Chapter 99 B-5

Sang Li left early in the morning. When she left, she was not in good health.However, she couldn't stay in this environment for a day. Afraid of alarming others, she did not go through the discharge procedures, but used part of the five million to settle the hospitalization fee. She quietly left Nan Yang a ticket back to Shanghai, and she seemed to remember it only then: Nan Yang was studying for his third year of Ph. drag on. Of course, she also made a phone call to Shen Jie, and she told him: the transaction has been suspended.Because, she is not pretty anymore, she can't sing anymore, she can't have a child, and even the child she lost suddenly doesn't belong to Shen Jie... So, don't use all the absurd things like future, money, status and even love. Reasons to keep her, this time, she is really going to leave him.

That day, Shen Jie was silent on the phone for a long time, and finally said: Don't make trouble, I will go back in a few days. It was not until a long time later that she realized that it was not that Shen Jie didn't want to keep her, but that at that time, he really thought she was playing with her temper, joking... So, she left Beijing so logically and without any hindrance, and left by train in the wind that started to heat up in late spring. And the reason why she chose this city by the Yangtze River was because when she walked to the train station with simple luggage, it was the nearest train she could buy a ticket for.

What an ironic ending—for the first twenty-five years, she devoted herself to changing her fate, but at the age of twenty-five, when she finally reached the pinnacle of her youth, she began to drift with the tide. When he first arrived in a strange city, Sang Li finally knew what it felt like to be "empty". It's a huge and bustling city, but when you reach out your hand, you can't touch anyone or anything. In the past, people always liked to joke that when you go to a certain city, you don’t need to bring anything, just bring money. But now Sang Li knows that if there is only money, it will definitely not be able to stop the fear, loneliness and the deep sense of strangeness.

Only when you look up, you will know that under all the skies, people are small, and this has nothing to do with money. Like her—she has nothing but money. I only knew Mrs. Li because she was Sangli's landlord. It's also a coincidence: after getting off the train, Sang Li wandered around the city. He was not in good health, and when he was tired, he sat on the side of the road to rest.Mrs. Li has always been a warm-hearted person. She didn't even think about whether Sang Li might be a bad person, so she rented a room at home to her.She was still very happy, always saying "it's nice to have such a beautiful girl as my company".

That house is located on the second floor of Building B of "Sakura Garden Green View". It is not big, but it is well organized.The old lady's son is abroad, knowing that his mother likes to climb mountains and take walks, so he chose this property specially; fearing that the old lady would not be able to climb up in case of a power outage in the elevator, he chose the location on the second floor; fearing that the old lady would be lonely at home, he hired a part-time worker Go cook, chat with her... But, the old lady is still very lonely. It was after Sang Li moved in that the old lady really found someone who could talk to her, and she also liked Sang Li's peaceful appearance very much.The most important thing is that she is a little deaf, and Sang Li always speaks with a good temper and slowly, so there is no obstacle to the communication between the two.She didn't like the hourly worker who spoke very fast, so after having Sang Li, she quickly quit the hourly service.

This situation lasted for about a year. A year later, the old lady's daughter-in-law gave birth to her grandson abroad. This time, even though she could not speak the language, the old lady decided to go abroad to help her son and daughter-in-law look after the children.Before she left, she transferred the house to Sangli, and the price was much cheaper than the market price. She said to Sang Li with red eyes: "Child, take care of yourself. If grandma is not around, hurry up and find someone who can accompany you." Sang Li nodded, smiled and sent the old man on the plane. Not long after that, the real estate company downstairs moved to another place, and she bought the vacant house and opened this "You and Me Coffee House".

In the following days, she turned into a sculpture like this, basking in the sun, reading magazines, listening to music, and staring in a daze every day in the corner of "you and me".It's just that on Xiang Ning's death day, she would go to the cherry blossom forest to sing, sometimes singing "That Sunny Day", sometimes singing "The Pain of Vengeance", and sometimes singing "Serenade"... These are all the songs she used to sing to him - in the days when he was away, whenever she looked up at the sky and sang, she would think he was listening; whenever she saw the cherry blossoms fall with the singing, She would think it was him applauding...

Later, she finally regained contact with Gu Xiaoying.And Gu Xiaoying also promised her that she would not come to visit Sangli, let alone tell anyone else about Sangli's whereabouts, until she had sorted out her emotions. The only time she wanted Sang Li to show up was on the eve of her wedding—she wanted Sang Li to be her bridesmaid because Sang Li was single now anyway. But Sang Li refused. She had already expected that in Guan Tong's circle, there might not be people she had socialized with Shen Jie. Old people, old things, old things... She doesn't want to touch them at all.

Later, Gu Xiaoying was the only person who brought her news from the outside world. She found out that Mr. Guo finally buried Xiang Ning in City G on the grounds that he grew up there and that was his hometown. I also know that Shen Jie once dug three feet to find her, but Gu Xiaoying gritted her teeth and said nothing. However, Gu Xiaoying still concealed the matter about the "Sangli Philharmonic Fund".Sang Li could understand, she knew that Gu Xiaoying really hoped that she could get out of all the things in the past, live a new life, and find happiness again. And later, she really met a man, a man who didn't care about her past, didn't care whether she could have children, but just wanted to live with her. His name was Ma Yu.

Even, in order to fulfill her and Ma Yu, even Shen Jie, who really loved her, resolutely chose to leave after reuniting after a long absence. However, it was only then that she realized that in these long years, she loved him as much as she hated Shen Jie. She is always a step behind when it comes to love. Sang Li remembered that Gu Xiaoying said in the book: Parting is also a song, because if there is no parting, how can I meet you? In fact, Sang Li has always wanted to ask: If the end of parting is reunion, will the reunion end with parting? If that's the case, she might as well choose to escape from the beginning.

Because, she was really afraid of the "farewell". She didn't want to gamble with any warmth she could grasp—she was a mortal, she knew she was wrong, she knew she regretted it, she knew she was timid, and she knew she couldn't afford to lose. But is there still time? Under the silent night sky, Sang Li raised his head, vaguely, he could still see those withered flowers, those who left, and those who were let down year after year. She knew that Gu Xiaoying's words were correct: a song is the epitaph of a lost youth...