Chapter 21 Chapter 21 Love Me or Stay Away From Me

Cui Yan knocked on a door, and behind it stood the person who had been on her mind for a few days. She walked in and quickly closed the door gently. At noon, the room was as dark as dusk, and there was a lingering musty smell in the air.This is a house that no one has set foot in for a long time, and Cui Yan can still describe its appearance from memory. She used to love coming here, and even though it seemed a little weird to be in this house as her, the child could pretend not to care about it, and if he liked it, he liked it.There have been many novel and warm memories here: the living room walls covered by the entire tapestry, the salty hot milk tea, the brother who was stern but did not expose her stealing toffee, and having sex on the recliner by the window Pretty aunt of the beaded bunny.

Time seemed to slow down as it flowed through the house, unlike her mother's life, which was full of extreme happiness and sadness, the difference was only in sobriety and intoxication. Of course Cui Yan knows that everything in her memory no longer exists, and even the only person related to this memory should not appear here. "Someone knew your identity? Since you came out from Feng Lan, why didn't you leave? What are you thinking, is this place safe?" Cui Yan asked anxiously behind Ding Xiaoye. "Safe? Who knows?" Ding Xiaoye asked casually, "Are you safe?"

Cui Yan quickly said: "Zeng Fei is at the company, I came directly from school, and I turned off my phone before I came." "There is nothing here to entertain you, not even water." Ding Xiaoye sat on the sofa, the dust raised made Cui Yan want to sneeze. "Since you are determined to break up with her, you should leave as soon as possible. If you stay, you may have long nights and dreams." Cui Yan squatted beside him, and saw a book and an apple in the corner of the sofa.The cover of the book is brand new and clean, and the apples are fresh and plump, which is incompatible with the staleness everywhere.

"where to?" "Go back to Czardeny... no, don't go back. Go wherever you want, find a place where no one recognizes you..." After leaving Feng Lan's restaurant, Ding Xiaoye also asked himself where he should go in the future.There are thousands of roads in the world, none of which belong to him. After making sure to get rid of Tan Shaocheng, he returned here.He once thought that after seven years, the rusty key could not open the door lock, but when the door opened in response to the sound, he was in a daze. This house is where he and his mother lived, and it is the only thing that remains of him after the accident.

Escaping is a skill that Ding Xiaoye is good at, and he knows that this is not a good place to shelter.He just thought that he would know who he was for a short time here, but he was disappointed in the end.Just like when he lit the old photo of "Ding Xiaoye" and watched the fire engulf that strange face, it was the first time after he came back that he clearly realized that he was not "Ding Xiaoye", but the name "Cui Ting" was far away from him. as far away. He was caught in a deadlock - he didn't want Feng Lan to find out, so he had to leave her and continue fleeing.But after leaving her, what is the meaning of running away?

"I heard from Kang Kang that Feng Lan seems very sad." Cui Yan seemed to have guessed where the book and the apple came from. Of course Ding Xiaoye knew that Feng Lan was hurt, and he didn't need anyone to remind him.He was in the crowd that day, watching her walk across the overpass with tears all over her face.Feng Lan was looking for him, although she would never admit it. "You're not feeling well either. Why didn't you tell her the truth?" Cui Yan said. "Let her know that she loves a fugitive?" Ding Xiaoye lowered his head and asked Cui Yan, "For a woman, is this better than being cheated by a scumbag?"

Cui Yan was also a little dazed, but she was in a daze for a while, and then said: "I can't say for sure. This question should be answered by Feng Lan." "I don't want to force her to choose between pain and more pain." "So you chose the one you think is relatively good for her?" In the dim light, Cui Yan's eyes brightened, "I am a selfish person. I would say that being noble in love is meaningless. What do you put Keep it all in your heart, but you are sad, and you can't get her to enjoy the blessings. You have seen my mother, she loves Zeng Fei so much, and protects him so much. When your father became suspicious, she risked her life to protect him. The result? Zeng Fei Said he didn't know what my mother was thinking! Is Zeng Fei lying? Nope. Because my mother never said it herself, so he can confidently keep it in the dark."

"Then how did Zeng Fei treat your mother..." Ding Xiaoye became more and more confused as he listened, emotional puzzles were not his forte. "I dare not say that he loved my mother, but it may not be impossible, otherwise he would not treat himself that way these years. If my mother had clearly expressed her thoughts as early as the beginning, maybe everything would have been rewritten. Even They can't be together, at least Zeng Fei will not use her feelings to achieve his goal. If you say something, there may be hope, or there may be no hope; if you don't say it, there is nothing."

