Chapter 74 A-3

The plane landed, and Sangli took a taxi from the airport.It's still more than 30 kilometers away, and the destination is still the central hospital. The difference is that last time I went to the ward, this time, it was the mortuary. Chang Qing was already standing outside the morgue, wearing a black dress, looking haggard. However, the moment she saw Sang Li, there was still a fleeting light in her eyes, and she almost couldn't wait to hold Sang Li's hand tightly, tears welling up all at once. Sang Li's nose also started to feel sour. However, she held back and just helped Chang Qing's arm: "Aunt Chang, I want...to see him."

Chang Qing held back her tears, nodded, and led Sangli into the morgue.The man on duty was a middle-aged man, perhaps because he had seen many births, old ages, illnesses and deaths, he opened a drawer expressionlessly, and then unzipped the bag. In the faint mist, Sang Yuecheng seemed to be asleep. Sang Li stared blankly at Sang Yuecheng's face, he was much thinner, he was not the majestic look at that time, nor was he at all like the person who could beat her out of the house with a broom.Now he is very quiet, very quiet. I don't know how long I watched, until Chang Qing pulled Sang Li out of the morgue and sat in the small garden of the hospital, Sang Li remained silent.

She tried very hard to remember Sang Yuecheng's appearance: at the end of her life, what he looked like. This is what she once vowed to do—she vowed that when everyone around her leaves this world, she can see their peaceful sleeping faces and remember them. She has enough regrets in this world, and she can no longer bear the burden of any missed encounters because of "missing". Even if it is the last expression of a person in this world. After a long time, Chang Qing said: "Xiao Li, maybe you don't believe it, but your father kept calling your name before he died."

She sighed softly, looking into Sang Li's eyes: "If I say, the story you said you know is only half of the whole story, would you believe it?" Sang Li was taken aback, and looked at her in confusion: "Half?" Chang Qing nodded: "It's half, your father told me about the other half before he died." She looked up at the sky, as if she could keep her tears from falling, but her voice revealed the secrets related to grief: "Sang Li, you said that your name is because you brought separation when you were born. , but have you forgotten, your mother's name is Li Yifei, don't you never think that you will be called this name, and it is also a kind of commemoration?"

Sang Li froze suddenly. Chang Qing's voice gradually choked up: "Your father and your mother, they were just ordinary classmates in middle school, but after graduation, they were assigned to two adjacent factories, both of which are hundreds of kilometers away from the city..." It's a long story. Men and women gradually become closer friends because of the same departure from home.People at that time probably didn't emphasize the raging love, they just felt that they were suitable for each other, the introducer came forward to confirm the relationship, and they got married the next year.It's just that they have been married for a long time and have no children.

At that time, according to the traditional concept, if there is no child, it can only be the responsibility of the woman.Although the man was puzzled, he didn't think much about it.It wasn't until a year after the marriage that the man finally went to the hospital for an examination quietly, only to find out that he was infertile.At that moment, the world collapsed. However, an even more disastrous thing happened on the same day: that day, after he tore up the test results and returned home, his wife told him that he was pregnant. He felt that the whole world was grayed out!He really wanted to pinch his wife's neck and ask her who the child belonged to, but he couldn't tell the secret of his infertility—what a shameful secret, a secret he had to hide no matter what!

In this way, he stares at his wife's belly with hatred every day, and endures the meticulous greetings and laughing expectations from the elderly at home.He wished that the child in his wife's womb would die, but he didn't know how to make another child if the child did not survive... Gradually, in the end, he just prayed that it would never be a boy, as long as it was not a boy in the eyes of his parents. With the male grandson surnamed Sang carrying on the lineage of the old Sang family, coupled with the strict family planning policy, everything is easy to say. He was fighting wits and courage with his wife every day in such contradictions and hatred. He really wanted to ask something, but his wife didn't say anything.More than nine months passed in such a hurry. On the day his wife gave birth, he was waiting outside the delivery room. When he heard that it was a girl, a big stone in his heart fell to the ground, but at the same time, the anger in his heart The fire is burning!

