Chapter 72 A-1

Now, seven years later, Sang Li knew that Cai Xiang was right. At that time, I really had no humanity. What is human nature?Is it gratitude, cherishment, warmth, or love? It's a pity that at that time she was not grateful enough, not cherished, lacked warmth, and was far away from love. So what now? In the hot summer afternoon, the lotus in the Li Garden should start to bloom at full speed, and the trees in the "Sakura Garden Green View" are all green, but in the ward, it is so lifeless and white every day. With such a background, can she still have time to love? Every day, she just sat quietly by the bed and read newspapers to Shen Jie.Shen Jie lay on the bed, sometimes closed his eyes to rest his mind, and sometimes looked at her seriously.However, whether he opened his eyes or not, he must be holding one of her hands.

And Sang Li really only used one hand to hold and flip the newspaper, and when she must leave his side, she would gently pat his hand and smile slightly like a mother comforting a child. They all knew how uncertain this operation was, so they really regarded these days as the last encounter in their lives, and they were not willing to miss a single bit. During the days of waiting for the liver source, Shen Jie's physical strength deteriorated day by day.Sometimes Shen Jie fell asleep while Sang Li was reading the newspaper.At this time, Sang Li could feel the moisture in the corners of his eyes, but he couldn't cry.

She suddenly thought of Zhang Aijia in the movie "20, 30, 40". When people reach middle age and lose their marriage, they go to volunteer in nursing homes with all their vicissitudes. They also read newspapers to others, and watch the passing years in their own lonely voice... that kind of loneliness, that kind of despair, that kind of unspeakable The desolation of the world, if you are not in it, you may not be able to feel it. Sometimes, Sang Li would also ask Shen Jie: "Why don't you go to the United States for surgery?" Shen Jie would smile: "Will you accompany me?"

Sang Li hesitated, but nodded. Shen Jie smiled, he pulled Sang Li over, and pulled her into his arms. He hugged her gently and said, "Actually, it's the same everywhere, anyway, a doctor will rush over from abroad on the day of the operation. But I don't want to be like my father, if something happens, I have to work hard for my ashes to cross the ocean. " Before the words fell, Sang Li couldn't hold back his tears. Shen Jie still smiled: "Little girl, I didn't expect you to cry for me before." Sang Li stared at him, wiped away his tears, annoyed: "It's been a long time ago, and you said I never cried for you, what memory do you have!"

Shen Jie was stunned for a moment, seeing that what Sang Li said was true, he really began to think hard. And Sang Li just lay in his arms, holding his hands, one by one, playing with his fingers, occasionally twitching. This kind of intimacy will make everyone think that time has never separated them—not to mention three years, not even three days. Shen Jie really didn't remember. Maybe he didn't realize it either - the first time Sang Li cried for him was actually in Shanghai after breaking up with Xiang Ning that year. At that time, Sang Li was in a bad mood, Ye Yuxia could see it, and unceremoniously accused: "Sang Li, singing is a matter of concentration, as a professional singer, you can't bring any personal emotions to the stage."

After being taught, Sang Li quickly calmed down and sang hard and single-mindedly. However, every night, standing on the towering top of Zhongyue Hotel, in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the suite, looking at the radiant night outside and looking at those lights, her heart would feel like a stabbing pain. She would imagine: behind those lights, would there be two men and women who love each other, they quarrel at this moment, but make up immediately after the quarrel, they cook a dinner together, at this time a child walks away with a schoolbag Come in…… But what does all this have to do with her?

She didn't have the qualifications to expect all this. It's not that she doesn't thank Shen Jie: he brought her to study majors, and took her to various entertainment occasions in Zhongyue after studying... When she was wearing ten-centimeter high heels and luxurious and beautiful dresses, she greeted him. Sometimes, she had little time to grieve. Except late at night after the banquet. In those lonely and quiet nights, she stood alone on the balcony with a gentle night breeze, imagining: Xiang Ning, what are you doing?Are you looking for me everywhere, or do you think I'm joking...

She thought about it for a long time, all night long. She started having insomnia, and it was getting worse. In fact, every night after Shen Jie sent her back to the room, the door was closed, and the moment he left, Sang Li would involuntarily fall into deep fear and sadness—many times she wanted to hold Shen Jie's hand and ask him to stay. down.However, there is no courage, nor is it reconciled. She couldn't forget Xiang Ning's kiss, Xiang Ning's hug, Xiang Ning's body, Xiang Ning's smell... And Shen Jie also told her straightforwardly: He can wait until she thinks she can accept this deal from the bottom of her heart, until she is willing to come to him.

So, she really indulged herself to wait.However, as a result of such indulgence, her insomnia became more and more severe, and gradually, the long-term lack of sleep led to more and more serious migraines... Finally, one day, she collapsed in the piano room of Ye Yuxia's house. That day, Shen Jie carried her back to Zhongyue. It was only later that I found out that General Manager Shen's actions that day were nothing less than a blockbuster, which caused constant gossip in Zhongyue.Even Shen Jie's father, Chairman Qin Lizhong, specially summoned his only son and warned him to be cautious in his words and deeds...

