Chapter 16 Chapter Fifteen We Are Like This, Going to the End of the World

Boss Ma and I met again the next day.During the dinner at XX's house, I clearly stated my attitude.As long as he pays me a 6% kickback, I will help him settle the purchase case.And you have to pay me for a year.Boss Ma immediately agreed, and the straightforwardness was unbelievable.But he said that now he can only call me a million at most, and the rest of the money will take a while to pay me.I think one million is enough for me to cheer up in front of Bai Lin, and it should also make Bai Lu recover from her illness.I didn't say much right now. Two days later, Boss Ma transferred a million dollars into my account. NND, I actually became a millionaire just like that, TM is more dependent on luck than winning a lottery ticket!After I was really sure that I already had a seven-figure net worth, I actually regretted it again.This money is really too much, if not done, I may be killed by this money.But after thinking about it again, Boss Yima and his company are indeed qualified to cooperate with our company, not to mention Jiang Nan occasionally covering them.Besides, if this money can be used to exchange Bai Lin's love for me, and if this money can be used to cure Bai Lu's illness, it will be worth it even if I am crushed to death.Damn, tough life doesn't need an explanation!

The day after I got the kickback, I went to Shanghai, but when I came to Bai Lu's ward again, the person living there was no longer Bai Lu.After inquiring, they found out that Bai Lu had been discharged from the hospital two days ago. When taking the elevator down to the hospital downstairs, thinking about what Bai Lin said in the elevator that day, I was afraid of the dark in my heart.The last time I came here, was Bai Lu still lying down?It's not been a few days, why did you leave the hospital?Could it be that Bai Lin is avoiding me on purpose?Maybe the next time I see Bai Lin, I will change my name to Mrs. Gao.

Xiangzhuo left the hospital and walked on the street, feeling more and more depressed.Immediately, he took out his mobile phone and dialed Bai Lu's number, but it turned off.Called Bai Lin's cell phone with an anonymous phone, but it was still turned off.Depend on!I got money, committed a crime, and betrayed Jiang Nan, but Bai Lin and Bai Lu actually disappeared. Isn't this a waste of risk? After leaving Shanghai, my heart was empty and I always felt uneasy.Where did Bai Lin Bai Lu go?Are they transferred?Or another base in Shanghai?Suddenly I remembered Lao Xing. When Bai Lu was hospitalized last time, he was responsible for bringing some expenses for Bai Lin. If Bai Lin and the others had other strongholds in Shanghai, Lao Xing might know about it.

The first thing I did after returning home was to find Lao Xing.In fact, the reason why I was so anxious to find Lao Xing was because I wanted to know Bai Lin's stronghold in Shanghai.Secondly, I want to ask Lao Xing whether the time he said about Bai Lin was related to an orgasm. (No matter what Bai Lin said, I still can't believe that she really had the orgasm~~~) But the old Xing's mobile phone actually said that it had been shut down. MD, what should I do?Why don't you go find him yourself.Recalling that Bai Lu said before that Lao Xing is a teacher of the Computer Department of X University, I should go to X University to find him.

I went to X University the next afternoon.Because I am in charge of the procurement case now, it is very convenient to go out to the company, and no one dares to say I am.When I arrived at X University, I inquired and found the floor where the office of the Department of Computer Science was located. To be honest, I was still a little nervous when I came here to look for Lao Xing.So I didn't dare to knock on the door and ask clearly.It's the beginning of office by office.It was very quiet in the office building, most of the office doors were closed, only a few were open.I glanced through all the offices with open doors, but I didn't find Lao Xing.Just as I was about to dare to knock on the door to ask, suddenly the door squeaked, and someone came out of an office.Because the door was open, I could hear someone talking in that office.It was a woman's voice: Teacher Xing, where are you going to spend your honeymoon?

After hearing this, Lao Tzu's heart immediately moved, and he walked quickly to that office.And the person who just left the office didn't close the door. He probably went to the bathroom and was about to come back, so he didn't close the door. I came to the door and looked inside, and sure enough, I saw Lao Xing sitting at a desk, talking to a woman who looked like a female teacher: I plan to go to Hainan, or Yunnan... As I talked, Lao Xing Inexplicably, I glanced at the door with my head, shit, it happened to meet me.The guy was stunned for a while, and after a while, he seemed to remember who I am, and his face immediately turned as ugly as it could be.I thought to myself, fuck it, he's already here anyway, and if I have anything to say, I'll ask him face to face.Immediately, he smiled awkwardly at the old Xing, and said: Teacher Xing, I have something to do with you, can you come out and talk about it?

When I left the office building, I was still thinking about the situation when I talked with Lao Xing just now.It seems that Lao Xing's favorite person is still Bai Lin, because when I said that Bai Lin was going to marry Gao Gao, that girl's face was as ugly as if she had been bloodletted.Originally, that girl was very hostile to me, but after hearing that, her hostility towards me became much less.At first he had a straight face and said nothing, but after hearing that, he was willing to talk to me.Maybe he thinks that he and I are both losers, so he feels a bit like the same people who have fallen into the world.

During the conversation with Lao Xing, I learned that Bai Lin really had an affair with Orgasm, about four or five years ago.And Lao Xing also knew it by accident. He once quarreled with Bai Lin about this, and he also started to step on the two boats at that time.As for Bai Lin's stronghold in Shanghai, Lao Xing actually said that he didn't know.I do not know it is true or not.As for the reason why he broke up with Bai Lin this time, I didn't ask in detail, because it involved me after all.And from Lao Xing's words, I can vaguely feel that he thinks that the main reason why he and Bai Lin broke up is not because of him, but because of me.

Depend on!It would be great if Bai Lin broke up with Lao Xing because of me!I walked on the campus of X University, thinking silently in my heart.It was already around four o'clock in the afternoon, and the campus was full of sunshine, giving it a bright spring feel.I felt lazy, melancholy, and resentful in my heart, and when I recalled Lao Xing's Indian tortoise-like face just now, I wanted to laugh.Damn it seems like the honeymoon is coming soon, I hope he can have a good mood.If he was thinking wildly, he looked around.As he was walking, he suddenly heard someone yelling.Subconsciously looked up, there was a girl standing not far away, she was taken aback for a moment and then remembered: Isn't this the MM who sat on the stage at XX Leisure Plaza?

