Chapter 14 Chapter Fourteen

I was awakened by the aroma of food.Half-dream and half-awake, I could only feel the smell of fragrance, but I was so hungry that I scratched my heart, and immediately sat up, shaking my nose and feeling dizzy, who can tell me where this is? Opening the door of the bedroom, Lu Licheng was busy in the kitchen wearing an apron, wielding a shovel and wielding a knife, and looked at me with disheveled hair staring at him in a daze. There are new toothbrushes and towels in the cupboard." I leaned on the wall, groped into the bathroom, and when my mouth was full of foam, I finally figured out why I was here.

After wiping his face and going out, he cut his hair and asked, "Are there any old chopsticks?" "What are you doing?" "Give me one if you have one, and pull it down if you don't have one!" Lu Licheng threw me a new chopstick: "Just use this!" I tied my long hair into a bun with chopsticks, fixed it, looked at myself, and finally stopped looking like a female ghost. Lu Licheng had already taken off his apron, and when he saw me in Bucai, he laughed, "It's very charming." I thought about it, but no, I was wearing a fat gray T-shirt that I usually used as pajamas, and I had a Taoist bun on my head.Before waiting for him to serve the meal, he took a bite of the stuffed eggplant first, and couldn't help but let out a "huh", which almost made him feel overwhelmed: "Lu Licheng, you are more than 18 martial arts, you are almost 24 almighty! .”

He handed me the rice, pretending to be modest: "Where, where!" I smiled and pointed to his head, his eyes, and his hands: "here, here, here...all are capable." Lu Licheng laughed loudly, and I was holding the rice bowl, and a gust of wind swept through the clouds.He kept saying, "Slow down, slow down, the food is definitely enough this time, you don't have to compete with me." I didn't have time to talk, I just buried my head in eating, I was already hungry, and the dishes were really delicious, even the ordinary stir-fried vegetables, he cooked them with all the flavors and flavors.I finally slowed down after eating a big bowl of rice: "Lu Licheng, a person like you, Gu Long's words describe it very well."

Lu Licheng asked with interest: "Which sentence?" "'Some even thought he could do anything but have kids.'" Lu Licheng said angrily, "Let's eat your meal!" I was very interested and asked: "Why are you so good at cooking? Did you ever have a customer who liked food? That's not right! If he likes food, you can just search for a good cook. Does anyone like cooking, so you In order to accompany customers, practice good cooking skills? If this is the case, the customer is perverted, and you are more perverted than him!" Lu Licheng ignored me, and my curiosity grew stronger: "Are you not doing it for customers, but for love? Your ex-girlfriend liked to eat the food you cooked?" I sighed, "I can't tell! You You can get out of the hall and into the kitchen!"

I acted like I would never give up until I got an answer, Lu Licheng couldn't help it a little: "Why are you so gossip?" "Gossip is a woman's vocation and obligation." I plausible. Lu Licheng said lightly: "Five years ago, my father was seriously ill. I took him to Beijing for treatment. During his treatment for more than half a year, my cooking skills leaped from zero to one hundred. Cooking does not require talent. Just have a heart." I was puzzled and asked, "You were considered rich five years ago, why didn't you hire a cook?" He put down his chopsticks and stared at the dishes on the table unconsciously: "When I was in college, in order to save money and work during the holidays, I only went home once in four years of college. After earning money, I only went back twice in five years, and one of them was a business trip. I always feel that I am working harder now, so that my parents can live a better life and be filial to them in the future. My father was seriously ill, I took him to Beijing for treatment, and I was willing to spend all my money, but no amount of money could keep my father, and the things I could buy with money were not what my father needed. So I can only cook for him every day and let him eat the dishes made by my son. Rather than saying that I am filial, it is better to say that I am making up for my guilt and self-blame. The son wants to support but the kiss is not here! This pain does not It’s hard for people who have experienced it to understand.”

