Chapter 66 A-3

That day, she sent away the nurse and stayed in the hospital by herself, learning to take care of him for the first time. In the past, she was always sick, and he always took care of her. Now that the roles were reversed, she realized how exhausting her will is to take care of the sick—because she cared, she felt distressed. And the feeling of heartache is more difficult than physical pain. In the twilight, she watched him press the liver area with her eyes, bending over in pain, she wanted to cry in anxiety, but there was nothing she could do to help.She could only hug him tightly and listen to his painful breathing, wishing that the one who hurt was herself!

Gradually, the pain passed, and he looked at her covered in sweat. She turned her back and wiped away her tears, but she could still hear him trying to comfort her: "Don't cry, little girl, you will be fine after the operation." He held her hand: "I still want to attend your wedding." Hearing these words, Sang Li turned around abruptly, fixedly looked at Shen Jie, but saw his eyes full of tolerance, extremely gentle: "Little girl, when will you and Ma Yu get married?" Sang Li was taken aback for a moment, then asked stupidly: "How do you know?"

He smiled, the smile was tired but full of indulgence: "It took me three years to find you, how could I miss any news about you?" When he said this, Sang Li felt more distressed in his heart. She tried her best to suppress the tears in her eyes, got up and went to the bathroom to mix hot water and bring it out.When she left, she could even feel Shen Jie's gaze chasing her all the way, so she only had time to hastily wipe away a few tears in the bathroom. Sang Li with a smile on his face. Just like three years ago. She sat back on his bed and twisted the towel. Shen Jie just looked at her straight, as if she couldn't get enough of it.She didn't speak, just gently unbuttoned his pajamas and wiped off the sweat on his body bit by bit.He even stiffened slightly when the warm towel touched his skin, but she ignored it and continued to rub it carefully.After wiping, help him change into pajamas, and then wash the towel and prepare to wipe his lower body.She was about to help him take off his pajama pants, but Shen Jie hurriedly pressed her hand.

"I'll do it myself," he coughed and joked, "I'm not terminally ill yet, why do you think I can't take care of myself?" But Sang Li ignored her and continued to work on her own—at that moment, she really seemed to be that stubborn little girl who couldn't be pulled back by nine horses. Shen Jie couldn't resist her, so he could only hold her hand, earnestly like never before: "Little girl, it's different now, you are getting married, so you can stop worrying about me, you understand?" Before the words fell, Sang Li's eyes suddenly opened. She threw the towel into the basin, looked at him with tears in her eyes, and gritted her teeth: "Shen Jie, shut up!!"

She was full of momentum, but her voice trembled a little, and Shen Jie was stunned. After all these years, when had he seen her cry? When she was sad and desperate, she was just numb, without a smile or tears. But now, she was crying. Under Shen Jie's dazed gaze, Sang Li reached out to wipe away his tears, and continued to help him take off his pajama pants.This time, Shen Jie went with her. She wiped him carefully, just like his wife. Wife——Thinking of this, Shen Jie couldn't help closing her eyes and sighing deeply. It's been nine years, and he's been waiting for this feeling for nine years.

However, when his little girl was finally ready to be a wife, it was too late for him to marry her. It was only at this moment that I realized what it meant to be "heart-wrenching"? ! It turns out that the deepest sorrow in this world is not not loving you, but when I know I love you—but it's too late. The next day, Sang Li returned home early in the morning.When I opened the door, I saw a room filled with smoke. She stood at the door in a daze for a moment, let out a cigarette, and finally saw Ma Yu's back on the sofa. In the faint morning light, his back was like a stone, motionless, a little thin, a little haggard.

Sangli entered the house and closed the door, and went over Ma Yu to open the window, letting fresh, grass-scented air flood into the room. When she did this, out of the corner of her eye, she could see that Ma Yu was still sitting there, motionless. She turned around and walked to Ma Yu's side, reached out to take down his cigarette, and put it out in the glass bowl that was temporarily used as an ashtray. She even noticed a little bit of water in the glass bowl - Ma Yu, he was still the man with a little cleanliness, and he was obviously ready to wait for her all night. She got a little closer, squatted in front of Ma Yu, raised her head, and could see Ma Yu's eyes: after staying up all night, her eyes were red with stubble rushing out, but strangely, there was no emotion in those eyes.

I don't know how long it took, but when Sang Li felt his legs start to go numb and his upturned neck started to feel sore, Ma Yu finally said, "Sang Li, do you have time today? Let's register." Sang Li's eyes widened suddenly. It seems that it was only at this time that she realized that Ma Yu was wearing a shirt in a serious manner, holding a red velvet box tightly in his hand all the time - no need to think about it, there must be a wedding ring in it! "I've been waiting for you all afternoon and one night, but you can't get through on the phone. I came here happily, but I just wanted to propose." Ma Yu raised his hand, rubbed his eyes, and smiled bitterly, "But it's okay, there's still time now, today is a good day Days, Sang Li."

