Chapter 26 Chapter 26 I Hope You Shake

Feng Lan woke up to the tune of "Orchid Grass", and habitually went to find a pillow to cover her ears, and her hands were empty.There is no comfortable feather pillow, no light from the window, and the unique smell of leather in the breath.She was still in the car, Feng Lan spent nearly half a minute digesting this fact. Even though the seat had been reclined to the limit, Feng Lan's whole body was sore from staying in an awkward sleeping position for a long time.She rubbed her neck and adjusted her sitting posture. Before she retrieved the last memory of last night, she saw the "suspected" Ding Xiaoye beside her.

His face was wounded, one nose was still stuffed with tissue, his eyes were closed tightly, and he didn't know whether he had fallen asleep or passed out.When Feng Lan was awake, she would never confuse Ding Xiaoye with anyone, even if his face was beaten into a palette, even if the person who stayed with her last night was obviously the "birthday gift bag" from Tan Shaocheng. Ding Xiaoye also opened his eyes, without speaking, he leaned on the back of the chair and turned to look at Feng Lan.He parked his car on a certain street near Fenglan Community, just after dawn, the street lights went out, and the sprinkler drove away, leaving behind the lingering sound of "Orchid Grass".The windshield of the car was covered with withered leaves from last night, the sanitation workers' brooms were rustling, and there was a damp smell in the air.

Another ordinary morning, always waking up on a morning like this is a blessing. Feng Lan never thought that when Ding Xiaoye reappeared beside her, she would be so calm.It's like going through a dream with many twists and turns. There are many, many words in the dream, and I can't remember them all when I wake up. There were a lot of blood-stained tissues in the car, which were crumpled up and thrown underfoot. "I've had so many nosebleeds. It's been a long time, and I made your blood boil again?" Feng Lan asked quietly. Ding Xiaoye's smile touched the laceration at the corner of his mouth. He licked the wound and flipped down the sun visor in front of Feng Lan. There was a mirror there, so she could see her current appearance clearly.

Feng Lan brushed her hair in front of the mirror. It was not bad, except that her hair was a bit messy, her eyeliner was smudged, her lipstick was half faded, and there was a bit of paper towel crumbs in the corner of her eyes. "You didn't do anything to me, did you?" She was covered with her own coat. Ding Xiaoye said: "Think about it, but I can't do it." Feng Lan snorted from his nose, and said tauntingly: "Cheating elsewhere and being beaten like this?" Ding Xiaoye didn't answer, and lowered his head to remove the tissue stuffed in his nose, the bleeding had stopped.

Feng Lan looked out of the car.She was driving Wu Jiang's car, and Wu Jiang knew that she had a psychological shadow about the stolen car, so he offered to change the car with her. "Tell the truth, do you have a driver's license?" she asked Ding Xiaoye. Ding Xiaoye said frankly: "No." Cui Ting's driver's license no longer exists like this person, and now he is Ding Xiaoye. "Can I park at this place? Don't get caught, I can't explain to Wu Jiang." She wanted to get out of the car to check, but she was still muttering, "But Wu Jiang is now a wedding banquet, so he can't take care of this..."

Ding Xiaoye pulled her back to the seat, leaned over and closed the car door again, with his hands on her chest. "That's enough, Feng Lan. Say something else." "What did you say?" Feng Lan kept a little distance from him stiffly, and said slowly, "Why did you leave? Why did you come back so cheaply?" "Yeah. I'll tell you what you want to hear." Ding Xiaoye reached out to touch her face. This familiar ambiguity once made Feng Lan's heart flutter, but at this moment, it instantly ignited her anger.She had a scar for a long time, why should he be so eager to pry it as soon as he appeared? "Say what you want, and get out if you don't! Do you think I'm as cheap as you, allowing you to come and leave whenever you want?"

The furious Feng Lan seemed to reassure Ding Xiaoye even more. He held her trembling shoulders and asked, "You really want me to go?" "Don't say 'you want', 'you hope', as if you care how much I feel." Feng Lan pushed his hand away, "I said, if you leave, I will forget you and come back again. But now, to me, there is no difference between you and Zhou Taoran in the past. It’s just that I’ve passed the most angry time, and I’m not even interested in beating you up. If you want to get out, get out!” After she finished speaking, Ding Xiaoye was silent for a while, opened the car door and went out.

