Chapter 43 Forty-third time between life and death

Li Xunhuan was carving wood. The little girl in red had been staring at him obsessively, and suddenly asked, "What are you carving?" Li Xun Huan smiled and said, "Can't you see?" The little girl said: "It seems to me that you want to carve a portrait of a person, but why don't you finish it every time? It's also so that I can see if the person you sculpt is pretty." Li Xun Huan's smile disappeared and he coughed continuously. Because he didn't want to be seen who he was carving, he never finished the statue every time. Although he could also carve another person's statue, his hands seemed not to listen to him. It's not her, but the silhouette carved out looks like her!

Because he couldn't think of her. It was getting dark outside the window. The little girl lit up the lamp, suddenly smiled and said, "Have you not drunk today?" Li Xun Huan said: "Yes." The little girl said, "You don't want to drink?" Li Xun Huan smiled lightly, "It's okay to be awake for a day by chance." The little girl blinked and said with a smile: "I think you'd better drink some wine. If you don't drink for a day, your hands will shake." Li Xun Huan's smile suddenly disappeared again, and he slowly raised his hand, the blade in his hand was emitting a faint blue light under the light, and the light was flickering.

"Are my hands really shaking?" Li Xun Huan's heart sank gradually. He was afraid that one day, if he didn't drink alcohol, his hands would shake. How could a trembling hand throw a deadly throwing knife? He gripped the handle of the knife so hard that his knuckles turned white from the force. But the blue light on the blade is still flashing. Li Xunhuan suddenly felt that this hand was heavier than lead, and he couldn't even lift it. He slowly lowered his hands, looked at the sky outside the window, and asked, "What day is today?" The little girl said: "September 30th, tomorrow is the first day of junior high school."

Li Xun Huan slowly closed his eyes, opened them again after a while, and said, "Where is Mr. Guo?" The little girl said: "He said he was going to the town for a walk." She smiled sweetly, and continued: "If you want to drink, why do you have to wait for him? Can't I drink with you?" Li Xun Huan forced a smile and said, "It's too early for you to start drinking now." The little girl smiled and said, "Since you always have to drink sooner or later, it's better to drink earlier." Li Xun Huan looked down at the blade in his hand, and suddenly carved a knife with force.

He carved very quickly, and the portrait that was about to become was completed very quickly. The delicate outline and straight nose still looked so young. But what about people?People are old. When people are in sorrow, they always age very quickly. Li Xun Huan stared at the portrait obsessively, he couldn't bear to look away, because he knew that from now on, he would never see her again. Suddenly someone said: "This portrait is so beautiful, who is it? Is it your lover?" The little girl had already returned, holding a plate in her hand, and she had arrived behind him at some point.

Li Xun Huan forced a smile, hid the portrait in his sleeve, and said, "I don't know who she is, maybe it's a fairy from the sky..." The little girl blinked, shook her head and said: "You lied to me, the fairies in the sky are very happy, but she looks so sad..." Li Xun Huan said: "Since there are many happy people on earth, why can't there be sad fairies in the sky?" The little girl said: "But you are not happy, because you like her but can't get her, am I right?" Li Xun Huan's expression changed, and his heart sank. The little girl smiled and said: "You don't need to hide it from me anymore, I know that I guessed right just by looking at your face."

Li Xun Huan smiled wryly, "That was a long, long time ago." The little girl said: "Since it happened a long time ago, why can't you forget her until now?" Li Xun Huan was silent for a long time, and said sadly: "When you live to my age, you will know that the person you most want to forget is also the one you will never forget!..." The little girl nodded slowly, slowly savoring the taste of his two words, she seemed a little crazy, and even forgot to put down the plate in her hand. After a long time, she sighed faintly and said, "Others say you are cold and heartless, but you are not that kind of person."

Li Xun Huan said, "What kind of person do you think I am?" The little girl said: "I see that you are both sentimental and sentimental. You are an out-and-out passionate seed. If you really like a woman, you are really a blessing for that woman." Li Xun Huan smiled and said: "Maybe it's because I haven't drunk yet, after I drink, I will become numb." The little girl also smiled, and said: "Then I'd better drink some wine quickly, I also want to become numb and avoid distress." She suddenly picked up the jug on the plate and drank half of it.

