Chapter 50 The sixth scene is full of flowers and full moon (4)

He said, can you stop traveling far?inland river.Life is nothing more than this, don't wander around and wander around.It's better to let us go back to our hometown, slowly die of old age together, and spend the rest of our lives in silence. She said, I imagined that in the future I would have a fixed house instead of always moving around, surrounded by lively and lovely children, a honest and kind man to accompany each other, and a small piece of land to grow crops. There are dogs and cats basking in the sun in the little garden... Day after day, day after day, day after night, life does pass faster.

These fantasies can all come true, if you will, he said. She looked at him silently for a long time.He lowered his head, sneered, and said, no.I have never been able to take it for granted in the face of worldly happiness in my life, although I would also yearn for it.But I know they're not the final thing I'm looking for.My life, the down and out life, is like flowers blooming in early spring.The other flowers were still tightly in buds, and it opened with a bang, which was startling.Doomed to spend the coldest and lonely time alone.When the other flowers bloom enthusiastically, it will thank you again.Bear fruit.This is my way.

Shansheng, you occasionally follow me into the forest astray, hesitant and confused, you already know that we belong to different worlds.You have to go back, but I still have to go forward.We have our own way to go.I know you are a man who loves marriage by nature.You will have a new wife.But that would be a very different woman from me.Men and women who live together can only be blind and numb to each other first, we are so clear and respect each other.The feelings we give to each other do not belong to the scope of any agreement. There are two split people in your body, one is powerful and determined with ambition and desire, trying to fill your inner wounds, and the other is the quiet, careless and decadent you.You are meant to be successful and will always be successful, but you can't escape the power of the other in your bones.That negative black power always drags you down who is making progress.You don't consider yourself a successful man.good life.In fact, you feel like the hurt child all the time.Maybe I'm the only one who sees you that way.

She seemed infinitely sad, and said softly, when will we meet again.The older you get, the more difficult it is to get together.Unlike before, I climbed over the low wall of the garden to bid farewell to you, knowing that I will meet you at school tomorrow, without a trace of nostalgia in my heart.The only way to get in and out of Medog is on foot, and the road is difficult.But can you come and visit me later?Will you come, Shansheng? Her tone was solemn. yes.I will come.He looked at her sadly and said, if you want to leave at dawn, please say goodbye to me.inland river. Talking all night takes too much energy.After falling asleep again, he fell into a deep sleep and had no dreams all night.When I woke up the next day, it was almost noon.She has left.I went to the airport just after dawn, took an early flight to Chengdu and transferred back to Lhasa.A cigarette carton was left on the table, spread out blank, without a single word.Presumably, she woke up alone while he was sleeping soundly, and wanted to write a letter to say goodbye. After wandering and thinking, she said a thousand words, and finally left without saying goodbye.

After walking out of the room, my mother was sitting in the living room, facing the warm sunshine in the room, watching him quietly, as if expecting his explanation.She thought he would be able to keep the girl.He said she was gone.She hadn't wanted to stop yet.Mother let out an oh, didn't say anything, got up and quietly went to the kitchen to make breakfast. 4 When we left early in the morning, the rain was still pouring down.Entire villages and valleys were shrouded in wind and rain.They put on their leggings and put on their raincoats.She got a new pair of oversized galoshes.Due to the injury and swelling of the foot, it has been unable to fit into the original shoe.She believed that the heat generated by walking for a while would block the pain.In order not to put pressure on the injured part, I can only walk with the side of the sole of the foot.Limping on a cane made of tree branches.They embarked on the last journey to Medog in the heavy rain.

If there is no accident, it will arrive at the destination in eight hours.There are fewer leeches on the road, and the road conditions are much smoother and clearer.There is no need to go through virgin forests anymore.The terrain slowly lowered and the temperature began to rise.The sun appeared in some areas traveled.It's just that the cliff path has been soaked by rain for a long time to form a swamp, and there is no clean place to walk.Both feet were completely sunk in the mud.One foot deep and one shallow, move forward slowly. Large tracts of banana trees.Gorgeous wildflowers are in full bloom, and small white, pink and light purple flowers bloom freely in the grass.In the previous journey, the appearance of the destination will always be within the premonition.And when I got here, I just felt that the terrain was very strange, and I was circling around and around along the horseshoe-shaped cliff path without seeing the end.The terrain here is similar far and near, that is, a circuitous route around the Yarlung Zangbo River, walking along the cliffs of the nearby valleys.The road stretches endlessly.After walking for a long time, people feel infinitely tired.This journey feels longer and more anxious than ever before.