I feel sorry: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't be so gossip." Lu Licheng smiled and picked up his chopsticks: "It's nothing, let's eat!" We were eating in silence when the phone rang suddenly, and Lu Licheng immediately put down his bowl and chopsticks to answer it. Obviously, not many people knew this phone number, and once it rang, it meant something was up. "It's me, um, she's here, um, okay." He turned around and called me: "Su Man, come and answer the phone." "Me?" I pointed to the tip of my nose, not understanding how my call could reach his landline.

"Hey?" "It's me, are you going to scare me to death? Do you know that Song Yi and I almost turned over the whole city of Beijing." Malatang's voice was almost crying. I don't understand: "I'm not here!" "Song Yi and I went back to see you after dinner. The hospital bed was empty, so we went to ask the hospital. The hospital didn't know anything, and then questioned us. Call you and turn off your mobile phone; go to your house to find you, but the security guard said you didn't come back. Yes; I called your parents’ house, and your mother said, you said earlier in the morning that you would not go home this weekend and asked me to call your cell phone. I didn’t dare to ask more, because I was afraid they would worry, so I could only hang up the phone vaguely. ;Thinking that you should be with Lu Licheng, call him on the phone, but the phone is also turned off. Later, we had no other choice. Song Yi called the old man of MG, saying that there was something urgent and he had to find Lu Licheng. The old man was quite unhappy , it took me a long time to give us this phone number. If you want to live a two-person world, you should leave me a message anyway, do you know how worried I am?"

My throat was dry and I couldn't speak, so Malatang yelled anxiously: "Su Man, are you dead? Say something!" "I'm fine. I stayed at Lu Licheng's place last night." There was silence on the phone for a while, and Malatang's voice was a little tense: "Manman, what's wrong with you? Are you angry with me?" "No, I'm not mad at you." "Did Lu Licheng tell you something?" "No, really not, I'm not angry..." Lu Licheng took the phone over: "Miss Xu, I'm Lu Licheng. Su Man and I are eating, what's the matter, can we talk about it after we finish eating?"

I couldn't hear what Malatang said, but I heard Lu Licheng say politely: "Okay, no problem, I will take good care of her, okay, okay, I will let her turn on the phone, okay, goodbye!" He hung up the phone: "Are you still eating?" I shook my head: "Actually, I'm already full, but the taste is really good, so I can't help but eat more." He didn't speak, and started to clean up the dishes. I was embarrassed: "Let me wash the dishes!" "No need! You go and take the medicine. The medicine is on the table. You don't need to take the green bottle."

I poured out a handful of yellow-yellow-green pills and swallowed them in one gulp. If the body is injured, you can take medicine, but if your mind is injured, how can you heal it? I took Lu Licheng's cigarette and lighter and stood by the window. Pushing open the window, the cold air makes people refreshed.I lit a cigarette and looked around in the smoke. Nearby, Lu Licheng probably did not make any trimming on purpose, it was completely a wasteland, with a black horseman resting in a piece of dry weeds; in the distance was a piece of fruit forest, with some unmelted snow on the gray and black branches, black and white mottled , even more desolate.