He reached out to embrace her, opened the velvet box, and the beautifully cut baguettes were shining brightly in the first rays of sunlight in the morning! Sang Li was completely stunned. Ma Yu was so solemn: "Sang Li, I beg you to marry me." Sang Li didn't speak, just looked at Ma Yu stupidly, and then at the ring, her head was a little dizzy - from yesterday to now, too many accidents scrambled to appear on the stage, causing her to be in chaos! Maybe she was really calm for too long, otherwise, how could she become such a easily frightened person? While she was in a daze, Ma Yu put a ring on her.She lowered her head and saw the brilliance on her ring finger. Over the years, the men around her have come and gone, and many of them have said that they want to marry her, but she has only seen this one wedding ring.

What an ironic comparison, isn't it? Ma Yu got up and pulled Sang Li up.As soon as her legs softened, Ma Yu had already hugged her into his arms.He lowered his head, kissed her earlobe, neck, and cheek, and pressed his hand tightly on her waist, which was so hot that it seemed to be on fire! However, Sang Li's mind is rare clear: at that moment, when she looked up, she suddenly remembered Shen Jie's eyes, gentle, loving, haggard... In the next second, before she even realized it, she had already pushed Ma Yu away! Both of them were stunned. The window was open, and the wind was blowing in, and it brushed against the skin, which was so damp that it seemed to be dripping.

Ma Yu stared blankly at Sang Li, with an uncontrollable disappointment in his eyes, he didn't speak, but just looked straight at him, and gradually, the disappointment turned into deathly gray despair. His tone was so calm: "Sang Li, you don't want to?" Sang Li wanted to shake his head, but his whole body seemed to be filled with oar, heavy and unable to move. Ma Yu sat back on the sofa dejectedly, lit another cigarette, and said slowly: "I came to see you last night, but you were not here, so I opened the door and waited by myself. I don't think I can wait too long, because you I’m not a person who likes to go out very much. But I waited all night, but I didn’t see you. I called you, but the waiter in your store answered the phone. They said that you went out with an aunt and didn’t bring any cell phone." He looked up and smiled bitterly: "Sang Li, do you know who she is now?" Sang Li was stunned: "You know?" Ma Yu shook his head: "Before you told the story about Shen Jie, I didn't know about it. But after hearing the story, I saw him again in Charm, and I always thought he looked familiar. It was only later that I remembered that I met him at the University for the Elderly. The Aunt Qin who arrived should be the pianist Ms. Qin Shenyuemei. And Sheng Jin just told me some stories about Shen Yuemei’s farewell to the stage, Shen Jie’s opening of the garden, and afterward.” He sighed exhaustedly: "Do you know, Sang Li, when I was with Ai Ningning, I felt that getting married was a matter of course; When we are together, marriage is a strong desire. I never thought that I would fall in love at first sight at this age. After thinking about it, it might not be love at first sight. I appreciate it more and more. I like the feeling that we cook together, eat together, and play with YOYO together. In fact, we do get closer because of this kind of family activity. So, Sang Li, I am not impulsive or obsessed Your appearance, I really want to marry you, Sangli, live together, support each other, and spend the rest of my life." He looked at Sang Li: "Sang Li, I love you, not only the love of love, but also the love of family affection. We are not children anymore, you should understand what I mean. After so many things, I found out that it is not only the love of love, but also the love of family affection. Living this kind of step-by-step life is actually the happiest. It is impossible for us to forget the past, so let’s hide the past and live a peaceful and contented life together, okay?” He held Sang Li's hand, and Sang Li lowered his head, seeing the light of the diamond on his ring finger, which seemed to burn her eyes.She was silent for a while, and finally took off the ring slowly, and put it back in Ma Yu's palm. She raised her head, looked at Ma Yu, and said slowly, "Shen Jie has liver cancer." Ma Yu was stunned. The sky was bright, and the flowers downstairs were filled with the fragrance of blossoms, but in Sangli's heart, something collapsed in despair. Ma Yu——Actually, I told you a long time ago that no one who falls in love with me will have a good home. Now, I feel more and more that this is a spell that I cannot break or escape. At this time, can I agree to your marriage proposal? I don't even know if I love you or hurt you. And Shen Jie—maybe, I really didn't meet you at the most suitable time. Because once, I could only see this radiant world in my eyes, but I couldn't see those who loved me alone. At that time, I was only twenty-one years old. I thought I had a lot of time at my disposal and I could have all the things I wanted. But later I learned that time is stronger than me, it changed me, but never looked back. Fight against time, I am doomed to lose.