Hearing the slamming of the door, Feng Lan felt very happy, like smashing a beloved crystal cup but cutting his hand.She also wanted to pretend to be calm and breezy, but she couldn't.She hated him to death, even if the hatred was because she couldn't forget, she didn't want to be manipulated by this man anymore. Seeing Ding Xiaoye pass through the isolation zone and walk towards the sidewalk, Feng Lan gritted his teeth and remained motionless.Let's go, let's go... Every time he takes a step away from her, her heart feels safer.When he completely disappeared at the intersection, Feng Lan finally got rid of this "curse", but her comfort fell asleep in a race between the tortoise and the hare, and her loss swept like a gust of wind, drowning everything.There was heat in her eyes, and she lay on the dashboard, unable to move anymore.

The car door was opened again, and someone got in.Feng Lan looked fiercely at Ding Xiaoye who had gone and returned, and shouted, "You think I'm a public toilet?" Ding Xiaoye threw alcohol cotton balls and a few pieces of Band-Aids into the storage box under the central control panel, and when Feng Lan finished roaring, he handed her a bottle of water. "What are you doing?" She wiped away her tears. Ding Xiaoye said: "Wash your face and rinse your mouth. You can also use it to flush the toilet if you like!" Feng Lan took the water and said resentfully: "Ding Xiaoye, I liked you, but I don't owe you anything."

"Crying?" He tilted his head to look at her red eyes and nose, and rubbed the knuckles of his index finger against Feng Lan's lips. She knocked his hand down hard, and he didn't give up.Feng Lan showed disgust, turned his face away to avoid, he fixed her chin with one hand, and repeated the movement with the other hand, the rough knuckles rubbed against Feng Lan's lips a little painful. "What are you doing? Pervert!" Feng Lan scolded. Ding Xiaoye fulfilled his wish to see the remaining lipstick on the back of her hand, stared at it for a while, and said with a smile, "It's still the same color."

