Chapter 18 16.escape

After I was imprisoned in the church, I fell into a desperate situation.Yes, desperate. I dare not face all mirrors.That should of course be my face.But if I look at it for a longer time, what will appear in its bright glass plane will be a pair of pupils burning like burning coals.They came out of the broken tiles—God knows how there are broken tiles in my clean house.The girl's gaze pried up my body in the mirror bit by bit, making me distort like a doll in a distorting mirror.The eyes kept expanding and gradually took over the main position, squeezing me out of the mirror bit by bit. ——When I looked again, her eyes were in the center of the mirror, which stood out on my face.

Has the devil penetrated into my bones and gradually altered my appearance?Is this my revenge for pushing her off the swing?Are worse dreams on their way to catch me right now? The school dormitory where Tang Xiao and I live is very big. Not long after we moved here, Tang Xiao bought a very large mirror——almost as big as the entire wall.Tang Xiao likes to dance and dance to it, practicing lip-synthesizing.One morning when I suddenly woke up, I opened my eyes in a daze, and saw that the mirror was full of my face, but my face was full of her eyes.Her grape-colored pupils were stained with a little sunlight, swirling and flowing brightly, like a vortex full of disasters.It shouldn't be my face, I sat up suddenly, grabbed a desk lamp with a glass shade from the bedside table, and threw it at the big mirror.A gap was quickly formed in the mirror, and then like a processed fish, scale-like fragments scattered one by one and fell to the ground with a clatter.Tang Xiao, who was sleeping beside me, was awakened. She sat up and looked at the broken mirror in horror, as well as the light bulbs and small fragments rolling on the ground.

"What's wrong with you sister?" she called. "Hey." I feel satisfied and happy. There was a distant voice in my ear again, Duan Xiaomu was chattering endlessly.I suddenly felt restless again.I turned over from the bed and walked barefoot on the floor of the bedroom until I reached the broken glass, still stepping on them calmly without avoiding it.Immediately, blood overflowed from the soles of my feet, as if a rosy cloud gathered under my feet.The bleeding calms me down: "Hey." I paced like an elegant lunatic, slowly bleeding my own blood. I have been in a low ebb that I can't get out of, and I am also in a cold war with Tang Xiao.When she approached me, whether she spoke to me excitedly or timidly, I ignored her.In fact, seeing Tang Xiaorou's small face, I really couldn't help but forgive her, but I knew that as long as I got better with her, she would still bring Ji Yan into my life.She can't leave him, she has long been reduced to one of his satellites.She was bewildered but unconscious.So I still insist on my indifferent attitude towards Tang Xiao.

But Ji Yan is already an unavoidable shadow in my life, and he appears again.He didn't participate in the rehearsal of their small band that afternoon - leaving Tang Xiao waiting for him in the dilapidated dance studio, and then he followed me when I went out to buy magazine pictorials in the afternoon. He caught up to me when we were already far away from the school.He said: "Last time I was eager to tell you something, so I had to lead you to that church. I'm sorry." "But I'm afraid of the church, you know?" Unexpectedly, I didn't yell, but wept, and I answered him with a very fragile voice.

"You fear the church when you feel uneasy. You fear the church when you do something wrong." "Do you want me to admit my mistakes and apologize in front of Duan Xiaomu? But I can't do it." My tone of voice to him was not as strong as before. "It's not important anymore. It's not for you to apologize." "why?" "She wants to see you. I have something to say to you." "What? Scold me? Do you want me to cry and apologize?" "I said, I'm not here to apologize." "Then what is it?" "She has heart disease, you know that?"

"Heart attack?" I was very surprised. I was puzzled by this question. I just remembered that my heart would hurt for no reason. She gave it to me. She pressed her chest and stared at me, and I started to hurt. "Yes, she has a serious heart condition and needs surgery." "Did she say it herself?" I said contemptuously, suspecting that this was a lie Duan Xiaomu used to win sympathy from others. "It's true." Ji Yan confirmed with an extraordinarily deep expression that he dared to guarantee that it was true. "Okay, heart disease, so what?" I stepped back and asked him, still not understanding why Ji Yan told me these things.

"Du Wanwan, since you were a child, do you always feel heartache every once in a while? Answer me." I was stunned, never expecting Ji Yan to ask this question.He even knew that my heart would hurt.I never knew that someone would know what my heart hurts, so does he know that there is a devil living in my heart?But how could he believe that the devil is Duan Xiaomu? I didn't answer his question.Now that he knows these things about me, I really hope that he can sympathize with me and take pity on me. Oh, Ji Yan, can you understand? My body is full of poisonous mushrooms, which is hopeless.Someone has violated my heart, someone has violated my ears, someone has taken away my right to dance and sing.Someone forced me to leave Licheng.

Seeing that I did not speak, Ji Yan continued to ask: "Then tell me, why did you give up dancing?" I looked at him in amazement, he seemed to have hollowed out me, and all my secrets were pulled out for public display under the dusk sky.He continued to ask: "Give up dancing because your right leg will tingle, right?" The voice was tight and full of oppression. "How did you know?" I finally couldn't help it, and asked in a soft voice as if I was crushed. "Because Duan Xiaomu told me these, these are her feelings." His voice softened. "Her? How can she understand it?" I think this is a deceptive answer, and I never believe that Duan Xiaomu can have the same feelings as me.

"Because you and her feel the same. When she feels pain, you will hurt, and when she speaks, there will be a subtle voice like an echo in your ears." His lips had been tightly wrinkled just now. His eyebrows gradually loosened.He was telling me such a ridiculous answer in a very convincing voice. "It's funny." I showed approval and nodded.I think he is crazy, how can he come up with such an explanation that even a child would not believe. "It's true. It took me a long time to believe it, but it's true. Duan Xiaomu has congenital heart disease, so your heart hurts. After Duan Xiaomu fell from the swing, his right leg was broken, so you My right leg also hurts. You are connected." Ji Yan showed extreme patience and took the trouble to persuade me.

"Okay, attraction and connection, right? You said we have a touch connection, right?" I said viciously. At this time we were beside a wide road, in front of a building under construction.Dust and dust lingered between us, we all looked so rough and in a hurry, talking nonsense about gods, ghosts, and interlinkages in the streets of the busy city.Ji Yan, I think this is the end, it can be over. I turned around and looked behind me—just as I wanted, there were piles of bricks and broken glass next to the house with exposed steel bars and white concrete.I turned and ran, and grabbed a pointed triangular piece of shattered glass.

What happened next was both Ji Yan and I were very surprised.I lifted the piece of glass high and thrust it into my arm.It cut my flesh like a sharp knife.Yes, I am a crazy girl.But I am fierce and brave.The glass was soaked with spring rain, and immediately soaked in red.My entire right arm was numb and swayed in mid-air.I muttered viciously: "Well, we are connected. Then Duan Xiaomu will die in pain, let her die in pain!" I was holding the glass tightly while talking.Ji Yan was stunned: "Are you crazy? Are you crazy?" He ran over, separated my two hands with two hands, and squeezed my bleeding right arm tightly with one hand to help me stop the bleeding.But I still struggled, swinging my right arm in the air.He and I got entangled like a fight.And I gradually weakened, without the strength to struggle.What was in front of me was no longer clear, and everything drifted into the fog.The cars on the street were flying in front of my eyes, and the red light was stepped on under my feet... Finally, I fainted on the main road, and kept shouting in my mouth: "Duan Xiaomu died in pain, Duan Xiaomu died in pain."