"Hope?" Ding Xiaoye couldn't believe that this word could still be related to him. Cui Yan said: "It's painful, or it's more painful. You can't make decisions for Feng Lan. If you can let her go, don't hesitate, just go; if you can't let go, go and tell her the truth, she can't accept it, and if you die, you can't." Have fun. Don't be self-righteous to treat another person well, she has the right to die clearly." Before Cui Yan left, she left some cash to Ding Xiaoye, which was most of her savings. In the afternoon, as soon as she returned to school, she received a call from Zeng Fei, who asked her politely why she had suddenly spent a large sum of money.

Cui Yan is just a student, except for the red envelopes given by her adoptive parents over the years, most of her money comes from Zeng Fei.The bank card was also opened for her by Zeng Fei. Whenever there was a change in the account, he immediately received the news.Zeng Fei didn't mind Cui Yan's spending money, but she was always very frugal and didn't have any big expenses. He took care of every aspect of her life. Cui Yan said: "A classmate had an emergency at home, and I lent her some money." "So that's how it is." Zeng Fei didn't say anything more, but Cui Yan knew that he didn't believe it, but it was hard to make his doubts too obvious.

In the past, every time Cui Yan made a new boyfriend, Zeng Fei would intentionally or unintentionally interrogate the other party's details, but after he ran into Cui Yan and Ding Xiaoye, he never mentioned Ding Xiaoye's matter, which made Cui Yan realize that he was suspicious of him. suspicious.She just didn't know how much Zeng Fei knew, which was why she desperately wanted Ding Xiaoye to leave. "Have you eaten yet?" Zeng Fei broke the silence between the two. Cui Yan suddenly said: "Not yet, you can eat with me." Zeng Fei didn't respond immediately, and seemed a little embarrassed, "I have a dinner tonight." "Dating a woman?" Cui Yan asked intentionally. There was a smile in Zeng Fei's voice, "What nonsense, it's just a few friends coming out to get together. You didn't say it earlier." "It's too late to say it now, why don't you take me with you?" Cui Yan became interested. "A bunch of old men drinking, why are you here to join in the fun? I'll call you when I'm done here." "I can't see anyone? Forget it, I don't care if I don't go." Cui Yan said angrily. "You said you... well, you take a taxi yourself, I'm here now." Zeng Fei told Cui Yan the address of the hotel helplessly. They had been in a "cold war" for a while, and after Cui Yan moved out, the two of them never had a good meal together, as if they had become estranged suddenly.Zeng Fei didn't want to be as knowledgeable as a little girl, and it was rare for a turning point to happen, so he refused cruelly. Cui Yan is also well aware of this.She originally wanted to go back to the rental house to change clothes, or dress up, but she gave up after thinking about it.Youth is the biggest gap between her and Zeng Fei, and also her best asset. When Cui Yan entered the private room of the hotel under the guidance of the waiter, there were already seven or eight people sitting around the round table. Wine was placed in front of everyone, and the atmosphere was very lively. Sure enough, as Zeng Fei said, they were all men around his age. Suddenly a young girl came, and everyone present looked at Cui Yan in unison.Cui Yan didn't realize how abrupt she appeared here, and couldn't help complaining when she saw Zeng Fei: "Why didn't you say that this place is so hard to find? I almost went the wrong way." "Didn't I ask you to take a taxi?" Zeng Fei frowned. "But my classmate said that there is a direct bus. You didn't remind me that it was hidden in an alley. If I knew it, I would..." "Okay, don't be so rude. Come here, let me introduce you!" Zeng Fei waved to her. "Zeng Fei's taste has changed!" Someone joked. "Don't talk nonsense, this is my niece Cui Yan. Cui Yan, here are my friends for many years, this is your Uncle Zhang..." There was a burst of laughter at the table.The person called "Uncle Zhang" laughed loudly and said to the other person: "Wu Jiang, what do you think he cares about? I have become an 'uncle'." Zeng Fei ignored him, pointed to another person and said to Cui Yan, "He is Feng Lan's cousin, you can call him 'Uncle Wu' or 'Doctor Wu'." Wu Jiang just laughed.Cui Yan wisely chose the latter address, and then she got to know "Uncle Lin", "Uncle Wang", "Uncle Qian", "Uncle Han"... "Uncle Zhang" asked deliberately, "Zeng Fei, why isn't your niece's surname Zeng?" "Uncle Lin" said: "Old Zhang, you are wrong, what's the point of speaking clearly?" "Let me declare first, I'm at most 'brother'." The one who spoke should be "Uncle Han", he said with a smile, "The last time Lao Wang brought a girl, didn't he also say that he was his niece? You people..." There