Chapter 13 Chapter 12 I owe a little love debt

I opened the door, and Jiao Niang walked in straight away, sitting on my bed, looking at the corner of the wall, her mature breasts were violently undulating under the long-sleeved tight-fitting shirt, and her plump and slender thighs were tightly wrapped in jeans , looks very sexy.When we drove back to the village in the city with me, she was not wearing this dress. She changed it after she came back and came to me. I asked, "How do you know I live here?" "I knew it all along," she said, a blush on her cheeks, fingers crossed between her legs, looking coy. However, I never knew when she started following me, and I didn't know her purpose of following me.If it was to guard against me at the beginning, she would definitely not tell me that she followed me.Also, this dawn, this quiet dawn, when everyone else is soundly asleep, why did she come to my room?

At that time, I was a fool, and I was suppressed by a heavy life for a long time, which had extinguished the flame of love and desire in my heart like water.I am walking at the lowest level of life, running around for food and clothing. I believe that no woman will fall in love with such a man. I asked her, "What's the matter with you? What happened?" She shyly said: "My family wants me to get married, what should I do?" She glanced at me quickly, then moved her eyes to the corner of the wall. I said ignorantly, "Okay, getting married is a good thing." She said in a low voice: "What a good thing, I don't want to get married so soon."

I asked, "Who is the other party?" She said that the young man and she were born in a village, grew up together, went to school together, graduated from junior high school together, and they got engaged a few years ago.Later, when she came out to work, the other party planted tea at home.Yesterday, she met her aunt, who told her that her mother asked her to go home and get married next month. I said, "That's great." She said: "After getting married, I can't go out, but I don't want to go back, I don't want to go back to that remote village, I want to stay in the city."

At that time, I enlightened and comforted her like a persuasive teacher, and I said: "Now you have reached the age of marriage, and it is time to get married. You two are childhood sweethearts and childhood sweethearts. How wonderful it would be for the two of you to live together after marriage." She gouged me with her eyes and asked, "Then why don't you get married?" I smiled wryly and said, "I'm so poor, I live in this ghost place, and my monthly income can barely support me, which girl would marry me." She lowered her head and said in an extremely small voice, "If someone wants to?"

I laughed and said, "No one will." I took out a box of yellow and red plums from my pocket, and took out one. This is the cigarette I often smoke.Seeing that I wanted to smoke, Jiaoniang took out a box of Yuxi from Xiaokun's bag and stuffed it into my hand. She said, "I bought it for you a long time ago, and I always wanted to give it to you... This is real cigarettes." I said, "This cigarette is very expensive. It costs 20 yuan. Why do you buy such expensive cigarettes?" She didn't pick up my topic, she seemed to be talking to herself: "I have worked part-time all these years, and I have saved 100,000 yuan. Whoever I marry will not cause trouble to anyone. I want to open a cosmetics store, It will definitely make money. I won’t work here once I get married, and I want to do a serious business.”

I said sincerely: "You are very kind and capable. Your boyfriend must be very happy to marry you. I wish you all in advance." She suddenly stopped talking and sat coldly, the scene looked very awkward.I said: "This Yuxi cigarette is really good to smoke, and the taste is very good." She didn't say a word.I said again: "Today is another good weather." She still didn't speak.I had nothing to say and said: "It's this season, and the weather is still so hot, I can't think of it." She turned her head away. When people have nothing to say, they will talk about the weather.I talked about today's temperature boringly, and the sun that will come out in a while...

She interrupted me angrily and said, "It's going to rain today!" She stood up and walked to the door. I foolishly said: "How come? Look at the sky." She didn't look at the sky, she only looked at the ground, and walked resolutely through the corridor, down the steps, and out of the building with a "thump, thump, thump". After that morning, when Jiao Niang saw me again, she stopped talking to me and always had a sullen face.I also felt very embarrassed and didn't know how to coax her to make her happy. Now, I understand that she is actually professing her love to me.But at that time, I was chaotic and dull, and I never thought that there would be love between me and her.I was in my late teens at the time, penniless and down and out; while she was only in her early twenties, capable and capable, and had accumulated an astronomical 100,000 yuan for me.

I don't have any unreasonable thoughts about her, she is like a delicate porcelain, I hold it in both hands, and I am afraid that if I force it hard, it will crush her.Although she is mature, lively, and sexy, what does any of that have to do with me? There is still the last trace of innocence and love in that era, but today, a lot of love has almost blended with sensuality, and it is only one step away from the bed, often in a few minutes to cover the distance that could only be covered in the past few years. One night a few days later, I walked into the counterfeit cigarette workshop, but I didn’t see Jiao Niang. They said that Jiao Niang had left and went home to get married.

I was very calm at the time, and I took it for granted that Jiao Niang would be happy.Because of their childhood sweethearts, all the literary works are exaggerating childhood sweethearts, saying that this kind of love is perfect.I was even happy for Jiao Niang at the time. Now, when I type this text in front of the computer, my heart is full of bitterness. I don’t know whether Jiaoniang’s life has been happy these years. At first she was unwilling to go back to the village, but in the end she was forced to go back to the village. Did she restrain herself? Willful, are you satisfied with the kind of life where the sun rises and the sun sets.What is she doing now, in this quiet night?Will she still think of me occasionally the way I think of her?

I was even thinking about what our life would be like today if we had agreed to Jiao Niang back then.I suddenly feel very sorry. In those few days, another incident happened. The painter went to Tibet. He sold all his so-called family property, and only then did he scrape together enough money to buy a discounted air ticket.I asked: "You went there and didn't have a penny, how did you live?" The painter said: "If you die, you will be born again. There is no end to the road." For painters, Tibet is a holy land, and those unpolluted landscapes can be put into the canvas if they just cut off a piece.These landscapes fascinate people living in industrial pollution and high-rise buildings. The painter may succeed in Tibet.

Later, he really succeeded. As always, the thinker walks through the schools and factories to persuade people to accept his ideas of rebuilding faith.He is like Confucius who traveled around the world back then.Like Confucius, he repeatedly bumped into a wall and was terribly battered.The difference is that Confucius had seventy-two disciples following him, but he fought alone. He was rejected by one school after another, and the schools were all pursuing the rate of enrollment, and no one would take the time to listen to the views of thinkers.The security guards from one factory to another turned him away. They thought that this young man full of loyalty, filial piety and etiquette had something wrong with his mind.In this era when money can turn ghosts, fools will give up money and pick up faith. The emotion of failure accompanies the thinker like a shadow.