When I was about to finish a cigarette, the faucet in the kitchen that had been rattling stopped.A moment later, Lu Licheng stood behind me and asked, "Are you going to train yourself to be an addict?" I turned around and was almost close to him. I breathed a puff of smoke towards his face. He frowned. I raised my head and almost touched his chin. Knowing everything you need to know, what are you going to do?" He took a step back and also smiled: "I was hoping you could do something." "Then you will be disappointed! I don't plan to go to Malatang to accuse Song Yi, because I believe Song Yi is not that kind of person, he really loves Malatang, and you will understand if you see the way he looks at her." "Then what about his treatment of you? I believe that all his actions towards you, judged by Malatang, also show the word 'love'." "What did he do to me? Why don't I know anything?" I asked confusedly with my big eyes blinking. Lu Licheng stared at me and said nothing. I took a puff of the cigarette and said with the cigarette between my fingers: "Making rumors to attack competitors is not what a person of Lu Licheng's status should do." Lu Licheng shook his head and smiled: "Su Man, you are really good!" "Thank you, I am studying with the best master." I winked at him. He smiled bitterly: "Thank you for the compliment." I leaned against the window and looked at him: "You don't seem too disappointed, can you talk to me? How do you plan to break up Song Yi and Malatang?" "I'm thinking about it, but I don't have a perfect plan yet. I wanted to use you, but you didn't cooperate." I covered my stomach and laughed, lit another cigarette, turned around, lay on the window, looked into the distance, and smoked.He stood beside me and lit a cigarette: "What's so good about Song Yi? You don't hate him at all?" I thought and thought: "I don't hate it! Because he definitely didn't choose Malatang because of the reasons you think, he must have his reasons, maybe, he was just moved by me, but he really loves Malatang." Lu Licheng sneered disdainfully: "It seems that I'm really old. I can't understand the love at first sight between him and Xu Lianshuang at all. I thought Song Yi should have passed this age long ago. Except for Xu Lianshuang's background, I can't tell Any reason can make a 30-year-old man suddenly fall in love with a stranger, especially..." I looked at him sideways, and he looked sideways at me, staring at me and said, "Especially if he still have you!" My heart was shocked, and I turned my head suddenly: "Thank you, Miao Zan." He blew three smoke rings in a row: "I have always refused to admit that Song Yi has the upper hand, but now, the result seems to be clear, and I have to think about where to go after leaving MG." I laughed: "It really doesn't sound like Lu Licheng's tone!" He also laughed: "Things have really come to this point, and failure doesn't seem to be as unacceptable as imagined." I thought for a while, and said solemnly: "I don't think things will develop as you think. Malatang's character obviously hates people associating her with her father. Song Yi is a very proud and A very confident person, I don't think he would take advantage of Malatang's father's influence, that would be an insult to his own ability, so you don't have to put Xu Zhongjin, an overweight chip, on Song Yi's side, because Song Yi doesn't won't work." Lu Licheng glanced at me and said sarcastically, "Your judgment on Song Yi?" If you can judge Song Yi correctly, how could anyone be here. I endured the sourness in my chest and said: "If you don't believe me, we bet! As long as you don't tell me, Song Yi will definitely not let anyone in MG know that he and Xu Zhongjin's daughter are in a boyfriend and girlfriend relationship." "Okay! What's the bet? Don't talk about whether I will accompany you or not, that's another matter." After thinking for a long time, I finally came up with something, "You are not allowed to scare me, bully me, threaten me, and return my resume to me!" "That's it?" He was very disdainful, "I have already thrown your fake resume into the shredder, and there is no document about your past work experience in the Human Resources Department. When they find out, it must be Thinking that I lost your documents through negligence, at most I will ask you to submit another one." "Huh?" I couldn't accept this fact. He sneered: "I use you to do things for me. Am I still waiting for someone like Linda to expose you and mine? Do you have any brains? How did Lin Qing teach you such a stupid apprentice?" It turned out that my anxiety and worry at that time were all superfluous. He said leisurely: "Let me tell you, I don't want to blackmail you anymore, you want to gamble again." I yelled angrily: "If you lose, cook for me for the rest of your life!" He was stunned for a moment, and looked at me blankly. I knew he was