was another burst of "tacit" laughter. Zeng Fei was both helpless and embarrassed.As early as when Song Kou agreed to let Cui Yan come over, he had more or less expected this kind of situation to happen, but he couldn't stand Cui Yan's pressure, and he didn't want the relationship between the two to deteriorate any further, so he had to bite the bullet and act as if he was not a friend their jokes. Cui Yan adapted quickly, calling "Uncle" crisply.She sat on the empty seat between Zeng Fei and "Uncle Wang". "Uncle Wang" served her a bowl of soup graciously, and asked Zeng Fei, "Is this really your niece?" Zeng Fei said seriously: "Just say yes! Don't talk about those messy things in front of the little girl. Old Zhang, Old Wang, especially you two guys who are not married!" "I'm very serious, it's better if I'm not married!" Old Zhang asked, "Sister Cui Yan, how old are you?" Cui Yan told the truth: "It's almost twenty-one." "That's adulthood, we are a generation. Tell everyone what your 'uncle' is like at home." Lao Zhang asked. Cui Yan glanced at Zeng Fei, "He..." There was a warning in Zeng Fei's eyes.Cui Yan smiled sweetly, "My uncle is very kind." Everyone laughed more happily.Wu Jiang couldn't help saying Zeng Fei: "It's time for us to see your 'kind' side." Zeng Fei knew that the descriptions were getting darker, so he gave Cui Yan a lot of food, telling her to eat more and talk less. Cui Yan ate honestly for a while, and the focus of everyone's discussion no longer only stayed on her.Regardless of whether she is really a "niece", Zeng Fei's attitude is obvious, she is not the kind of object that is brought out to make fun of.Most of the people here are old friends, and they are also good people, so they can only joke...except for the old Wang next to Cui Yan. Zeng Fei chatted with Wu Jiang about the preparations for the wedding, and when she turned around, Cui Yan had already had a good chat with Lao Wang who was beside her. Zeng Fei's heart skipped a beat.Cui Yan is a little fox, she can always quickly find the weakest link in a group of people that is the easiest to attack.Except for Wu Jiang who is about to remarry among his friends, only Lao Zhang and Lao Wang are single. Lao Zhang has a slick mouth, but he is actually the best at observing words and expressions.And Lao Wang... Zeng Fei has known him for many years, and he knows that he is an honest man, and he is very righteous to his friends, but his personal morals are damaged in the word of female sex. The reason why he divorced his wife the year before last was also because of these stupid things.Cui Yan's youthfulness and beauty fell right into Lao Wang's arms, plus she had a small plan in her heart, teased her intentionally or unintentionally, and smiled softly, like a feather scratching Lao Wang's heart, how could she not feel itchy? When Zeng Fei was chatting with Wu Jiang, he heard Lao Wang questioning Cui Yan's life experience. Cui Yan half-truthfully said that he was the child of a distant relative of Zeng Fei. His mother died and his biological father was missing. When Lao Wang heard that such a sweet and beautiful little girl was an orphan, he was shocked and pitiful. He confirmed once again that Zeng Fei and Cui Yan were really elders and juniors. He felt less scruples in his heart. Take the utmost care. Zeng Fei drank a lot of wine just now, and was about to eat something, Lao Wang, who was not far away from him, lamented Cui Yan's misfortune in her childhood, and cursed Cui Yan's biological father for not being a good person. Cui Yan said: "Uncle Wang, have you read Jin Yong's novels? Ji Xiaofu named her daughter 'Yang Buhui'. If they were all named in this way, I would probably be called 'So Regretful'." "You child, thanks to you..." Wu Jiang, who was two seats away, also heard it, and interrupted with a smile: "Old Wang, have you seen it? Yang Buhui later married Yin Liting." Lao Wang didn't know the meaning of Wu Jiang's words, so he said with a smile: "I read it a long time ago, and I almost forgot it. After I go back, I have to find the book and read it carefully. Cui Yan, if you have this book, it's better if you don't." Lend it to Uncle Wang..." Zeng Fei poured himself a glass of wine and said expressionlessly: "Don't bother with that, let me tell you. Yin Liting married Yang Buhui because he is disabled." Cui Yan rolled her eyes at Zeng Fei, "You are talking more and more like Feng Lan, no wonder others made you a couple." She turned to discuss the details of the book with her "Uncle Wang".When Zeng Fei heard Cui Yan talk about Feng Lan in this way, he knew she was doing it on purpose, but he still couldn't adapt.Wasn't she the one who repelled others from comparing Zeng Fei and Feng Lan in the past? He asked Wu Jiang to drink, and Wu Jiang smiled. Zeng Fei drank a cup by himself. Lao Wang next door and Cui Yan chatted more