yuemin and said, "Yuemin, what if I don't accept it?" "Then I'll turn around and leave. I won't be your friend since then, remember? You once said this to me, and it's my turn to say it today." Li Kuiyong sighed and complained: "You, you always don't suffer. Do you still remember what I said? You threw it back to me as it is. You are strong enough for revenge. Well, I just accept it. Let's talk about it." something else."

Zhong Yuemin asked: "You just mentioned that you are interested in Buddhism. What's the matter? I remember that you are also a person without religious belief." Li Kuiyong coughed violently again, Zhong Yuemin beat his back quickly, and it took him a while to calm down. Li Kuiyong spit out a lot of bloody phlegm. He wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with a towel and said, "I have a friend who believes in Buddhism. He told me, Buddhism believes in reincarnation, and believes that everyone has a past life and a future life. If you have cultivated well in this life and done a lot of good deeds, you will be reborn as a human being in your next life and live a happy life. Conversely, if you often do If you are evil, then you may not be reborn as a human in the next life, but may become some kind of animal. Of course, it is not hopeless to become an animal. It will be very good, but I’m afraid I will suffer for a lifetime. Buddhism pays attention to karma, and you must be punished if you do evil, just like you have to pay back a debt. If you don’t pay it back in this life, you will have to pay it back in the next life. He has a very high level of practice, and he has opened his heavenly eye, so he can see people's past lives at a glance. Once his master went shopping and entered a big shopping mall. As soon as he entered the mall and saw people everywhere in the shopping mall, his heavenly eye opened Now, it doesn’t matter when I opened it, I found that the mall immediately became a zoo, full of animals, everything from mice to elephants. His master was very puzzled at the time, thinking that there were too many animals in this mall. I could see some animals, but after all, people are the majority, and the proportions will not vary too much. Later, the old man realized after thinking about it. It turns out that this shopping mall is located in a poor area of ​​the city, and the residents here are engaged in People with the lowest jobs, that’s right. Many people were reincarnated from animals in their previous lives. No wonder they were poor. Poor people are unlucky enough, and they have to be scolded, even being an animal in their fucking last life, which is too hopeless..."

Zhong Yuemin couldn't help laughing: "According to Darwin's theory of evolution, human beings are transformed from animals. The rich and the poor are the same. They were all trilobites or single-celled organisms at the beginning. There is nothing to lose. " Li Kuiyong also smiled: "I wanted to ask that expert to look at my previous life. Even animals should be a little different, right? Tigers and mice are both animals, but can these two types of animals be compared? One is The national first-class protected animals, one is the object of eliminating the four pests. Later, I still didn’t dare to let people see it. Why? The main reason is that I don’t know what to do. In case I was recognized as a mouse in my previous life, and I was killed by mouse poison Yes, I really don't have the courage to live any longer, it's so hopeless."

Zhong Yuemin didn't speak, he was a realist, he didn't care about the past life or the next life, he didn't care about reincarnation. Li Kuiyong coughed again and continued: "Of course, this is all a joke. I asked that buddhist friend, can people stop reincarnation? I think it doesn't matter whether the next life is a human or an animal. I don’t want to be anything, it’s best for me to never be reincarnated. He said that unless you practice to a very high level, then you can enter the Paradise of Ultimate Bliss, and only at this level can you stop reincarnation. This is not something ordinary people can do. I Hearing his answer, I immediately felt despondent and unhappy. Think about it, in this endless reincarnation, which life is the end? This life is really boring. If you want to talk about why people live, everyone They can give a lot of reasons. If you want me to say that people live to survive, there is no other purpose. Since you have come to this world, you have to try to survive, and you have to work hard to support yourself. If you have children You still have to raise the child, and when the child grows up, you will also be old, and you will not be far away from death. This life has passed like this, so what is the point? I don’t think it has any point in bullshit.”

Zhong Yuemin smiled: "Your conclusion is very straightforward. In fact, many things are originally so simple, but they are artificially complicated. As a person who came into this world, he has neither choice nor purpose." Li Kuiyong held out his hand to Zhong Yuemin: "Give me a cigarette." "Dude, isn't that good? Smoking will make you sicker, so you better bear it." "It's already like this. There is no difference between smoking one more cigarette and one less cigarette. Let's break it." "That's true. I fell into the well, and my ears are still hanging? Even if you want to smoke white noodles at the moment, I can't refuse you." Zhong Yuemin lit the cigarette for him.