Feng Lan also remembered that when she kissed Ding Xiaoye for the first time, she also wore this tube of lipstick.At that time, he rubbed a similar mark from his own mouth, and stared blankly for a long time.This was the most bewildering moment Ding Xiaoye left in Feng Lan's memory, but she didn't know that what she left on Ding Xiaoye that day was also the only vivid color in his seven years of gray trajectory - charming and flamboyant .Behind the incompatibility, there is never forgetting. "Don't tease me repeatedly like this." Feng Lan said weakly. Ding Xiaoye said seriously: "What if I insist on doing this?" How could he say the most hateful things, do the most hateful things, and still look innocent? Feng Lan covered his face with his hands, "Then I will be shaken... There is no need to be so cruel to a person who has suffered a lot from you. It is enough to beat the dog in the water once." Feng Lan worked so hard to build a wall against Ding Xiaoye in her heart, thinking that it was impenetrable, but when he really approached the city, she realized that it was all a paper project.The hatred and resentment in the heart of the wall seem to be full, entangled, and tangled, but they are not solid, not to mention that there are longings mixed in.When Feng Lan hated Ding Xiaoye the most, she dreamed that he changed his mind. She spurned him, rejected him, tortured him, scolded him ten thousand times as a "bastard"... But she still hoped that this dream would last longer , Still struggling to wake up.She loves him, so weak.Ding Xiaoye broke away her hand covering her face, and said: "Then you can waver, I hope you will waver." Feng Lan met his gaze in a daze.What's the meaning?This was the first sentence she heard from Ding Xiaoye's mouth as hard as an iron bucket that was close to "love words". "What I said that day...do you hate me?" Feng Lan lost the cover of his hands, but still refused to open his eyes.She shook her head, "Do you think I hate you just because of those few words? When you first left, I wondered why every minute. Then I began to suspect that I was the one who made the mistake. A failure was accidental, but Every man didn't choose me in the end, there must be something wrong with me. You ruined my last thought of love, and this is what I hate you the most." She is afraid that the root of her loneliness is that she wants to grasp happiness too much, and she stretches out her hand too eagerly, which inadvertently pushes happiness further away. "No matter how much you hate, bear with me a little longer." Ding Xiaoye grabbed her hand, pressed it against his scarred face, and smiled at her.This smile is really not charming, and they have had closer contact before, but this time, Feng Lan felt that Ding Xiaoye was alive and truly by her side. "When did you come out?" Feng Lan asked. "When you vomited in a mess." Ding Xiaoye moved her hand to her lips, and took a bite on the side of her palm, "I didn't want to spoil your 'good deed'." "You've been following me? Were you around the day I took the picture!" "Are you so anxious to wear a wedding dress?" This was tantamount to indirectly acknowledging Feng Lan's doubts.Only then did Feng Lan's heart become brighter. She did not misread it, nor did she have hallucinations.She lowered her head and thought, and many mysteries seemed to have found clues. She asked again: "The robber's woman is also you..." "I said before, people like you don't even have the minimum sense of crisis, and you don't have a long memory after suffering a loss. You are not afraid that this face will be ruined by someone so that your mother won't recognize it... Is it necessary to be so surprised? You That is to say, there are more people who are strong in their mouths than you are cruel." Feng Lan heard the familiar tone and tone, the hand that originally wanted to keep a distance from him, caring about his injury, did not forcefully pull away. "That is, aren't you one of them?" Feng Lan sarcastically said. Ding Xiaoye smiled and said nothing. Feng Lan thought of that woman again, and asked anxiously, "What did you do to her?" "I gave her some money to let her go." Ding Xiaoye said casually, "Of course, there is a little warning. She won't pester you anymore, don't worry." "Where did you get the money?" Feng Lan wasn't worried about himself, and of course it wasn't that woman. "The travel expenses given by others." Ding Xiaoye didn't intend to explain too much, but just said, "That woman is also pitiful, she can't do anything, and she used to rely on her men's sneaky activities to get money back to raise children. Now the man is in the game Son, she and the child can't even eat enough, and there is still one in the stomach. The rabbit bites people when it is in a hurry, not to mention that she is not a kind person." "You want me to thank you for doing this?" Feng Lan knew that he was protecting her behind her back, her heart warmed up, but thinking about the stupid things he said to herself before, she still refused to soften her mouth. "When you are old, don't always dream of being a hero to save the beauty..." Now Feng Lan withdrew his hand completely, and said bitterly: "What kind of hero are you? Get lost, I have nothing to say to you." Ding Xiaoye was amused when he saw her jumping up when she touched the sore spot, took her hand pointing out of the car, and folded his hand on her knee, "Of course I'm not a hero, and I don't want you to thank me. In fact, what I can do for you is too limited, which is why I have been unable to give... what you want." "You know what I want?" Feng Lan stared at him and asked intentionally. "What a woman wants is not a hero, but a man who can accompany her to grow old, no matter how mediocre the man is. In my mother's eyes, my father is a hero. They met in distress. She admires him and worships him. But What did my dad give her? Waiting endlessly. My dad himself didn't die well, and neither of them could see each other for the last time before they died." He lowered his head and looked at the intertwined fingers of the two, " Feng Lan, I'm afraid to make you wait." "Where are you going?" Feng Lan asked suspiciously.Ding Xiaoye did not answer.She added: "I just want to ask you one thing, your mother has been waiting for your father all her life, did she say she regretted it?" Ding Xiaoye raised