The MM seemed very excited after seeing me, and kept waving at me.As I walked towards her, I thought to myself: Could it be that this MM also fell in love with me?Depend on!It seems that I have been refreshed and upgraded to a girl killer! After approaching, she smiled faintly at the MM, and the MM said: I found you!One sentence made me fool around, and the MM felt a little embarrassed after she said it, blushed slightly, and said hastily: I'm looking for you for something else. If it was different from usual, I would definitely make a joke: Then what were you thinking just now?But where can I bring up that feeling now?So I asked: What's the matter?The MM said: Do you remember what happened last time?You better not trust the two guys that went singing with you that time!After you left that night, they were muttering in the box, as if they were saying bad things about you. Although I couldn't hear you clearly, I think they seemed to want to hurt you or something... Also... those two people are disgusting ... Speaking of which, that MM blushed even more.

My heart skipped a beat, and I thought to myself that maybe the mules and horses did something to this MM in the box!As for the MM saying that they want to harm me, it's okay, because I really can't find a reason for the horse boss and the mule to deal with me.Probably I rejected Boss Ma that day, so they said something bad about me after I left, which is fine.At the moment, I didn't think about it too much. Seeing the MM standing in front of her still blushing, she seemed to be shy about what she said just now, and thought to herself that you are so shy that you would go to KTV to sing along?So I couldn't help but ask: Why do you work in that kind of place? The MM's eyes turned red, and she said: My family has no money, and my two younger brothers are also in high school... My heart sank immediately when I heard this, and I remembered Bai Lin's words in the elevator.Alas, I don't know when this society has been ruled by money, but who is responsible for it? Although I didn't find Bai Lin's stronghold in Shanghai, I still went to Shanghai this weekend and searched in various major hospitals, but I still couldn't find Bai Lin, Bai Lu and the others.When I went back to work again on Monday, I found that Jiang Nan had already returned.Maybe it's because I did something wrong to Jiang Nan, I always feel that Jiang Nan looks at me strangely, and seems extremely displeased with me.I was trembling all morning, always wanting to talk to Jiang Nan to test the situation, but I never found a chance.As soon as he went to work in the afternoon, Jiang Nan walked in from the office with a serious face. Xiao Zhao!She didn't go directly into her small office, but called me: Come in later, I have something to talk to you. K!My heart suddenly mentioned Lao Gao: Jiang Nan seems to have a very bad expression?Could it be that my kickbacks were exposed?Impossible?Although I took Boss Ma's money, I haven't settled the procurement case for him at all!Even if it is really going to be exposed, TM has not come yet!why?Is it a matter of small stones? Thinking wildly in her heart, she followed Jiang Nan into her office. Because I had a ghost in my heart, I immediately asked after entering the office: How is it?President Jiang.Is the little stone thing done? When I said this, Jiang Nan was still facing me. When I finished speaking, Jiang Nan had already turned around. Zhao drives the donkey!Jiang Nan's cold voice rang in my ears, and I suddenly noticed that Jiang Nan's expression was many times uglier than before: What did you do when I was not in the company? No... no... I suddenly remembered the thing that I mistakenly sent a pornographic text message to Jiang Nan's mobile phone. At this time, my heart was 10,000 times more afraid than then.This time it is a serious criminal offense~~ Is it because I trust you so much?Hmph, but you, what a good thing you did? No... I didn't do anything?I was already terribly afraid at this moment, but I couldn't figure it out, I hadn't helped Lao Ma settle the purchase case at all, even if this matter was going to be overturned, it couldn't be so early!Could it be something else?But otherwise I didn't do anything bad?So I still deny it. Jiang Nan sneered twice, and suddenly took out a stack of papers from his jacket pocket, and threw it at me: "Look, what is this?" When I saw my stack of papers clearly, my brain slammed and I almost fell to the ground. There was a voice in my heart shouting: "End of the bird, end of the bird!"This time it's completely over! The stack of papers that Jiang Nan threw to me was nothing but a copy of the transfer receipt that Boss Ma gave me! I never expected Jiang Nan to be so powerful. He had grasped the evidence of the crime as soon as he came back. It was useless to say anything now. I had no choice but to stand without saying a word, thinking to myself in my heart: Whatever it is, things have come to this point anyway, so do whatever you like! "You let me down!" Jiang Nan seemed to want to say something, but held back.The disappointment and sadness on her face were far greater than the pain. I lowered my head, not daring to look at her expression anymore.At this