Chapter 37 Chapter Thirty-Six The Stern North Wind Blows

Green is gone, leaving only this boundless sentimentality. Yifeng and I were the only ones left to watch day and night in the boundless wilderness.The sun has lost its former light, the pale giant moon is so bleak whether it rises or sets, the deserted wolf cave is covered with snow all day long, the footprints in front of the cave are covered, and the north wind blowing into the cave brings whistles, Wrapped in hard snow grains, heavy memories are piled up day after day. On the door of the hut, the scratches of Green's claws every time he scratched the door are still clearly printed.On the snowy ground outside the house, the thin goat's hoof that he often holds in his mouth to satisfy his hunger has become a toy for crows. The snow nest where he hides food has no traces of being scratched, and the water in his food bowl has frozen into ice lumps.I still look forward to seeing Green's stone thrown in from the window every morning, looking forward to seeing him climb up the window with a silly smile on his face.The last piece of Langshan Stone was smoothed by Yifeng's touch...

When we huddled together to sleep at night, without the warmest Green, I was so cold that my teeth chattered, and when I woke up in the middle of the night, I arched my sleeping bag and crawled into Yifeng's arms.Yifeng couldn't sleep with his eyes puffed up, he sighed: "Green is really gone now, are you willing?" I burst into tears, lay on Yifeng's shoulder and sobbed all night, no amount of consolation could help. The white snow, the gray sky, the dark wolf cave, everything around has become black and white negatives, there is no blue sky, purple clouds, golden wolf fur, bright yellow wolf eyes, pink Wolf tongue... It seems that Green is the soul of the prairie, without him, our prairie fell into dead silence.

We depended on each other for so long, when Green was here, life was sweet no matter how bitter it was, but when Green left, our life lost its focus.We often look at each other and have nothing to say, but no one wants to leave. There is only one hope in my heart. I want to see Green for the last time, want to hug him again, or what I hope most in my heart is that Green can come back. It was so hasty, even though we had more than half a year of mental preparation, when this day finally came, we both felt as if we were suffering from lovesickness, with an indescribable emptiness and melancholy.

Will Green be bullied by other wolves?Will he not be able to find food?Will you miss us?Sometimes I suddenly thought nervously: "Oops! Could he have been beaten to death? And we are still in the dark!" So I frantically looked for him and called him!Yifeng leaves marks everywhere, hoping to help him find his way home. Twice we found dead animals lying in the grass through the binoculars, and the two rushed up to look in a daze. When we found out that it was a wild dog that died of freezing and starvation, we relaxed our grip. Fortunately, Not Green.But where is Green at the moment?Will it be dying on another piece of snow?Could he have gone too far with the wolves and lost his way home?Like the time he got lost in the city, looking for us in a daze?Is he still active in this area?After so many days, would he be so hungry that he didn't even have the strength to crawl home?If the price of freedom is death, would we be willing to let him go?

After the snow, we can often see the traces of wolves, and Yifeng and I will follow with hope to see if there are any traces of Green.I used the camera to take pictures of the wolf paw prints I found every time, and went back to the small room at night to compare the paw prints one by one and record the characteristics of each wolf's footprint.But we have never seen Green again, and our hope is getting slimmer, and it is estimated that we will never see him again in this lifetime.Thinking of what Yifeng said to me before, no wolf raised by humans survived after being released. I regretted it—I should have let Green go if I knew it earlier!

Yifeng and I have already picked up almost all the dry cow dung in the Langshan area, so we had to go separate ways to collect firewood and cow dung. About half a month later, one morning, I was walking, and suddenly, a few familiar paw prints in the snow jumped into my eyes, missing a small toe!My heart trembled, this is Green's paw print!God, is he still alive? ! The tracks were fresh, never more than a day old, with the tracks of another great wolf.I didn't care to call back to Yifeng, and immediately walked down the two lines of wolf trails, crossed the river, turned over the hills, and passed through a large winter grassland. Around a herdsman's house, the wolf paw prints disappeared in the deep grass. middle.

