Chapter 42 Chapter 2 What is a useless person (2)

Marty looked around, and at the corner farthest from her on the bar, a red-haired foreign boy attracted her. His hair was as red as fire, and his very handsome and peaceful face made Marty feel vaguely familiar.The boy drank his beer with his head down, and there was no companion by his side. There was a commotion from the dance floor on the right side of the bar. The drinkers crowded into a human wall. It was too crowded, and most of them could only dance up and down with the music. Everyone clapped their hands together and made noise. A small space was cleared in the center of the stage. Someone is dancing, it's Hai'an.

Marty stood up at the bar too, watching.Hai'an's dancing posture is very seductive. His moving body and face stimulated the wild desires of the drinkers. Regardless of gender, everyone pushed forward, and some girls screamed from time to time.Even if he is as familiar with Hai'an as Marty, he can't help but indulge in this gorgeous visual sensory enjoyment.The beauty of Hai'an's body and face is a combination of pure fantasy and the abyss of erotic imagination. The DJ wearing a golden wig with a lion head was very happy. Before the end of a piece of music, he jumped to a more sensational dance music.Amid the loud clamor of the drinkers, a ponytail girl in a tight dress jumped into the center of the dance floor, leaned close to Hai'an's body, and twisted, her body language was full of teasing that made people blush.Hai'an stopped jumping, he turned around and went out in front of the red-haired foreign boy. Under the eyes of everyone, Hai'an spread his arms around him and kissed him, kissing the junction of neck and cheek.

Ah, I remembered, this foreign boy, I saw it outside the Sad Cafe a few days ago, the boy with extremely calm eyes who was riding on the back seat of Haian motorcycle. Hai'an was talking with the red-haired boy with his head down, and the girl in a ponytail dress was still dancing on the dance floor.The drinker's eyes are very busy, and his heart is also busy.Hai'an attracts their affection, but his actions are unimaginable.Hai'an walked back to Marty and took the glass from the bartender. "Dancing?" Hai'an asked her. Because of his arrival, Marty is now in the spotlight.She felt her cheeks flushed, and she felt bewildered.She said, "No, I can't dance."

"No chance, just swing freely with the music." "That's too difficult." Hai'an stared at Marty for a moment and thought for a moment. He put down his wine glass, pulled up a chair and sat down: "Tell me, Marty, now imagine that everyone in the audience is wearing black blindfolds, including the waiters, including the bartender, all People, if everyone wears blindfolds, including yourself, and then I lead you to dance, do you dare to dance?" "Are you wearing it too?" "Put it on too." "Okay, then I'll jump." "OK." Hai'an raised the corner of his mouth, "It's not that you can't dance, you just can't let others watch you dance. Why?"

"...I just dare not." "Do you care about others more than yourself?" "no." "Dancing makes you feel very strange. If you are in the middle of the dance, you suddenly realize: 'I am shaking my body like a beast without meaning, and letting my expression go like an idiot without thinking, what am I doing?' You are afraid of sudden Overwhelmed by a kind of boredom, a kind of embarrassment, so you dare not dance?" "I didn't think about it that way." Marty blushed even more.In fact, Heian had hit her point of view very precisely, and even Marty had never described the reason for her fear of dancing so realistically.

"Tell me, Marty," Hai'an leaned forward, getting closer to her cheek, "then you're afraid of having sex too? Afraid of being overwhelmed by the sudden sobriety and boredom in the midst of the pleasure of making love?" "Haian!" Marty scolded in a low voice. With a mocking smile on Hai'an's face, he sat back straight, took a sip of wine, and said, "You're right, in fact, the dancing posture is ridiculous, and the making love posture is also ridiculous, but this kind of ridiculousness can be used as a distraction. Human misery is equally bad both ways."

"Using the ridiculous to distract the pathetic? Including you just kissed a boy in front of everyone?" Marty countered, she felt that Hai An regarded her as an ordinary person, and she didn't like this feeling. "I want to kiss him, why not? Others can watch it if they want, and I will give them their wild imagination for free." "are you gay?" "What is homosexuality? The world's dichotomy between gay and non-gay is too unrealistic. I love whoever I want, and play with whoever I want, no matter what gender he is, whether he has gender or not."

"Then you're bisexual." "It's another superficial definition problem. Marty, you live in the constraints of social labels. The focus is on what you think, whether you love it or not, and don't care how others define it and look at it. The world lacks the most What you want is the norm, and what the norm requires you to do must be the same as others, with the same values ​​and outlook on life. Don’t you think this kind of life is boring?” "So your pursuit is different from everyone else's? Do the opposite? Isn't that boring? Wouldn't it be like Jill said, turning into social garbage and useless people?"

"What is a cripple? Don't you understand? Marty." Hai'an leaned over and pressed her again, "This world has been invaded by material desires, and the development of diverse communication cultures has given birth to the most common and unified values ​​in history. , We are being overwhelmed by dullness and rigidity. To make a different voice, to be a different person, even a useless person, is a contribution in itself. Tell me, what is a useless person?"