Chapter 8 7
Jing often sees Man lovingly admiring herself in the mirror alone through the keyhole.She started to caress herself from her hair, and her slender fingers slid on the hair that was swaying in the sunlight like stroking strings, and then slid towards her face.Man's face is a pointed oval face, and because she is thin, her two big eyes are a little closer, which always reminds Jing of the snake spirit in the cartoon "Gourd Brothers" she has seen.Of course, Man is much more beautiful than it.Her nose is small and straight, but her lips are as full as petals sipping water.Jing knew that her mother should like her lips the most. She often used her pointed fingers to gently sweep the corners of her lips, as if carrying the lightest and most beautiful water lily floating on the water in the morning light.Then her hand touched her neck down. She has a long and delicate neck, which makes her qualified to be an elegant swan. Therefore, during the rehearsal of "Swan Dance" every day, she is always the best Proud.Yes, she still has flat and thin shoulders, tall and plump breasts, a slender waist and slender legs.She carefully admired her graceful curves in the mirror, and Jing smiled smugly when she saw her.
Jing, who has just entered puberty, often puts her face on the keyhole to observe her mother.She watched her dance in front of the mirror, watched her slowly take off her clothes, and carefully examined her body in the mirror, and she saw her laughing indulgently.At such moments, Jing is often disappointed by her overly narcissistic actions and overly cheerful laughter. Is this her mother?Is she a beautiful fairy, or a flirtatious witch?
When Jing sees Man intoxicated by her beauty, she always feels palpitations.Man's beauty makes Jing at a loss, because she is so ugly.Ugliness will put people in an infinitely humble situation, Jing knows.
Jing looked like an ordinary child when he was born, but then it got worse and worse.Like her father and grandmother, she was very fat.This is really a puzzling thing, no matter how badly she ate, or even starved, she kept getting fat, like a steamed bun soaked in water.When I was a child, I didn't feel anything. Grandma always liked to hold Jing tightly in her arms. She said that holding Jing was very warm.Later, Jing gradually grew up, and the development of puberty was a fatal blow to her body, and she became even fatter.And, the most frightening thing is that ever since she moved into No. 3 Taoli Street, she has started binge eating one after another.
Sometimes people seem to be in a big circle, repeating one thing over and over again.And is consumed and broken in this repetition.It's like the night Jing first came to No. 3 Taoli Street, she suffered from insomnia.She walks to look at the keyhole after insomnia, and then she'll get so hungry that she rushes downstairs to open the fridge and eats everything.Since then, this has become a cycle she can't get out of.For many nights, she couldn't fall asleep, and her heart boiled like magma.Jing warned herself, this time, you must never get up from the bed, and you must not walk out of this door, you sleep well for me, sleep well... She even hugged her knees tightly with her hands to prevent herself from going down bed.But she was getting tired gradually, and her tense nerves gradually relaxed. At this moment, her body finally escaped the control of her mind.She sat up suddenly, then got out of bed, and walked out the door like a sleepwalker. If she heard a slight sound, she would definitely go to the keyhole to take a look.She asked herself, what do you want to see?What exactly do you want to see?Go back to bed quickly.
The girl finally put her eyes on the keyhole.When she saw the glowing carcass under the ambiguous light again, her heart would suddenly tighten as before, and she would bounce back quickly as usual, turning around and running downstairs.But this has become a habit, just like a fish that has been stuck in the tepid waters must be shocked by the cold water before it can wake up and become active.Yes, the next action must be, she ran downstairs, trying to forget what she had just seen, so she began to feel extremely hungry again.The body is as hollow as a well that has been dug dry.The sound of the wind shuttled through her strong body, like a spell, she will surrender.Her body and will split again.The will is almost crying and begging the body, please, go back, don't run to the refrigerator anymore, go back to the room!But her body is now hard-hearted.It was so resolute, and before it had time to allow the power of resistance to grow, its body rushed to the front of the refrigerator like a tornado.At this time Jing already knew that all persuasion was futile.She opened the door of the refrigerator, and the light and air-conditioning inside covered her tearful face.Jing closed her eyes in pain, and took a deep breath of cold air.To her, this refrigerator is more terrifying than the big freezer where the dead are stored, but she has just fallen into a voodoo, who is holding her, making her have to do this?She finally reached out and started grabbing something from the refrigerator to eat.
