Chapter 39 thirty-nine

I failed the college entrance examination in the first year. The old man was very angry. He limped on one leg and scolded me. He said that I only know how to fool around. The school is the same age, how can people be admitted to Peking University?I was already depressed, but when I heard this, I became even more furious, and discussed genetic issues with him, "Why don't you say that Uncle Wang is the deputy director? I learned nothing from you!" He was so angry that his eyes turned red Yes, it was a slap in the face when I came up, which made my head buzz.My mother quickly grabbed the hand of the old man who was trying to commit another murder, and condemned him for using force without authorization.It’s okay if she doesn’t say anything, this statement made me feel so wronged, I burst into tears, opened the door and ran out, thinking that I would never come back again!I was seventeen years old, and I didn't know much about life and what "home" meant to me.Ten years later, I know the full meaning of "home", but I still have to leave again with big bags.

The house I rented was empty, with no TV, no stereo, just a big, useless bed.I always stay up late and come back. Sometimes I think about it, "home" is actually a place to sleep. The literati and poets say it is a safe haven and a nest for licking wounds. They are all fucking nonsense. The head of the speaker had just been caught by the door.The person who sleeps with you may change his mind at any time, only the bed silently let you lie down and let you rely on, loyal to the end.My window is facing the road, and I am woken up by the sound of roaring cars every morning. Foreigners walk into Chengdu with hope, but I, a Chengdu native, always have nightmares amidst the sound of their footsteps.

On the way back from Chongqing, I unplugged Zhao Yue's mobile phone, she asked me what's the matter coldly, I said I miss you, "Go back and see if you are okay?" She hesitated and refused, as if she was very uncomfortable convenient.My heart was moved, and I asked her sourly: "Is Yang Tao with you?" She didn't speak, remained silent for about half a minute, and hung up the phone silently.I unplugged it again, and heard a notification tone: "The user you dialed has turned off the phone, please dial again later." Feeling empty in my heart, I staggered into the bathroom, stood in front of the mirror and looked at myself in disgust. Old and ugly, like a ragged rag.At this moment, the bus turned a corner, and I lost my footing, and hit the wall with a bang, tears streaming down my face.Zhao Yue scolded me: "Garbage! You are garbage!"

After washing my face, I began to put on a smile, and praised the waiter sexually: "You are so beautiful." She smiled contemptuously, and ordered me to go back to my seat immediately, "Chengdu is coming, go home and follow me." Your wife says go ahead." I said my wife died long ago.Everyone in the car looked up at me. I kind of loathe this city.After sending Li Liang home, Wang Datou and I sat by the river for a while, and we were a little sad when we talked about the past.I said that I might have to leave in a few months, and our boss has always wanted to transfer me to Shanghai.Big head with a fat face, only smoking and not talking.Under the sparse lights, the Funan River turned a corner beside us, and flowed eastward without words. This river, regarded as the mother by Chengdu people, drowned all the joys and sorrows in the world, and brought together the hearts of hundreds of millions of Chen Chong and Zhao Yue. Laughter and tears flowed into the sea mightily, as if nothing had happened.

Datou stamped out the cigarette butt vigorously, and said let's go, it's too late, if you don't go back, Zhang Lanlan should take sleeping pills again.In October last year, I took a client to play in Huanglongxi, and I called Wang Datou by the way. He was having a fight with his wife at that time, absent from work without asking for leave, and even turned off his mobile phone out of the blue.We gambled in Huanglonghao for three days, and the big head won more than 17,000. After winning, we were in a good mood. At night, we called a woman into the room. Your classmate is so fierce, the building is about to collapse in the future.After Wang returned home, Zhang Lanlan became suspicious, possibly due to the lack of payment of public food, and tried all kinds of torture to interrogate him. It is said that police equipment such as electric batons were also used.Da Tou was forced to fight back and handcuffed his wife by the bedside for three hours.After being released, Wang Zhang was filled with grief and indignation, swallowed 100 sleeping pills in one go, and left a will to greet the eighteen generations of Datou ancestors, saying, "If you are a ghost, you will be twisted."I was afraid to go to his house for several months because of this.

I handed him a Zhonghua, and said that I am your ancestor, I am asking for your opinion, can you fart?Datou lit a cigarette and said that it doesn’t matter whether you go to Shanghai or not, it’s not a matter of environment, “Your dog’s temper won’t change, and he won’t be happy wherever he goes.” After a pause, he gave me a deep look and asked me : "Do you know why I always look down on Zhao Yue?" I said why, he muttered for a long time, then suddenly raised his voice, saying that you are all gone anyway, so I will tell you all, "I caught her with a The man opened the room." My head buzzed, I opened my mouth wide and couldn't speak.The big head threw down the cigarette butt, turned his back to me and walked away, saying as he walked, "She also said that as long as I don't tell you, she can do whatever she wants."

I am like an involuntary puppet, laughing and crying on the stage with the lights on and off. When every disguised expression is deeply engraved on my dilapidated face, I finally find that there is no one in the auditorium. Finally, the curtain fell slowly, leaving me babbling and dancing in the dark night alone.I am 28 years old and I feel so old for the first time.I called Zhao Yue to say that I was going to Shanghai. She was stunned for a moment, as if she didn't know what to say, and after a long time she asked, "Then when will you come back?" She seemed very sad.My heart moved, and I remembered that when she graduated, she hugged my neck and cried, saying: "Even if you don't want me anymore, I will go to Chengdu to rely on you!" At that moment, I really wanted to give up my plan.But thinking of Wang Datou's words, his heart was as hard as a stone again.I sighed and said, what else in Chengdu is worth my nostalgia?I left and didn't want to come back.After speaking, he sucked his nose twice.Zhao Yue burst into tears on the other side of the phone, I quietly hung up the phone, and saw a dirty face in the mirror smiling coldly.