his eyes, surprised. "She didn't say that!" Feng Lan concluded, "You are not a woman, so don't take it for granted to guess what women are thinking. Like a person who drinks water, he knows whether it is warm or not. It is always good to wait for it." ——Ah Ting, it's better to wait than not to wait... The silhouette standing by the evening window in Ding Xiaoye's memory overlapped with the person in front of him again.Could it be that his mother told him in the dark that the decision he made was right? Seeing that he was determined to remain silent, Feng Lan said angrily, "Don't be too sentimental, who said that I will wait for you!" They all froze for a while, as if they didn't realize that their hands were still clasped together.Ding Xiaoye was the first to sneer, and Feng Lan's face softened. "You're afraid that I'll wait, so what are you doing with me? To be honest, you're so jealous when you see me with Fox, right?" Feng Lan put on a posture that he had to leave if he didn't admit it. Ding Xiaoye smiled, "Well, when you took me for him and stuffed money into my clothes, I was a little jealous. The tips for a few hours are more than my monthly salary." He avoided her and made a gesture to smash his mineral water bottle, and said with a smile: "I bought the water after walking two streets, don't waste it." Only then did Feng Lan feel that he was indeed extremely thirsty, which was a typical hangover reaction.She unscrewed the water bottle and took a sip, then said, "Fortunately, I like this brand of water, so I don't care about it with you." "I know you like it." Ding Xiaoye said. Feng Lan was a little surprised, she rarely bought bottled water, and she didn't remember mentioning such trivial things.Her eyes became meaningful, and a smile couldn't help flickering at the corner of her mouth. Could it be that he has been paying attention to her every move? Ding Xiaoye saw through her little thoughts, and said with a smile: "Don't think too much. Your thoughts are hard to guess? I can see the expression of hunger and thirst when you like something! Didn't she look at him in the same way?Feng Lan sneered and said, "Why am I hungry for a bottle of water?" "Drink yours well." Ding Xiaoye had no intention of discussing this with her in depth. Feng Lan was only quiet for a few seconds, then quickly asked, "Have I made you thirsty?" Ding Xiaoye stopped talking, his eyes made her feel ashamed.Their relationship is still very chaotic, obviously it is not the time to play hooligans. She smoothed her hair again to make the blush on her face less glaring, and muttered, "I've known you for so long, and I managed to drink the bottle of water you bought." Ding Xiaoye turned to her and said with a smile: "It's just a bottle of water, you're welcome. You gave me a big tip last night, and I haven't thanked you yet." Feng Lan pretended not to hear. Ding Xiaoye said secretly: "Are you more generous with the one-time service?" "Can your service attitude be compared with others?" Feng Lan was also a little bit hesitant to hold on to this matter, and retorted, "Others charge you a lot of tips, and you are beaten like a pig's head. That's the difference!" She couldn't bear it after she finished speaking, the scars and bruises on his face kept stinging her eyes.The words she had kept in her heart for a long time finally came out: "Who did it?" Ding Xiaoye hesitated for a moment, but did not evade. "Your good friend," he said. Feng Lan was shocked, she could only think of one person. "Zeng Fei?" "He's no better than me." Ding Xiaoye didn't care. "What is it for?" Zeng Fei has long passed the age of casual fighting, Feng Lan knew something was wrong, but was afraid to think about it, especially when she had just regained a little happiness. "Are you going to seduce Cui Yan?" He smiled lowly, stuffed the alcohol and cotton balls he just bought into her hands, and said, "Do me a favor. You should know one or two things that women do, right?" "I'm cheap, why do I apply medicine to you? I wish I could beat you up with my own hands, the harder the better!" "Forget it, I'll do it myself." Ding Xiaoye tentatively pressed the wound on his face in the rearview mirror, frowning slightly. Feng Lan couldn't stand it anymore, grabbed the cotton wool in his hand, and said, "Smile when you meet me, becoming Nightingale is my second dream." She approached Ding Xiaoye with cotton wool dipped in alcohol, coaxing: "Don't cry, hold on." Ding Xiaoye closed his eyes, unable to bear it all over his face, "Hurry up, don't talk nonsense." He waited for a while, but the heat of the alcohol touching the wound did not come as expected, replaced by the warm touch on his lips.At first she just brushed his lips tentatively, before he could react, she quickly entangled him like a snake.Feng Lan's hunting methods are the same, but he doesn't return without success every time.No matter how vigorous the prey is, it may succumb to this airtight entanglement. Ding Xiaoye is like a desperate beast, her heart hits her chest, the air in her lungs seems to be evacuated, her brain goes blank for a while, and her breath invades all perception. When the two of them let go, Ding Xiaoye grinned and cried out in pain, "Nightingale like this? Fuck, they all come to where I hurt the most." Get the benefits and be good!He seemed to have forgotten that he hugged him tighter than anyone else just now.Feng Lan unexpectedly pressed the cotton ball on his wound, in exchange for a scream. "I admire that I can kiss this face, you deserve it!" Ding Xiaoye's pain was intertwined with happiness, his chin lightly rubbed against the hair on top of Feng Lan's head, and he heard her voice coming from his heart. "Ding Xiaoye, I lied to you when I said I forgot you." "I already knew." "Why didn't you expose me?" "It won't be long before you admit it." Feng Lan moved, her voice was low as if she hadn't heard it, "What about you, when will you admit it?" Ding Xiaoye tightened his hands and took a long breath.He said, "Feng Lan, I want to tell you something." "Do you mean you love me?" Feng Lan said, "If not, let's talk about it after today." The night that just passed, Cui Yan did not get the same peace.As soon as she got home, she dug out the medicine box, Zeng Fei rejected her offer, and went to the bathroom alone to treat the wound on her body, more