He didn't know at all, how would he treat this child?How would you treat your own wife? However, what he didn't expect was that God never gave him a chance to contradict—a few hours later, his wife died of postpartum hemorrhage.And until she died, he didn't know who the child belonged to? However, what he didn't even think of was that the moment he saw the wrinkled child for the first time, he suddenly felt a soft emotion in his heart—that ugly, wrinkled and howling child with closed eyes The little thing who kept crying, she seemed to have magical powers, and instantly wiped away his resentment towards his wife.

After all, this is a child bought by a woman in exchange for her life! Facing this kind of life replacement, he really didn't know how to continue to hate. So, he named the little girl Sang Li—the Li of Separation, and Li of Li Yifei. It's just that he forgave his wife, but it doesn't mean he can forgive the child.He watched Sangli grow up day by day with an indescribable feeling, becoming more beautiful than her mother day by day.He even imagined that a person with such an ordinary appearance like himself must not be as handsome as the child's biological father... Such speculations burned his reason several times, and he couldn't help but feel sorry for the little girl who called him "Daddy". Show the most violent side.

But, after all, he also watched the child grow up with his own eyes.So every time he finished yelling at her or beating her, he felt uncontrollably distressed.As the child grew up, he gradually couldn't figure out what his attitude towards this child was, was it hate or love? His confusion accumulated like this year after year, until the fall of that year, when he learned that Sang Li had broken up with Xiang Ning and turned to "accept rich money", he exploded - the plot quickly Reminding him of his "green hat", he kicked her out of the house with a broom without hesitation, declaring that he would never have any contact with her!

However, even if he ignored her and refused to accept her, he was shocked to find that his "daughter" Sang Li had gradually become a common face on TV. The TV station has made several programs and participated in some performances... He thought with horror, that Sang Li actually fulfilled his promise back then, stepped onto the best stage, and began to sing operas that Chinese people can't understand? ! The world is getting more and more out of bounds! He doesn't want to look at it, he absolutely doesn't want to look at it! However, he couldn't resist his habit of looking for Sangli with the remote control. As long as he saw her on stage, he would be very focused, and he could watch the show without eating or sleeping.He didn't understand what was wrong with him, maybe he was bewitched, and it was very evil! It was also at this time that news suddenly came that Sang Li fell from upstairs and was taken to the hospital.Some people said that she made a drunken slip, and some said that she committed suicide on purpose, but he knew that these were definitely not the answers. A girl like Sang Li would never drink at the risk of ruining her voice; a girl like Sang Li would never let so many unfulfilled wishes go and commit suicide! At this time, it was Tian Miao who told all the stories he didn't know: including the story after Sang Li and Xiang Ning broke up, including who she was with again... That was the last time he talked to Sang Li. He did say: Sang Li, you are to blame for this. I am most fortunate that you do not have my blood on you! But later, he regretted it. However, no matter how regretful it is, she will never be found again. Even if she came to see him later, he knew that they would never be strangers. He is no longer her father, and she is not her daughter. From the moment when that sentence and that secret came out, they will never go back to the past, and they will never go back to that "home" even though it is desolate. the past. Before leaving this world, he had hallucinations many times. He seemed to see Xiao Fei smiling in front of him, and said to him: "Yue Cheng, haven't you ever thought about getting a DNA test? How do you know Xiao Li is not?" your daughter... He woke up from the hallucination and looked towards the door with his eyes wide open. He thought that Sang Li would come back, but no, she still didn't come back after all. Chang Qing always comforted him: the phone didn't get through, but she will definitely come back when he gets through. But he knew that she would not come back, he drove her away with his own hands.Some things, once thrown away, can never be found again. Up to now, he really doesn't care if Sang Li is his daughter or not, he just wants to take one last look at her, say "I'm sorry", and then remember her current appearance. She talked a lot about her daughter. But, it was too late, and it was too late. We are always like this, only remembering to say those three words when it is too late. Whether it's "I'm sorry" or "I love you".