Chapter 20 Chapter 1 Incomparable Sadness (2)

"Do you remember how long we lived together?" Marty asked. She always referred to their roommate relationship as cohabitation. , and sometimes feel so short, as if still—” "Sabina," Linda interrupted Marty suddenly, "I feel sorry for you!" "Why do you say that? You are my only friend in college." Matiwan didn't expect Linda to say such a thing. "You listen to me first. When I moved into the dormitory that year and met you, I felt that you were a special girl, so full of dreams, like me, so eager to break free. I think my behavior affected you .”

"No, you didn't." "Listen to me," Linda frowned eagerly, "At that time, I just thought that my life was so unfree, and the college entrance examination almost drove me crazy. Once I entered school, I just thought , to be a little bird, as long as I fly, fly, no one can catch me, no one can keep me... I have a good time because I don't care about anything. "I know my behavior is too loose, but I just want to challenge everyone's stereotypes. This is my life, my life, why should I care whether others are satisfied? The difference with you is that I can really I didn't care. I also offended a lot of people back then, it didn't matter, I was able to find my own fun, fortunately, Chen Qusheng knew how to behave. But you are different, I see you getting more and more isolated, I see you getting stuck Going into a closed world, but I can't take care of myself, I'm too busy making fun to fill my life. I regret not being able to give you a hand."

"It's not like that, it's none of your business..." Marty lowered his head and stroked his nails. "I think we're all so lonely, and we do a lot of stupid things to not get overwhelmed by loneliness." "I thought your college life was very rich and wonderful." "Lonely." Linda took a puff of smoke lightly, "There are so few people who can understand my feelings. I broke up with Chen Qusheng when I was in junior year. After that, I changed seven or eight boyfriends one after another, and I still feel lonely. .Walking on the campus, I sometimes think that I am living in a different dimension, and the distance from other people is infinitely far away.”

"Linda, why do I think you're talking about someone I don't know? I've always envied your popularity." "That's because I was strong enough and walked in my direction firmly. The students had no choice but to be subdued. You were more withdrawn, so that everyone didn't know what to do with you, but the loneliness in our hearts was still the same. I later I found a term in the book called social maladaptive disorder. You are dominant and I am recessive. Everyone can only see that I am cheerful and lively in class. In fact, I am isolated from my heart and I am looking for it like crazy. , looking for a world that does not exist, where no one violates anyone, and no one cares about anyone. Of course I couldn’t find it, so I desperately became more slutty, wanting to violate everyone’s outlook on life as compensation.”

"I do not understand." Linda tried to put on a big smile, but Marty saw tears in her eyes. "Sabina, youth is like a storm, we are all like a fever, and the thoughts at that time, it seems now, sometimes even I don't understand. But we are all grown up. I married, because no longer Birds that can fly also get tired sometimes. Now I am very happy. I know that there is someone who binds me. He is so absolutely tolerant of me. No matter how I fly, I know that there is a nest waiting for me. It turns out that I This feeling is what is needed. Do you understand?" Linda wiped away her tears and looked at her watch: "Oh, it's getting late, I have to go back early today. Shall we go? Shall I give you a ride?"

Marty shook his head. "I want to sit a little longer." "Okay." Linda stood up and put on her little coat. After a pause, she turned to Marty again, "Sabina, after I told you this, I suddenly felt a lot more relaxed. I don't know why, but I always feel that you are very like me." Linda insisted on paying the bill, and Marty watched as she was about to go out when the door was opened from the outside, and Hai'an walked in like a gust of wind. Probably only the spring breeze can make the female guests like flowers in the room rippling like this.Hai'an wore a short leather vest with bare arms, low-waisted jeans, hiking boots, and a leather wristband that he wasn't afraid to ostentatiously wear.His arms were strong and sexy, and Marty saw an intricate tattoo on his left arm, a piercing brass earring in his left ear, and a ponytail in the back of his head. Yellow copper ring.If he saw a person dressed in such a suit on the street, Marty would probably just whisper: Ruffian!But how heroic Hai'an is in front of him can only be admired, and he can only appreciate his luck.

Linda and Hai'an passed by, she couldn't help but look back at Hai'an again, she was stunned, Linda felt a thousand feelings, but she still opened the door and left.The tired bird waved to Marty from outside the door and disappeared into the night. Under the stares of the female guests, Haian walked towards the cashew-shaped table at the innermost place, and Xiaoye greeted her. Even Xiaoye bent over, but laughed loudly. Xiaoye went to the back of the store, and soon came out with a plate of food, very delicate, rice, vegetables, soup, dipping sauce, drinks, small plates and bowls full of a plate.The female guests have all returned to their natural postures now, but they just send some gentle gazes over from time to time.Hai'an didn't care, and started to eat.

It turns out that this coffee shop does not sell food, but only serves its own people.Marty found that he hadn't had a sip of his coffee, the cream on top of which had formed a film, and he didn't want to drink it, but he didn't want to leave either. "Marty, look!" Xiaoye came to her eyes again.In his hand was a pack of green and white Ys, with a fancy purple ring affixed to the pack that seemed to have been cut from the wrapping paper Marty had picked out.I didn't expect Xiaoye to spend time making such gadgets like a girl. "Well, it's cute, did you post it?"

"Yeah." Xiaoye turned over a chair and sat down hugging the back of the chair, "Your friend left?" "Die." "Marty, Marty," Little Leaf said like a child, "what a nice name you have." "Xiaoye is also very cute, a small leaf. Tell me, Xiaoye, are you the only one serving this coffee shop? How are you so busy?" "Oh, I'm just too busy. I used to have work-study students to help, but now I just resigned. I'm almost too busy." "So... what about that Hai'an?" "Hey, how do you know his name is Hai'an?"

"Listen to you." "Oh, he's a partner in the store. However, he should be considered the boss, and almost all the shares are owned by him." "So young, so rich?" "Wow, the rich are dead, he." Xiaoye's eyes widened. "very nice." "Do you work around here?" "Yeah, not far ahead, I'll give you my business card." Marty took out a new business card and gave it to him. "Thank you." Xiaoye looked at the business card seriously, then turned it over to look at the English side: "Mathi, what a strange English name."

"That's a direct transliteration of my Chinese name. Your English is pretty good, and your pronunciation is very pure." "How are you, teacher." Xiaoye pointed to Hai'an, "His English is so good that it's scary." "Oh, really?" For this, Marty showed the peculiar disapproval of English undergraduates. "If you don't believe me, go talk to him, I'll introduce you to each other." Xiaoye jumped off the chair and took Marty's hand.Marty was startled, completely unprepared.