Chapter 40 A-4

However, as expected by Sang Li, Shu Yan did not appear. In the afternoon, Shu Yan pushed open the door of "You and Me", subconsciously looked up at the place where HELLO KITTY was originally placed, and saw that there had been a naive Garfield instead. She went straight to Sangli's usual seat and said hello: "Can I sit here?" Sang Li nodded: "Please sit down." Call the waiter again: "Give this lady a mandheling." After the waiter left, Shu Yan said: "Miss Sang has a good memory, I only came here once, you still remember what I like to drink."

"You're too much." Sang Li smiled slightly: "It was Ma Yu who mentioned that YOYO's mother likes Mandheling." "Ma Yu?" Shu Yan was taken aback for a moment, but there was a clear sense of loneliness in her expression: "He will still remember this?" "He cares about you very much." Sang Li looked into Shu Yan's eyes. "Yes, I never denied it," Shu Yan smiled wryly, "Although he doesn't love me, he is married after all, so there is always some family affection." "Then you still want a divorce?" Sang Li couldn't figure it out.

"I admit that I am narrow-minded. I tried so hard, but I couldn't erase the traces of Ai Ningning. Sang Li, do you think you can do it?" Shu Yan looked straight into Sang Li's eyes. Sang Li hesitated for a moment: "Do you hate Ai Ningning? Or jealousy, envy? Do you have these emotions?" "How could it not be?" Shu Yan took a sip of coffee and smiled shyly. Sang Li sighed for a long time: "But, you are still alive." Seeing Shu Yan's stunned expression, Sang Li slowly explained: "Ai Ningning used to be my English teacher and died of lymphoma three years ago. Ma Yu doesn't know yet, and I don't plan to tell her for the time being. You see, We are all alive, but she is gone. Even if Ma Yu loves her all her life, she can't feel it anymore. It's a waste of time to argue with someone who can no longer be by his side. "

Shu Yan obviously has not recovered from the shock, Sang Li smiled: "Miss Shu, in fact, you are a courageous person, you dare to marry someone who doesn't love you, have children, and then leave, you are always there Do what you think is worth it. I envy you very much, because your life is always moving forward and full of hope. From this point of view, you are stronger and braver than Ma Yu and me. We are too nostalgic and reluctant to part with the past, so Life is very tiring. You have ideas and commitments, and you will definitely find the happiness you want. As for Ma Yu and I, we are not yet at the stage you imagined. We will not talk about marriage, nor will we live together We are like two people comforting each other, as the song sings, 'Two people are not afraid of the cold when they are warm together'."

She laughed: "Pretty hypocritical, isn't it? But, it seems really appropriate." Shu Yan also smiled: "You are smarter and more honest than I imagined, maybe I should have thought earlier that my daughter would not like someone to the point of being attached for no reason." She looked at Sang Li sincerely: "I'm going back to Germany tomorrow, and the company is very busy. If you don't mind, my daughter will take care of you." "I'll do my best." Sangli nodded, "If you have the chance, please come back to see her more often. For children, there is no one who is closer than their mother."

Shu Yan laughed, a little relieved and a little regretful: "Actually, I just want to see what kind of a woman can make my daughter talk about every day. I don't mind Ma Yu's life, but I do mind my daughter's life .My current job is too unstable, and I spend three or four days a week on the plane. It may be that I am too greedy. I want love but I am not willing to give up my career. Now that I have come to this point, it is too late to say anything In the end, although I filed the divorce, in fact, with Ma Yu, I have long been eliminated. " She looked at Sang Li, and smiled at herself: "Sang Li, I like you very much, we should have become good friends. But please forgive me, as a next-cousin wife, I can't be so free and easy for the time being." .”

Sang Li didn't speak, just looked at her with a smile, and Sang Li knew that this sentence was actually what he wanted to say. Not long after Shu Yan left, Ma Yu came to the store with a worried look on his face: "She asked you?" While making coffee, Sang Li gave Ma Yu a strange look: "Yeah, what's wrong?" "Shu Yan is actually a very nice person, but occasionally she can be a little irritable." Ma Yu was a little incoherent. Sang Li tilted his head to look at Ma Yu, and couldn't help laughing: "Mr. Ma, do you also watch soap operas?" "Ah?" Ma Yu looked at Sang Li in confusion.

"Do you think she will come to me to vent her anger or to negotiate?" Sang Li looked at Ma Yu with interest, and found that his expression was a little dazed. She chuckled lightly: "Don't worry, life is not filled with romantic dramas everywhere." Sang Li's expression was very sincere: "Ma Yu, you are a lucky person, and Shu Yan is really a very good person. If there is any misunderstanding, it may just be because they are not suitable for each other." Ma Yu sighed in the shadow of the evening sunset: "Actually, every time we separate, if there is regret, it's because it's too late to say 'I'm sorry'."

"Really," Sang Li lowered his head and said while looking at the coffee pot, "I think it's easy to say 'I'm sorry', but the difficulty is that we have to leave before we can wait for a forgiveness." Ma Yu was startled, but Sang Li didn't explain. The next day, Shu Yan returned to Germany.It was not long after she left that YOYO began to get sick—children with pneumonia, and his body temperature was always around 39 degrees. After taking antipyretics, he would not maintain his normal body temperature for more than seven hours.Ma Yu was going to Hong Kong, and was so anxious that Sang Li reported that he was brave enough to stay in bed with him in the hospital.Perhaps it was also because of this long period of time together that the relationship between the two developed by leaps and bounds, and finally developed to the point where YOYO was entangled with Sangli and never left.