ridiculing me as a lunatic in his heart now, and I was discouraged: "I can't figure out the bet money, just tell me!" He said lightly: "This is the first time I hope that the result is that I lose. If I lose, you can make any request. If I win..." He thought for a while, "If I win, you can drink with me Go to the bar! Give me all the time to see you off!" He spoke calmly, but my heart was full of sadness. I don't even know whether I want Song Yi to win or Lu Licheng to win.Why you lose if you can't win, why you lose if you don't win, why is it a farewell after a party, why the beauty of a good day never lasts, why is it a luxury to last forever? That night, as I was sitting on my big bed, thinking about my past, present and future, someone knocked on the door, and I ran to the door and said, "Who?" "I!" Opening the door, Malatang rushed in with a small luggage: "I will sleep with you tonight." In the bathroom, she had her toothbrush, washcloth, bath towel, so I ignored her and crawled back into bed, but my mind was already in a mess. After rinsing Malatang, I ran to the kitchen to boil water, found my tea set and roses familiarly, and took out half a lemon from the refrigerator, cut it into slices, and arranged it on a white porcelain plate.After the water boiled, she soaked the roses, sat on the carpet in front of my bed with a tea tray and lemons, and patted the place beside her, "Come here." I hugged my pillow and sat down obediently. She poured two glasses of rose water and added a few drops of lemon to it. She gave me a glass and drank it myself. "Tell me! What did Lu Licheng tell you?" I stared at the slowly blooming roses in the cup: "I didn't say anything, I just introduced your father." Malatang put down the teacup, took off the towel from his head to wipe his hair, and said, "I guessed that he said that." I put the cup in the palm of my hand and turned it slowly, not only to smell the aroma of roses, but also to warm my hands. Malatang leaned down to look at me: "Tell the truth, are you angry?" "When I first heard it, I was a little surprised, a little angry, and even more surprised. Now I don't feel anything." Malatang hugged me and leaned his head on my shoulder: "I knew you couldn't bear to be angry with me." I laughed: "Bah! It's because I don't have the strength to get angry, not because I don't want to part with it." Malatang grinned, and after a while, she begged me: "Will you clean my ears?" Malatang likes me to clean her ears the most. Sometimes, when I clean her ears, she can fall asleep dizzy. I said "um", and she immediately went to the bathroom to get a cotton swab. She pushed the tea tray away and lay on my lap. I first soaked two pieces of cotton pads with lemonade and placed them on her eyes, then turned on the desk lamp, carefully separated her hair, and fixed it with clips. Started picking her ears.She lay comfortably, enjoying herself, like a lazy cat. "Manman, my father is my father, and I am me. There are two things I hate the most in my life. The first is my name, and the second is my surname. I often think, if my surname is not Xu , my name is not Lian Shuang, I may be much happier in this life. The most fortunate thing for me is to know you, you know? Before I met you, I didn’t know what laughter is. You taught me to enjoy life In the usual happiness, we can sit on the side of the road, drink a bottle of beer and laugh, and eat crayfish, so spicy that we can laugh straight away. You can take me shopping and buy a beautiful silk scarf, and you will be happy For a long time. I can tell you that before I met you, I was always wondering why God let me be born into this world. Now, I don’t care about this issue. I wish I could live forever and never remember the past. I want to forget forever, I just want to look forward, I just want to be Malatang, live heartlessly and happily, do you understand?" "I understand. I didn't care about your family's affairs before, and I won't be interested in it in the future, so you don't need to talk so much now." I told her to turn around and continued to pluck her other ear.She took off the cotton pad on one eye, squinted at me, and smiled maliciously at the corner of her mouth: "Then let's talk about something interesting. What did you and Lu Licheng do last night?" I laughed: "I did some bad things." Malatang immediately yelled "Stop", sat up and stared at me eagerly: "Does it hurt?" "It doesn't hurt." "Happy?" "Very happy!" "How happy is it, really like the book says 'I want to die'?" Malatang looked excited and curious, I laughed so much that I hugged the pillow and rolled on the carpet: "Happiness is like puffing clouds and mist." Malatang tilted his head to think about it, his face full of confusion, I rushed over, pinched her nose and called, "Sexy girl! Sexy girl! I was smoking with Lu Licheng, where did you go?" Malatang's face was full of