Chapter 55 Peacock Forest (55)

I'm about to enter Ph.D. 6. If there are no accidents, I can graduate by the end of this year or early next year. But what to do after graduation? This question started to bother me. I'm 30 years old, and it's too old to enter the workplace at 30 years old. It seems that the only right way is to find a research institute to be a researcher, or find a school to seek a teaching position. It's a pity that in Chinese society, it doesn't matter if there is a relationship, and it doesn't matter if it doesn't matter. It's okay for me to ask myself and I'm not very good, I'm afraid it will be very difficult to even find a teaching position.

Both Rong An and Xiao Yun advised me not to think too much and talk about it after graduation. Li Shanlan said, "You can work with me." "do what? "I asked. "It's a stall," she said. "what? 』 "You are very talented, we can definitely make money by cooperating." I decided to follow the advice of Rong An and Xiao Yun, and talk about it after graduation. The time I stayed in the research room became longer, and then I simply bought a recliner and put it in the research room. When he was tired, he would sleep on the recliner. The highest record was to stay in the research room for three nights in a row.

When Rong An came to see me, we still went to Yum to chat with Xiaoyun, this is already a habit. Getting along with Li Shanlan is still the same, often driving her to the station, and often driving her home from the station. We often work together to study how to make cheap things expensive, and we don't eat less expired food. It's autumn, and I put an extra thin quilt on the recliner in the research room. After sleeping in the research room for two consecutive nights, I decided to go home and take a hot bath on the third night. Just after taking a shower, I was about to change clothes before going to work in the laboratory, when suddenly there were two thuds on the floor.

Going downstairs to Li Shanlan's room, she found a small cake on the table. "Whose birthday is it? "I asked. "Me." She stared at the cake on the table. I stared blankly at her, thinking she looked a little weird. "What's wrong?" She glanced up at me, "Can't I celebrate my birthday?" "of course can. ’ I quickly said, ‘This cake…’ "It cost money," she said. I was a little surprised, looked at her again, and said, "Are you the Li Shanlan I knew?" 』 "Hi." She glared at me. She seemed to be in a bad mood, so I stopped talking.

There was also a bottle of red wine with less than half left on the table, and a wine glass beside it. "Is this bottle of wine leftover from a guest? 』 "No," she said, "it's my birthday today, and it's a gift from the store." "Why is there only half left? 』 "That's what I drank." "what? ’ I was taken aback, ‘Are you drinking alone? 』 "is it not OK?" She poured another glass of wine, and when I raised it I said, 'Don't drink it. 』 "Can't I wish myself a happy birthday?" she said. "There are many ways to celebrate a birthday, and you don't have to drink alcohol. 』

"My birthday can only be celebrated by myself, isn't that worth drinking?" After she finished speaking, she took a sip from her wine glass.I thought about it and said: "You drink slowly, I will give you something. 』 I ran back upstairs to my room and rummaged through the cabinets to find the bottle of perfume, which I knew was her favorite brand. Going downstairs and handing her the perfume, she showed a surprised expression. "Did you buy this on purpose?" she said. I smiled sheepishly, and then told her that because Shi Xiangyi owed me two thousand yuan and hadn't paid it back,

So some of our classmates played tricks on him by asking him to pay off his debts by swiping his credit card in a department store. Unexpectedly, I just bought this bottle of her favorite perfume. Her eyes turned from bright to dark, and said: "You can't even cheat girls, no wonder your ex-girlfriend doesn't want you." "Hey. ’ I said, ‘Don’t think you can talk nonsense when you’re drunk. 』 "I'm not drunk, and I'm not talking nonsense." She suddenly became agitated, "You even said it was a special Bought for me to make me happy can't do it, what girl would like you! "

"Enough is enough. 』I was a little annoyed. "It's not enough, I just want to say it." She stood up and said loudly, "I'm 30 years old today. I don't know what the future looks like?Don't know where you are now?Don't know what you were doing in the past? Seeing the fallen leaves in autumn no longer thinks it is poetry, but only feels sad, which shows that I am getting old.but I Still alone, no one loves me, don't know who to love.I……" Her tone was so rapid that she was a little out of breath.After taking a breath, shout: "I don't even have a dog!"

"dog? 』I was puzzled. "Yes. I don't have a dog." "Are dogs important? 』 "I don't care. I'm poor without a dog." Although she is 30 years old, the logic of her speech now is like a three-year-old child. "Ok. ’ I nodded, ‘It’s very pitiful. 』 "You don't have to pity me." "it is good.I have no sympathy for you. 』 She snorted, her breathing slowly returned to normal, and her expression was no longer agitated. "I'm 30 years old, you know?" she said. "Now I know. 』 "I don't have many friends. Everyone says I'm vain and love money."

"Not at all. ’ I said, ‘at least I don’t think you are vain and love money. 』 "Really?" she said. "You swear?" "Don't dare. ’ I shook my head. "You..." She started to get excited again. "Kidding. 』I hurriedly put on a smiling face. "I have no goal, no direction, and the past days seem to be blank, leaving nothing behind, I have lost so many things, but I have nothing in my hands. My life is a mess. " She looked at me after she finished speaking, and I felt as if I had seen this look. It was in the class of "Personality Psychology", when the professor mentioned the psychological test,

What I saw in my heart, the peacock's eyes. It was because of the peacock's eyes that I chose the peacock. "You hope to live the life of a rich man for three days, which shows that you have ideals; you know that you have to work hard to make money If you can do it, it shows that you have a direction; if you can save money, you must not spend a dime, which shows that you have Principle; you can eat expired food naturally, which shows that you are very open-minded...』 "Open-minded?" She interrupted me, "That's not afraid of death." "That's fine too. ’ I smiled. Her raised face seemed to want to laugh, but she held back. "Did you ask me to come down just to say you're a mess?" 』 "It's a pity for me to drink this bottle of wine alone. I can sell you a glass for 50 if I ask you to come down and drink it." "50 a glass is so cheap, I'm going to have a bad conscience.How about this, how about 80 yuan? 』 "as long as you are happy." "How do you sell the cake? 』 "You are less boring." She gave me a glare. She poured me a glass of wine and cut me a piece of cake, saying, "My birthday, it's free." "happy Birthday. "I say. "How happy is an old woman's birthday?" "Give me back that perfume." 』 "what?" "I can pass it on to happy old women. 』 "There's no reason to go back after giving someone away." She picked up the bottle of perfume and looked at it. The tense facial muscles had relaxed. I didn't let her drink any more, and drank the rest myself. After drinking and eating three cakes, I stood up and said, 'Now it's my turn. 』 "Huh?" She was puzzled. "I'm 30 years old, I'm still alone, no one loves me, I don't know who to love.I……" "Hey!" She tugged on my sleeve, looking annoyed, "Why are you imitating me!" "I'm drunk, there's nothing I can do. 』 "you……" "happy Birthday. ’ I said with a smile. She looked at me for a while, and finally couldn't help laughing.