Chapter 48 The sixth scene is full of flowers and full moon (2)

I know.inland river.I know your difficulties.He heard a hard answer from his own lips.Deal with this painful but true confession. He used to say so many things to me.He said that one day, if we have wings, we can fly over the world, just to look down on how they are destroyed and turned into ashes.You didn't belong to it, he said.You come here to cross the road and don't play by its rules.You took me so that I could rise above my own weight and follow you.When I fell down halfway, I saw that I was old... All I remembered were the little things, the warm ashes that remained.Some memories are hard to remember, and some memories are quickly forgotten.All that we have at last is given back to time.

A faint smile appeared on her face.I never doubted all the language he spoke to me.The things he brings to me, whether they tend towards me or leave me, are all true feelings.Feelings are weak and contradictory just because they are true, with sin, and need time for final judgment. I lived in Qinggang for more than a year because of him, but I failed to enter the university and was forced to leave my hometown.And all these things, now it seems, are commonplace and not worth mentioning at all.I have already decided to forget him, leaving only a gratitude in my heart.I am grateful to those who have given me affection.For so many years, I have been walking around outside, and I have experienced so many things.I know, I can forget him.Not only was he old, he was dead.I will also die in the future.

What a vain thing.good life.What is the meaning of our struggle. She lay down and began to fall asleep.Talk too much and feel sleepy.Without taking off his clothes, he lay on his bed and slept for an entire afternoon.He sat on the chair beside the bed and did nothing, but watched the dim twilight by the window, gradually being wrapped in the dense and cool night.It was dark in the room.He still didn't turn on the light. I don't know how long it has been.she wakes up.Said softly, Shansheng, I want to drink water. He poured a glass of cold water in the dark and handed it to her.He said, I am divorced.inland river.The two children followed He Nian.I quit my job.

She nodded, not surprised.In other words, we may be similar in our attitude towards marriage.Because of the independent and powerful mental system, when making decisions about something, he seldom considers the feelings of other people around him.It's actually hurting them.I'm afraid it will be difficult to get married again in the future, and I don't want to try again easily.But you are different.good life.You have always been lonelier than me.You will marry again. She sat up and combed her hair.I combed my hair with a wooden comb and braided it into braids, and said, I have dreamed several times that I have returned to elegance.I think of eating a kind of pastry on Qingming Festival, called Qingtuan.It is a dumpling made of glutinous rice ground into flour, and the green color of the plant leaf juice is used.The glutinous rice balls are eaten on the first day of the Lunar New Year. They are filled with lard, white sugar and sesame seeds, which are very sweet.There are also rice cakes, which can be eaten directly after being wrapped in vegetables or sugar.Growing up eating food like this.When you are sick or uncomfortable, if you want to eat a bowl of hot, sweet and glutinous bean paste balls, what you want is the comfortable and warm feeling of glutinous rice flour falling in the stomach.But after leaving home, it's hard to find.

Typhoon weather.The stone roads were flooded by sea water, and there were wooden basins, food, branches and clothes floating everywhere.How happy it is to walk on the street that has turned into a vast ocean, wading and playing in the water.Why does childhood pass so quickly, the best things in our lives are always fleeting.Walking around outside, I don’t know how much I miss the typhoon, seafood, roses and gardenias in my hometown, as well as the smell of sea water in the air.It was like a dream.Nearly twenty years passed in a flash. He said, you can still go back and have a look.The village is still there.

No.There should be many changes there.The old streets and old houses that are worthy of nostalgia are almost demolished, and they are all newly built concrete houses.Don't let yourself down.I know that hometown is a place that one can never go back to again.It can only remain in memory. You are too dangerous in Tibet.It is impossible for your life to go down one stop after another like this. So what to do.Do you want to get a place in the city and live in the city forever, living with the crowd in a vain way, living and dying, not knowing where to end... like a piece of meat without any sense.There is no end to the reincarnation and sinking of the physical body.good life.Beneath the seemingly firm surface, it is just an illusion.Each person lives in an illusion of his own particular creation that he wishes to enter.And what is the will that can really guide and support our lives.

During the trip, a bed in a cheap hotel costs less than ten yuan.A pair of Italian shoes worth 2,000 yuan can pay for four or five months' rent in a hotel.The latter is just to let you wear it for a few hours, to attract attention and satisfy vanity.One day, you find that a pair of five-dollar hemp flip-flops can pass the whole summer.I don't wear any makeup for more than a year, and I don't buy expensive clothes.The city's consumption cycle and materialistic beliefs have lost their effect.The so-called luxury goods, high-end brands, fashion... They make people believe in form and vanity, full of fantasies about entering the upper class.Enjoy peace and prosperity.The pursuit of a famous brand and a famous car makes you exhausted.After leaving the city, you will find its deformities and illusions, which are an insult to human intelligence.

I have always been separated from the mainstream of society and politics. I do not read newspapers, TV news, participate in the system, have a fixed job, have no organization, and have no family. There are few emotional relationships, only some seemingly stable cooperative relationships that can only be linked by interests.I tried to be a self-contained person, but in the end I found that it only works on the inside of the individual.I still have to connect with the world.You cannot close yourself off.You can't even choose to close yourself in the city.