moment, I still think of that annoying Bai Lin: I have done so many things for her, will she know?Will he laugh at me if he knows? "Zhao drive the donkey!" Jiang Nan called out my name again, and then she paused, as if making some difficult decision, "You are fired now! The one million you charged should be paid right away. To the company, and also, I can’t guarantee that the company won’t report the crime!” Jiang Nan’s three sentences were like three sap shots, hitting me one after another, and each time was more dark than the other.expulsion?pay?Still want to report?Jiang Nan, Jiang Nan.You are too ruthless!Yes, what I did was unkind, but I regretted it after I did it, and I didn't move a cent!I didn't help Boss Ma with the procurement case, so you're just like this?You can pay.It's okay to fire, but there's no need to say it out of your mouth!With our friendship, even if you don't help me.It's not like adding insult to injury!Still want to report? (I almost didn't cry, I don't want to go to jail!) After Jiang Nan said these words.She ignored me, sat down on her own chair, and turned around slightly.The chair turned around, and the back of the chair blocked her, only some coiled hair was faintly exposed. It seemed that she made it clear that she didn't want to listen to my explanation anymore. I was regretful, shocked, sad, and is angry.What I regret is that I did a childish thing impulsively, and what I am ashamed is that I have let down Jiang Nan's trust in me.It is sad that Jiang Nan is so ruthless.What is angry is that Jiang Nan is so heartless!I stood there staring at Jiang Nan's seat for three or four minutes.I don't know what to do, whether to leave or stay and say a few words of apology to Jiang Nan.While hesitating, Jiang Nan's voice sounded again: "Have you left yet? You can take your own things, but you can't take away the company's things, the security will monitor you!" Originally, I wanted to apologize to her, but I didn't expect her to say such a sentence.I was provoked by her, and my donkey temper immediately came up, and I said coldly: "I have nothing to take!" After saying that, I turned and walked out. Just as I turned around, I suddenly remembered that the mobile phone in my pocket was given by Jiang Nan, damn it , that is not my own thing, give it back to her!Immediately took out the mobile phone, turned around and placed it on Jiang Nan's table.No, it seems that Jiang Nan gave me the suit I'm wearing today, take it off and give it back to her!The same goes for the trousers, take them off...forget it, let's return them later... I almost left the company naked.The outside world is sunny and full of spring.My heart is cold, so far, my last safe haven is gone, all because of Bai Lin, but she is probably having sex with Mr. Gao now!Oh shit!Jiang Nan is really amazing, she won't really call the police... After returning home, without further ado, he first transferred the money to the company, then returned to his residence, only waiting for Uncle Police to arrive.To be honest, I was tempted to abscond with money, but looking at Jiang Nan, she has grasped all the situation, if I run away with money, she will immediately report to the police, so I only hesitated and decided to stay and wait for death.There is still a very strange idea in my heart, I really want to go to jail, I want to see what kind of expression Jiang Nan will have when he sees me in prison.I also want to know what Bai Lin would think if she knew that I was in jail... I have been bored at home for more than a week, but the police uncle did not come, it seems that Jiang Nan let me go.She let me go, but I have no money anymore. I am a complete salaryman. In the past, the company would pay wages at this time, so I can still make the transition.No matter how bad it is, Jiang Nan will lend me money.but now?Damn, the most hateful thing is Mule's aunt, who wants to increase the rent now?Damn, he never answers the phone calls of that bitch Mule, I don't know what the hell he's doing! Seeing that I couldn't even uncover the pot, I had no choice but to start looking for work everywhere.It was April 1st in a blink of an eye, and there was still no progress in finding a job.It was another day of looking for a job that day, and at night, I wandered alone on the street.Thinking about what happened these days, what a "bad" word. Turning around in the street, I suddenly turned to the park that Bai Lin asked me to go to for the first time.As soon as I got there, I immediately thought of Bai Lin.When I think of her, she always calls me Xiao Zhao softly.Just as he was thinking, "Xiao Zhao" came from behind him.female voice!It's a female voice!Could it be Bai Lin?I turned around in a hurry, and couldn't help but be taken aback when I saw it.The person who called me was not Bai Lin, but the super busty Chen Yourong from the purchasing department. I was stunned for a while, and then I was a little embarrassed and said: "Sister Chen, it's you!" Remembering that I was the one who made a mistake and was fired after all, seeing my old colleagues was somewhat embarrassing.Chen Yourong didn't show any contempt, and said with a smile, "Do you think it's Jiang Nan?" I was a little surprised when I heard