Chapter 5 chapter Five

The girl celebrates her fifteenth birthday.He took the girl to the largest shopping mall and asked her to choose a gift at will.The girl took a fancy to a small but functional camera.So he bought it for her.She was very happy, snapping random photos along the way.She also took a picture at him, and he frowned, turned his head and avoided it.He said seriously: I never take pictures.Unless I get caught by the police, I have to take a photo for the record. The girl shrugged and stuck out her tongue.Off to shoot something else. The girl has since become obsessed with taking pictures.She carried her small camera with her at all times, snapping the shutter everywhere.The things she photographs are as unique as her people.She seems to have no interest in expressing the beauty in life.Just love the scary, spooky stuff.Sometimes men look at those photos and wonder how she got them.A lame dog, strangled with white nylon ropes, turned his legs upside down; a frog was painted bright red, squatting on a lotus leaf, motionless and lifeless; an ugly old woman with warts all over her head , munching contentedly on a rotten apple... The girl is obsessed with her own masterpiece.She pasted them one by one on the wall of her room, on the head of her bed, and in front of her desk.

She started not letting men take her to school.She said she was going to take pictures along the way.Men never force her.So the man agreed with her to go and come back by herself.She came back later and later.The man also refrained from asking her, but just observed her silently.She has learned to develop photos by herself, and every night she will take out the negatives taken during the day and play with them for a long time.The men just looked at the pictures on her wall. Finally one day, the man saw the naked body of a strange man in the photo.His body seemed to have been stabbed severely.He turned and left with great resentment in his heart.

At dinner time, they all ate without talking.But they seem to have something to say to each other.Finally the girl spoke up and said: I want a new camera, the best kind. This is the first time a girl asks a man for something.This is the first time she has asked a man.Before that, she had always had an attitude of being indifferent to everything.So the man should feel very happy, because the girl finally wants something from him, and he is not useless to the girl.So he should answer the girl.But the time was wrong, and he was feeling very uncomfortable at this time.He felt that the camera was like a magical box, from which came out a terrible and evil devil, and the girl was seduced by this devil, and she was walking more and more on a path that turned away from him, and he couldn't catch her at all.So he said:

Don't you already have one?And you're way too obsessed with it, don't you think? The girl froze for a moment, then smiled coldly.The girl must not have thought that a man would refuse her request.She is so used to pampering that she can get everything without opening her mouth.She thought that once she opened her mouth, she could achieve anything.But the man rejected her.She didn't continue to beg, she never spoke again.The man suddenly regretted a little. He felt that he shouldn't reject her, how could he reject her.But by this time the girl had stood up and left the table.They didn't speak another word all night, but the girl didn't look out of the ordinary, and she still washed her pictures, hung them up, took a shower and so on.

The next day the girl went to school as usual.The man kept watching her walking up and down in front of him, but didn't know what to say.The girl did not come home the next night.The man waited since dinner time, and finally reached the moment of impatience.So he went out to find her.But he didn't know the friends she made on weekdays at all. He went to the empty school, but he couldn't see anyone.He had no choice but to search aimlessly along her way home from school.He looked for the seaside, for nearby stores selling photographic equipment, for supermarkets, convenience stores, restaurants...but he couldn't find her.All the shops were closed, and he returned home dejectedly.This was the first time she stayed out at night, and he kept blaming himself, if he agreed to her request, then it would definitely not be like this.He had never regretted it this way.

He stayed up all night, sitting in the living room, listening to the movement outside.He hoped that suddenly there would be her steps upstairs, and then the sound of her swinging the door open.But it was already midnight, and the whole building was dead silent. He sat like this all night. The next day dawned and she still hadn't come back.He started out looking for her again.He went to the school to find her and learned that she hadn't been there for two days.He became more anxious and asked his classmates.It seems that the girl has a very weak relationship with her classmates on weekdays, and no one knows her whereabouts.He returns home at noon.When he unscrewed the door, he found that it was already open, and he hurried in - she was already at home.

He walked up to her.She was eating a plate of cold rice left over from yesterday, sending the dried rice grains into her mouth with big gulps.He suddenly felt so distressed, he guessed that she hadn't eaten for two days, just to be angry with himself.He went to the kitchen, quickly fried a plate of ground corn, made a fish soup and brought it out.He brought these in front of her.When she saw it, she ate it immediately, looking famished.She doesn't explain anything.He didn't ask either.He already felt relieved in his heart, as long as she came back, he felt that it was enough.She drank all the fish soup and ate the whole dish of corn by herself.Then she went back to the room.

He could still see her through the large window.He was surprised to find that what she was taking out from her schoolbag was a very large camera, which he had never seen before, not the one from before.He was taken aback.He rushes to her room: Where did you get this camera? sent by others. You can't take other people's things for nothing.The man said sternly. Not for nothing.We made an exchange.The girl retorted immediately. What do you give in exchange?the man asked back. I stayed with him all day and night.The girl replied calmly and calmly. What are you doing with him?The man got angry and roared.

make love.Girls have no shame in color. The man finally heard such an answer.This was perhaps his worst fear.So scared that he didn't even think about it.He always avoids such thoughts, for fear of being the first to be hurt.But it still happened.His little works of art, his treasures.There was a gully slowly opening in his heart, and he whispered heartbreakingly: Why are you so mean?Is it worth the price of a camera? The girl raised her mouth and said slowly: Aren't you the same?Back when you were doing those deals, it probably wasn't worth the price of a camera.It's nothing to be ashamed of, earned income, is it?

The man was speechless for a moment.He looked at her, this was not a 15 year old girl.He may be mistaken.He might have been wrong the moment he took her by the hand and led her away.She is actually his mirror.He saw himself in her.This may be why he felt a very strong and dazzling light when he first saw her.Because she is his mirror, she reflects all the sharp, sharp things in him. The man finally felt that what he had been pitying this girl all this time was actually pitying himself.His cold blood sometimes makes himself feel empty, he can't talk to himself, communicate with himself, because he is an invulnerable monster.He found her and led her into his life. In fact, he found another person who was as cold as him to confront him.They were like two walls, facing each other so coldly that he could hear his own echo through her.So it is doomed that he cannot enter her, and cannot harm her, because she will return all the damage he inflicted.

He shook his head painfully.His girl was still standing in front of him, she was standing loosely, with her weight on one foot.The whole body is slanted.The girl was an orphan since she was a child.She had no parents to teach her how to stand.She is like a wild weed that grows wantonly without rules.Don't know how to be an ordinary girl, it's the same as him.But he thought he could give her a lot to make her look like a normal girl.For now, he still appears to have failed. He went back to his room with serious frustration and closed the door.But when he heard her singing in the next room, he still couldn't stop looking at her.He sees her singing and fiddling with her new camera.She uses it to take pictures of herself, constantly making various charming gestures for the camera.Puckered lips, tousled hair, widened eyes.Then she took out the red shoes in her locker.So many red shoes.She laid them all out on the floor, lined up like fish caught one by one to dry in the blazing sun.She started taking pictures of them, wearing them, and taking pictures of her feet.She had a happy expression on her face and kept jumping from between those shoes. The man fell asleep and covered himself in the quilt. Her singing was still there, like a charming opera background, which could not be eliminated at all.