Occasionally, when Sang Li looks at the sleeping YOYO, he will feel a little pain in his heart, think of the child he lost, and wonder if he or she is still there, would he still be so attached to him. Once, she was not a person who liked children.However, "maternity" is a very strange feeling - when you reach the right age and look away from many things you once cared about, you will find that those children's clinginess, dependence, coquettishness and other things that once clearly bored you Everything is so interesting.And those who are clingy, dependent, and coquettish are so easy to give those who are clingy and dependent a strong sense of satisfaction.

Occasionally, I even have a short hallucination: I think YOYO's "Sangli" sounds more like "mother". It's not that she is not puzzled: for Ma Yu, she originally understood it as a good man she met by chance, a man who could bring warmth.She didn't think about what the future would be like, and she didn't think that if they were really together, they would become YOYO's stepmother.She didn't know if she could handle it all. However, when thinking like this, Gu Xiaoying's words would linger in her mind again: the future is too far away, seize the day and night. The future is indeed so far away, but everything in front of her——Yoyo's wholehearted trust when she hugged her—has given her such a warm and sweet day and night. Four days later, Ma Yu came back from Hong Kong. He hurried to the pediatric ward of the Provincial Hospital, opened the door and saw Sang Li telling YOYO a story. Seeing Ma Yu, Sang Li didn't seem to be surprised. On the contrary, YOYO happily called out "Dad". Ma Yu looked at her daughter's much more energetic face, and finally heaved a sigh of relief, turning around and saying to Sang Li, "It's hard work!" is you." Sang Li didn't take it seriously: "What's the matter?" She was lying on the bedside of YOYO, holding up the "Baba Papa" comic book in her hand, and dangling in front of Ma Yu: "I took the book from your house, and then I realized that "Baba Papa" turned out to be Made In France. What about German animation?" Ma Yu hugged YOYO into his arms, and YOYO quickly found a comfortable position to snuggle up to. Ma Yu explained with a smile: "That's right, the original works of French painters were made into cartoons by Germany, which became popular all over the world. It's like when we were young I’ve seen the cartoon, but it wasn’t until I went to Germany that I realized it wasn’t really the home of Barbapapa.” YOYO was a little sleepy, but he managed to interject: "Dad, I want to go home." Ma Yu looked down at her daughter, a little embarrassed: "It seems that you can't be discharged from the hospital yet? If you stop the treatment, you will have a fever again." YOYO's voice was aggrieved: "I don't want to be here anymore, it's not fun at all, and Su Nuofei won't come to see me." Sang Li teased her: "Why did Su Nuofei come to see you? Don't I come to see you every day?" YOYO was depressed: "It's different, Su Nuofei is different." "What's the difference?" YOYO yawned: "He is very obedient, handsome, and listens to me very well. I miss him." Sang Li looked at Ma Yu with a smile, saw his helpless expression, and whispered, "Your YOYO has a puppy love!" Ma Yu stroked YOYO's round face: "Persevere, when you are discharged from the hospital, let's invite Su Nuofei to Aunt Sangli's for some snacks." YOYO nodded in a daze. Sang Li tilted his head and asked Ma Yu: "Ma Yu, how old were you when you first knew that you liked someone?" Ma Yu raised his eyebrows and thought about it: "In high school, it seemed that more than half of the boys in the class had a crush on our female monitor." Sang Li nodded: "It's pretty normal." "What about you?" Ma Yu asked back. "Junior high school," Sang Li thought for a while, "probably the third year of junior high school." Ma Yu smiled softly: "You also fall in love early." Sang Li nodded, very calmly: "Yes, I am puppy love." Ma Yu was surprised: "Your family doesn't object?" "Objection?" Sang Li shrugged, "In my dad's heart, everything about me has nothing to do with him." Ma Yu looked up at Sang Li, and saw her sitting on the side, patting YOYO gently, the little girl gradually fell asleep. Sang Li looked at YOYO, then at Ma Yu who was staring at him in a daze, and smiled indifferently: "Don't pity me, 'a child without a mother is like a grass', you haven't heard of this? I was very young I always thought about it, if one day I also have a daughter, then I must live well, grow up with her, protect her along the way, and don't let her get hurt." "It will happen in the future," Ma Yu comforted her: "In the future, you will also have your own children." Sang Li was taken aback for a moment, then smiled slightly, but didn't speak. The ward became quiet, and it seemed that only YOYO's even breathing could be heard.Sang Li looked at YOYO, and couldn't help but think of himself that year: loneliness, despair, autism, until the moment he saw Xiang Ning, the sky suddenly became clear... But, Xiang Ning, do you still remember me? The song sings: I live at the head of the Yangtze River, and you live at the end of the Yangtze River. I miss you every day without seeing you, and drink the water of the Yangtze River together... Now, I didn’t expect that I live at the end of the Yangtze River, and I can drink the water of the Yangtze River every day.And you, where are you?Do you still remember the girl named Sang Li and the good times we spent together?