disappointment, and he stretched out his hand to hit me: "You deliberately mislead me, is it you or me?" The two of them punched and kicked and twisted into a ball on the carpet. Tired from the beating, they both lay down on the mat and panted heavily. She drank a sip of tea and said, "I have a word, but it's just a bad word." "Say it!" "Lu Licheng is a bit of a playboy, and his thoughts are so deep that he can be compared with my father. I'm afraid you won't be able to subdue him. If you treat him a little bit more distantly, don't get involved in it all at once." "Are you teaching me how to deal with men?" I looked at her contemptuously, "I'm not an old birthday star who eats arsenic and is tired of working!" Malatang threw a cushion at me and managed to stop me from speaking rudely.I buried my head in the cushion, my heart was numb, and I said briskly: "Ma La Tang, promise me something, don't ask about me and Lu Licheng, and I don't ask about you and Song Yi, let's keep a little private space for each other .” She kicked me: "I have always given you enough personal space, since you resigned, how many times have I talked about it from beginning to end?" She let out a long breath, and said quietly, "When I was three years old, I already I know that when it comes to the relationship between a man and a woman, only you know how to feel warm and cold, and what other people say is useless." There were vicissitudes in her tone that far exceeded her age, and a sense of desolation filled the room for a moment.I sat up, smiled and said, "I'm hungry, do you want fried rice with eggs?" Malatang nodded happily: "I want to put some shrimps in it, preferably with a little carrot." Malatang's ten fingers do not touch Yangchun water. I can cook, but my cooking skills are average. Except for porridge, fried rice with eggs is very good. It is Malatang's favorite.While cracking eggs, I missed Lu Licheng's cooking skills. If this person stopped working in an investment bank and opened a restaurant, he would surely be able to make a lot of money every day. After eating, drinking, talking and laughing, all my worries were gone, I fell asleep soon, but I opened my eyes and stared at the ceiling in a daze.Lying with sore spine, I had to get up, took out the tranquilizing medicine that Lu Licheng prescribed for me, swallowed two pills, and finally fell asleep. I still feel tired when I wake up in the morning. It doesn’t feel like I just rested. This is a side effect of taking medicine to fall asleep. There is only one washbasin, so I don’t want to compete with Malatang. After she finished washing up like a war, she put on her lipstick and rushed downstairs: “I’m going to be late, so I’m leaving first. If you want to sleep, I’ll call and let you sleep. Song Yi will give you another day off." When she was gone, I got up and took a shower.If you can escape the first day of junior high school, but you can't escape the fifteenth day, you have to face it anyway.Carefully tied up her hair, put on light makeup, picked out a very solemn suit, and saw a pair of Tibetan silver skull rings in the jewelry box, which she bought at some time, and took them out, one big and one small, just one wearing a thumb, One wears an index finger. When Karen saw me, she was surprised: "Alex said you were sick." "It's almost ready." Lu Licheng and Song Yi came out of the office one after the other, and they were stunned when they saw me, but then Lu Licheng looked me up and down and laughed, but Song Yi turned pale, looked past me, and looked away . Karen walked over to Song Yi with a bunch of documents to show him, and the two were talking in a low voice. Lu Licheng walked to my table and said with a smile: "You are more courageous than I thought. I thought you would hide at home for at least three more days." I hummed and ignored him, turned on the computer by myself, and started working. When he saw the skull ring on my hand, he laughed and coughed: "Your youthful rebellion seems to come later than others." I looked up at him: "Are you in a surprisingly good mood today?" Song Yi called him at the office door: "Elliott, the time is almost up." He smiled and said, "Yes, I'm in a very good mood today." After speaking, he left the office with Song Yi. There was no sound in the office. I buried my head in my work and always felt that something was wrong. When I looked up, I saw everyone staring at me: "What's wrong?" Peter made a strange cry: "What's the matter? What's the matter? Didn't you see Elliott's expression when he talked to you just now?" My gaze went back to the monitor: "Rare is more strange! You are not so naive as to think that Elliott is also a poker face to Mike and clients, are you?" Everyone laughed, Karen said: "I testify, when he talks to Alex, he always has a big smile on his face." Peter was still muttering, but everyone ignored him. The words on