it, it was Jiang Nan who fired me, why would she still say that I thought it was Jiang Nan? "Xiao Zhao!" I was thinking here, and Chen Yourong had already approached me, and said, "Why is it so bad? What is this job to you? You are really good at making Jiang Nan treat you That!" I can do it!Damn Jiang Nan kicked me out of the company!Just as he was thinking bitterly, Chen Yourong said again: "But this time, Mule was actually taken advantage of and made him the head of the purchasing department..." What? Chen Yourong's words made my heart skip a beat, and I immediately realized that something was wrong, and said immediately: "Mule? How is it possible? He can't be ranked in terms of qualifications, conduct and ability! Besides, Jiang Nan still In charge of the purchasing department!" "You really don't know if you don't know?" Chen Yourong stared at me with wide eyes, as if he was looking at a monster from an alien. "What do you really don't know and don't know?" I asked. "Jiang Nan resigned for you, you still don't know?" "What?" This time it was my turn to look at her with the expression Chen Yourong looked at me just now, Jiang Nan resigned?for me?how is this possible?I was fired by her personally! "Damn it, today seems to be April Fool's Day, this boba is not playing tricks on me!" "Hey." Chen Yourong seemed to have expected this kind of reaction from me, and moved closer, so close that I felt a little unaccustomed, and then she said mysteriously: There have been rumors in the company that someone who came out of you After the incident, the high-level executives held a special meeting to discuss your matter. The climax was to report the case, but Jiang Nan resisted it.But you went too far this time, and you actually made so much money.Even Jiang Nan can't cover you!In the end, I don't know what secret agreement Gao Chao and Jiang Nan reached.Then, Jiang Nan offered to resign, which is considered to have saved you! ". After listening to Chen Yourong's words, I felt very ashamed and happy in my head.I am ashamed that I have been angry with Jiang Nan for this matter.Little did she know that she resigned because of me!She is different from me, she is a high-level!Joy is because Jiang Nan is kind to me.Now I have been abandoned by Bai Lu Bailin one after another, and Jiang Nan is my last port of call, but after my Dong Chuang incident was revealed, I didn't expect that she would fire me personally, and she would not listen to my explanation at all, which made me very annoyed.Now that I know what she sacrificed for me, the warmth in my heart goes without saying. After breaking up with Chen Yourong, I immediately got into a phone booth to call Jiang Nan, but after picking up the phone, I realized that I didn't remember Jiang Nan's number at all.I stayed in the phone booth for a while, and suddenly remembered my number, and returned my card and mobile phone to Jiang Nan.It's better to call a number, maybe you can get through.Thinking of this, he immediately dialed his own number, but unexpectedly it got through. After a beeping sound, Jiang Nan's voice rang out from the other end: "Hello!" "Sister!" After hearing Jiang Nan's voice, I remembered how kind she was to me, so I couldn't help it, and burst into tears. After meeting Jiang Nan, I understood everything.In fact, the reason why Jiang Nan was transferred to our company this time was because the scum surnamed Lin wanted to ruin the orgasm.Before Jiang Nan came, the director of our company's purchasing department and the buyers were fired because of economic problems, and that director was the person who climaxed.And the real person in charge of the procurement case is Gao Gao.Scumbag Lin originally wanted to take advantage of that incident to bring Gao Chao down, but Gao Chao is not just for nothing, he came to recruit Che Baoshuai, and wedged Jiang Nan's nail in it.The purpose of Jiang Nan's visit is very simple, that is to get rid of the orgasm.But after Gao Chao went through that incident, Jiang Nan was careful everywhere but failed to catch him. Since the climax was due to the bluff in my procurement case, he no longer intervened in this matter in order to clear it up.After Jiang Nan took over, she was also very careful in this matter, afraid of being bitten by the orgasm, so she didn't finish it for a long time.But recently the head office began to press, and Jiang Nan had to go abroad again because of the little stone, so he handed over this matter to me. As soon as Jiang Nan left, Gao Gao knew the time had come.There is no way to deal with Jiang Nan, but he is still easy to deal with such a tender hand as me.So the matter of Boss Ma appeared.It was a trap from the beginning, from the mule tricking me into seeing Boss Ma, to Boss Ma saying he would give me money, everything was a scam.I said how could such a good thing happen?Boss Ma would pay such a heavy cost for a small buyer like me, everything was so easy, as if the director had prepared it.Alas, I also blame myself for being stupid for not seeing through such a simple and deceitful thing.The final result of this matter was that I was fired, Jiang Nan withdrew, and Gao Chao regained power.The most irritating thing is that the bastard mule actually