Li Kuiyong took a deep breath of the cigarette: "I haven't smoked for several days, and my daughter-in-law hid all the cigarettes, as if I could get better if I quit smoking. You are kind enough to understand the mind of a dying person, and you It's easy for me to chat. Yuemin, when I knew I had an incurable disease, how do you think I felt?" "Probably very happy, because you are too tired and impatient to live, and you want to rest once and for all, don't you?" Li Kuiyong gave Zhong Yuemin a punch excitedly: "That's right, you still understand me, you are very smart. To be honest, I was very happy at that time, just like I was looking forward to the New Year when I was a child. Too tired, not only tired, but also without hope, I remember doing tiring work when jumping in the queue, and looking forward to finishing work when I was the most tired, because after finishing work, you can take a bath on the well platform, and the whole night is at your disposal , this is the most relaxing moment of every day, this is the most specific hope, if

Without this hope, you may get down before calling it a day.But as far as my whole life is concerned, I can't find hope. No matter how hard I struggle, I can't change the status quo. This is life.Sometimes I just stare at my son for an hour at a time, and I think, maybe it was a mistake for me to bring this kid into this world. But I have some talent, look at my virtues now, what virtues he will have in the future, there is not much difference.Don't expect him to be admitted to university and find a decent job in the future, it's useless, he is just a rough job material, it would be good if he can make a living.In the future, the social competition will be more intense. Wouldn't a simple-minded young man like this have to suffer from poverty all his life?When he gets older, it's time to find a wife. At that time, this kid will follow in his father's footsteps. He is uneducated and poor. Who would marry a girl from a good family?I can only find an ugly and stupid daughter-in-law to make do with. If he has a child, he will have to work hard to support the child. In the end, just like me in this life, I will be poor and despised all my life.The more I think about it, the more depressing I am, the days without hope are really boring, now it’s alright, I’ve finally made it out of my life, no matter how fucked up things are in the world, they must come to an end, Yue Min, I’m so tired, I should go La. "

Zhong Yuemin was silent for a long time. He felt that Li Kuiyong seemed to talk a lot today. This seemed to be a flashback. When he realized that his life was about to end, he had a certain understanding of life. Li Kuiyong lit another cigarette and continued: "A few days ago I read a book written by a man who was rescued from a car accident. When he was sent to the emergency room of the hospital, his heart had stopped beating. When recalling the scene at that time, he said that he felt warm all over his body, and his whole body was in a relaxed state, which was extremely comfortable. He felt that his body became very light and gradually floated up to the ceiling. Looking down, he saw that the medical staff were still desperately giving him artificial respiration, his body was lying quietly on the bed, and his family members were crying and shouting... Only then did he understand that at this time, the dead body on the ceiling He is a soul that has been separated from the body and can wander around... This person was rescued in the end. He probably belongs to the kind of person who has not yet reached the end of his lifespan. Otherwise, we living people would never know the feeling of death. Yuemin, you read more books than me, have you heard of such a thing?"

Zhong Yuemin nodded and said: "I have also read books on this subject. It is said that there is a scientist in the United States who wants to verify whether people have a soul, and if so, whether the soul is material. He conducted an experiment and put a dying person in On a special, extremely precise electronic scale, when the person died, he found that the person's weight suddenly decreased by a few tenths of a gram. The scientist concluded that he believed that the human soul is material, because it It has weight. Of course, as for whether people really have a soul, the scientific methods currently available to mankind are not enough to verify it, so no conclusion can be drawn."

Li Kuiyong suddenly turned pale and was dripping with sweat. He clutched his chest in pain, and his breathing seemed very short.Zhong Yuemin hurriedly supported him and asked, "Kui Yong, are you in pain?" "Yeah, I'm in pain all over my body. I can't stand the pain. Having cancer is really a painful thing. I really don't want to procrastinate any longer. It's better to end it sooner. Yuemin, I want to ask you one thing, You have to promise me." Zhong Yuemin shook his head: "I'm afraid I can't promise you anything until you give your specific request."

