Chapter 77 Chapter 4 Truly Honest

Sister Liu wandered outside Dr. Chen's office by looking for things in the filing cabinet.The venetian blind at Dr. Chen’s door was not closed. From the sparse curtains, one could see Dr. Chen’s elbows resting on the table, his clenched fists clasping his lips rhythmically. , this is his usual reaction. Marty sat facing Dr. Chen with his back to the door.Judging from her calm back, Marty came fully prepared. Why?Sister Liu's heart was full of confusion, and a deep dimple appeared on her left cheek.Why, when the company's future is most promising, you say you want to resign?The salary is good, the position is good, and the colleagues are pleasant to get along with. There is no reason to resign.Is it because another company poached corners?Don't be stupid, Marty replied to her with a smile, don't be stupid, going to another company may not be better than Weiqing, "I just want to walk around and hang out when I am young."

Dr. Chen took out his research spirit of studying for a Ph.D. in physics, and wanted to find out the answer in the fog. As a result, the sincere conversation with Marty only amplified the mystery. "If you want to go abroad, is it to recharge your batteries, or to study? Or to broaden your knowledge? Or to strengthen your language skills?" Dr. Chen asked softly. "Neither. Just walk around and have a look." "Then I'll give you a vacation and go for a walk." "I'm afraid it's not good. I don't know how soon I'll be back." "What about when you come back?"

"No plans yet." "Then where are you going?" "Madagascar." "Uh?" "Madagascar, in the southeast of Africa, is an island." "Oh yes, Madagascar, what are you going to do there?" "Go and have a look." "Marty," Dr. Chen took off his glasses, rubbed the bridge of his nose, and closed his eyes in thought.Marty almost thought that he was unwilling to speak again. In fact, Dr. Chen was really exhausted. He was the last thing to use long lectures to highlight the generation gap with his employees. Young people have the logic of young people. See it from their perspective, Dr. Chen often reminds himself.But it is too difficult to fathom right now, no matter how you look at it from another angle, Marty's resignation seems like a joke.

"Marty," said Dr. Chen, putting his glasses back on the bridge of his nose. He stared at Marty, but this time his gaze didn't break Marty's direct eyes.Dr. Chen wanted to say, you are in your thirties, and you are still so careless and childish, what will you do in the future?Before he could say this fatherly confession, he gave up his mind first.Marty had already made a head start, answering in a letter to him.It was a fluttering, impatient little bird, and it would be in vain to say anything more. "Marty," Dr. Chen finally said again, and Marty sat up straight. "The first time I had an interview with you, I had a hunch that you wouldn't be someone who stayed for a long time."

Marty couldn't help raising his eyebrows. "You still hired me, why?" "Fun." Dr. Chen said, his expression was rare and free and easy in Marty, "The fun of investing is to verify the vision of the original bet. Hiring you, it is a small high-risk investment." "I'm sorry, this made you lose money." "No." Dr. Chen shook his head, "It's not a compensation. Marty, I always thought that there are two kinds of people in this world. One kind of people knows how to concentrate and have a stable direction; I can't do anything in my life. I sympathize with the latter. You let me learn that this kind of sympathy is unnecessary. Our coordinates of value are fundamentally different. Being too subjective is paranoid. In the past six months, you have also changed I have a lot of opinions. Marty, your world is not easy for me to accept, but at least I can understand it better.

"According to personnel regulations, you will not be able to resign until one month later. Let me tell you now, you can leave whenever you want, as long as you hand over the work well-handover to Sister Liu. I hope you can make sure that you are in What to do, if you are really sure, stick to it. Strictly speaking, there is no direction, but it is also a direction. There is nothing in this world that is really stagnant. This is what it says in the theory of relativity. Finally, my physics is not in vain. You say no, Marty?" Dr. Chen had a self-deprecating smile on his face.Marty originally changed the expression on her face innocently following Dr. Chen's conversation, but now she is tongue-tied.The resignation interview that Marty had expected before was not such an easy situation. Dr. Chen's sudden turn and attitude, like a hasty gesture, relieved her half-year struggle with a wave of her face.Marty walked out of Dr. Chen's office, thinking that working here was like a big dream, and even the ending was a bit erratic.

