Chapter 21 Twenty, broken palm

Chen Jianxia's house is not big, 40 square meters. Originally, there were only two bedrooms. Her parents lived in the older one, and she and her younger brother lived in a small room.It was fine when I was young, and it became more and more inconvenient for the siblings to live together after they grew up. There was once an embarrassing incident where the younger brother pointed at the menstrual blood that she accidentally rubbed on the bed sheet and laughed. In the past six months when she was preparing for the exam, she worked harder. She often had to drive the night train until one or two in the morning, but her younger brother was afraid of the light and couldn't sleep. The siblings often quarreled over such things.Although my mother has always been partial to helping my younger brother, she didn't want to go too far in the entrance exam, especially after being praised and raised by the head teacher a few times at the parent meeting preparing for the exam, she reaped the sweetness. Seeing Chen Jianxia's eyes gradually became like looking at Jin who was flapping his wings. Phoenix, although he still had some doubts.

The dispute between the siblings intensified, so Dad carved out a space by the dining table and bought a small desk for her to sit outside and read. In the small and crowded old house, surrounded by the old wallpaper that was somewhat smoky, there was a dazzling new desk.So night after night, Chen Jianxia kept a small orange desk lamp, listened to the sound of her parents snoring one after another from the crack of the bedroom door, and immersed herself in writing each paper; sometimes she studied too late, and simply slept in a blanket On the sofa in the living room. Although the younger brother is stubborn and lively, his nerves are very fragile, and the slightest noise can make him toss and turn.And the strange thing is that he is immune to his parents' rumbling snoring, Chen Jianxia accidentally pushed the leg of a chair in the living room and slipped on the floor, but it could wake him up immediately.

The most serious quarrel broke out between the siblings was during her senior high school entrance examination year.My younger brother is thirteen years old, in adolescence, and has a very bad temper. One night, Chen Jianxia accidentally knocked over the pencil case on the table, and the pen spilled all over the floor. push away. "Sister, can you let me sleep!" She had a good temper at first, she apologized and coaxed him, and she was almost done, the sleepy-eyed parents entered the living room, and once the atmosphere returned to before liberation, her younger brother was pissed off.

The meaning behind the words is that my sister deliberately does something every day, just to make the whole family revolve around her.Is the high school entrance examination amazing? Chen Jianxia had already felt that his brother was jealous.It has been a long time since the younger brother who always had the upper hand rode over the head of his older sister. Although the small desk in the living room is small, it is modular, with drawers and simple bookshelves painted in milky white.The younger brother looked at it greedily, and he clamored for it as soon as he bought it, but he couldn't fit it in the small room.What's more, he kicked his sister out of the room by himself, so it didn't make sense to occupy a new desk that he didn't need at all.

This table seems to have a mysterious attraction, making my younger brother stay in the living room until later and later, laughing at the TV show, the tighter Chen Jianxia frowned, the happier he is, and every time his father has to come to catch up in person. Reluctantly went back to the room to sleep. "You won't be allowed to watch TV, and you won't be allowed to sleep. Why! They say you don't want me anymore. The eldest aunt and the second uncle both say that. A sister is enough. What do you want me for? What do you want me for?" In the middle of the night, my younger brother cried heart-rendingly. He was almost a 13-year-old boy, and his voice was rough and piercing when he was changing his voice. Chen Jianxia's temples twitched in shock.

My mother hugged my younger brother and her eyes were red, coaxing and patting her brother in a hurry; my father stood aside, a little impatient, but his expression was also gentle. Chen Jianxia didn't explain anything. This is not even a misunderstanding, she just dropped the pencil case, and she doesn't know why the turbulent undercurrent poured out of the open pencil case. At the beginning, in order to fight for the house of the grandfather's house, their family and the second uncle's family had a lot of slobbering lawsuits, and it was common to provoke each other. Who knew that my aunt's broken mouth really hit my brother's heart this time.

Chen Jianxia tried hard, but couldn't shed any tears of sympathy.Parents have been biased since the younger brother was born, and she is used to it, and she can't even brew the feeling of grievance. She looked coldly at the crying mother and child in the living room, then sat back at the desk, lowered her head and continued to read.The lamp light separated them into two worlds, and she didn't want to care about the family over there. After a while, the crying faded away, but there was the sound of kicking footsteps, rushing over quickly.Chen Jianxia didn't even have time to raise his head when his younger brother stretched out his arm and brushed the pencil case, papers, calculation paper, etc. on the table to the ground.

Chen Jianxia stood up, his younger brother stomped the paper on the floor, raised his head and was about to say something when Chen Jianxia slapped him over the face. The mother immediately went crazy, rushed over to help her brother up and pushed Chen Jianxia to the wall behind her.Chen Jianxia had expected her to be like this, so he stood firmly.Mom was even more unhappy because of this, and raised her arms to slap her back, but was stopped by Dad from behind. She just stood by the wall, watching them silently and coldly, so that the mother's excited teeth and claws, the tugging between parents, the heart-piercing cry of her younger brother... everything looked like a silent movie in slow motion, Ridiculously clear.

Chen Jianxia believed that his brother's face was in pain.Because she hit hard. When she was a child, her mother was superstitious and liked to study palmistry and face reading. When she saw Chen Jianxia's right hand, she said that she had broken her palm with horizontal lines, and that she had beaten people to death, and her relatives did not recognize her. She remembered the disgusted look of her mother when she hugged her younger brother and said that she didn't recognize her six relatives.At that time, she really believed it, feeling inferior because of a natural horizontal stripe, hugged her mother and said that she recognized it, she definitely recognized it.

But what do you want to admit?It was they who did not recognize her. Dad pulled Chen Jianxia to sit on the sofa, turned around and continued to persuade his mother and brother.The noisy quarrel lasted until more than three o'clock in the middle of the night, until my brother was tired from crying and really sleepy. The mother was full of energy, coaxed the younger brother to sleep, closed the door of the small room, sat on the sofa with the father, and questioned Chen Jianxia in a low voice.There are only a few words in the training: the six relatives don't recognize it, there is no taste, no matter how good the study is, what's the use!

Yes, what's the use of studying well.Chen Jianxia told himself silently that after being admitted to the county No. 1 middle school, he must go to live on campus, even if it was just for a separate desk. Mom was also tired of scolding, Chen Jianxia could finally go to bed.Before going to bed, she squatted on the ground to tidy up the broken pens and papers, climbed into bed and fell asleep quickly, and the night passed. The next day, there was still some awkwardness between the family members. My mother stared at her, my father also looked unhappy, and my brother kicked her before dinner.On the third day, I was able to speak normally. On the fourth day, my younger brother started to piss her off in the living room. On the fifth day, my parents were concerned about her grades and mock test results. ... That's how things turned around.Chen Jianxia recalled, those actions, words, the light in the room...all had a strong sense of isolation, like a movie that had nothing to do with her. As a family, there is no need to explain everything so clearly. Anyway, we have to continue to live, no matter who is right and who is wrong, just reconcile. In short, we will not hold grudges like Yu Sisi and kill them all. When there is no emotion between people, it is reasonable. But when Chen Jianxia was sitting on the toilet, resting his chin and meditating, he couldn't help but feel very confused. Yes, they are all reconciled.When the younger brother sees her again, he will still be ashamed and shameless, relying on her, and will not go around her because of a slap in the face; the mother did not really treat her as a scourge that her six relatives do not recognize; Knowing right from wrong, and not remembering the process afterward, gradually changed her and turned her into the Chen Jianxia she is today. What used to be the light of a lamp is now a door.There is the same roof above their heads, but there is still a gap between them who live below.