"It's not a big deal, you can do it, just find me some sleeping pills, okay?" "Kui Yong, I understand your feelings, but I can't help you. Your request makes me embarrassed. You can't just let me go to jail and get a bad name as a murderer because you want to fly to the ceiling. Fair enough." Li Kuiyong let out a long sigh: "I knew you wouldn't help me, you kid, you're so fucking mean." "Except for this request, I can promise you everything else. I can take care of your mother until the end of her life, and I can also help your wife and children to the best of my ability." Li Kuiyong shook his head: "A friend can only help the emergency, but not the poor. After I leave, Kui Yuan will be the eldest son, and he should take responsibility. Yuemin, I came to you today just to say goodbye to you. There must always be a beginning and an end, now I am a little tired, you go, don't come again, Kui Yuan will notify you after I leave, goodbye, buddy, if there is a destiny, we will still be friends in the next life." Zhong Yuemin hugged Li Kuiyong sadly: "Kuiyong, goodbye!" He stood up and walked towards the door, knowing that if he didn't leave, he would not be able to control his sadness. "Yuemin..." Zhong Yuemin stopped, but he didn't look back. "When I leave, I will wait for you on the ceiling. You can't see me, but I can see you. You wave to me, and I will leave with confidence. That is our last farewell..." Zhong Yuemin didn't look back, he replied in a low voice: "I know..." After speaking, he left without looking back. Zhou Xiaobai called Zhong Yuemin and said that someone had given her two concert tickets. It was Beethoven's "Ninth Symphony" performed by the Berlin Philharmonic Orchestra in China, and the conductor Zubin Mehta was the guest conductor. Zhou Xiaobai asked Zhong Yuemin if he was interested in listening. Of course Zhong Yuemin was interested. The Berlin Philharmonic is a world-class symphony orchestra, not to mention the famous Zubin Mehta as the conductor. Zhou Xiaobai's father, Zhou Zhennan, retired in the mid-1980s as a principal in the military region, and his family moved into a small two-story building in a cadre rest center.Most of the Zhou family's children work in other places, and only the youngest daughter, Zhou Xiaobai, works in Beijing.Among the many children of the Zhou family, Zhou Zhennan's youngest daughter, Zhou Xiaobai, is the most beloved one.When he was in office, he used his authority to transfer Zhou Xiaobai from the field army to the headquarters hospital in Beijing. Zhou Zhennan made no secret of this: I am getting old, so what if I transfer my children back to take care of them?Anyone who likes to gossip can gossip, I can't hear you.It seems that Zhou Xiaobai's promotion to the vice president of the university is also the result of Zhou Zhennan's operation.Even though he is retired and has no power, his power in the army is still there, and his old subordinates are everywhere. Bu Quanjun, the old man's words still have a certain weight. Zhou Xiaobai's two older brothers both graduated from the Harbin Military Engineering Institute in the mid-1960s and have been serving in the army. Now they are both major generals and heads of a certain military department.This seems to be a common practice. It is normal for lieutenant generals like Zhou Zhennan who were awarded the title in 1955 to have several generals among their children. Zhou Xiaobai was born in such a typical military family. Her father is a lieutenant general and her brothers are major generals. The daughter's rank is also the lowest, and the rank of colonel with two bars and four stars is on the epaulets. These days, Zhou Xiaobai's second brother, Zhou Huaihai, was in Beijing for a meeting, so he brought his secretary and security guards back to his parents' house.When Zhong Yuemin came to find Zhou Xiaobai as promised, he met Zhou Huaihai who was going out for a meeting. He was a handsome middle-aged man, who looked very similar to Zhou Xiaobai, with big eyes, double eyelids, fair complexion, and looked a little frail.He was wearing a wool general uniform with golden general stars on his epaulets, and was about to get into the "Volvo" car, when he saw Zhong Yuemin walking into the yard, he straightened up and asked, "Who are you looking for?" Zhong Yuemin nodded to him politely and said, "I'm looking for Zhou Xiaobai." Zhou Huaihai looked at Zhong Yuemin from top to bottom and asked, "Which unit do you work for? What can I do with her?" Zhong Yuemin was a little annoyed, what's wrong with this person, he just checked his