Chapter 14 Section 13

Saturday July 9th sunny I went to the company two days ago, and after I sat down, Wang Xiaojian glanced up and down at me for a long time, then showed a look of contempt, and wanted to say something, but was stared back by my burning eyes. For the next half an hour, Wang Xiaojian was in a state of fidgeting. Finally, he couldn't help it anymore, turned around and said to me with a wrinkled face, "Huang Xiaoxian, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. Can't sit and work next to a big eggplant." I was taken aback, and then asked, "What are you talking about?" Wang Xiaojian pointed at me, "Look down for yourself."

I looked down, and the shame really hit me. I was wearing a purple vest with Babapapa on it.And the crumpled cotton trousers she was wearing underneath were also purple.The sneakers are the finishing touch, purple and slightly black. After waking up, I quickly put on the clothes closest to my hand and left. I didn't expect that, by accident, I was actually wearing such a shining outfit. I looked at Wang Xiaojian with embarrassment, Wang Xiaojian was also helpless, "You choose yourself, should you take off your upper body or your lower body?" If I had to choose, I still chose to take off the lower body, because once the flat upper body was exposed, I would be even more ashamed to face the world.

"Can't you tidy up your closet and pick out a few clothes that won't make people laugh?" Because I understand my potential, no matter how I dress up, it is still far from the "icing on the cake", so my clothes are used to keep out the cold and hide my ugliness. My life is a "basic" life, so I don't need any design for clothes . And my closet, since we broke up, has been cordoned off by me, and I easily walk around it.I couldn't muster the courage to open it for a long time because there were memories on every piece of clothing. After waking up today, I looked at my pair of weather-beaten red sweatpants, and the seven or eight T-shirts made by my grandma who had been through for a while, and finally decided to open the door of the closet, even if I would be sucked into memories In the black hole, I also have to sort out the wearable inventory.

When I opened the closet, what I saw were not clothes, but small tombstones. This red thin coat, not to mention the strange appearance, is also slippery and slightly sticky to the touch, and the touch is creepy. However, in the winter vacation of the freshman year when I met him for the first time, I wore this dress and was brave in KTV I sang Faye Wong's "Wings of Light" so self-destructively, because a wretched guy with braces and coriander leaves left in the braces has been waiting for an opportunity to hook me up in order to Let him realize that life is impermanent, and a girl like a soft persimmon has the strength to shout loudly, so I grabbed the microphone and sang unscrupulously. After singing, the wretched guy went to the toilet, and the players who played cards were stunned with trembling knees. In the silence, only he smiled and looked at me.

He later said to me, "Other people will think you're here to blow things up, but to me, you're a shiny, out-of-tone rock star in a red suit." I folded the dress and put it in a bag near my feet. This white coat is too cold to wear in winter and too hot to wear in spring. Its life span is only a few days in late winter and early spring. It is such a season. I dated him for the first time. I wore this dress and met him. Half awkwardly and half anxiously walked along the street of Guozijian, from the beginning to the end, I was very excited, but I didn't know how to express it, so I watched him silently all the way; When I was playing with my buddies, I accidentally exploded the chrysanthemum.On a night in early spring in Beijing, it was warm and cold, I was shivering from the cold, and I had to close my mouth tightly to prevent my teeth from rubbing against each other. He walked to the Confucius Temple and lit a cigarette under a lamp. I pointed behind him and smiled. When he got up, he turned his head to see that there was a sign hanging on the vermilion gate, which said, "No Smoking".He smiled slightly, revealing two beautiful canine teeth. I looked at him through the smoke with unspeakable emotion, and he said, "Shall we go back to school?" My legs softened, but my voice said softly, okay ah.

The color of this long skirt is too messy to describe, but because of my young age, I often wore it and walked around the campus with him, holding hands proudly the whole time.He once made an application, "Baby, why don't you wear a plain skirt, every time I see your skirt, I feel like I'm going to get heatstroke." I ruthlessly rejected his request, because when I was beside him It is not enough to describe my mood at that moment if I don't let myself be gorgeous to sweet. This piece of assembly line goods has so many memories about the past. Every time I pick up one, I will think of the mood when I bought it and wore it with great interest to meet him. I dressed myself up and sat down. Go up to him and whisper, hi.He said, you are so beautiful today.I pointed to the clothes and said, it was their credit.

Over the years, the new clothes have been washed and faded out of shape, but they are still there; while the new love is put into the dyeing vat, dyed and re-dyed bluntly until I can no longer recognize it. Before I knew it, several bags had been filled on the ground, and I sat among them, silent for a cigarette, counted as a moment of silence.Then, I took these bags, opened the door, took the elevator, walked to the trash can in the community, and threw them into the bin one by one. The old people leave as soon as they say, with a handsome back, for fear that they will turn into a pillar of salt after a while, so even if they are nostalgic, they will not look back; and these old things have witnessed so many good moments in the whole process, and they have nothing to do. Motivation, it's up to me to decide whether they go or not.Memories are viruses, attached to these clothes, if I don’t throw them away cruelly, and if I am not careful, those viruses will seep into the skin and melt into the blood all the way to the brain. As a result, my whole body will once again fall into a state of self-pity and self-pity.

You can say, as for what, in addition to being treated as relics, they are money first, why should you look down on them so much, it's just a lost love. Yes, many things will not happen, the head of the murderer nods to the ground, but a scar the size of a bowl is left, even if the earth explodes, it will be a spectacular free firework for aliens. But if you look down from the universe at this moment, through the gratitude and resentment mixed with the clouds, look at me, the size of dust, who is throwing away these clothes, then clap your hands, turn and walk away, no Looking back, did you see that I was laughing, it was because I was finally willing to move forward cleanly, this is what I can do at this moment, the first step.

When I got home, I hung myself on the sofa, staring at the empty wardrobe in a daze.At this time, the phone rang, and I picked it up to look, and a surge of energy and blood rushed into my brain instantly. It's from my best friend, she wants to ask me to meet. Holding the phone, I felt panicked, mixed with a large dose of hatred.My hands trembled, but I still pressed the words, "Okay, tomorrow. See you there?"