Chapter 93 Chapter 4 How extravagant (2)

I'm really too busy, the only rest day is Sunday, and I'm traveling back and forth on the way to visit my mother's family and my in-law's family.Most of the roads were jammed with cars, because the crowd of people like her who came from the south-central region and lived in Taipei was too crowded.Su Yuan and her husband took turns driving, drinking hot rice ball soup at rest stops, these are her holiday impressions. The years of dog faces.Suyuan thought of a new stray dog ​​downstairs in her house, with khaki short hair, medium-sized, and very afraid of people.On its neck, it was shockingly bald, with a crimson scar that had just healed.

It was the escape track from the dog-catcher's wire trap.Several times, Suyuan wanted to call him to eat leftovers, but the dog always timidly avoided it. He must have left food behind in Suyuan, and only after he retreated to the side did he cautiously come forward to eat.In the past two days, the dog has been sick and curled up in the corner of the wall. Su Yuan refused to eat any food.She often thought that such a life was lived by a dog who had paid so much to be free. Suyuan mentioned to her husband to adopt the dog, but the husband refused.His reason is very good. A couple like them who both work and live in an apartment cannot afford to keep a dog.The husband liked dogs, but in order to show his determination, he completely ignored the dog with the scar around its neck.

Don't blame him, Suyuan thought, people are tired enough, how can they take care of a dog?Thinking too far, Suyuan looked at her watch, it was almost four o'clock, and she walked into the second outpatient building. From the electronic display screen in the consultation room, Suyuan saw that there were still several numbers before her turn, and she sat down on the blue plastic chair.There are all kinds of patients waiting for treatment on the left and right. Unlike Suyuan, most of their illnesses are obvious, such as hanging IV bottles, holding their stomachs, frowning and sighing, or drowsy.Birth, old age, sickness and death are the inevitable journey for human beings, Suyuan understands, but she didn't expect it to come so soon, nor did she expect her heart to be so calm, as calm as ice.For her, struggling to survive is not as good as a happy ending that doesn't even have time to wave her hand.

Su Yuan touched the tumor on her chin, and the lump seemed to be getting bigger in the past three days, oppressing her neck, feeling it when drinking water, feeling it when she lowered her head to write, talking with colleagues, even sleeping. feel it too.The tumor has been with her life, and the pressure is increasing day by day.When the pressure was too great, she put down the work she was busy with and half-lyed down on the office chair with her head raised.Her office chair is a high-backed chair with a neck pad, which is only allocated to executives in the company, and it took her three years to get such a chair.Su Yuan looked up at the ceiling, and began to imagine the feeling of lying in a coffin. It should be very relaxed and relaxed, no need to get up, no need to bother about anything.

Now Su Yuan is also sitting on the plastic chair with her head raised.The nurse called her name, Suyuan got up and walked into the consulting room. The doctor who had examined her last time took one look at her and gestured for her to sit down.Just as Suyuan sat down, another doctor wearing glasses also came.Now the two doctors pulled up their chairs and sat in front of Su Yuan, looking at Su Yuan. "Doctor, what's the test result?" Su Yuan asked.She was calm and looked at the expressions of the two doctors in turn.Why do you need a consultation?Wasn't a doctor enough to explain her condition?

"The test results came out," the doctor said, "it's a benign reaction, and you're not sick." "Strictly speaking, you are called chronic fatigue syndrome." The doctor wearing glasses said, "Professional women, right? This is a very common disease in Taipei. You need to rest more, exercise more, be more reassured, and take more iron... ..." The doctor wearing glasses briefly explained Suyuan's condition, probably due to physical fatigue and lowered resistance, which caused a lump in the lymphatic system, which would usually subside naturally.Suyuan probably didn't listen to the words after that.Five minutes later, she left the hospital.

Suyuan took a taxi home. This day, she took sick leave in the afternoon. Now that she is not sick, she doesn't plan to go back to the company.Suyuan went straight home. She opened the door with the key, took off her high heels, and opened the curtains. At sunset, the whistle of the traffic police came from the window, and the rush hour of off-duty traffic was about to begin.Su Yuan sat down on the sofa in front of the window, she burst into tears. She's not sick, she's not dead yet. But Suyuan was still crying.She was shocked, and what shocked So-won was her own mood.Before going into the consulting room, she actually had a vague hope that she was really sick, a terrible, life-ending illness.How did she become like this?To be so tired that he no longer loves her life?

Su Yuan wiped away her tears, changed into a set of pajamas, and sat cross-legged on the bed.From the spiritual master, Su Yuan learned some meditation courses.Now she sits down quietly according to the master's method, relaxes her body and mind, and returns to her purest soul. The spiritual master taught her this way, where you can break through all the fog and find your answer. So Suyuan sat quietly.She returns to her purest soul, where she sees a secret garden of her own, shining in the sun, she loves this garden, she wants the flowers to continue to bloom, she really doesn't want to die, life is in a hurry Let her be blind and forget the splendor of this piece of flowers.Never knew that her life had oppressed her soul so much.Su Yuan escaped from all the troubles bit by bit, and gradually recalled the ardent expectations she had for her life.

In fact, life is not so bad that you have to give up.In fact, Suyuan doesn't want much, but just hopes to return to her garden occasionally, and feel a little sunshine, vastness, and wind-like freedom in life. In meditation, Su Yuan soared to the sky, passing through layers of clouds and mist, so she overlooked a reddish-brown endless land.There, there is sunshine, vastness, and freedom like the wind.She saw a figure in the ground, walking slowly, that figure seemed to be like Marty.Su Yuan, who was in meditation, let herself fly high above the figure, her heart was full of longing. What a luxury to be able to wander in this whole vast sunny land!