Chapter 33 B-2

That night, the memory of the fragrance of jasmine flowers is the secret shared by Sang Li and Xiang Ning. It is a sweet and tender memory, but also a tacit secret. Such sweetness can easily make a young girl careless—when Sang Li called Nan Yang to report the change in her relationship with Xiang Ning, she didn't even think about why Nan Yang was depressed. She just told him with some hesitation and some joy like she did countless times when she was a child: "Brother, I have a boyfriend." Nan Yang was sweating profusely in his dormitory to cope with the "autumn tiger" in the humid air of the southern city. When he heard this sentence, he almost thought he heard it wrong.

However, the long-accustomed "brother + father" role quickly allowed him to find his own way of thinking: "How old are you, Xiaoli, and fell in love when you just entered college? Does your school teach people to be nice? Isn't Xiang Ning his mother your teacher, and doesn't care about you?!" There was some anxiety in his tone, but also some anger. Sang Li was so loud that he didn't dare to take a breath. After a while, he realized, "It's not a bad person..." "Bad? Do you know what is bad?" Nan Yang was very angry: "You are so young now, how can you have the ability to judge right from wrong? Are you really good when you look good? Don't let people sell it and count the money for others !"

"Yes...Xiang Ning..." Sang Li muttered, and finally said it. "Who?" Nan Yang thought he heard it wrong again. "Xiang Ning." Sang Li said louder and clearly. Nan Yang was silent. Sang Li didn't know what to say, so he remained silent. It must have been a long time before I heard Nan Yang sigh: "Xiang Ning is too shameless, he doesn't talk about anything. I don't ask you too much, Xiang Ning has a sense of propriety, just don't affect your studies." Sang Li smiled slightly: "Brother, you are more like my father than my father."

Nan Yang didn't speak. Sang Li didn't know that Nan Yang tossed and turned that night, and finally gave up this pancake-like hypnotic method in the middle of the night, got up and went to the balcony to smoke.He is not addicted to cigarettes, but he just wants to smoke for no reason tonight. A bright red light flickered on and off on the balcony. He raised his head, only to find that there was not even a single star in the night sky at two o'clock in the morning. He seemed to remember that when Sangli was young, they watched the stars together on the beach: the air visibility in the small seaside town is very high, and you can see the bright stars when you look up. Name the stars: Magpie Star, Rabbit Star, Ice Cream Star...

Finally, she went to high school and learned "September Starry Sky Map". She happily pointed out to him: Brother, look, that is the Big Dipper. It is so big. I thought it was a small spoon, but I didn't expect it to take up half of the sky. Big spoon, hey, what is that M?If W is the queen constellation, what is M? What about M... He took a deep breath on his cigarette and couldn't help laughing - when he looked up, he clearly saw a huge W! If the zodiac sign of the Queen of Dare is reversed, she will not recognize her! However, he also really admired her - such a vast starry sky, no matter whether you face south or north, it is just a tiny speck of dust under the starry sky, what angle did she use to see W as M? !

... However, it will not be me who will accompany her to watch the stars in the future. Thinking of this, he couldn't help but look sad. He knows Xiang Ning too well: Xiang Ning is the kind of person who is cautious, but will be consistent once he makes a decision.He didn't seem to have to worry about Xiang Ning treating Sang Li badly, nor did he need to worry about helping Sang Li fight the injustice.What he has to do, perhaps, is to watch from a distance, give some applause and blessings when needed, and don't forget to give red envelopes when they achieve a positive result...

It turned out that it was just a step late, and then it was a lifetime late. No matter, no matter!Nan Yang took a deep breath and extinguished the cigarette butt in his hand.The moment the last ray of light went out, he decided to play the role of "brother" well—maybe he had played this role for a long time, and he still had some fun in it! This is really a strange phenomenon. Originally, it stands to reason that he should feel a little bit of pain from losing his love, right? So, does it mean that he doesn't love Sangli as much as he imagined? No, no, no... Nan Yang's mind is a little messed up: they have grown up together for eighteen years, just like trees and vines, they depend on each other, and it's hard to tell who is relying on whom.Their growth is entangled together, which is a little more ambiguous than family affection, and a little warmer than love, which is unclear and unclear.How could he not love Sang Li?It's not enough for him to love her with all his life!

However, when he heard that she was in love, he felt painful loss and depressive regret, but he didn't feel sad or heart-piercing. What does this mean... Thinking of this, Nan Yang felt a little confused, he couldn't help but punch the balcony railing in front of him, the cold texture instantly mixed with some pain and moved up the nerve endings sensitively. He looked up at the sky and finally sighed deeply. So be it, Nanyang thought: Since you can't let go all your life, you should always stand by her side, love her, and take care of her; since it's already a step too late, then don't talk much, as long as you stand by her side, you will be happy. it is good.

A little farther than his lover, but always there - this position is the best position for him to see her clearly without hurting her. In Shanghai in September, under the cloud of low pressure, Nan Yang felt an unspeakable sadness for the first time.