Chapter 18 Chapter Five - Can't bear to look at your eyes

Days are like children who sneak out to play, always slipping away silently. When Mingjing wears less and less clothes and more and more skin is exposed, I know that summer is coming. At the end of the second semester of her junior year, Xiuzhi was admitted to the Institute of Chinese Studies of Chengda University. Senior sister Xiuzhi had a big banquet for three days, and invited us to sing, eat and watch movies. To my surprise, brother Ziyao even sent a gift to senior sister Xiuzhi. It was a white square pottery basin, about the size of a washbasin, with many stones piled inside. The pottery basin reads: "There is no reason for great compassion, but for the same body and great compassion. It is also great love"--Brother Ziyao's handwriting.

On the left is an oval milky white stone, smooth and bright.Brother Ziyao wrote: "See the true self in the mirror platform." On the right stand three black sharp stones, one big and two small, arranged in the shape of a mountain.It says: "The scenery outside the purple bamboo forest is beautiful." Eight slender columnar stones are inserted inside the pottery basin, dark green in color with some purple dots. That naturally represents the Purple Bamboo Forest. The most special thing is that there is a stone in the purple bamboo forest that looks like Avalokitesvara Bodhisattva holding a poplar branch.

I remember that Brother Ziyao looked shy when he carefully handed this pot to Senior Sister Xiuzhi. Senior sister Xiuzhi was very happy and said, "This is a beautiful work of art!" I once asked Brother Ziyao, does this thing have any special meaning? "The Buddha said, don't say it, don't say it." Brother Ziyao answered me like this. A few years later, when Brother Ziyao left Tainan, I finally solved the mystery. After I was promoted to senior year, I began to seriously prepare for the graduate school exams, and I spent more time studying. So did Ming Jing and Sun Ying.

It's just that Mingjing and the others are used to going to the library to study, while Bo Sen and I are used to staying at home. Brother Ziyao also wanted to take the postgraduate entrance examination, so he seldom went out, and there were far fewer non-undergraduate books in his backpack. Every once in a while though, the six of us have dinner together. When I meet anyone's birthday, I will also sing. For the postgraduate exam, frankly, I don't have much confidence. And I always feel that my exam luck is not good. I almost overslept during the high school entrance examination, and when I took a taxi to the examination room, the car broke down.

I went to the wrong classroom during the college entrance examination, and even the chairs were broken, causing my butt to reach the floor. You can't talk about landing, but about reaching the ground.This is what the teachers have been admonishing. During the final physics exam in the second semester of my freshman year, the alarm clock ran out of power, so I fell asleep before the exam time. The physics teacher looked at me pitifully, asked me to make up the exam twice, hand in three reports, and asked me to yell ten times in front of the physics department: "I'm sorry for Galileo, Newton and Faraday."

In the end, I was given 60 points, which is just a passing score. Whenever I think of these unpleasant experiences in the past, it always casts a shadow over my studies. "Go to the fucking circle and chacha bird fly! Give it to your dad to fly to Alishan to roast the bird!" Once it was so boring that I couldn't help but blurt out swear words. "Pass!" Ming Jing called out from behind me, and I was startled. I need a lot of fresh air when I study, so the door is not closed. "You...you actually swear!" "Are you surprised?" "Come on! Be serious. No swearing under any circumstances."

"I will be very angry if you do this." "How can you swear?" "It's wrong to swear, don't you know that?" "You...you really deserve to be scolded. I really want to scold you, I really want to scold you." The more Ming Jing spoke, the more excited she became, and her breathing became short of breath. "Auntie, don't be angry. You're already scolding, and I know I'm wrong." "You really know you're wrong?" "Ok." "Swearing is ugly, and people will look down on you. You know?" "Ok."

"Don't do it again next time." "Ok." "It must be changed." "Ok." "Hook fingers?" "it is good." "Come on, are you in a bad mood?" "Nothing, just..." I told her what happened during the past exams, and complained about the exam luck by the way. "Fool. No matter how bad your exam luck is, you're still not going through college smoothly." Mingjing tapped my head and said with a smile: "Thinking about it from another angle, you can save yourself from danger every time, which is actually a great luck."

Mingjing stretched out her right hand, walked along the wide open door, and pointed to the bright living room: "People should move towards the light of the future, not always carry the haze of the past" Mingjing couldn't find a place to sit, so she had to sit on the corner of my bed, and continued, "A man should stand upright, how can he blame luck for his carelessness?" "In everything, just ask yourself whether you have done your best, and you should not ask God for extra help. This is the right way." "And the more you feel that you are unlucky, the more unlucky you will be. It's a kind of hypnotic effect."

"Understand?" "Auntie, what you said made sense, I was moved by you. I don't mind if I impeach Lansang." "Come on! I mean it. Don't argue with me." "Oh." "Come on. Don't worry, you'll pass the exam. You're hardworking and smart, and the exam won't let you down." Ming Jing's tone suddenly became extremely gentle. "Really?" "When did I lie to you? I really think you are very smart and excellent." "Would you? I think I'm normal." "Fool. I regard it as a dragon, but you compare yourself to a shallow thing."

"what?" "Come on, listen to me." Ming Jing sat up straight and stared at me: "Although I'm not very good at seeing people, in my eyes, you are a very capable person." She emphasized the phrase "very much" twice. "I'm not sure about many things, but I'm pretty sure about how you feel as a person." Mingjing's tone slowed down, and she smiled slightly: "After a while, I have always believed in you so much. Don't doubt it." Mingjing's eyes shot out light, directly piercing the shadow in my heart. "Auntie, you are very talkative today." "Fool. I care about you." "um. Thank you." "Come on. When you get upset in the future, let's go to the top floor to chat and we'll be fine." "Ok." "Let's work hard together, and then get into the graduate school together. OK?" "it is good." Later we often went to the balcony on the top floor, not necessarily because I was upset, but just a habit. I am used to receiving spiritual support from Mingjing. Mingjing always encourages me, irrigates me, and does not hesitate. My wings seem to be getting stronger and stronger, and I can fly high, and Mingjing will be the wind under my wings. I have come to believe that I am a smart, good and talented person. Even thought it was a "sun comes out in the east" fact. If you need the sword of self-confidence in the face of thorns on the road of life, Then this sword was given to me by Mingjing. In order to completely correct my bad habit of swearing, Mingjing asked Bo Sen and Brother Ziyao to be spies. This trick is very ruthless, because I will not keep my mouth in front of them. When she first found out that I was swearing again, she would gently warn me, but after a few times, she changed her method. "Come on, follow me to the balcony on the top floor." When she got to the balcony, she said: "You swear, so I won't talk to you." No matter how I get her to talk, she comes and goes with this sentence. It's very similar to the heroine in Qiong Yao's novel "I Am a Cloud", who finally lost her mind. Because no matter what the heroine asks her, she will only answer: "I am a cloud." If Mingjing is in a bad mood, she won't even bother to say anything, she just taps my head with her finger. So I got rid of the habit of swearing. It wasn't because she was afraid of the pain of Mingjing's finger hitting her head, but because she couldn't bear the look in her eyes at that time.