The younger you are, the faster you drink, because drinking also requires courage. The more courageous the person, the faster he will naturally get drunk. The little girl's face was as red as a peach blossom, she stared at Li Xun Huan suddenly and said, "I know your name is Li Xun Huan, but do you know my name?" Li Xun Huan said: "You didn't tell me, how would I know?" The little girl said: "You didn't ask me, why should I say that?" She bit her lip and continued slowly: "Not only did you not ask my name, you also didn't ask me who I am, how could I stay here alone, and where did the others go... You didn't ask anything , Do you think you are dying, so you don't want to know anything?"

Li Xun Huan smiled and said, "You're drunk, the girl is drunk, you better go to bed quickly." The little girl said: "You don't want to hear it, do you? I just want to tell you that I don't have a father or a mother, so I don't know what my surname is. The lady bought me five years ago, so my surname is Lin. Miss likes to call me 'Lingling', so I am called Lin Lingling..." She giggled, and then said: "Lin Lingling, do you think this name is good? It's like a bell. When someone rings it, I will ring 'Lin Lingling'. If others don't ring it, I can't ring it."

Li Xun Huan sighed, only then did he realize that this little girl also had a bitter past, and she was not as happy as she appeared on the surface. "Why can't I always meet a really happy person?" Lingling said: "Do you know why I stay here alone, it doesn't matter if I tell you, the lady told me to stay here because she wants me to watch you, and try to make you drink and make your hands tremble every day, she said As soon as your hands start shaking, you won't live long." She glared at Li Xun Huan, as if she was waiting for him to lose his temper. But Li Xun Huan just smiled lightly, and said: "Ten years ago, someone said that I was going to die, but I'm still alive, don't you think it's strange?" Lingling stared and said, "I told you that I was hurting you, why didn't you scold me?" Li Xun Huan said: "Why should I scold you, you are just a little bell." He sighed and continued: "Everyone living in this world will inevitably be someone else's bell. You are someone else's bell, so why not me? The person who rings the bell may have a rope on his body that is held by others." .” Lingling stared at him for a long time, then suddenly let out a long sigh, and said, "I just now realize that you are really nice, why does Miss want you to die?" Li Xun Huan said with a faint smile, "Those who want others to die will die sooner or later." Lingling said: "But when some people die, everyone will feel very happy, and when some people die, everyone will inevitably cry..." She lowered her head and continued quietly: "If you die, I might cry too." Li Xun Huan said with a smile: "Because we are already friends...at least we have known each other for many days." Lingling shook her head and said, "That's not necessarily true. I've known that Mr. Guo much longer than you. If he died, I would never shed a tear!" She smiled to herself, and added: "Because if I die, he will never cry." Li Xun Huan said: "Do you think his heart is hard?" Lingling curled her lips and said, "Maybe he doesn't have a heart at all." Li Xun Huan said: "If you really think that way, you are wrong. Although some people appear to be cruel on the surface, they are actually bloody and loyal friends. The more unwilling to reveal their true feelings, his Emotions tend to be more sincere." He seemed to have a lot of emotions in his heart, but he didn't realize that Guo Songyang had been standing outside the door for a long time—he is indeed not a person who is easily moved. At this moment, he was still standing quietly behind the door, with no expression on his face. The sun illuminated the earth early. Li Xun Huan woke up earlier, he almost never fell asleep at all. Before dawn, he had taken a shower with cold water, washed his beard and hair, and changed into a set of green cloth clothes he bought from the town three days ago. He was neither fat nor thin, so that although he had bought a rough ready-made suit, it fitted him well. Now, facing the sunlight outside the window, he feels much better. If a person is clean, his spirit will naturally be much better. He must make himself clean and his spirit better. Because today is a very special day. Tonight, he may no longer live in this world, but since he was clean when he was alive, he must die clean when he dies! In today's battle, his chances of winning are not great. His chances of surviving are really very small, but as long as there is still a glimmer of hope, he will never give up! He is not afraid of death, but he is also unwilling to die under a pair of dirty hands. The sun is shining brightly and the maple leaves are bright red. It's not too bad to be alive after all. He tied up his hair with