became the head of the procurement department because of this. (It’s really unreasonable! Next time I see this bad guy, I will definitely turn him down like a bald Materazzi!) This matter is not complicated at all. Although there are many details that Jiang Nan did not explain clearly, I still guessed the general idea.She drove to the phone booth to pick me up. When I understood everything, we were still in the car. Jiang Nan was driving in the city at night. When she said this, her face was tired and numb.It seems that she has long been used to or disgusted with these office politics.I sat next to her, thinking about things silently; now that Jiang Nan is forced out, Gao Gao can be regarded as the head of the branch company, so that Bai Lin will love him even more? Just about to ask, Jiang Nan suddenly said: "Xiao Zhao! Have you found a job yet?" "Not yet." I said. Jiang Nan said: "Then you can accompany me to play elsewhere tomorrow! I have never been so relaxed." "Where are you going?" Seeing the expectation on Jiang Nan's face, I agreed to her without thinking. "Zhenjiang." She said, her tone was light, and she couldn't hear any feeling. "Zhenjiang?" I couldn't help being stunned. To be honest, our place has been a prosperous place since ancient times. There are too many places to visit around. Zhenjiang is so ordinary in this area. How could she want to go there? Woolen cloth? On the morning of the third day after the reconciliation with Jiang Nan, we drove to Zhenjiang together.Zhenjiang is located at the confluence of the Yangtze River and the Beijing-Hangzhou Grand Canal, facing Yangzhou in the north across the Yangtze River.Although it is very close to the place where I work, I have never been there. I only know that the vinegar there is very famous. It took less than an hour to drive Jiang Nan's BMW to Zhenjiang Road.When he arrived in Zhenjiang, the expression on Jiang Nan's face became strange, and he stared blankly at the scene outside the car, as if he was very scared and nostalgic.I'm driving.One side is strange.Just thinking about whether to ask her, Jiang Nan spoke. "Xiao Zhao." She said, her tone was as complicated as her expression: "You know what? I am from Zhenjiang. Hehe, I used to play on this road when I was young. Look, there is Lu Su's tomb. The Lu Su in the Romance of the Three Kingdoms... Also, there is Mengxi Square over there, there is a Shen Kuo who wrote "Mengxi Bi Tan", do you know..." She said sometimes, sometimes silent, I suddenly remembered my hometown, I also remembered the famous sentence of Kobayashi Issa, a Japanese haiku master: "My hometown, when you touch each other, are all flowers with thorns." Under Jiang Nan's guidance, I drove to a place called "Yiquan Hotel" to check in.When I first heard the name of the hotel, I thought it was a bit funny, but after listening to Jiang Nan's introduction, I realized that the famous "Zhongling Spring", the first spring in the world, is near the hotel. It was almost noon when we arrived at the hotel, and we had lunch at the hotel. Jiang Nan said that she had something to do, so I let me take a stroll by myself, and then drove away.After Jiang Nan left, I stayed in the room and watched TV for a while, but then I was really bored, so I went out, wanting to see what the No. The most famous Jinshan scenery in Zhenjiang immediately became interesting. Starting from the hotel, walk along Taying Lake, first swim Zhongling Spring, then go to Guo Pu's tomb, all the way to Jinshan.When we got close to Jinshan, we found that the famous Jinshan was only 40 to 50 meters high, and it looked like a snail in the past, feeling very small. Because today is Saturday and it is the Ching Ming Festival, there are many people at the foot of Jinshan Mountain.Most of them looked like students, probably organized by the school for a spring outing.I mixed among them, wandering with the flow of people.From time to time, I will hear them say that they have reached a certain place.Walking and walking, a bridge appeared in front of my eyes, like a jade belt, and green waves under the bridge were rippling, clear and refreshing. Some students said: "We've arrived at Bailong Cave, we've arrived at Bailong Cave, let's go to see Lady Bai." I was startled when I heard that, so I followed them forward.There was a hole beside the bridge, and the students went in.I also followed in.After entering, I heard them say that this cave is dedicated to the white lady, that is, the white snake, the one that floods the golden mountain.I saw the stone statue of the White Lady in the cave. Looking at the statue, I suddenly thought of Bai Lin. At that time, I felt like a knife was cutting my heart.I made it so miserable this time, she didn't say to come and see me, what a ruthless person! When I came out of Bailong Cave, my mood was completely different from when I came here, and I didn't go to Jinshan Temple, but returned to the hotel.Not long after returning to the hotel, Jiang Nan also came back, her expression was a little gloomy, she didn't know what to do in the afternoon.When eating in the evening, Jiang Nan ordered a lot of wine and kept drinking.Because I was also very depressed, I also drank a lot. After dinner, return