the screen were sloppy and unclear. I tried several times, but I still couldn't concentrate, so I simply gave up.Facing the computer, with his hands on the keyboard, he assumed a serious working posture, but he didn't know what to think.I'm not strong. Although I'm forcing myself to be strong, I can still wear a mask in front of people, but as long as no one pays attention, the mask will break immediately. Hearing the voice of Song Yi and Karen talking, I woke up suddenly, and looked at the watch on the computer, only an hour had passed, the torment of the seconds like years was really unbearable. He got up and walked out of the office, and found a corner where no one was around to make a call. The phone rang, and Lu Licheng answered it: "What's wrong?" "I want to see you at noon, okay?" "Okay." He thought for a while and said, "Let's go to the coffee shop where we first met! It's quiet and convenient for talking." I put the phone down, lowered my head, and shuffled back. It really takes courage to walk into the office. A person came out of the office quickly, and the two bumped into each other. I was still sick, and I was a little top-heavy. At this moment, my mind was distracted, and I immediately staggered and fell backwards.The visitor grabbed my arm and tried to hold me up. "Isn't that right..." When he looked up, he saw that it was Song Yi, and subconsciously stepped back even harder, trying to break free from him. My reaction caused pain to flash in his eyes, his body froze suddenly, and he unknowingly let go of his hands. I was already retreating, but at this moment I lost traction, my center of gravity fell backwards, and I fell heavily to the ground. He wanted to stretch out his hand to help, but he stopped halfway, just looking at me, with struggle and pain in his black eyes.My heart was struggling with pain, but I could only force myself to turn a blind eye, turned my head, stood up, and limped past him into the office without saying a word. When I arrived at the coffee shop at noon, Lu Licheng was already there, sitting in the seat where we sat when we first met. Seeing me limping, he smiled: "Your old injury hasn't healed yet, why did you get a new injury?" I sat across from him and said eagerly: "Please, please promise me one thing. Please help me change a department, I can go anywhere." He took a sip of his coffee and said lightly, "Okay, I'm just short of people at the end of the year." I was relieved: "Thank you! Thank you!" He was drinking coffee and eating a sandwich in silence. The waiter came over and asked me what I wanted. I pointed to what Lu Licheng ordered and said absently, "Same as him." His eyes turned out of the window unconsciously, but he happened to see the figure of the person he was most familiar with, wearing a black coat, coming out of the glass door, with his head half down, looking preoccupied, with vague sadness condensed in the figure. Although seeing him, I feel heartache, but I can't bear to look away. I never thought that one day, even seeing him would become a luxury, but now, in this corner that no one knows, I can still gaze at him. him! Lu Licheng's voice suddenly sounded: "You came here last time to see him?" I was startled, and subconsciously wanted to deny it: "I don't understand what you're talking about..." But I woke up immediately.He has seen too many of my scandals, and knows too many of my secrets, denying him is just superfluous. The waiter brought my coffee and sandwich, and I started eating with my head down, avoiding the embarrassment of speaking. Lu Licheng looked at me silently, I looked up at him, but his eyes suddenly moved away, as if avoiding me.I was surprised that this was not his character, but he looked at me again, with a hint of sneer in his eyes, and said, "I will transfer you here as soon as possible." I know he's laughing at me for trying so hard to get close to Song Yi, but now I'm trying so hard to stay away from him, it's really ironic. "thanks!" I called the waiter to check out: "I'll pay the bill!" Lu Licheng didn't argue with me, he pointed to the sandwich I only took a few bites to the waiter: "Pack it up." I wanted to object, but before I could speak, he said, "Just because you're not hungry now doesn't mean you won't be hungry in a while." Numerous practical experiences have proved that I lost the result of my dispute with Lu Licheng, so I decided to silently accept his decision. Lu Licheng was very efficient. The next day, I was notified and was seconded to his department.When tidying up the desk, Peter and the others came to help, said goodbye to me, and said happily: "See you next year!" The New Year is approaching, and everyone is in a very good mood. From the time I packed up until I left, Song Yi was in the office all the time, there was no usual farewell, no polite goodbye, from the beginning to the end, he didn't say a