Is Dr. Chen acting so free and easy because he wants to maintain his usual strongman image in front of Marty, or because he is completely disappointed in her?Marty is not at all intelligible.However, that doesn't seem to matter anymore. Seeing the brisk back of Marty walking out of the office, Dr. Chen suddenly felt that life was like a dream, and the plot escaped common sense in the blink of an eye.He originally wanted to comfort Marty, but why did he let her go?Also give her the unprecedented freedom to leave early?have no idea.It's all because of the atmosphere.Marty's indifference had a kind of contagious effect, which inspired Dr. Chen's unprecedented willfulness. A carelessness made a performance beyond his own imagination.

Dr. Chen opened the drawer, took out the letter Marty left him on Christmas Eve, opened it and read it again.Perhaps, it was because the letter touched him.Never send an employee away in such a mood.Either this is a very smart girl, or she is very innocent and innocent, as simple as a humble dandelion, if you look carefully, you will admit that it is very cute, but you will not want to take it off, you just want to look at it Watch it be blown by a gust of wind, fluttering, flying over your fingertips. Perhaps, when reading this letter for the first time, Dr. Chen understood that an employee like Marty is an absurd episode in the company.Marty's flying handwriting, every word is like a gesture of spreading wings.

Dr. Chen, at the moment, Christmas music is coming from the company, American tunes, very nice.As I sit here, my heart soars to the sky. I never told you that I took this job in a daze.At that time, I was poor and had no fixed place to live. I just hoped to find a fixed way of existence to stabilize my aimless life.I thought work was a good start, so I came to work.Originally, I would have been in this class all the time, just like everyone else who worked hard, if I hadn't gradually realized that since I have a heart that wants to soar high, I don't expect to find the answer in too popular methods.

Don't get me wrong, what I mean by spreading your wings and flying high is not doing something amazing, I mean running away and flying high.How should I say it?Oranges ripen in the sun, and bees carry pollen on their legs. Everything in the world has a predetermined arrangement and rhythm. It seems that the same is true in a person's life. After being born and living, they can develop their own strengths in society and develop their own strengths. Most people have no problem with this, depending on their job. The problem is that a small percentage of people get tired of the rhyme.You are frowning, I know what you want to say, I am healthy in body and mind, I have graduated from college, what else can I complain about?No.Life is a beautiful journey, I just want to go in the opposite direction and escape from the typical outlook on life.I'm sorry that I don't want this job, and I don't want this kind of challenging urban life either.I want to go off the rails and find another world before I live my life like a machine.If you want to say that I am dreaming again, you will say that I am already thirty years old and still so childish, but what is the loss of being a child?This is my life, and there is only one life, no matter which one I choose, there is no chance to do it again, so, I would rather go for a while.

I really want to apologize to you, and I really want to apologize to all the people around me.But I don't understand more and more why I should apologize.For thirty years I have lived my life according to the average person's expectations, because if I didn't I would be considered a different person.But should I live for myself or for others?You will tell me that of course it is for ourselves, but in fact, social pressure has domesticated us, and the best way to live for ourselves is to care more about what others think.So I have been very contradictory and can't find my own way out, so I have to continue to go to and from get off work, dazed, and complain like others.I know I'm doing a great job because of indecision, which is getting me deeper and deeper into a life I don't want.God, who am I kidding?I'm kidding myself.Dr. Chen, I have never dared to face myself seriously. I am not brave, I am not responsible, and I am not even honest. So I must resign to you.Dr. Chen, I believe you will not be surprised.An employee like me can only be regarded as an accident for the company, let's end this accident.Dr. Chen, I am going to go out for a walk, but after that, I haven't thought about it, let's think about it while walking, what is the loss?A bee that refuses to carry pollen on its legs may be a tragedy, but what has it lost?It is the lifetime labor of an ordinary worker bee.What I want to say is, let me wander freely, at best, Dr. Chen, what I have lost is just an ordinary person's life. Who's ever really been honest by your standards, Marty?Dr. Chen talked to himself while facing the letter paper.He put the letter back in the drawer and looked at his watch by the way.It was almost time to get off work, and there was twilight outside the window, which reminded him that he had an important dinner party tonight.Terrible, there is a severe traffic jam at this time, I am afraid I will be late to go out.He dialed a few inside calls to explain the work at hand, got up and put on his coat, and stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling glass window, but Dr. Chen's movements stopped.Facing the setting sun, he froze for a long time.