to the room.As soon as the door was closed, Bai Lin was remembered again.In fact, I followed Jiang Nan out to relax, and I also wanted to force myself to forget about that ruthless woman.But I couldn't do it at all. When I saw the portrait of the white lady, I thought of Bai Lin.Knowing that Yangzhou is across the river, I will also think of Bai Lin once said that I am her cousin from Yangzhou, and I will also remember her when I take the elevator in the hotel. In short, anything can remind me of Bai Lin. After lying on the bed in the room for a long time, she still couldn't get rid of Bai Lin's entanglement.Immediately push the door out of the room and take a walk by Taying Lake.It was night now, and a crescent moon was hanging in the sky.The moonlight streamed down like quicksilver, covering the surroundings in a quiet and hazy environment. Wandering by the lake, looking at the shadows on the ground moving back and forth with him from time to time, a dreamlike feeling suddenly arose in his chest. Everything became blurred, as if it was completely unreal. After walking by the lake for about half an hour, I suddenly heard someone calling me "Xiao Zhao".It was Jiang Nan's voice, and when I looked up, I saw Jiang Nan looking at me from a distance.Under the night, she felt somewhat alone.Her long hair is tied up, the hairstyle that Bai Lin often wears. She is wearing a moon white top and green skirt, which seems to be Bai Lin's favorite clothing.Her face was slightly flushed, she had a very gentle and gentle expression, that temperament was very similar to Bai Lin's.In fact, the reason why I have feelings for Jiang Nan is because she resembles Bai Lin when she is gentle.If Bai Lu and Bai Lin are similar in appearance, then Jiang Nan is similar in spirit to Bai Lin. Now that I saw Jiang Nan's appearance, I almost didn't take it for Bai Lin.She smiled at me not far away: "Xiao Zhao, you came out too! I knew I would be with you." Then she walked towards me, and I also walked towards her foolishly.When he got closer, he could faintly smell the perfume on Jiang Nan's body. Damn, that's the brand of perfume that Bai Lin often used.I really don't know what happened to Jiang Nan today, but I feel exactly the same as Bai Lin. In a trance, Jiang Nan said again: "The environment here is pretty good, let's live here for a while!" I was slightly startled, not knowing why Jiang Nan said this.Suddenly a gust of night wind blows, the willows, the wind, and even Jiang Nan and I become poetic. He and Jiang Nan strolled by the lake for a while, and then turned back to the hotel.During this period, Jiang Nan gave me the feeling of lightness, softness, and quietness, no longer the arrogance, coldness, and arrogance of the past.Walking with her, I would unconsciously regard her as Bai Lin from time to time, and she became the gentle, calm, quiet and elegant Bai Lin. After returning to the room, he lay down on the bed and continued to think about Bai Lin in his mind.And Jiang Nan, who was so sensual under the moonlight just now, would appear from time to time. In the end, I found that I couldn't tell the difference between Jiang Nan and Bai Lin. Walking down the lake, I was in a daze, when the phone in the room rang.I was pulled out of the picture by the ringtone, and reached out to grab the receiver on the bed. "Hello" Jiang Nan's voice came from the other end, "Xiao Zhao?" "Ok." "Come over to my room for a while, the stereo on my side doesn't work for some reason, please help me check it out." "OK, all right." Hang up the phone, get out of bed, go to the door of Jiang Nan's room next door, knock on the door, the door almost opens in response, it seems that Jiang Nan is waiting for me behind that door.And when I saw Jiang Nan inside the door, I couldn't help holding my breath. I dare to put my head into the crocodile's mouth and swear, the woman in front of me is the sexiest and most moving woman I have ever seen in my life.The hair has been loosened, hanging like a black waterfall.She was wearing a loose silver nightgown with a V-shaped neckline so low that she could faintly see the ditch.And that figure, face and this nightgown and black hair are undoubtedly a perfect match, as well as the very familiar faint scent coming from her body, all these are enough to make any man dream about it.My heart rate doubled immediately, my head felt dizzy for a while, my throat felt unusually dry, and I wanted to swallow saliva. In addition, my legs also felt a little trembling, and I was a little scared.I have a vague feeling that a major historical event will happen today, which may become a turning point and milestone in my life. Seeing my stupid look, Jiang Nan smiled silently, and became more and more charming, "Come in!" she said, "What are you doing standing outside the door?" I just came back to my senses, my heart moved inexplicably, and my face couldn't help turning red. Seeing my blushing, Jiang Nan looked at me with a slightly deep look in his eyes.I was reddened by her stare, and was embarrassed, Jiang Nan said again: "Xiao Zhao, come and see my stereo, why can't it play?" I just remembered Jiang Nan's purpose for coming to me. As she came to the place where the stereo