Chapter 12 10. Run away from home

I don't remember how I got home that day, my family members were all terrified and asked me what was wrong, what can I say?The next day, the second brother went to inquire about the details of the money I owed, and the family suddenly exploded. Needless to say, my father beat me violently again. Pushing hard, I don't seem to be in any pain. Five days passed, and I didn't go anywhere. There was a sad atmosphere at home. Xiaohe cried every day. What problem could crying solve? Seeing that the Chinese New Year is just around the corner, people all over the streets are busy buying new year's goods, and the streets and alleys are filled with a festive atmosphere.At this time, the debt collectors came to the door, and more than 10 people came. I dragged the stool and found a place to sit by myself. My father said good things to the debt collectors with a smile on his face. The IOU I wrote came with a very firm attitude, just two words: pay back the money!

In the end, my father took out more than 30,000 yuan, so to speak, those evil stars agreed to the rest for the time being. In the end, my parents decided to take me to live in an old house in the fishing village, and spend the holidays there.My parents were so angry that they let Xiao He and I live in the town first, and they went back to their hometown to see if they could borrow some money to help me plug the hole. After seeing off my parents, Xiaohe asked me to go home with her for the New Year, but I didn't agree.At that time, I had a total of 300 yuan left, and travel expenses were a problem, so what should I bring to celebrate the festival?

I gave her all 300 yuan and asked her to go home for the holidays by herself, and said to her: "I will stay in my hometown for a day and also go back to my hometown for the New Year." That's it, Xiaohe left, and she packed up all her things when she left She never came back, but what can I say then? I'm all gone, I'm the only one left, and I still have more than 40 yuan in my pocket.I went all over the house looking for money, rummaging through boxes and cabinets, and the total was 59 yuan and 60 cents. I will never forget this figure in my life. Holding the little money in my hand, I went out, and I imagined that I would encounter a small game and make a thousand dollars.But our place is very small. Since the opening of the casino, there have been almost no games left, and even small games for mahjong are hard to find.

There are still 3 days to celebrate the new year. At that time, there was only one thought in my mind: I can’t go back to celebrate the new year no matter what!The money in my hand is not enough for me to celebrate the New Year. I have to find a place to earn some money. I dare not go to the casino, so I have to wander around the streets poorly. Walked for 3 days and found nothing.The new year is here, and I only have 17 yuan left in my hand. Just after dawn on the morning of the new year, there was a knock on the door, and someone kept calling my name.The debtor is here!I held my breath and didn't dare to make a sound. There was a lot of noise outside for a while, and then it gradually quieted down. Maybe they went home for the New Year.I secretly hid by the window to watch the movement below. I saw about five or six people cursing and walking away gradually before I dared to open the door and come out.On the door of the house, someone used red paint to paint two big words: "Repay the money", and there is a row of eye-catching "!".

I suddenly had the urge to kill.I rushed into the kitchen, tucked the kitchen knife in my trousers, and went out. I wanted to find that brother Hai, and I wanted to chop his shit to pieces. When I went to the casino, I found that the door was closed, and there was a sign on the door: 15 days off for Chinese New Year.So I wandered around the streets, hoping to see people who participated in beating me or came to my house to ask for money.But it was strange, they seemed to have disappeared from the world, I patrolled everyone who came towards me with hatred eyes, but no one paid any attention to my provocation.

As night fell, crackling firecrackers sounded everywhere, reminding me that it is Chinese New Year. I still had 12 yuan in my pocket (it took 5 yuan to take a taxi to the casino). I walked to a small shop and saw that the light was on. Yuan bought a box of cigarettes, holding the remaining less than 5 yuan in his hand, and suddenly didn't know how to spend it. After thinking about it for a long time, let's make a long distance call.So I used the phone in the small shop to call Xiao He, and I asked her cautiously on the phone: "You don't hate me, do you?" She said: "No, it's just that we're done. I don't want to spend my whole life with you. If you need to look for it, hurry up and look for it."

"Oh," I didn't know what to say, she was rambling on, I didn't listen to a word, I just said, "I don't need to pay back the money I lent your brother", and put the phone down after speaking . I spent 2 yuan on the phone, and I still had 2.5 yuan in my hand. I bought a bottle of beer, and only 20 cents left.Holding the two cents and other things, I went home.After eating noodles and ham sausage, I sweated a lot, presumably because I haven't eaten much in the past few days. It's cold in the house.I was too lazy to turn on the heater, so I plugged in the electric blanket and sat under the covers without turning on the lights, gulping down beer.

Listening to the lively sound of firecrackers outside, I remembered the free and easy appearance when I was rich, I remembered the foolish appearance I was blinded by lard in the casino, I remembered Xiao He's beautiful appearance and the sad eyes when she left, I remembered I remembered my parents’ expressions of hating iron and steel, and remembered how my relatives and friends avoided me like the plague...I remembered everything and everyone, and remembered that there was no way out in the future, and I couldn’t help crying loudly. Tired of crying, just curled up in bed like that.I suddenly had a thought: Why is a person like me still alive?It's better to die.

