Chapter 61 Peacock Forest (61)

On the day of the interview, I put on the tie that Mr. Martini gave me. Nothing special, just intuition brings good luck. The oral examination process really went smoothly, and there were no major problems with the thesis. It takes about another month to revise and you can get your degree. As soon as the oral test was over, I took Li Shanlan to Yum to celebrate with Xiaoyun. Xiaoyun treated guests, Li Shanlan and I each had two glasses of wine. Although they met for the first time, they seemed to hit it off very well. The three of us chatted all night. Before leaving, Xiaoyun said to me ambiguously, "Congratulations."

Not sure what she really meant congratulations on my graduation?Or congratulations on finding the girl Li Shanlan? A few days before the revision of the thesis was about to be completed, the supervisor told me a message. There was a research opportunity at the University of California, Berkeley, which happened to be related to my thesis. As long as I am interested, he can write a recommendation letter for me. This is a great opportunity, not only for further education, but also for money; The most important thing is that after returning to Taiwan in the future, because I have drank foreign ink,

So it is much easier to find a teaching position or find other jobs. "How long will it take?" Xiao Yun asked after hearing what I said. "Two years. ’ I replied. "and then?" "Maybe go back to Taiwan; maybe find the working environment there is good, maybe stay in the United States." 』 "Can you stay if you want?" "For someone as talented as me, maybe the President of the United States will personally ask me to stay in the United States." 』 "You think too much." Xiaoyun laughed. After stopping laughing, Xiaoyun said, "During your overthinking, have you ever thought about Li Shanlan?"

I froze, then shook my head and said, "Try not to think about it. 』 "Why don't you want to?" "So what if you think about it?Take her to America?Tell her to wait for me in Taiwan for two years?none of these Good idea.What's more, I don't know if she likes me, and it's too far to think about it. 』 I fiddled with my fingers, a little uneasy. "Did you do your Ph.D. in order to stay in academia in the future?" After Xiaoyun finished asking, he pulled a chair and sat down at the bar, facing me. "no. ’ I shook my head, ‘At that time, I only felt that the school was a safe forest, and I wanted to stay in

Just study in it. 』 "You have to leave the forest after all. Don't you?" "yes. 』 "Do you really want to go to America?" "It's not a matter of wanting or not. ’ I said, ‘After all, studying abroad is different, it seems to be It's plated with gold. 』 "If Li Shanlan likes you very much, but she wants you to stay in Taiwan, how do you choose?" "I..." After thinking for a long time, I gritted my teeth and said, "I will still go out!" 』 Xiaoyun stopped talking. We were silent for a long time before Xiaoyun slowly opened his mouth: "After you come back, maybe this place won't exist anymore."

"what? ’ I was taken aback, ‘What do you mean? 』 "I'm tired." She smiled lightly, "I want to rest for a while, or live in another place." "What about this store? 』 "I'll leave it to Xiaolan to take care of it." "Isn't it a pity to just give up like this? ’ I looked around subconsciously, 『This…』 "Hey, I'm a horse picker, and the most important thing is to have a good time." I am speechless. Xiaoyun didn't show any hesitation, embarrassment or distressed expression, but relaxed. It seemed that to her, it was just a simple multiple choice question.

She chooses the most important and laughs off the rest. I suddenly realized that I had also done a multiple-choice question just now. I chose the United States and gave up Li Shanlan. And the reason why I chose the United States was not because I wanted to go, but because of what it represented, The fame and fortune that may be brought in the future, as well as vanity. This is the symbolic meaning of the peacock in that psychological test. I used to think that I was a person who chose peacock but didn't look like a person who chose peacock. So he pretends to be lofty, feels wronged by being misunderstood, and feels inexplicably guilty of picking peacocks;

But I didn't expect that it's just that I haven't encountered multiple choice questions. Once it is about the future, whether it is about whether the body is plated with gold, all other things are left behind. It turns out that in my subconscious mind, it is completely the essence of choosing peacocks. Thinking of this, my blood freezes and my whole body feels cold. After realizing that he was indeed the one who chose the peacock, thinking of the rejection of that psychological test over the years, Can't help but feel a little ridiculous, but also a little sad. Since I can't change who I am, and I've made a choice, let's be honest.

While I was going through the formalities of leaving school for graduation, I was going through the formalities of going abroad at the same time.