household registration when he came up, if there is something wrong, can't he come if he has nothing to do?He deliberately replied: "I don't have a unit, I'm self-employed, I have a little time today, so I came to chat with Zhou Xiaobai." In fact, Zhou Huaihai didn't mean to be rude. He just had been a leading cadre for a long time, and he had developed the habit of being a leader. When he spoke, he unconsciously had a condescending tone.But Zhong Yuemin's answer was also very arrogant. Seeing what he meant, he finally took some time today to talk to Vice President Zhou. Who does he think he is, the head of the organization?What kind of words is this? Where did Xiaobai know such a self-employed person? Zhou Huaihai was really angry. He didn't bother to have the same knowledge as this kind of person, so he lowered his face and said, "Zhou Xiaobai is not at home." The implication was that he hoped that Zhong Yuemin would leave immediately. Zhong Yuemin didn't know the truth: "Isn't that right? She promised to wait for me, how can she keep her promise? It seems that there are only two possibilities, either Zhou Xiaobai lacks integrity, or you are not telling the truth." Zhou Huaihai's secretary was putting his hands on the door frame of the car to prevent the head from meeting. He was annoyed when he heard Zhong Yuemin's words, and hurriedly shouted: "Hey, why are you talking to the head?" Zhong Yuemin replied neither humble nor overbearing: "I am an ordinary person, and I am not under the control of your chief. Besides, I don't know if he is the real chief. Don't joke, we ordinary people don't know what is on your shoulder plate. I have a My cousin just graduated from the military academy, and he also has a star on his shoulder badge, I remember he said that anyone with a star is a second lieutenant, that is, a platoon leader, can a platoon leader be considered a leader?" Zhou Xiaobai was standing on the balcony on the second floor, listening to Zhong Yuemin's nonsense with great interest. She had seen Zhong Yuemin walk into the yard, and before she had time to greet him, she saw that Zhong Yuemin had already clashed with her second brother, so she simply kept quiet and looked away. It's lively, Zhong Yuemin hasn't been snarky for a long time, once this guy comes, his emotions are often witty, and he is angry enough to kill people.Zhou Xiaobai likes to listen to his nonsense, no matter how annoying she is, as soon as she hears Zhong Yuemin's nonsense, the worries in her heart will disappear immediately. When she heard that Zhong Yuemin deliberately regarded the major general as a second lieutenant, Zhou Xiaobai couldn't help but burst out laughing on the balcony. Zhou Huaihai and his secretary, who were about to have a seizure, saw Zhou Xiaobai on the balcony leaning back and forth in joy, and became puzzled. Zhou Huaihai asked, "Xiaobai, why are you giggling? Who is this?" Zhou Xiaobai covered his stomach and laughed: "Second brother, hurry up and go, if you don't go, you won't even be a second lieutenant, maybe you'll be a private soldier, oh, Zhong Yuemin, you're killing me, my stomach..." Zhou Huaihai and the secretary smiled wryly, got into the car and drove away. Zhong Yuemin walked into the living room and complained: "Hou Men is as deep as the sea, why is it so difficult for a self-employed person to see Vice President Zhou, that major general is your second brother, has he ever fought?" "It seems that he has never fought before. He is from a technical background." Zhou Xiaobai was busy making tea for him. Zhong Yuemin made sarcastic remarks: "In my eyes, only those generals in 1955 and 1955 were the real ones. They were typed out. Hmph, now... what major general? It's similar to Huang Jiang." "Okay, keep your mouth full of virtue. If you continue to talk, all your bad words will come. Let me tell you for you. My father is a clockmaker, my brother is Huang Jiang, and I am twenty-four, okay?" Zhong Yuemin was not feeling well, so he opened his mouth and began to teach others: "Xiaobai, you are a big colonel, don't let your father get promoted, if you are like you, you have never even touched a gun. If there are more female generals, where will we put the face of our army? Besides, even if it is a family of generals, you can’t produce generals one by one. I think your family is about to become a saucepan. Huh? You can’t rely on your genetics to be a general. You are a doctor, so you should be your doctor honestly. If you don’t want to be a vice-president, it’s like putting up a big colonel’s sign, what’s the fuss?”