word on this matter. After sitting down at the new table, Young came over to talk to me, thinking of a few months ago, it was like a dream, and after a long circle, I went back to the same place.However, it was a longing full of hope at that time, but now it is an escape full of despair. Being sad, Helen came in and told us to go to a meeting. Lu Licheng said that there was a shortage of manpower, and indeed there was a shortage of manpower. When they came out of the conference room, everyone looked serious, and they were in no mood to joke.If you don't go all out, I'm afraid this year's Spring Festival will be uncomfortable, so everyone would rather suffer a little bit now, and have a good rest in the new year. The heavy workload leaves me no time to be sad, and I feel busy, busy, busy every day! At night, I often work overtime until late at night, but there is no one on the other side of the computer to accompany me. I haven't been on MSN for so long that I've even deleted its shortcut from my desktop. On the weekend night, after finishing the analysis form at hand, it was still early, so I stared at the display screen for a while, and for some reason, I clicked on MSN.Maybe it's because this kind of night is too lonely, the missing is like a shadow, there is nowhere to escape, it makes me want to read what he said; maybe it's because it's only past ten o'clock, as a person with a girlfriend, he can't show up on the Internet.So, I boldly indulged my thoughts with confidence. Unexpectedly, his avatar turned on, and a dialog box popped up: "I thought you would never log in again." It was as if I saw him suddenly in reality. I was at a loss and just wanted to run away, so I clicked on the fork immediately and closed MSN.But after a while, I couldn't control myself again, and logged in to MSN again, but this time, I chose to display as offline. He didn't send me any more messages, but his avatar was always on.I stared at his head, as if staring at his back.I always have to be behind him before I can look at him with confidence.In the future, we will inevitably continue to deal with each other. Should I just avoid him like this forever? I turned my avatar back to bright, showing that I was online: "Sorry, just logged in, the computer suddenly crashed, and I was disconnected." "It doesn't matter." I smiled at the computer screen, what a polite conversation! He asked me: "How are you lately?" "Very good! Thanks to Lu Licheng, I don't even have time to connect to the phone, and I don't have much time to think too much." I knew what he was asking tactfully, so I also tactfully told him the answer he wanted to hear. After a long time, he said, "I'm sorry, I didn't know you and Lian Shuang were good friends." "What does that have to do with whether we're friends?" "I didn't know how to face you, so I fled to Singapore." No!What I need is not an explanation!I bit my lip and typed on the keyboard: "If you really feel sorry, I want to ask you a question." "You ask." "Have you ever liked me?" There was a dead silence on the computer screen, and I continued to ask unwillingly: "Have you ever really liked me? Even just a little bit." There is still no reply, I lie on the table with a wry smile, and type one letter after another: "You don't have to be embarrassed, I think you have already told me the answer. Anyway, thank you, you gave me the most beautiful, The happiest dream, although I have nothing after waking up from the dream, but in the dream, I was extremely happy!" I click close, log out of MSN, and shut down the computer. I walked to the window and opened the curtains. There were thousands of lights in front of my eyes, but I was alone.I took my mobile phone and wanted to talk to someone, but I didn't know who to call. I couldn't confide my thoughts to the only friend I could confide in.I can only fiddle with the phone and play the ringtone for myself. The wind blows fiercely in the field, ignoring the pain of people, as if it wants to empty everything out.Although the past is dusty, the old fireworks are like neon lights tonight.Maybe in a certain time and space, a certain fallen dream has been secretly left in my heart for several lifetimes.Waiting for a turn of the mind, waiting for a surge of love, and meeting you in another life.Who can be indifferent, like the unchanging sky... It's useless not to think about it, if the tide of emotion is surging, who can calmly let go of the trace of love easily.Like the turbulence of the waves, like the melting of ice and snow, my heart only cares about swaying secretly, but the past life is far away, and the next life has not been seen yet. If the love is deep, who can care about the pain... Tonight, the city neon lights are shining, I stand in front of the window, and I will go through it again and again. Play songs on your phone over and over again until the battery runs out.