Chapter 80 80. Because, the secret I can't tell is the same as Liang Sheng's, it is endless sadness

Tianyou told me a long time ago that he is very busy recently and will leave the city, so he will not be able to accompany me.That day, he let off fireworks for me, and we were smiling like flowers in the yard of that villa.I also asked him what he was busy with, and he said he was busy looking for someone. A dearest son of his little aunt. Because, his little aunt once had an entanglement with a married man and gave birth to a child.In a fit of rage, Grandpa severed the father-daughter relationship with her.Fourteen years ago, in a sudden disaster, the little aunt passed away, and the man became disabled.Grandpa was too stubborn at that time and refused to adopt their children... Many years later, when grandpa got old, he always thought of his little daughter who died, and he also began to think about his little grandson who was living in a foreign country, so he asked him to ask around.

However, at that time, Tianyou didn't tell me that the child he was looking for was named Liang Sheng. Liang Sheng lay quietly in the hospital, his face was quiet, without the slightest expression of pain.Just like when he fell asleep when he was a child, his eyebrows and eyes are so vivid, even though he is very pale. I watched him through the glass of the monitoring room, feeling extremely painful in my heart.God Bless was behind me, silently.I wouldn't look at him, wouldn't talk to him, I didn't know how to forgive him, forgive myself. Liang Sheng's eyes were sometimes opened, but they were all in a daze.I wrote the word "brother" repeatedly on the glass window.Write slowly one stroke at a time, I wish he could see it, I wish he could get better soon.

Liang Sheng. elder brother. I believe that Liang Sheng can see it, because at this time, I can see large groups of fog from his eyes.If, if, he was really unconscious, why would he cry? After Liang Sheng's condition stabilized, Bei Xiaowu and I returned home.I have been thinking about what Xiao Jiu said, he said that resentment is a devil. And how did I never feel resentment towards my father and Liang Sheng?But I hate Tian En so much, Tian En is just an enlargement of my psychological shadow.In fact, I want to be an angel in this way. I asked Bei Xiaowu, do you hate my choice that day?

Bei Xiaowu shook his head, if I were you, I would not let anyone hurt Liang Sheng. However, I ended up hurting him. After paying homage to his mother, when he returned home, his father kept looking around in front of the courtyard.It wasn't until he saw my shadow that he lowered his head and, like a child who made a mistake, walked back home quietly, holding on to the clumsy wheelchair. Under the crimson setting sun, he was already very old. I wonder if there will be a day when I will stop him, call him "Dad", and then hold the stumps he stretched out to me with my soft hands, because, after eighteen years of strangers, When he grows old, how much he wants to be close to his children, I will hear him trembling his lips, and shouting that word for a long time-child.Then I cried, and he cried too. We hugged our heads and cried like a pair of father and daughter who had been separated for eighteen years.

However, there is no such opportunity at all. Because, my father died of a limb infection long before my mother died.The so-called plot of meeting him after my mother's death was all my wishful thinking.I thought he could wait for me, I thought he was tough enough to wait until I forgot my resentment towards him.However, I was wrong. My mother said that on the night my father passed away, he kept calling my name tremblingly. He said that the person he was most sorry for in his life was Jiang Sheng, his youngest daughter. Before he was alive, I never called him dad. Only today did I realize how much I miss him and how much I need him.

I will still go to the roof to look at the stars. I imagined that Liang Sheng was at my house, and he might climb up to the roof with braised pork at any time and call me, Jiang Sheng.Then I watched me eat all the braised pork in my stomach like a kitten.Then, we watched the stars together on the roof and made a wish while watching the stars. What kind of wish should I make? I promise, Liang Sheng, you are not my brother, are you? I started to cry and think about Liang Sheng. The six-year-old Liang Sheng just got up and entered my yard. He called me Jiang Sheng.I made faces at him, scaring the good-looking him to tears.

On winter nights, I slept next to him, with my little black head leaning against his shoulder. Our little heads were so close to each other on winter nights, like two stubborn mushrooms. The two mushrooms have grown up, but nothing can stay between them. Cold raw ginger has never bloomed. He once asked me, Jiang Sheng, do you know why it has not bloomed? I shake my head.He told me seriously, because it knew his secret, a secret that could never be revealed, such a sad secret.Therefore, it also learned to be sad, and bid farewell to the flowering period forever. I didn't tell Liang Sheng that I stole the ten yuan from the class teacher in the first grade of junior high school, and it was always in my pillow. I so wished that I had the ability to let Liang Sheng participate in that spring outing.

Because, my unspeakable secret, like Liang Sheng's, is endless sadness. I can smile like a fool in front of him every day, but I can't stop the tears I shed when I am in pain.He can pour out all the sand in the clay pot, but he can't completely pour out his concern for a little girl named Jiang Sheng.