Sang Li didn't know any of this at the time. All she knew was that she didn't sleep soundly and woke up many times, but it wasn't the kind that really woke up.Every time I feel like crying in a daze, but at this time, someone will sit beside her and hug her, give her some water to drink, and then coax her to sleep. She fell into a coma for two days and one night. It was night when she woke up, and she opened her eyes, only to see Shen Jie sitting beside her - because she hugged his arm tightly, he could only use his remaining arm to type on the laptop.He made the appearance of "One Finger Zen" very funny, but his eyebrows and eyes were so serious.

It was the first time that Sang Li observed this man seriously and carefully from the closest distance. She had to admit that, in fact, from the very beginning, she didn't feel that he was much older than her.Looking at him quietly now, I found that he actually has some small wrinkles in the corners of his eyes, which can't be seen unless you look carefully; his lips are very thin, and I heard Gu Xiaoying, a romance expert, say that such a person is ruthless. But fortunately, she, Sang Li, is not a very affectionate person; his earlobes are not very big, so according to the old people, he should not be very blessed, but so what about being blessed, no one can say for sure... She sighed softly. Shen Jie noticed it, turned around immediately, saw Sang Li's eyes opened, and finally let out a sigh: "Are you awake? You scared me." He put the computer aside, leaned down to touch Sangli's forehead with lingering fear, and put his hand on the back of her neck to test the temperature. Only then did he really feel relieved, and asked Sangli in a pleasant manner: "What do you want to eat? I'll let them Do it for you." There was obvious distress in his voice, Sang Li heard it, and his eyes felt hot. She doesn't quite understand that a person like herself is just an exchange in the process of "barter exchange", so why should others treat her well? She just shook her head and said "I'm not hungry". Shen Jie refused, and still sent millet porridge from the catering department downstairs, fed her carefully, and then packed her things with confidence and prepared to go back to her room.However, when he was picking up his computer bag, he suddenly felt someone tugging on his skirt. He lowered his head and saw Sang Li's pale face. "Stay here," she said. Shen Jie was taken aback, still not sure: "What did you say?" Sang Li gave him a smile: "Stay here, stay with me, I don't want to suffer from insomnia anymore." Shen Jie hesitated for a moment, but finally put down the things in his hands and stayed. That night, Sang Li knew that there must be something that is a good medicine for insomnia. The moment he sank into her body, sharp pain surrounded her again, and the moment tears flowed down, Shen Jie saw it, his eyes darkened, his movements slowed down slightly, but the moment Sang Li gasped for breath, he suddenly accelerated his speed! With some obvious revenge, some resentment that may have been suppressed for a long time, he rampaged in her body, time and time again, until he was exhausted.She cried, she cried, she grabbed his back, her nails were embedded in the flesh, she could even feel the slight blood from her fingertips... She was crying for him, it was really him, not Xiang Ning. He will never know, and he will never guess—when the golden light burst in front of Sang Li, in the sweaty embrace, the person she thought of was really Shen Jie. She thought of what he had done for her, thought that they would be together from now on, thought of how long they would be together, thought of whether someone would be by her side when she fainted next time, thought that their time was just A deal... She really shed tears for him, for the unknown future, but he obviously regarded such crying as her reluctance to part with all the past. This is fate - you think that everything is destined by God, but in fact, everything is just because of your choice, and then there will be retribution. Her retribution is that no one believes you have a heart. However, at this moment, she would rather trade that Shen Jie for this one. Even if that Shen Jie always likes to go back to the residence late at night, waking her up from her sleep, tossing and tossing; She delivered it to the school gate, and she was determined to label her as "goods sold"... He used to be so strong, but now she misses that strong Shen Jie so much. The waiting time for the liver source was not long, it was only a few days.In the past, Sang Li would think that this is the benefit of being rich, but now, she would rather believe that poor but happy couples tend to grow old easily. It doesn't matter about the possession of wealth, it doesn't matter about the search for Liren... For such a Shen Jie, if there are fewer troublesome things, will he not get cancer? On the night before the operation, Shen Jie said a lot. He asked: "Little girl, do you remember when we first got together?" Sang Li nodded: "I remember. At that time, I owed Xiang Ning just now, and later, I owed you again." "No, little girl," Shen Jie said, gently stroking the top of her head, "you have to remember, you never owe me. It's my fault. I love you, but I never told you." He sighed slightly: "I always appear at the wrong time." Sang Li couldn't help crying again. He looked at her seriously: "However, I used to be able to steal love, but now I won't. I will bless you happy, watch you from afar, and see you live a happy life." He smiled and said, "Little girl, remember, you must be happy!" Sang Li finally burst into tears. The next day, he was wheeled into the operating room. He didn't say anything before entering the operating room, just looked at her, and finally squeezed her hand tightly. With just that gaze, Sang Li understood the thousands of words in it. He is saying: Remember my words, be happy and live a good life. But, Shen Jie, if you die, what good life do you expect from me?