Gu Long once said that "The End of the World" is the most painful novel he has written.If I have one too, it would be this "Zi Zhao Tian Yin". This work was completed very early, as early as 5 years ago, the first draft was completed, and that draft was printed out by me and kept by my bedside for many years.She looked so jerky and fresh, like a child who grew up in the mountains, examining the world with a pair of deer-like eyes. In fact, I love her very much, including every subsequent modification.Every draft is very satisfactory, and every draft is my favorite.But, after a while, I couldn't help but look at her harshly, regretting every detail of her face.

If it were other works, I would let this regret exist, because precisely these regrets engraved my youth at that time, and also recorded the thoughts of my youth at that time. But for "Zi Zhao Tian Yin", I can't. I can't tolerate her slightest shortcomings, and I can't tolerate any slack in myself, so I rewrite and rewrite. All because she is the first part of the "Hua Yin Liu Shao" series. The whole thing was rewritten three times in order to give my most beloved series a fancy start.The last change changed the length from 140,000 to 200,000.The changes have been so great that it has almost become a new story.

I am like a stubborn mother, remaking gorgeous wedding dresses for my married daughter over and over again.In order to let her stand in front of the world in the most beautiful posture, I re-took the needlework and the knife again and again. This is my ninth published work, but at this moment I am so timid and clumsy, as if I am facing my first child. Before finalizing the draft, I asked myself again and again, are I really ready this time?Can I finally be worthy of my beloved daughter? I am a little apprehensive.I don't know the answer. I just handed over this child to you. No matter how much I cherish her, I will finally let her go to the palace and accept everyone's criticism.

All I can do is to sew a dream wedding dress for her in five full years, in my prime years of 20-25 years old. Then, I will finally let go of her hand and send her away. I only hope that her smile when she left can become a memory that I will never regret in my heart.