Taoli Street is some distance away from large supermarkets or bazaars, so there is always some food stocked at home.Jing ate them all.There were also times when Lu Yihan wanted to stop Jing, so he didn't store any edible snacks in the refrigerator, and Jing actually ate celery with leaves and large pieces of frozen raw fish.That was probably the most uncomfortable one.Jing thought that she ate something that a beast ate, like a sad low-level animal.When Lu Yihan saw Jing like this, he was very sad, frowned, squatted down, and asked the girl sitting on the ground gently, are you uncomfortable?Jing said, a little bit.Jing admitted that she downplayed the seriousness of the matter, but in fact she was terribly uncomfortable.The frozen fish seemed to be resurrected in her belly, wagging its tail to kill her.She shivered on the ground.Lu Yihan picked her up - she was so heavy, she regretted that she had eaten those foods that looked like garbage, they made her so heavy and made her feel ashamed.He carried her to the second floor with difficulty, put her on the bed, and told her softly that she would be fine.I believe these are only temporary.
Jing lay on the bed and looked at Lu Yihan in horror.He also said that when he was a child, there was always a period of very unusual and disorderly days. This was because his mind grew too fast, but his body couldn't keep up, so he was somewhat disordered.
You can tell me all the unpleasant things, I am your Uncle Lu.Finally, he gently stroked the messy hair on Jing's forehead and said.
Man gradually discovered that Jing was not as docile as she imagined, she was a girl full of resistance and hatred.Man once saw Jing lingering in front of her dressing table for a long time, picking up her perfume and spraying it on herself.Through the mirror, Man saw Jing's expression at that moment, it was a smug smile, a vengeful smile.Suddenly, Man was startled: her youngest daughter was only five or six years old, yet she had grown into a vicious girl.She finally understood that the girl had already planted too much hatred in her heart, and she was afraid that sooner or later she would have a full-scale counterattack and revenge.The girl's heart is not toward her at all, but seems to be born against her.Man was terrified.So far, there is no possibility of bridge between them.
When Man pressed Jing to the bottom of the water, she felt a little pleasure from the abuse.She didn't necessarily want Jing to suffer, but she just wanted to know exactly one fact: she could control Jing.The act of pressing her under the water was like a temptation. Man knew that Jing had always buried the hatred in her heart deeply and never showed it.She was trying to force out the hate, so she would burn the fire to its fullest.But she was not as decisive as she thought, her hand holding Jing began to tremble.She suddenly felt pity for Jing - if she died right now, what would she have gained in this life in the next life?She was a child with nothing, even if she disappeared without a sound, how many people would care?Man suddenly felt very lonely. This child was her last relative in the world. She had been fighting with her for fun and passed a lot of time.Man even subconsciously hopes that Jing will become stronger and truly confront her.Yes, this child has a kind of exuberant vitality, she will grow stronger, and she will fight back. Man imagined the passionate process and felt the strength of life.She let go of her hand slightly, waiting for Jing to break free by herself.She concluded that Jing would not seek death like this, her vitality is tenacious.
In fact, that is just a tiny amount of time counted in seconds.But for Man and Jing, it seems like many years.Jing at the bottom of the water thought that she would lose consciousness soon, and she would return to the way of this world, return to the secret warm and humid place, and wash away all the memories.But Jing's perception is still strong-not the suffocation felt by the body, but the lingering hatred in her heart.She can't become peaceful like a dying person, and she has nothing to miss or care about in the world.She is nostalgic for this world, she misses her mother, because she has such a strong hatred in her heart.Man's actions at the moment undoubtedly pushed this hatred to the extreme. Jing had only two choices, either to be Man's defeated general, who was pressed by her the moment she died, unable to lift her head; or to resist, she wanted to turn hatred into strength.
Finally, Jing exhausted all her strength to get out of the water, and got rid of Man's hands tightly holding her-this was Jing's choice.Jing stood up suddenly from the bathtub, water splashing everywhere.She was already a girl with great strength, but now she is a mad lion.Man also felt relieved, she really forced Jing's hatred, and she was not wrong, Jing would not seek death just like this.But she was still taken aback by Jing's explosive power when she emerged from the water.Immediately, she felt a little regretful, because she knew that Jing would become stronger and stronger, and would no longer be as willing to be subject to her as she was a moment ago.
Jing pushed Cayman fiercely, jumped out of the bathtub, and rushed out the door.But just at the door of the bathroom, Jing saw Xiao Zhuo.I don't know how long he stood there, his expression was very painful, he must have seen the violence Man cast on her.Xiao Zhuo looked at Jing intently, she was very embarrassed, she was very wild.She is a nucleus of power.Xiao Zhuo felt a strange suction coming from this explosive core. It was like a heartless iron man finally found a heart that was alive and kicking.
However, Jing glanced at Xiao Zhuo's eyes, but it was sad - she knew that he could not understand her, nor could he help her.She is only one, and she will always be one.Jing brushed past Xiao Zhuo fiercely, and stumbled upstairs.