and more speculatively, took out his mobile phone, and asked Cui Yan for his phone number.Cui Yan glanced at Zeng Fei, and he turned his head to talk to Wu Jiang. Old Zhang on the opposite side suddenly smiled at everyone, "Look at Lao Wang, do you want to be Zeng Fei's niece and son-in-law in the future?" Cui Yan blushed and said, "Uncle Zhang, what nonsense are you talking about!" Lao Wang did not evade, looked at Zeng Fei and joked, "What's the big deal! If the fat and water don't flow to outsiders' fields, Zeng Fei will be more 'kind' to me in the future." After he finished speaking, he laughed too, not wanting Zeng Fei to stand up abruptly, and even the table shook slightly. "I think you drank too much!" Zeng Fei snapped. Wu Jiang held onto the wine glass that was about to spill in front of him, quickly stood up and gave Zeng Fei a hand, and said kindly, "Old Wang drank a little too much, and you too. Everyone drink less, don't scare me girl." Zeng Fei was rebellious and hot-tempered when he was young, but he has restrained himself a lot in recent years.Lao Wang really didn't expect this to happen, scratched his head in embarrassment, raised his glass to Zeng Fei and said, "Yes, yes, I drank too much, I drank too much. It's not like you don't know how much I drink, it's all drunk talk , The joke is too far, don't take it to heart, I will punish myself with three cups." Zeng Fei softened a little, and also had a drink with Lao Wang, and laughed in the circle of the crowd. After drinking this glass of wine, Zeng Fei claimed that he was a little drunk and wanted to wash his face.He walked out of the box on the front foot, and Cui Yan followed him out on the back foot. "Is Zeng Fei alright?" Lao Wang still hadn't turned the corner, "Did he really drink too much? How about I go and see him and make up for it?" Wu Jiang pushed his butt off the stool again, and said with a smile, "How can I say hello? Sit down and drink your wine!" Zeng Fei came out of the bathroom and almost bumped into Cui Yan who was waiting at the door.He scolded: "A girl, who taught you to look around at the door of the men's toilet!" Cui Yan said with a smile: "I'm afraid you've drunk too much, in case something happens, I'll support you." "Just don't stab me in the back." Zeng Fei wanted to leave with a cold face, but Cui Yan grabbed his sleeve from behind and said, "Don't worry! Tell me, why is Yin Liting disabled?" Zeng Fei said impatiently, "Stop talking to me. I don't know what your plans are?" He wiped away the remaining wet marks on his face. "Are you really going to wash your face?" Cui Yan leaned over, Zeng Fei dodged uncomfortably, and she wiped the water droplets off his chin with her thumb.Zeng Fei looked around, but fortunately there was no one there, and planned to tell her not to be too big or too young, but Cui Yan hurried ahead of him and asked, "Why are you angry? For me and Uncle Wang?" When Zeng Fei heard her call "Uncle Wang", he found it ironic. "Do you still know that he is an 'uncle' generation? I warn you, don't be too presumptuous!" "What did I do wrong? Is it my fault that he hit me? " "If you don't give him a chance, he will think about it? A girl must know how to respect herself!" "Why am I not self-respecting?" Cui Yan also became angry, "He doesn't have a wife now, right? You want to do this, and the law can't interfere, let alone you! You don't like me, why don't others like me? I'll find A young one, you think others are unreliable, and I find an old one, you can't stand it!" "Old Wang is one year older than me!" Zeng Fei sneered. "So what? I didn't have a father since I was a child, so it's strange that I have a father-in-law complex? Otherwise, why did I always pester you? I can like you, but I can't like him?" Cui Yan saw a cleaner The aunt came out of the bathroom with a mop, stopped her and asked, "Auntie, let me ask you, is it normal for a woman to marry a man fifteen years older than herself?" The cleaning lady looked at Cui Yan, then at Zeng Fei, and said dumbly, "It's normal for a man to have money." "Did you hear that?" Cui Yan smiled provocatively, "Is Lao Wang rich? He doesn't work in engineering? How can your friend be so poor? I'm no worse with him than staying with you Bar?" Zeng Fei waited until the auntie cleaner had gone far away, then said coldly: "Joke! Do you think Lao Wang is a lucky son? Others are no more stupid than you. I can only see that there are not ten of you who bring out pictures of a little girl like you. There are also half a dozen. Do you think he will marry you? Dare to think! He is just trying to make you young and beautiful for fun, and he will not take any responsibility." Cui Yan said with red eyes, "Aren't you the same?" Zeng Fei was stunned, "How can I be like him? I treat you..." "You keep me by your side, don't you use me to appease your guilt? When you look at me, don't