Chapter 10 9. Truly sad

The military training is finally over. There are no test rooms and no separate seats for the test.Class teacher Yu Dan said with a smile, I believe in everyone. Of course she would believe it.What can be more important than pride for the students who are admitted to Zhenhua Class 1. When the physics paper was halfway through, Chen Jianxia suddenly raised his eyes for no reason as if God had tapped his forehead. Her eyes shifted from the red school motto on the blackboard, "Diligence and Encouragement, Rigorous and Realistic", to the whole classroom.Everyone lowered their heads, regardless of beauty or ugliness, they all emitted a kind of light when they were concentrating on the questions.

This is Zhenhua.You have left your hometown, the first department store that only has KFC, and all the people who don’t understand you, including your parents, and your younger brother who will never be compared to you. At that moment, all the worries and fears about the test results disappeared, at least for a moment. Even if it took away Chen Jianxia's sense of superiority for many years, even if it didn't kindly give her a "good start". Chen Jianxia has never realized so clearly that no matter how difficult the future is, everything is worth it. Student Chen Jianxia, ​​ranked 16th in the whole school year.The fourth place in the class.

Her English score was the highest in the whole year, 119.5, only a question was wrong in cloze.Chen Jianxia's spoken language is not outstanding, but this does not prevent her from being able to distinguish all verb forms that are connected with at on in with.When the English teacher asked "Who is Chen Jianxia" in front of the whole class, she looked up at the teacher shyly, knowing in her heart that the word Chen Jianxia was finally no longer the same as "the foreign student who fainted during military training and was carried back by the monitor." "Connected together.

Jianxia suddenly felt that every floor tile in the Zhenhua corridor looked very cute, and the blackboard was also horizontal and vertical. Of course, if she knew that there was a student named Li Ran in Class 14, when she heard the English teacher in her class mention that the highest scorer was named Chen Jianxia, ​​she laughed and slapped the table and said, "I tremble when I speak Chinese, but I dare to speak English." "—Maybe she won't be in a hurry to spread so much love for Zhenhua. Jianxia's tablemate Yu Zhouzhou scored less than ten points higher than her, ranking third in the class.Jian Xia was very satisfied with the result: the opponent was stronger than herself, and only a little bit stronger, both parties should feel very happy.

Of course, when the thought of this mother-in-law flashed across her mind, she couldn't help but took out a piece of calculation paper and wrote on it over and over again, Chen Jianxia, ​​you are so pathetic. In the dormitory that night, Jian Xia made her first phone call to her family. Except that when she reported for duty on the first day, she called her family to report that she was safe, and a whole week later, she was busy studying and never contacted her family again.And the family never called her. Seeing that Xia had recovered from the panic caused by the preliminary examination, he felt strange.I panicked, studying in the dark, and not contacting my family often, which is understandable, but after all, it was the first time for her to go to a boarding school in another place. Did her parents feel too relieved of her?

Jian Xia took out the PHS that his father eliminated.The phone's orange screen lit up, and a corner of the silver-white body was damaged, but the cost can still go through the reimbursement process of my father's unit, which is really a good deal. "Hello, Mom?" "Sister? Is that you?" "Well, it's me." Hearing his younger brother's cheerful voice, Jian Xia also smiled when he answered, "Where are my parents?" "The two of them went out for a walk. Sis, is the provincial capital fun?" "It's not like you haven't been to the provincial capital. Besides, I go to school every day, where can I go to play?"

"You learned it last week, and you didn't go out to play last weekend?" last weekend.Jian Xia sighed.What can she do?She has no money. What's more, she just finished the preliminary exam, but she didn't breathe a sigh of relief.Even though Chen Jianxia attached great importance to this exam, she knew very well in her heart that this was just a battle of face, and the real tough battle came later. Yu Sisi downplayed it, but every word she said in the infirmary was imprinted in Jian Xia's heart.How could she take this group of monsters so familiar with the sophomore class by heart.

"Have you studied hard? Is it time for school to start next week? Are you divided into classes? What does the head teacher teach?" "Oh, why are you so annoying, worry about your own business." The younger brother was so anxious that he hung up the phone directly. Jian Xia stared blankly at the phone.She hasn't had time to announce the good news, the brat. After thinking about it, she didn't continue to call her parents' mobile phones.Anyway, after they got home at night and heard that they had called, they should have called back. But no. Seeing Xia angrily lying on the bed tossing and turning, she decided not to call home again.

I have been reading for many days in a row until I was drowsy before I climbed into bed. Tonight, no matter what, I can finally sleep well.After all, the result of her passing the preliminary examination gave her a little bit of confidence in her position in the first class and even in Zhenhua, so she didn't have to toss and turn anxiously. Really relaxed, but can't sleep. Chen Jianxia once again remembered the line written by himself: "Chen Jianxia, ​​you are so pathetic." In the afternoons of the past few days, whenever the quiet self-study atmosphere began to erode Jianxia's psychological defense with an invisible sense of oppression, she would tear off a piece of calculation paper and fill it up, then roll it into a ball, unfold it, and tear it into pieces , Throw it into the trash bag, so the mood will be calmer.

The tablemate Yu Zhouzhou will always turn a blind eye to all her abnormal behaviors, thank God.On the contrary, Lu Linlin in the front row is often very concerned about her every move. Every time she is in a ball of paper, Lu Linlin will turn to look at her sideways, her glasses slipping slightly down the bridge of her nose, she looks a bit like a dean in her forties. However, in the self-study class, no matter how ridiculous and pathetic she demeaned herself on the white paper, it looked like a kind of mechanical labor.At this moment, lying on the bed full of grievances, Chen Jianxia finally understood the meaning of this sentence.

She is alone, in the provincial capital, facing a oppressive environment that cannibalize people, she is nervous, she is afraid, this is not sad. What is really sad is that she is holding a mobile phone, and even the address book on this mobile phone is blank. All she can recite is the home phone number and the mobile phone number of her parents. However, these three numbers have never taken the initiative to call. . She is not sad when she is too ambitious to be sad; she is sad when she has gained a little joy and wants to share it with others. Chen Jianxia looked up at the ceiling, and suddenly felt that the four walls of this small dormitory were about to press down on him, which was unimaginably terrifying. She sat up abruptly. Zhenhua is in the city center, and it is 7:30 on a Monday night.Why doesn't she go out to play!