Chapter 29 Game 4 Crown of Thorns (3)

She looked up at the tall old cypress and fir trees, which smelled of decay because they had been soaked in rain for a long time and had not seen the sun.Every branch is covered with fuzzy lichen moss.That may be a plant that has existed longer than humans.lifeless.The rain is continuous all year round, and the sun does not penetrate.They make forests dark caves.The aura it brings feels forced.This is the moment to face each other.The roar of the river still echoed in the distance to the right. In the silence, only the sound of wind and rain passing by can be heard.The forest let out a deep and deep breathing sound.She definitely felt the breath.She believed in its vitality.This moment meets it.This energy permeated her whole body's bones, skin, and blood.The breath becomes fresh and pure in the aching chest.The obstacles in my heart were scraped away layer by layer.Thoughts are silent but clear.This is the change I feel when I set foot on the road and walk for a long time every day.Come to a place isolated from the world.Into the heart of the forest.Closed and powerful at its core, it's also not pleasant.Maybe it symbolizes time synchronized with the earth.And she walked through it, like an ant from here to the other side, spending her whole life, not reaching its ups and downs.

She seems to have forgotten most of the people in her life.It was like forgetting Song's face.He used to accompany and take care of her, and he was a man full of compassion for her.During the five days of recovery in the hospital after the operation, she needed long-term infusions every day. The back of her hand was full of pinholes, and her blood vessels were already stiff.He came to visit her, rubbed her sore blood vessels with his hands, and poured hot water to scrub her sweaty body.In front of those strange women in the ward, squat down to help her wash her feet, dry them and put on clean socks for her.

She felt the need to say goodbye to him.The timing of this man's entry into her life was too accidental, bypassing all the defenses she could build up in daily life, and going directly inside.He even saw the excised lesion in her body, a pile of blood clots that exuded a fishy smell.There is nowhere to hide.She couldn't get used to having a stranger so close to her.They have only been together for ten days.But it seems that they have been together for ten years.Only a husband who has been married for ten years will calmly squat down to wash the feet of his sick wife.Her predicament was seen too clearly by him.She felt that he had invaded her.

When she was discharged from the hospital, he refused to pick her up.She said we should never see each other again.There was no way she could retreat and she had to escape.Don't want to be seen as alone and helpless by others.When he woke up, he had visited her and had already left.He brought her gardenias in late spring and put them on the bedside cabinet.Emerald green leaves, white and fragrant flowers, tied into a small bundle.He left a note, which said: If you don't want to see me anymore, I can disappear, remember my name and phone number, and come to me at any time.They didn't say goodbye formally.

She packed up the supplies in the ward and washed her hair.Putting on a silk skirt and embroidered shoes, the black hair exudes a fragrance.Seeing myself recovering from illness in the mirror.Walk out of the hospital gate and take a taxi on the side of the road.Bright, warm sunlight fell on his forehead.She closed her eyes in the dazzling light, and breathed the first breath of dirty and thick air from the world.An operation is like a new birth. 4 When she said goodbye to her publisher, she didn't tell him where she was going.She said I'm going to disappear for a while without trying to call or email me.I will appear automatically.To write the next new book? That will always be his top concern, he said.At this moment, his attitude was extremely sincere.She looked at this well-groomed middle-aged man with paranoid workaholic tendencies.They had worked together for a long time, and he understood her temperament.He never tried to get too close to her, but he earnestly fulfilled all the agreements between them.This sense of distance and recognition of each other's working tendencies is important.Admittedly, she, too, has always had paranoid workaholic tendencies.He once met her twenty times for one of her books.It's amazing.Keep asking her out.persevere.

She was sitting on the sofa across from the big table in his office, watching the dimly lit Beijing night outside the window.She said, don't know.Maybe write, maybe not write.I need to settle some manuscript fees to make a living.He issued her a cash check and said, do you want to advance some manuscript fees to you? She looked at the gesture of his pen resting on it.She said, not for now.He shrugged and blew on the still wet endorsement on the check.Perhaps in fact he has no intentions of generosity, and the scope of his giving is very clearly defined.But he needs to create something that looks genuine.And every time she always sees through.This kind of little mental game couldn't hide from her sensitive scanning system.

They have known each other for five years.In the past five years, some people around her disappeared, and she disappeared from some people.Between people, like atoms in the energy space, there are originally irrelevant hard collisions.A collision with a hostile and alienating nature, even if it appears to be approaching.Such a troubled world.But he and she haven't disappeared by each other's side yet.They were always there for each other when they should be there.And only he could really patiently and long-term pay attention to any change in her life.Therefore, the inference is that the interest relationship is always stronger than all emotional relationships.

Only interests are the most stable and firm support for each other.It also risks collapsing overnight if the outcome of this interest no longer holds.Before this premise, it is an impenetrable wall of iron and steel, without any sentimental speculation, measurement, playful, trying to confirm and judge.Its objectivity and specific conditions are destined to not be questioned and overturned as easily as emotional relationships.He will be a long-term non-missing man by her side.The premise is that she is still his safest cash flow.