With a jolt, I sat up. right!Go to hell, alive is also a waste, and dragged down a group of people. die!But how to die?Jumping off the building, my house lives on the third floor, it seems that no one can fall to death. Touching the switch, having been shocked before, it's not a good feeling. Take medicine, no money to buy sleeping pills. I suddenly remembered that there was a gas tank in the kitchen, yes, I just turned on the gas to commit suicide without any pain. I rushed into the kitchen and turned on the gas, fearing that I would regret it, so I got under the covers and covered my head and didn't think about anything.

The gas tank made a "hissing" sound, and everything was about to end. After a while, my consciousness became farther and farther away. I wanted to move, but my hands and feet seemed to be pinned down, and I couldn't move.I knew it in my heart, but I couldn't shout it out, so I "slept" in the past. I don't know how long it took, but I was woken up by the sound of firecrackers being set off outside.I am not dead?I sat up with a "huh", only to feel the pain of splitting my head.I thought about it carefully, didn't I kill myself by turning on the gas?What is the situation now?Suppressing the headache, I went to the kitchen and found that the valve of the gas tank was open. Shaking the gas tank, it was empty.

It turned out that there was only a little gas left in the gas tank, and that little gas couldn't kill me at all, and there was still a big gap in the kitchen window.So I didn't die. I was a little annoyed that I didn't die, so I sat under the quilt and smoked several cigarettes.The determination to die receded a little bit, why the fuck did I have to die?Just die like that, what a fool! So I got dressed and went out with a kitchen knife in my pocket. I was going to find that Brother Hai. Before I die, I have to grab a pawn, don't I? Walking on the New Year's street, even though I was wearing thick clothes, I still felt cold and kept sniffing my nose.I wandered all over the street, but I couldn't find him and his minions after searching for a whole day.At night, I was so hungry that I couldn't bear it anymore, so I had to go home. When I got home, I searched all over the kitchen, but couldn't find anything ready to eat.There is flour and oil in the kitchen. I kneaded some noodles and kneaded them into dough. When the gas was gone, I didn’t bother to start a coal stove and fried fried dough sticks.But the deep-fried dough sticks I fried were very hard. I was so hungry that I couldn't care less. I still went out for a walk every day with a kitchen knife in my mouth, fried dough to eat when I was too hungry, and passed by like this for an unknown number of days. This day I went out to hang out again, and met a distant relative at the entrance of a shopping mall.He pulled me to talk to me and asked me why I looked so bad.I didn't dare to tell him the truth, so I used words to prevaricate.He talked endlessly about his brother being arrested, embezzling public funds, and about to be prosecuted in court. The family members were in a hurry and were trying to find a solution. I asked him, "Look for someone at the Public Security Bureau." He said he did, but now the case has gone to court.I knew a court driver, so I said casually, "I know people from the court, please ask for it." He left his home phone number and asked me to find out, and he said a lot.At that time, I was all over my head looking for Brother Hai, and besides, it’s the first lunar month, where can I help you find out? I finished perfunctory him and went home.Coincidentally, I actually met that driver.I grabbed him to inquire, and he said that he was just driving the unit, and he knew no more than me.Seeing that I was a little disappointed, he said, "Let me help you ask, and I will tell you the news tomorrow." I didn't take this matter to heart, I still searched for Brother Hai all over the street.Soon the first month passed, and all the agencies and units were at work. I was passing by the gate of the court that day, and I suddenly saw my buddy standing there in the court, so I went in to look for him.He looked a little embarrassed when he saw me, and only said that the case was in the hands of a judge surnamed Sun. When I left the gate of the court, I heard someone calling me. It was my distant relative who also came to the court to inquire about the situation.I told him what I had just heard, and when he heard that I was right, he grabbed my hand and asked me to help find a solution. Seeing his eager look, an evil thought popped up.I fooled him that if he wants to solve it, he must send money to the court.Seeing that I was speaking clearly and logically, he asked me to wait there, turned around and went home to take 20,000 yuan, and asked me to go to the court to give it to the judge surnamed Sun. I entered the court with 20,000 yuan and went directly to the judge surnamed Sun.She received me very kindly, and then sent me off with some official words.I put all the 20,000 yuan in my crotch. The underpants are tied into the socks, so I am not afraid of the money falling out.When I came out of the court, without changing my face, I calmly said to my relatives: "I gave her all the money, and she asked me to meet you at night, and I want to have a good talk with you about what to do." I also said some words of comfort to him, Tell him to send the money and it should be done. He was so happy, he repeatedly grabbed my hand and said thank you.I asked him to find a hotel to entertain the judges, and said that I would bring the judges to the hotel to find him at 6 o'clock. He left thankfully, and I quickly returned home, packed my clothes indiscriminately, closed the doors and windows of the house, and went straight to the long-distance bus station.I was going to run away, I was 24 years old that year. I remember that winter was so cold that year, it was the coldest winter in my life!