a blue cloth and was about to shave. Suddenly someone said: "Your hair is still so messy, how can you meet a beautiful woman? Let me comb it for you again." Lingling walked in at some point, her eyes were red, as if she hadn't woken up from a night of drinking, and she seemed to have cried secretly last night. Li Xun Huan nodded with a smile, and sat down on the wooden chair in front of the window, the sun just shone on his face, he felt it was very dazzling, so he closed his eyelids. Then, he suddenly remembered what happened more than ten years ago. That day, the weather was as clear as today, and the chrysanthemums outside the window were in full bloom. He was sitting in front of the window of the small building, and someone was combing his hair. Until now, he still seems to be able to feel the care and tenderness of those hands. That day, he was also preparing to leave for a long journey, so she combed very slowly. She combed slowly, as if she wanted to keep him, and it would be good to stay a little longer. When she combed to the end, her tears couldn't help dripping on his hair. When he came back from that trip, he encountered a strong enemy and almost died. Thanks to Long Xiaoyun for saving him, this is something he will never forget. But he forgot that although Long Xiaoyun saved him once, he ruined his life—why do some people always only remember the good of others? Li Xun Huan closed his eyes and smiled wryly: "I finally went back after I left that day. After I left today, can I come back alive? Wouldn't it be much better if I didn't return that time..." He didn't want to think about it anymore, slowly opened his eyelids, and suddenly felt the hands that were combing his hair now, she was combing so slowly and gently. He couldn't help turning his head, and found that a crystal teardrop was also streaming down Lingling's face, and finally dripped on his hair. The same gentle hand, the same crystal clear tears. Li Xun Huan seemed to have returned to the sunny morning more than ten years ago, he held her hand in a trance, and said softly, "Are you crying?" Lingling blushed, turned her head, bit her lip and said, "I know your date is today, that's why you are dressed so beautifully, isn't it?" Li Xun Huan didn't speak, because he had already realized that these hands were not the hands of ten years ago, and the time of ten years ago would never come back. Lingling continued quietly: "You are going to meet your beauty, of course I feel uncomfortable." Li Xun Huan slowly put down her hand, forced a smile, and said, "You are still a child, you still don't understand what it is like to be uncomfortable." Lingling said: "Maybe I didn't understand it before, but now I understand it, maybe I didn't understand it yesterday, but I understand it today." Li Xun Huan said with a smile: "Did you grow up in one day?" Lingling said: "Of course, some people grow old so old that their hair turns completely white overnight. Haven't you heard of this story?" Li Xun Huan said: "He is worried about his own life and death, why are you?" Lingling lowered her head and said sadly, "I'm here for you... If you go today, will you come back?" Li Xun Huan was silent for a long time before he let out a long sigh and said, "You already know who I'm going to meet today?" Lingling nodded heavily, tied his hair into a bunch, tied it up with the blue cloth belt, and said slowly: "I know you must go no matter what, no one can keep you. " Li Xun Huan said softly: "When you grow up, you will know that there are some things you must do, and there is no room for choice." Lingling said: "But if I were the person you made a statue for her last night, you would have stayed for me, wouldn't you?" Li Xun Huan was silent for a long time, his face gradually showed pain, he muttered: "I didn't stay for her... I never did anything for her, I..." He suddenly stood up, looked out of the window, and said: "It's getting late, I should go..." Before finishing this sentence, Guo Songyang walked in and said loudly: "I just came back, are you leaving?" He was holding a bottle of wine in his hand, his drunk eyes were slanted and his steps were a little unsteady, before he entered the room, the smell of alcohol was already lingering in his nostrils. Li Xun Huan said with a smile: "Brother Guo actually had a long night of drinking with people in the town at night, why didn't you come to inform me?" Guo Songyang laughed and said: "Sometimes it's good for two people to drink together, but if there is one more person, it will be too crowded." He suddenly lowered his voice, put one hand on Li Xun Huan's shoulder, and whispered, "You should know what my little brother likes to do when he's in a bad mood." Li Xun Huan said with a smile: "So..." As soon as he said these two words, Guo Songyang's hand touched his seven acupuncture points like lightning. Li Xunhuan's men had already collapsed. Lingling