Chapter 91 Chapter 4 will wake up (2)

Shang-Paul is a person who drinks the northwest wind, and now he will go with the northwest wind.The night before yesterday, while walking in the square in front of the Chiang Kai-shek Memorial Hall, Shang-Paul suddenly grabbed Jill's waist and told her that he was about to be recalled to the German headquarters.The Green Planet Party's long-prepared third-world party member training program is about to start this fall. The headquarters needs senior counselors like Paul Shang, so he decided to leave Taiwan, and he will leave within three months at the earliest. "Come with me, Jill, you will be a very good party member." Shang-Paul asked her.

Jill, then as now, was silent and did not answer.Leaving Taiwan and Taipei is not a difficult decision. For Jill, throwing herself into a fanatic pursuit of ideals again, just like going to New York to join a dance troupe before, this is what makes her hesitate. "You need to make independent decisions. I won't force you," said Jean-Paul. "Do you remember the night we were at the beach?" Suyuan interrupted Jill's silence, she said, "the time Marty was still there? You and Hai'an have been fighting for a long time, and you have fought for the issue of freedom and civilization. .I forgot all of your arguments. I just remember what you said, "Love sets you free." It really moved me. Jill, I think my problem is that I don't know what to love."

"At least you love life, don't you?" "Love. But sometimes I get confused again, I feel like I don't love that much, and I feel that everything is boring." "That's because your life is set in stone." "Perhaps. I lack passion, a passion as vibrant as yours." "Don't make me so fanatical, I also have powerless moments." Jill said.She lit a cigarette, completely forgetting Xiaoye's smoking ban. "Really? When?" "Suyuan, I believe in a word, the reason why people are happy and suffer is because of the same reason. People have ideals. Sometimes when faced with ideals, people will retreat again, afraid of being completely trapped, afraid of losing themselves. "

"I thought you were a person who pursued his ideals and was not afraid of anything." "afraid." "Didn't you say that to pursue your ideal wholeheartedly and regardless of all obstacles is freedom?" "Maybe what I'm afraid of is freedom." "why?" "Too much freedom makes me unable to control myself." Jill frowned at the smoke she spit out, "I never envy people who indulge in freedom, like Hai'an. What I envy, I would rather be strict and serious to myself , the kind of person who turns his life into a dedication to the majority.”

"If this is your ideal, then why are you afraid of falling into it and losing yourself?" "You're right. I'm dodging the question. I'm a coward." Jill grinned. "There's only one thing I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of letting go of my feelings." "why?" "Because I'm the kind of person who doesn't love me, and if I love, I don't look back." "If Hai'an hears it and must ask you, so what?" "...Yeah, so what?" Jill rubbed her forehead and thought.The car accident left a herringbone scar on her forehead.This annoyed her for a while at first, but Shang-Paul, who had just learned Chinese, said seriously, "Look, there is a beautiful person on your forehead, which made her smile.Jill sighed now, and said, "I'm a coward. In the presence of someone worthy of my love, I put on airs and let him run away."

"Who are you talking about?" "Champaul." "The foreigner?" "Yes. Such a person deserves to be loved." "Ah, Jill is in love." "That's right. I love him and I'm going after him, and now." Jill put out her half-smoked cigarette, something she'd never done before.She picked up her purse and stood up. "I'm leaving, Xiaoye." Jill called into the curtain. "Oh." Xiaoye replied. Jill is really gone. Xiaoye opened the movable curtains around the hospital bed, and Hai'an had already changed into new pajamas.Lobular cleans the basin with a towel.She was sweating from the work, and her cheeks were flushed.

Su Yuan also stood up. "Leaving?" Xiaoye asked her. "Qi, it's probably time for my registration." Su Yuan said.Xiaoye remembered that Suyuan came to the hospital to see a doctor today. "Do you want me to accompany you?" "No need, it's in the building next door, you can do your work." Su Yuan said.She came to Hai'an's couch and held Hai'an's unconscious hand.She held it for a long time. Su Yuan also left. Three o'clock in the afternoon.Xiaoye closed the curtains again, and changed to a piece of Bahabel's canon, and the ward became quiet and gentle.The afternoon is still long, but Xiaoye will not be bored at all, she is too busy, very busy.

After the nurse helped Haian change the injection, it was time for Xiaoye to start massaging Haian. Xiaoye bought a textbook on shiatsu massage, and according to the instructions in the book, she helped Hai'an exercise her muscles every day. From the toes, ankle, peroneus, pectoris, knee, biceps femoris, biceps, semitendinosus, rectus femoris, adductor longus, fascia lata, external obliques , latissimus dorsi, teres minor, trapezius, pectoralis major, splenius head and neck, fingers, palms, wrists, brachioradialis, flexors, elbows, triceps, deltoids, to facial muscles , every inch of Haian's body, Xiaoye carefully massaged and kneaded.Such massage works at least two or three times a day.

Hai'an, who has been in a coma for a month, has soft joints all over his body, and his muscles maintain the elasticity of ordinary people. Xiaoye wiped Haian's mouth with gauze dipped in diluted mouthwash; after wiping, she used a new piece of gauze dipped in Haian's favorite mineral water, and wiped Haian's mouth again.In this way, the breath in Haian's dream will not smell the unpleasant smell of medicine. For wounds where injections have been given, the leaflets are hot-compressed with a towel. Hai'an used her fingertips to gently soothe the area around Hai'an's chest where the central catheter was inserted.

Xiaoye uses a bristle comb to help Hai'an comb her hair. Xiaoye applied shaving foam on Haian, shaved off his stubble with a razor, and applied a layer of moisturizer after shaving. Sometimes when she is really exhausted, Xiaoye pulls a chair, sits in front of Haian's couch, and reads a newspaper. At sunset, Xiaoye opened the curtains to let Hai'an bask in the sunset.She basked in the sun and hummed softly. Waking up on the camp bed at night, Xiaoye stretched out her arm and held Hai'an's hand.So she couldn't fall asleep, got up and gently fanned Hai'an with a round fan.

Nurses sometimes stay in the ward to see Hai'an and take care of Hai'an like Xiaoye. "Are you considering becoming a professional nurse?" the nurse asked her seriously. "Is there a mistake? I hate the hospital." Xiaoye replied. "After Brother Ke wakes up, I will never step into the hospital again." "I'll wake up." The nurses encouraged her kindly. Whenever the nurses said this, Xiao Ye would stop what she was doing and look up at the nurses with sparkling eyes. "If you take care of me like this, even if I am a puppet, I will be pinched alive by you." This is the consoling conclusion of the nurses.