was playing, she bent down to look.Jiang Nan stood behind me and looked at me.To be honest, I haven't had much contact with the audio system. After bending down and pressing it for a while, I tried to reach out and press the play button.The stereo sounded immediately without any delay, and the music that came out was Jiang Nan's favorite song "Yesterday". Seeing that the stereo was actually good, I stood up straight behind me, turned around, and was about to say: "Sound It's good." Unexpectedly, Jiang Nan hugged me, and then she posted the whole thing up.Then my mouth was suddenly blocked by something fragrant and soft. what!The moment I was kissed by Jiang Nan, I realized that I had been fooled by Jiang Nan. She didn't want me to watch the stereo at all, but wanted to seduce me. Her kiss was extremely intense, not like the time she kissed me in the car at night. .Rather, it resembled the kiss Bai Lin gave in the elevator.She hugged me very tightly, very hard, which is very similar to Bai Lin that day.And the smell of perfume on her body is the same as Bai Lin's. Suddenly I felt like I was back in the hospital elevator, and it seemed that it was Bai Lin who kissed me no longer Jiang Nan.I couldn't control my lust anymore, I hugged Jiang Nan's waist with my backhand, and then kissed her back.The lights in the room were on, casting shadows on the wall for me and Jiang Nan.When Paul McCarthy's singing and guitar, the two shadows are entangled, and finally it is difficult to distinguish each other. I slept with Jiang Nan.Maybe it's because I'm too depressed during this time, and I crave stimulation.Maybe it's the many wines I drank at dinner, and now they are working, maybe it's because Bai Lin's ruthlessness made me want to take revenge on her, or maybe it's because I want to repay Jiang Nan in this way.Or today Jiang Nan and Bai Lin are too similar, I can't tell them apart, in short, Jiang Nan and I made love, almost the whole night, our shadows separated and rejoined on the wall, Paul's voice played back and forth on the stereo The sound, my panting, Jiang Nan's moans, the beautiful moonlight outside the window, the beautiful spring night, this is my first night. I don't remember how many times I did it with Jiang Nan, I only know that every time I have an orgasm, I always think of our scene by the lake, the moonlight, willows, lake water, wind, me and Jiang Nan (Bai Lin?) Looking at each other in silence. Since that night, Jiang Nan and I have been officially together. Every day during the day, we look around and look for Jiang Nan's childhood memories in the water streets and alleys of Zhenjiang.Or play around Jiaoshan, Beigushan and Nanshan, and drive across the Runyang Bridge on the fourth day.Go to Yangzhou to play.When crossing the bridge, Jiang Nan said that there used to be no bridge here. Although Zhenyang and Yangzhou are only separated by a river, it was still very troublesome in the past. When I arrived in Yangzhou, my mood suddenly became complicated. Mom, didn’t Bai Lin say that I was Is it from Yangzhou? I spent a day in Yangzhou, visited Slender West Lake, Daming Temple, ate famous Huai tea and Yangzhou snacks, did not go back to Zhenjiang that night, and stayed directly at Xiyuan Hotel near Slender West Lake.那里比在镇江的住所又显高档，那种宝贵豪奢的环境愈发刺激人的性欲，当晚免不了又是一番大战。浴室里，客厅里，床上，几乎套房里的每个地方都留下我们战斗过的痕迹。不知怎的，我觉得蒋楠今晚特别疯狂，然后我们一起躺在床上，她的头枕着我的胳膊，面朝着我，有些倦倦的样子，我盯着她的樱唇，想着她唇间的甜蜜，心里忍不住一动，起了点变态的想法。当下对蒋楠道：“你听没听过一句写扬州的诗？” 什么诗？蒋楠没想到我会在这当口上和她谈诗，语气不由有些惊讶。 “杜牧的。”我说：“二十四桥明月夜，玉人何处教吹萧。”说罢就盯着她的小嘴，脸上微微有些坏笑。 蒋楠的脸一下红了，然后白了我风情万种的一眼，道：“我不想动，你要是想的话，你就调个头。” 我心中大喜，没想到蒋楠真的答应了，当下就准备起身调个头。可转念又一想，我就算调个头，那也是脚对着蒋楠的小嘴，正想问，听风蒋楠在笑，于是道：哼！差点上当了，我的那什么又不是长在脚上！蒋楠听了笑得更加厉害，忽然，她像是想起了什么，对我道：“你要是大象就好了！” “大象？”我一愣。心道：这又关大象什么事儿了？ “怎么？你忘了？”将楠见我没反应，又道：“以前你经我发过一个短信的！” faint!我这才想起自己曾给蒋楠发过一个黄色短信，靠！我早就把这件事忘得干干净净了，没想到蒋楠居然还记得。 “呵呵。”我笑道：“当时我是发错了，那时我好怕好怕的啊。” “我知道你是发错了。”蒋楠道，语气忽然奇怪起来，“你以前不是老是故意发错短信给我吗？” 听到蒋楠这句话，我的心里猛地一紧，怎么我说蒋楠怎么会这么疯狂呢？原来她一直把我当做了那个男孩！可转念一想，我不是也把她当成白琳了吗？一想到白琳，我的心又开始一阵一阵地发痛。 第二天中午吃过饭，我们才回镇江。回转的路上，蒋楠像是想起了什么，从她的皮包里掏出一个手机对我道：“小赵！我真晕，一直都没想起来把这个手机还给你，你的卡还在里面呢！”说着手机递了过来，我一面开车，一面斜眼观瞧，果然是她以前送给我的那个N记的手机。当下伸手接了过来。 回到住处，蒋楠叫我先回房间，说她还有事，独自开车出去了。我回到房间刚坐定，怀里手机就响了，《Yesterday》的音乐，是蒋楠的电话。“喂！”当下接听了电话，只听那头传来的蒋楠怅怅的声音“小赵！对不起！” “什么？”我不由一愣，道：“什么对不起？” “我要走了！”蒋楠道：“我准备和林结婚，然后去墨尔本。” “什么？”她的这句话可真真出乎我的意料之外。“那小石头怎么办？还有我呢？”我在这头大叫。 蒋楠不答，隔了一会儿，她在那头挂断了电话，在电话挂断的瞬间，似乎有哇的一声哭泣从那头传过来。我心中大急，当下不停地回拨电话，可蒋楠总不接，正在我无计可施的时候，她突然发了一个短信给我：“小赵！你看下手机文件夹，那里有我给你的一封信。” “小赵！”蒋楠在手机文件夹里留经我的那封信是这样写的：“其实这些事情我是想当面跟你说清楚的，但是我没有说出来，我很快就要跟林结婚了，就是那个姓林的人渣，你肯定也知道他吧！你不要吃醋哦，我嫁给他并不是因为我爱他，而是因为我恨他，我要报复他。他虽然五十来岁了，可是并没儿子，他一直想要个儿子继承他的财产，呵呵，这几天是我的危险期，我之所以会在这几天和你上床，就是想能够怀上的孩子，虽然我们在一起的时间并不长，但是每一晚你都很疯狂，我想我肯定怀上你的孩子。等三个月以后，只要能判断我怀上了男孩，我就会和林结婚，我要让他给我们养儿子，更要他把所有的财产都留我我们的儿子，我会在他临死的那一刻把真相告诉他，让他死不瞑目！” 看到这里，即便是我也异常讨厌的人渣林，但也不由得背脊上直冒凉气，我不知道那贱人对蒋楠做过什么样变态的事情，会导致蒋楠如此恨他。 “至于小石头……”继续住下翻，继续读：“我这次去新加坡并没有找到他，我想我可能永远也找不到他了……”读着读着，小石头的样子就在我的脑海里冒了出来，那个小浣熊一样可爱的，大声地喊我舅舅的小男孩，他会去了哪里呢？蓦地心里又是一动，“蒋楠会给我生儿子的另一个原因就是她已经失去了小石头，所以她才会想要另一个孩子。” “小赵！”又翻过一页，蒋楠突然笔锋一转：“有一件事情说出来你别生气，好吗？其实很多时间我都是把你当做了那个人。你们两个太像了，所以我无法分别你们，嘻，我也是挺喜欢你的，真的。不过我想你也不会太难过的，因为你爱的人不是我，而是白琳，对吗？” 她终于要离开了，呵呵，难怪她非要我和她来镇江，她是想在出国前再最后看一下感受一下自己的家乡。现在她走了，我又是一个人了。我在手机里找到了那首《Yesterday》，点击播放。在自己的吉他和歌声里，我发现我忽然明白了蒋楠。其实蒋楠一直都活在昨天，还有，她想怀的，肯定也是那个为她而死的男孩的儿子。 我在一泉宾馆呆了一晚，第二天坐车返回。