was shocked, rushed over to support Li Xunhuan, and exclaimed, "What are you doing?" At this moment, Guo Songyang's drunkenness was completely sober, and his face immediately became as cold as a rock, and he said calmly: "When he wakes up, you tell him that the opportunity to fight Shangguan Jinhong is not always available. Yes, I must not miss this opportunity!" Lingling said: "You...do you want to go for him?" Guo Songyang said: "I know he will never let me go with him, and I don't want him to go with me either. It's just like drinking. Sometimes it takes two people to drink together. One more person will be boring." Lingling was stunned for a long while, then tears suddenly flowed from her eyes, and said sadly: "He is right, so you are also a good person." Guo Songyang said coldly: "Whether I live or die, I don't want to see anyone shed tears for me. When I see a woman's tears, I feel disgusted. You should leave your tears to others!" He suddenly turned around without looking back, and strode out. Although Li Xunhuan couldn't move or speak, he was still conscious, watching Guo Songyang walk out the door, tears seemed to well in his eyes. I don't know how long it took before Lingling wiped away her tears and murmured: "If a person can make a loyal friend who can live and die together in his life, it is really more precious than anything else." She bowed her head and stared at Li Xun Huan. After a while, she continued sadly, "Of course you have done many things for him, so he is willing...to do it for you." Li Xun Huan closed his eyes, feeling really uncomfortable in his heart, he suddenly found that the emotions between people are sometimes really hard to understand. He has indeed done many things for many people, some of whom have betrayed him, some have forgotten, and some have even betrayed him. He didn't do anything for Guo Songyang, but Guo Songyang did not hesitate to die for him. This is true "friendship". This kind of friendship can neither be bought, nor can it be exchanged. Perhaps it is because this kind of friendship exists in the world that the glory of human beings can last forever. The room suddenly darkened. Lingling had already covered the door, closed the window, and sat quietly beside Li Xunhuan, looking at him tenderly, without saying anything. It was so quiet that one could even hear the sound of the hourglass in the copper kettle. What time is it now? Has Guo Songyang started a life-and-death struggle with Shangguan Jinhong and Jing Wuming? "His life and death may be just a matter of breathing, but instead I lie here quietly, unable to do anything for him." Thinking of this, Li Xun Huan's heart seemed to be about to burst. Suddenly, there was a sound of footsteps on the stairs. The footsteps were very light and slow, but Li Xun Huan knew that two people came up at the same time, and the martial arts of these two people were not weak. Then, there was a knock on the door: "Tuk, tuk!" Lingling suddenly became nervous. Who will come? Could it be that Guo Songyang has been murdered by them, and now they are looking for Li Xunhuan again! "Duk, tuk!" The knock on the door was louder this time. Cold sweat broke out on Ling Ling's face, she suddenly picked up Li Xun Huan and looked around, as if she wanted to find a place to hide Li Xun Huan. "Duk, duk, duk, duk..." The knocking on the door kept ringing, and the people outside were obviously very anxious. If they didn't open the door again, they might break in. Lingling bit her lip and said loudly, "Here you are, what's the hurry? You have to wait for people to get dressed before opening the door!" As she spoke, she opened the door of the closet with her toes, hid Li Xun Huan in, grabbed some clothes and piled them on Li Xun Huan. Although Li Xun Huan never wanted to run away, but now he can't even move a little finger, so he can only be at the mercy of Ling Ling. I saw Lingling straightened her clothes in front of the bronze mirror on the wardrobe, combed her hair, and wiped away the cold sweat from her forehead and nose. Suddenly she closed the closet door tightly, and locked it with a "click". She murmured to herself: "It's so easy to take a nap, but someone came again. Why is my life so miserable?" The sound gradually faded away, and then Li Xun Huan heard the sound of the door opening. The door opened, but the sound suddenly stopped. Lingling seemed to be in a daze in shock. The people outside the door were obviously two people she had never seen before. Are they Shangguan Jinhong and Jing Wuming? The people outside the door didn't speak first, and after a long while, they heard Lingling say: "Who are you two looking for? Could it be that you are looking for the wrong place?" The person outside the door still didn't speak. There was only a "bang", and the bell seemed to be pushed against the door by them, and then two footsteps could be heard walking in.