indifferent than before. During this period, Zeng Fei's phone rang. It was his former colleague Lao Qian.Cui Yan leaned outside the bathroom door and listened to him answering the phone. They seemed to have mentioned Ding Xiaoye. Fortunately, Zeng Fei did not mention the fierce fight that just happened. This means that he acquiesced to Ding Xiaoye's "one day". When he came out, Cui Yan said sincerely: "Thank you..." Zeng Fei said indifferently: "It's not your turn to thank me. It's not because of you that I let him go." "For Feng Lan? Can't you see that they are in love with each other?" Cui Yan's sharpness is like a wasp's tail sting, and the sting hurts herself even deeper. "Feng Lan has better vision than me, and the man she chooses is at least better than you." take charge." Zeng Fei did not speak, pretending not to understand Cui Yan's sarcasm.He has absolutely no affection for that person, no matter his name is "Cui Ting" or "Ding Xiaoye", but even Zeng Fei has to admit that the other party will not hurt Feng Lan.Tomorrow is Feng Lan's birthday, which may be why Ding Xiaoye asked for a day. Seven years have passed, and this day is not bad. "Go to sleep." Zeng Fei walked back to his room. Cui Yan was disappointed, and sat heavily on the sofa, her swollen wound was aching. Zeng Fei couldn't bear it, so he came to see her injury again, and asked her if she felt dizzy and nauseous, it was really uncomfortable, so she went to the hospital. "Don't push me away, I won't feel bad." Cui Yan took the opportunity to hug Zeng Fei, summoning up the courage to kiss him.Zeng Fei didn't move or respond until Cui Yan slowly let go. Distress and pity returned to Zeng Fei's eyes, Cui Yan wanted to cry, but held back. "I have prepared something for a long time, I think I should give it to you." He went back to his room and took a paper bag, and put it on Cui Yan's lap. "What is it?" If Cui Yan had hoped before opening it, she fell into despair after seeing what was inside. Inside the paper bag were her passport, air tickets and information on an overseas school. "What do you mean?" Cui Yan asked with a trembling voice. Zeng Fei forced a smile and said, "Didn't you always want to study in a better art school? I have prepared everything for you. Over there, I will take care of all expenses and life for you. You will..." "What do I mean by asking you? Do you want to send me away like this?" Cui Yan broke down, tearing down her eyes and saying cruel words, "Are you human? Zeng Fei, send me away after you eat it up. Let me tell you , It's not that easy! You want me to disappear quietly, unless I die, like my mother, no one will cause trouble for you after death. " "Don't just move her out. That's between me and her! You're an adult, and I've fulfilled my responsibility!" Zeng Fei panted heavily while speaking. "It's also your responsibility to sleep with me?" Cui Yan threw all those things to her feet and rubbed them desperately. Her originally pretty face was covered with tears and hatred, "I won't go! If you force me, I will put Reveal everything you have done, and let others know how prudish you are. Scared? I want you to taste the pain too!" There was a flash of cruelty on Zeng Fei's face, but it finally turned into decadence and submission. "Okay, you go and talk. My mother? My sister? Kangkang? Or other relatives and friends? Shall I call them together for you?" From the moment he pressed Cui Yan on the mirror, he knew it would happen. There is today.Color imparts to the soul, and on the happy side, he couldn't hold back at that time, and he was destined to pay for endless sins. Cui Yan looked at Zeng Fei who seemed to have aged a lot in an instant, and sat on the floor slowly sobbing. She couldn't figure it out, "You would rather lose your reputation than love me?" Zeng Fei waited for himself to calm down, squatted down and hugged Cui Yan, rubbed her hair, and said, "You wouldn't do that. Cui Yan, I've been thinking about our future over and over again during this time. I thought about being responsible to you." The problem is that I can't figure out how I feel until now, it may be just an old man's despicable desire, or it may be my guilt towards your mother that leads to empathy, neither is true love." "I don't care, as long as you're with me!" "How do we get together? People are animals living in society. In addition to the legal constraints, there are also moral and human relations. You are not allowed to do whatever you want. My mother is almost seventy years old, and you called her 'grandmother' for seven years. Can she accept being treated like a granddaughter and become a daughter-in-law? What will others think of our relationship? From then on, when anyone who knows the inside story sees us, the first thing that comes to mind is no longer 'Zeng Fei' and 'Cui Yan' Two names, but as a topic that can be used to make fun of. No matter how much you pretend to be happy, this label will follow you and me for the rest of your life." "Are you afraid? You don't want to part with your current life and good reputation, so you want to let go of me?" "I'm afraid. Even if I'm willing to ruin my current life to be with you, how many years can we be happy? You're only less than twenty-one years old. When you're in your prime, I'm already old, and we'll all be miserable in the end .I can't wait until then to dump all the problems on you." Cui Yan whimpered, "I won't leave." Zeng Fei indulged her nonsense like before, and said slowly: "You don't have to go, I go instead. I let you go, and you let me go. Forgive me for the stupid things I did that night, I am willing to do anything compensate……" "Besides being with me?" Cui Yan knelt on the ground and remained silent for a long time, and when her tears dried up, her voice calmed down, "I'll ask you one last time, Zeng Fei, close your eyes and think about me You didn't feel any heartache when I completely left you? Thinking of me marrying another man and living a happy life, wouldn't your heart ache? " According to Zeng Fei's words, he closed his eyes, clenched his hands tightly, and then loosened them again.He shook his head, "I'll be happy if you live well." Cui Yan let out a sound of crying or laughing, she raised her head and said to Zeng Fei, "Even if your child calls someone else's father in the future, will you be just as happy?"