退房的时候，才知道蒋楠在宾馆总台寄存了一万多块钱，用的是我的名字，她想得进是周到，知道我现在没钱，所以预先做了准备。 回去之后我就另找了一处房子，搬出骡子那贱人大姨妈家。日子依然是颓废加迷茫。我几乎每天都会给蒋楠去电话，但蒋楠总是关机，于是只好给她发短信，便却又觉得没有什么可写的，我也想白琳，我给陈有容打过电话，问白琳回公司了没有，陈有容说没，还说人事部已经有风声白琳会调到上海总公司。郁闷的时候我会想起白璐，她的病好了没有？她和她那个同学还会有发展吗？她还会想我吗？如此过了十多天，天气已经开始变热。五一前的最后一个周六的中午，忽然接到了一个电话，铃声是《蓝莲花》，当时我正躺在床上睡觉，听到手机响起这个音乐，我一下子就从床上翻了起来，这是白璐的电话？ !我以生平最快的速度接听了电话，那头传来的却是一个陌生的男声：“喂！请问你是赵……赵赶驴吗？” “嗯……”那头的那个男人听见我说我是赵赶驴，沉默了片刻，道：“我叫杨峰，是白璐的同学……” “杨峰”这两个字一进入我的耳朵，我的心就住下一沉，奶奶的，你用白璐的手机给我打电话是什么意思？炫耀吗？正郁闷着，却听那杨峰道：“你明天有空吗？如果有空的话，请你来一趟上海，白璐有些东西托我转交给你。” 白璐？东西？我心中微微一怔，隐隐有种种不祥的预感，当即便道：“白璐呢？她为什么自己不给我？” “白璐上个从已经去了日本了。” “什么？她去日本做什么？” “做手术！”杨峰道：“上次白璐突然晕倒，医生说她的心脏已经快不行了，必须做手术才能活下去！可是手术成功率很低，而东京有家医院在这方面很领先，手术的成功率也比国内高，所以她姐姐和她一起去了日本……” 那小子似乎还想絮絮叨叨地往下说，我一下子打断了他：“你下午有空吗？我现在就过上海去！”从杨峰的话里我隐隐觉得可能有很多事情我都搞错了。 等我到上海的时候已经是下午三点多钟了，下了长途汽车，我立马跳进了一辆的士里，往华师大飞赶。一面给杨峰打电话，打的是白璐的号，他接听了，并约我在他们学校门口见面。 一路上无话，到了华师大门口，那小子果然站在那里等我，他怀里抱着一大本东西，不知道是什么，可手上还勾着一个袋子，难道那些都是白璐给我的东西？一边想，一边下车向杨峰走去，那小子也看见了我，不过他并没有向我走来，瞧得出，他对我全无好感甚至还有些敌意，靠，其实我对他也无甚好感。 等到走近了他，感觉有些怪怪的，很是尴尬，他也似乎不想和我多说什么，把他手里那两样东西往我面前一递，道：“这些全是白璐托我转交给你的，”我微微一怔，略有些茫然地伸手接过，那小子把东西交给我后，转身就走，走了几步停了下来，然后似乎犹豫了一下儿，又一次转身，来到我面前，从怀里掏出一个手机，递给我道：“这是白璐的手机，也还给你！”说完把手机往我手里一塞，转身就跑。 我不由觉得有些奇怪，现在白璐是和他在一起的呀！怎么他望向我的眼光总是带差点儿些嫉妒。还有，他为什么要把白璐的手机还给我呢？我瞅着他仿佛逃也似的背影，突然有间有些喜欢这小子啦。 等杨峰走后，我望了望手中的东西。那本大的是本画册，袋子里装着的则是一个邮包，看上面的字，居然是从日本寄过来的。当下我在学校附近找了家咖啡屋，进去叫了一杯咖啡，然后在桌上看画册。画册里一页一页全是白璐的画。有穿着校服在教室里的，有着长裙站在河畔的，还有抱膝坐在操场边的，有长发的，也有短发的。我翻着翻着，猛地想起自己那天见到杨峰和白璐在一起时的情景，那时的杨峰似乎就背着一个画夹。难道说白璐和杨峰走在一起并不是因为她喜欢他，而只是要他帮自己作画？还有，白璐剪短发也并非是为了忘记我，只是想留给我更多的形象？我越想越觉得就是这样，因为刚才杨峰的表现已经证明了很多事，如果他真和白璐在一起了，他还会用那种嫉妒的眼光看我吗？他还会把白璐的手机还给我吗？难道说白璐根本就没有变过心？ 将画册翻到最后一页，赫然便是白璐躺在病床上的景象！我去看白璐那晚，病房里就有这副，只是当时还没完成。仔细一看，那画的下端用钢笔写着一行小字：“驴娃，我愿做你生命中永远的蓝莲花！” 看到这行字，我终于确定了白璐对我的心。立时鼻尖一酸，眼眶一热，泪水不可阻挡地滚了出来，啪啪两下，有两滴泪落在了画上，正好落在那行小字上，我心中愈发难过，眼泪走珠般不停地住外涌落。 默默哭了好半天，忽然想起那个邮包，那里面又会是什么呢？想着轻轻撕开了包裹，打开之后，傻了，那里面居然是白璐生日那天，白琳托我送给她的那个索尼NW-A605的MP3。 我擦了擦眼泪，把MP3拿了出来，戴上耳机，打开，一阵悠扬的笛声传进耳朵里，那曲调异常的熟识，我心里一阵恍惚，便在这里，笛子变弱，我的声音忽然响了起来，接着是吉他声、鼓声。我心中猛地一跳，这不是我送给白璐作生日礼物的那首《蓝莲花》吗？当时我曾经对白璐说，想让她把这首歌变得完整，那其实是我讨她欢心的把戏，没想到她当真了，而且把这首歌录完整了。 我听着那歌，脑海里禁不住浮想起了白璐生日那晚，她转身大声对我说我愿意的那个画面，我原本就没有止住的眼泪此刻涌落得更加快了，我没有再伸手擦，因为我知道手是挡不住那落下的泪水的。咖啡厅里有些人见我这样都很奇怪地看我，像是在看火星人一样，我根本没心情理睬他们，我的耳机里只有MP3里的歌声，我的脑子里只有白璐的影子。 好久那首歌结束了，我没有关MP3，只是呆呆坐着，隔一会儿，MP3里忽然又响起了一阵吉他声，一入耳，我就听出了那是朴树的《那些花儿》，只不过弹的指法生涩，前奏过后，白璐的声音响了起来“那边笑声让你想起……你的那些花儿……在你生命每个角落静静为你开着……”声音慢慢减弱,但却没有消失，仿佛背景音乐般存在着，然后我听见白璐在我耳朵旁喊驴娃，再然后，我听见白璐的声音开始和我说话。 “驴娃！当你听到我说话的时候，我已经做完手术了，不知道那时候我还在不在人间，我现在在日本东京，我录音的时间是三月二十六日，昨天我去上野公园看樱花了，真是好美好美，我一直是想成为许巍歌中那永不凋零的蓝莲花，可是，我想我大概只是樱花吧。听说日本有句民谚，叫做“樱花七日”，我想等到我手术的时候，这些美丽的花儿恐怕全部都会凋落吧！呵呵，你听到我弹的这首《那些花儿》了吗？各自奔天涯。朴树这词写得多好呀！呜……驴娃，我爱你！我真的很爱很爱你，我跟你说过的，我爱你，从我第一次见到你时我就喜欢上了你，而且那是永久也不会改变的。这就是我们魔羯座女孩儿的爱情。驴娃，我爱你！我很感谢你给了我一段异常美好的爱情。你给了我三个愿望，给了我最好的生日礼物，你陪我过了一个最温馨的新年，你还和我一起看世间最美最美的灯火……驴，驴娃，我恨你！我真的真的很恨你！因为你给我那完美的爱情是假的，你心里装的人根本就不是我！驴娃，我恨你，我恨你在我自以为追寻到完美的爱情的时候却忽然将那个幻影打碎！驴娃，我恨你，爱得有多深，恨得就有多深！可是驴娃，我还是很爱你，恨得有多深，爱得就有多深。我爱你，因为你给过我快乐，给过我悲伤，给我希望，给我绝望，给过我彷徨，也给过我烦恼。这一切情感加起来才算是真正的爱情吧，我想，虽然那只是我对你的一厢情愿。呵呵，就算是一厢情愿吧，可是这些情感全部深深地刻在了我的心上，非要我来这里换心。我很怕，我真的很怕很怕。我怕换了心之后，你刻在我心上的那些东西，那些记忆，那些情感会全部消失，我是不是很傻呀，我明明知道那心不是心脏，可是我还是怕。” 我坐在咖啡厅里，静静地听着白璐在我耳边的呢喃，泪水早已经涂满了我的脸，在我思念白琳的时候，在我和蒋楠做爱的时候，在我怨恨白璐移情别恋的时候，我何曾想过这个女孩子对我的用情竟是如此的深，她那颗脆弱的心脏所承受的伤害又是何其的深。 “驴娃，我猜你现在肯定是在抹眼泪，嘻嘻，我爱你，我就知道你肯定会为我落泪的，这对我来说，已经足够了，驴娃，刚开始的那首《蓝莲花》你听到没？那段笛子你听到没？我在情人节的时候就完成了这首歌。情人节那晚我回去看你，其实是想把这歌当做情人节的礼物送给你的……” 听到这里，我忽然想起情人节那晚了，原来白璐大老远跑回来，只是想把这歌送给我，可是我在情人节的时候根本就没有想过她。 “刚开始的时候，我真的有些恨姐姐，恨她为什么会和你在一起，可是后来我想明白了，其实我生日那晚你是想跟我说清楚的，是么？只是我的任性，才使你被迫接受了我，姐姐对我真是很好的，从小到大，无论是什么东西，只要是我喜欢的，她就一定会让给我，我想姐姐知道我喜欢你的话，一定也会把你让给我的，所以我才提前和你分手，那晚和你分手的时候，我背对着你的时候，我的脸上已经全是泪水了，驴娃，那一刻你哭了么？那晚还下雪了，好冷好冷。” “回到学校以后，我就让杨峰给我作画，本来用相机照就可以，不过我想画出来可能会更好一些吧！那些画你也见到了吧？当时我怕自己以后再也见不到你，所以还剪短了头发，想让你知道我短头发是什么样子，我是不是很幼稚啊！” “可是后来我们还是见面了，在医院里，其实当时我差点儿就忍不住了，我知道那肯定是我和你的最后一面了，你走的时候哭了，嘿嘿。你瞒不过我的，在你哭着转身开门的时候，我真的想喊住你。不过我没有，因为我知道姐姐其实也很喜欢你的，她虽然没有说，但是我看得出来，我也知道她怎么想的，她是想把我的病治好，然后让你和我在一起，从小到大，她总是这样让着我。” “驴娃，姐姐真的是个很好的人，只是她什么事都喜欢藏在心里，不愿意说出来，而且她也为我牺牲了很多很多，我告诉你一件事，你可不许因此看不起她。那时姐夫已经死了，姐姐一个人要供房子，要供我上学，还得为我看病，过得真的很辛苦，有次我晕倒住院，急需一笔钱，而姐姐很要强，不想找刑大哥要，那时候她不知怎么在公司里弄了一些不该弄的钱，结果被她们公司的人查出来了，她们公司的经理是个大坏蛋，竟然用这件事来要挟姐姐，把姐姐给……给……这件事不知道怎么让刑大哥知道了,有一天他们俩在电话里吵了起来,我那时还在上高中，无意中听到了，我才知道姐姐曾经为了我受了那么大的委屈。这件事我一直藏在心里，没和任何人说起过，在姐姐那里也装做毫不知情，我不想她难过。可是我觉得自己很对不起姐姐，她为了我才会那样的，而且刑大哥因为那件事跟姐姐之间也有了心结，我害怕刑大哥会因为那件事而不要姐姐了。” 听到这儿我才知道原来白琳说的她曾经和高潮在一起过居然是这样一回事！难怪白璐会那么想让白琳和老刑在一起，原来她认为是自己害得她姐姐和老刑不能在一起。 “驴娃！我听姐姐说我这次的手术成功率是百分之二十，也就是说我有五分之一的希望能活下来，我想我还是没有机会和你见面了，因为，我有五分之四的几率可能会死掉，就是我侥幸活了下来，我也不想见你了，你也不许来找我，那样我会生气的！你陪姐姐吧！她虽然对我说她卖掉了自己的房子攒够了钱给我治病，可是我偷偷用英语问过医生，医生说这这次所有的费用加起来恐怕得一百万人民币那么多。姐姐是绝然拿不出那么钱的，我很担心她为了我的病又会做出什么违心的事情！你帮帮她，好吗？” “好了，驴娃，再见，呵呵，不对，不会再见了，嘻嘻，给你的这段录音，是我这辈子做的最后一件任性的事情。我隔壁病房里住着一个日本女孩，她和我的病一样，我是用她的手提电脑做完这个录音的，还有就是，无论我手术成功或是失败，姐姐最终还会回去的，你如果真的爱她，就好好待她，她是个好人，只是不愿向人坦露心扉，她应该是很喜欢你的，只是她在感情上一向小心谨慎。你一定要等她呀！” 说到这里，《那些花儿》的歌声又响起来。我听着歌，想着远在日本的白璐：她的手术已经完成了；她会好起来吗？暮地，白琳的样子又浮现在我的脑中，原来她所做的一切只是为了让白璐幸福，我想起了那晚在电梯里她无情地拒绝我的情形，她之所以会答应和高潮在一起，肯定是为了白璐的病。而她之所以会那样歇斯底里地吻我，则是因为她爱我，而她又无法爱我。我默默坐在咖啡厅里，想着自己和白琳的爱情，她总是那样的小心翼翼，她总是不吐露内心的想法；她总是那样摇摆不定，或许是她心里承载的东西实在是太多了，她老公的去世；白璐的病和幸福；高潮对她的污辱；老刑的等待和背叛；这一切一切都让她无法真正去爱，因为她老公的去世，她变得无助，为了白璐她随时都准备牺牲自己的幸福，因为高潮的事情，让她内心生出自卑，因为老刑的背叛，让她开始怀疑爱情。 那，她真的爱我吗？是的，一定！因为她曾经呆呆地看着我为她弹琴；因为她曾经为我落泪；因为她在我的歌声里和我忘情的跳舞；因为她在电梯里那疯狂的一吻。 我默默想着，些时外面的世界已是黄昏。夕阳将咖啡屋的落地窗抹得一片金黄，我瞅着那不甚耀眼的光芒，想着白琳，想起了白璐，也想起了蒋楠。 蒋楠会如愿生下我的儿子吗？白璐的病会好吗？白琳会回来吗？MP3里白璐里的声音怅怅地唱着：“我们就这样，各自奔天涯”…… (End of the book)