Chapter 16 Section 16

Yu Anduo faced me, rolled up her sleeves, and showed me the marks of wounds she had scratched on her arms.Those flesh-red scars reminded me of the negotiation between her and me at the Flower Bud Theater many years ago. "Remember? I could have just killed it, but I didn't. Guess why?" I didn't make a sound, and she replied by herself: "I want me to remember, don't be stupid for love again. Love, love is fatal in the end. I can't make the same mistake again." I stretched out my arms and hugged her, completing the unfinished ritual of her facing me that morning.

"Ma Zhuo," she said in my ear, "I really don't love him anymore, you should be thankful for me. Poor my dad has not closed his eyes for two days to prepare for the wedding, and now the wedding failed, but he is exhausted Yes. Such a desperate pursuit is actually in vain in the end. Meeting is worse than nostalgia, seeing is worse than not seeing. This is the true meaning of love." In fact, she still cares about him.It's just that there is no reason to say love.Is this her luck or misfortune?In my heart, there is no answer.After all, those days of vigorous love are the most powerful proof that we were young, so who really dares to say that they really have no nostalgia for the past?Beijing in February is like a sleeping polar bear, breathing quietly, as if afraid of disturbing anyone.

It snowed for many days in a row, and one afternoon when it finally cleared up, Xia Hua sat on the window sill and patiently painted brown nail polish on her toes one by one. This is the second day she has moved into the home from the hospital.The doctor said that her condition was recovering well, so she was allowed to go home for the New Year, but she was not allowed to drink alcohol, stay up late, exercise excessively, eat spicy food... In short, a series of prohibitions. I can't forget the night when we rescued her from the mountain. We placed her at the grandma's house in the county seat. Anan went to invite his good friend who is a doctor, and I was the only one to take care of her.In my little room, I gave her water and she kept holding my hand so hot it was like a hot stone.At that time, she was so burned that she was almost delirious, and she was talking nonsense——

"Anyone who doesn't take advantage of it is a bastard...you won't run away if you can't take advantage of it?" "A lot of money, inexhaustible money...all for you..." "Sophie... Sophie... where are you, don't hide from me, I'm afraid..." I knew she was calling the ostrich.Shouting and shouting, there were tears in the corners of her eyes, and I wiped them away for her.Looking at her swollen and high cheekbones, I thought repeatedly of Lin Guoguo, and the expression on her face the last time I saw her. Someone knocked on the door. I thought it was Anan who brought the doctor back, but when I opened the door, I saw grandma standing outside the door, pointing to the inner room and asking me suspiciously: "Who is it?"

"A friend," I said, "she has a cold and a fever." Xia Hua's low singing voice came from inside the room: "It's dark, it's not raining, it's dark..." It seems that she is really confused. "Your friend is still your father's friend. How can this be a fever, have you drunk too much?" Grandma looked very dissatisfied. I couldn't explain it, so I could only push her back to the room to sleep in apology. It was not until the doctor came and gave Xia Hua an injection that her fever slowly subsided.When she recovered a bit, Anan lied to her grandma and brought her to Beijing.From the moment she got on the plane, Xia Hua became very obedient, and she was very cooperative in the treatment when she arrived at the hospital. She answered whatever the doctor asked, and she didn't even frown when she took the medicine. She just couldn't do without Anan. To find people everywhere.

"It's not terminally ill, but life-threatening at any time." This is the definition of Xia Hua's illness given by experts in Beijing. But this definition, let us all breathe a sigh of relief.In the throes of life and death, nothing makes us feel more hopeful than the fact that we can continue to live. Anan just got the house he bought in Beijing, and it will take some time before the decoration is completed and he can live in it.So he rented a small two-room apartment near the hospital, on the 24th floor.The community is not big, but it is clean and the air is fresh.Compared to always being bored in the hospital, Xia Hua's mood is much better.

We are all deliberately saying goodbye to the past, unspoken.But there is no doubt that there is someone between us, and this is an embarrassment that we cannot escape. Seeing me coming in, she called me loudly, "Ma Zhuo, take off your socks!" "Why?" "Nail polish, come on, see if the color my father bought for me looks good?" She kept calling him Daddy, very affectionately, as if she was her daughter.In comparison, my always low "Dad" really pales in comparison. "He bought it for you?" I sat on the windowsill beside her and asked her.

"I bought a lot of creams, facial cleansers, and lip glosses, all of which are all natural, so you won't be allergic to them. Come and see if there is anything you like, I can't use it up." She dragged me Walking all the way into the room, there was a pile of things spread out on the bed.I really convinced him, I don't know what kind of mood the 40-year-old man stood at the cosmetics counter to choose these red and green bottles and jars. "It must be a lot of money." Xia Hua said, "But I don't care. Money is for spending. I told my father a long time ago that the money should not be used for my medical treatment, but for my life. You Say what I said, right?"

I scolded her: "How can we live until the illness is cured!" She giggled and fell on the bed laughing. Anan refused to let him speak, so Xia Hua didn't know that the money had already been returned to Yu's family.The night before I brought her to Beijing, I handed over all the money back to An Duo with my own hands, and briefly told her the story of Anan and Xia Hua, hoping that she could help them. I knew that my request was too much, so I didn't dare to look her directly in the eyes. Who knew that she agreed very readily, and carrying the big box of RMB, Yu Anduo said to me: "Actually, you are doing it for your father, and so am I." For my father. To your father, she may be a treasure, but to my father, she is destined to be a disaster. So Ma Zhuo, speaking of it, our side is always the loser."

Maybe she did it to adjust the atmosphere, but it was such a bad joke that people couldn't laugh out loud.Besides, if the word "win or lose" must be used to make a conclusion about these things, the outcome may really be unknown. Xia Hua packed all those things, stuffed them back into the bag, yawned a lot, and asked me, "When will daddy come back?" "I don't know." I said, "Preparing new year's goods is a troublesome thing. I'll cook for you. Tell me what you want to eat." After speaking, I took out a piece of paper from my pocket. The doctor ordered a special diet for her.

I asked her to choose by herself, but she hugged the pillow, curled up on the bed, and said to me in a drowsy voice: "I'm going to sleep, I don't want to eat now, please wake me up when Dad comes back." I don't know if she was really sleeping or pretending to be asleep, anyway, she quickly closed her eyes and stopped talking to me.I covered her with a thin quilt, and found that the faint redness around her neck had faded a lot, but it still looked clear.Her illness was actually not too life-threatening, but because she was too self-willed and had already caused great damage to the internal organs of the body, so the doctor said that if she didn't take good care of her, her life would be in danger at any time. Close the door and come out.The living room was a little messy. I was tidying up when I suddenly saw Xia Hua's phone on the coffee table flickering.The phone is on silent, only the light is on, but there is no sound. I thought it was Anan, but when I looked closer, it said: Brother. I hesitated, but quickly turned back into the kitchen without even reaching for the phone. The card was bought by Anan for her after she was discharged from the hospital yesterday. It seems that the first person she contacted was still him.Speaking of which, he is her only relative, and it is normal to contact him, I just hope that she will not talk about things related to me.What I don't want is that he has any misunderstandings about me because of this-then when everything is gone like running water, I can at least keep my poor pride and self-esteem. We agreed to never see each other. "I want to drink water." Xia Hua suddenly appeared behind me and spoke, which shocked me a lot. I took the cup from her and poured plain water for her. I felt a little hot, so I opened the mineral water bottle and poured some cold water.She played with the mobile phone in the other hand and said, "Ma Zhuo, I have something to trouble you." My heart tightened.