you think of my mother? I am younger than her, cleaner than her, and more obedient than her. Everyone thinks you are me Your elder, with this identity as a cover, no one thinks it’s wrong, everyone praises you as a good person, no one will know what’s on your mind.” "Shut up, do you know what you're talking about?" Zeng Fei's face was ashen, he couldn't believe that Cui Yan, who he thought he knew everything, would say such a thing. For a moment, Cui Yan thought that Zeng Fei would slap her, just like he slapped the dead Jing Lin.Her eyes were moist, and she said: "You blame me for thinking too badly of you? It's far more than that. Zeng Fei, you keep saying that you treat me as a relative, and pretend to push me out so that I can find a suitable boy. If you haven’t moved, you’ve already thought about meddling. In the end, no one is suitable, only you are the best for me. If you don’t touch me, you don’t need to be responsible. But have you really thought about it for me? Who do I want, thought about it What kind of life? Your spiritual possessiveness is no nobler than Lao Wang!" Zeng Fei didn't want to see himself reflected in Cui Yan's eyes, he knew that he must be very embarrassed now.He underestimated Cui Yan too much, her words were like steel needles all over the sky, leaving him nowhere to hide, but every hit hit his weakest acupuncture point.He clearly felt that the facts were not what she said, at least not completely, but when it came to sophistry and cutting corners, he was no match for Cui Yan. "What do you want me to do?" He wiped his face again. Cui Yan looked up at him, her lips parted slightly: "Love me, or stay away from me." She seemed to push herself to the last intersection, she made a decision, and only waited for Zeng Fei's choice.Just like what she said to Ding Xiaoye, she has the right to die clearly. "I'm talking about staying away from me, not moving out, and then you send me food every three days and ask me if I have eaten. If it is not absolutely necessary, don't contact me, and don't see you again. I have two years left to graduate, tuition fees And living expenses, I will find a way to solve it myself. In the past few years, thank you for taking care of me, don’t embarrass yourself about my mother, it’s all evened out. You and I will return to the position of ordinary 'relatives', distant .” Zeng Fei didn't speak, Cui Yan waited and waited, unable to bear the unknown torment anymore, she said loudly: "Choose quickly!" Only then did Zeng Fei say, "You have to let me think about it." "No, you have to give me the answer now. I'm uncomfortable!" Cui Yan grabbed him with both hands. Zeng Fei was tired of coping and said distractedly, "Don't be so extreme all the time. A good woman won't push a man into a hurry!" He used to refer to Cui Yan as a "girl" and never regarded her as an equal.Cui Yan saw the light in the darkest place, even if it was just a glimmer.Zeng Fei's personality is quite similar to Ding Xiaoye's, they are both extremely strong people.Now that Cui Yan has forced him into such a situation, he didn't plan for the worst, which shows that that kind of choice is extremely difficult for him to accept.Cui Yan once again verified something she firmly believed in, and this kind of happiness made her relax a lot. She no longer entangled with this matter, Zeng Fei also heaved a sigh of relief.He said, "I'll tell them to send you back first." "Will Uncle Wang be unhappy?" Cui Yan asked. "Others are not as stingy as you. Just go in later and be more honest, just stop talking nonsense." Zeng Fei said angrily. Cui Yan smiled and said, "He is really only one year older than you, and looks older than five years." "Get out, don't flatter." Zeng Fei saw through Cui Yan's sugar-coated bullet, but still couldn't help laughing. "Hehe, I'm back, I thought you left everyone and ran away." Lao Zhang joked when he saw them walking back to the box. Zeng Fei went to get his coat, and said, "Drink slowly, I'll take her back first, and come back later." After that, he put his hand on Lao Wang's shoulder again, "Let's go, next time Let's drink together." Cui Yan also said goodbye to all the "uncles".As soon as they left, Lao Zhang smiled and asked Wu Jiang: "Do you believe he will come back later?" Wu Jiang smiled without saying a word. "Niece?" Old Zhang murmured, "It's hooligans to seek relatives without blood relationship. You said that Zeng Fei and your cousin's affairs are getting dirty, so you went to find a girl?" Wu Jiang said: "I see you reversed the order. I've seen it earlier, and I won't match him and Feng Lan anymore." "Then you match me to Fenglan with me, I like her style." Old Zhang smiled happily. Wu Jiang drank a glass of wine with a smile and said, "I'm afraid Feng Lan doesn't like yours." "What's wrong with me?" Lao Zhang wondered. Wu Jiang pointed to his face and kept silent.