Chapter 66 Chapter 3 Wilderness (5)

"I remember you once said that we are all looking for the stars on the eternal trajectory, and every life is to practice some lessons. I believe this. So I think that although a lifetime is short, it is not meaningless, as long as it is really used. One of our hearts to live. Do you say so?" "What I learned in class, you are more thorough than me." Su Yuan turned her head to look at Marty with a smile. "This reminds me of your spiritual master, do you still take his class?" "It's late, I'm too busy, I'm exhausted from working overtime all day long, and I can't keep up with the class. Our master doesn't let people miss class casually."

"Poor thing. Can't you be so busy?" "No. God knows how much I hate going to work, but if I don't make money, I can't live. It's so contradictory." "It's called a money slave." "No way, we are called the new urban poor, have you heard of it? Take me as an example, my husband and I have a combined monthly income of 90,000 yuan, which sounds pretty good. But let me calculate it for you, a monthly housing loan You need to pay 35,000 yuan, 20,000 yuan per month for the down payment of the house, 8,000 yuan for the car loan, 10,000 yuan for the post office every month, and 5,000 yuan for water, electricity, gas, and car maintenance. My husband and I live on 12,000 a month. My God, how can we live on 12,000? We have to work overtime. Private companies are not sure about overtime pay, but if you work overtime, you can at least get lunch and save dinner money. Is it miserable?"

"It's really miserable." "Speaking of which, this generation is actually the same. Unless my parents are lucky enough to help buy a house, everyone will be in the same situation. Alas, I promised to forget about my job and loan, but I still kept talking. It's over, but I can't forget it." "What an unbearable weight in life." "Isn't it? Why don't you just talk about your work. What are your plans for the future?" "have no idea." "So have you ever planned to buy a house?" "have no idea." "Are you going to marry again?"

"do not know." "Then do you have a goal in your life? Why don't you know anything?" "How can I manage so much? I'm not Marty." "Yeah, you're not Marty today. I'm so envious. If you forget it, if you forget it half as much as you do." "Look." Marty pointed to the sky, a shooting star sparked brightly in the night sky, and the light was fleeting, "Star, a star just died, and it traveled in space for thousands of years , tens of thousands of years. It ended up dead.” "Well?" "Tell me, is it because we can't see the stars in our city, so we all make a mistake, thinking that life is long and serious, and we must fight hard to make a name? The result? Everyone lives in the end Exactly the same, but very dazed and tired."

"Well, you are savvy. You should really go and listen to our master's class." "I can imagine why you went to the spiritual course. In such a heavy life, people always need a kind of... a kind of window." "By the way, it's the window. Let my life take a breath and let some light shine through." Window, a window that breathes and lets in some light, why does this sound like a prisoner's voice?This was not an ordinary prisoner, because only very unfortunate prisoners would be put in such a dark, lightless, crowded and airtight cell. "What about you? Marty, what's your window?"

Marty was silent, Suyuan asked the important point, what is her window? "Otherwise, let's ask this question. There is always one thing in this world that you love and are attached to. When you think of it, you feel that there is still happiness and light in your life. What is it?" The more Suyuan described, the closer to the truth.Once this fact was exposed, it turned into a dazzling scene of high contrast.Marty kept thinking, what is it that she loves?What gradually emerged from the chaos in my mind was a figure, and that figure was Hai'an. Hai'an, the person she dared not and could not love, the love she would rather be alone for the rest of her life than pursue.Because, if you want to love Hai'an, you will be desperate like a careless dandelion swept out of the atmosphere by the strong wind, into the cold and dead outer space.

What a blessing, the whole space is yours now.said the universe. But I'm just a dandelion, and I'll never touch the shore again... "I see." Su Yuan said happily.Her voice brought Marty back to the ground, where he lay on his back, with bright, bright stars in front of him. "I see." Suyuan said, "We have a common skylight, and that is the sad coffee shop." "Isn't it?" Marty said softly. "Sad Coffee, our skylight, we can't do without Sad Coffee. Have you ever thought about why Sad Coffee has such a magical power?" Su Yuan propped up her upper body on her elbows and looked down at Marty.

"I never thought about it, what magic power?" "It's Hai'an." Su Yuan's voice was as clear as a bell, and there was no muddled emotion in it, only pure happiness. "Who doesn't love Hai'an?" Su Yuan said happily, and lay down again, stretching herself among the sorrel bushes. "You are so cute, Suyuan." "It's not embarrassing." Suyuan said, "For example, if I think rattan is cute and I fall in love with rattan, then I won't say it, because not only I am married, but also express my love for my friends. It's embarrassing. But when it comes to Hai'an, it's different. It's like saying you're in love with Apollo, the sun god. People won't laugh at you. They won't be serious, and they won't think you're lying. Do you understand? ?”

"Let's figure it out." "Don't talk about me, everyone loves Hai'an, even rattan loves Hai'an." "The more you talk, the more it irritates you." "I'm serious," Su Yuan said with a serious face, "otherwise why would he be with us? Teng Tiao also loves Hai An, but it's not the kind of love we're talking about. It should be said that he loves Hai An. His kind of vision. Teng Tiao loves money, there is no way, he is afraid of being poor. But what about being rich? If he can be rich and free and unrestrained like Haian, isn’t that what a poor boy dreams of? Haian It’s a special ticket, and being around him is like entering another world, polishing off the boring, cramped, vulgar side. Do you know how important this feeling is?”

"So you love Hai'an." "It's good to have love here." Su Yuan picked off a wood sorrel and put it in his heart, "I have learned a long time ago that the way to cherish a person is not to own a little bit, as long as from Accompany him next to him, and be a gentle foil. Only in this way, will he not be lost." Su Yuan's confession under the starlight still sounds clear and crisp, without any ties.A gentle lining, perhaps, this is the only way to capture the starlight.At the sound of footsteps coming toward them, Marty sat up and looked out, seeing what surprised her.

In the dark night, a huge black shadow like a cow quickly approached them.Marty and Su Yuan jumped up and stood leaning against the wall, only to realize that it was Xiao Ye. Xiaoye hugged a few more quilts on her back, walked in front of them with a smile, and threw the quilts to the ground with a shake of her shoulders.