I confirmed that the herdsmen's dogs were all tied up, so I approached cautiously.I climbed up the cow dung wall of the herdsman's house and looked into the yard. There were three herdsmen women working inside. "Sister, have you seen a wolf here recently?" I asked cautiously. The three women exchanged a few words with each other, and one of them, a seventeen or eighteen-year-old Tibetan girl who could speak Chinese, replied across the wall: "Yes, my mother saw two wolves yesterday afternoon." My heart was pounding, and I asked excitedly, "Did you see which direction the wolf was going?"

The girl replied: "I'm not sure about this. Grandma saw it. Why don't you come in and have a bowl of tea, and I'll call Grandma for you." After being separated for more than half a month, I finally got a clue from Green. Not only did I have a clue, but I could also eat something. I was so happy that I immediately followed the girl into the house, sat by the stove and warmed up the fire, and drank five bowls of buttered tea in one go. , the body immediately warmed up.I waited with great anticipation for Grandma. After a while, grandma came into the house with gray hair and a kind face.I quickly bowed to say hello, and the girl followed behind into the house.Grandma asked me to sit down, looked me up and down with meaningful eyes, and asked in blunt Chinese: "What do you do?"

Grandma asked me this question as soon as she opened her mouth, and I didn't know how to answer for a while.Say I’m a freelancer, and the herdsmen deep in the grassland may not understand it; say I’m a painter, I haven’t painted seriously for more than a year, and I came here just to inquire about wolves, what? What about professional skills and wolves?I can't say that I raise wolves. Not everyone accepts wolves, so I'd better keep an eye out.I lowered my head and hesitated, saw the camera hanging on my chest, and tentatively replied: "I'm here for travel and photography. I heard that wolves appear and I want to take some photos."

Where do tourists come from in winter?Where are tourists so bold?How can tourists wear this Tibetan cotton robe that smells like cow dung?Even I don't believe this answer full of loopholes, but I finally found some reasons for hunting the wolf. After hearing this, Grandma smiled. They exchanged a few words in Tibetan, and the girl couldn't help covering her mouth and giggling: "Liar, isn't that your wolf?" I shivered all over, and flushed with embarrassment: "You know me?" The lie was exposed on the spot, and I was at a loss for a while.Grandma smiled and drew on her forehead: "We saw you follow the wolf when we were grazing on the other side of the mountain. I recognized the Sky-eyed wolf. It was very close to me yesterday. He kept staring at me, as if he knew me." Like me. He's not too afraid of people!"

Sky Eye Wolf?I was stunned for a moment, and then realized that the scar in the middle of Green's forehead was like the third eye growing between the brows. Most Tibetans believe in Buddhism, and they have a magical yearning for the sky eye.The "eyes of the sky" and the features that are not too afraid of people confirm the footprints I found, and it is undoubtedly Green. I continued to ask in embarrassment: "Where did Mama see the two wolves go?" Grandma nodded, took a sip of tea, and roughly described: Yesterday, when it was just dark, a big wolf and that sky-eyed wolf came to our pasture. The wolf jumped in from the hole in the low wall of the sheepfold and killed two and a half sheep.The two wolves were probably hungry and panicked, and they were especially good at eating. It didn't take long for them to gnaw down the sheep's head and hooves. My head "buzzed"!It's over, I thought I found Green's clue, but it turned out that Green got into trouble here.I was in a very complicated mood, joyful, frightened, and even more afraid—— I'm delighted that for the first time in so many days, I got definite news about Green.First of all, he lives!Secondly, the wolves accepted him!Furthermore, this guy knew he was going to catch the sheep, and it seemed that he would not die of hunger!This is something I can't teach him who is bound by human norms, and he has to be a wolf master to produce wolf disciples! What shocked me was that Green attacked human livestock, even if he wasn't starved to death, he would be killed!Although, I have lived a life of a wolf for several months, I can completely understand the difficulty of a wolf's survival and why he risked his life to steal sheep, but the conflict between herdsmen and wolves has been going on for a long time, how could I ask others to sacrifice their property to What about protecting wolves?However, I also know that it is death anyway, and wolves will never choose to starve to death! What I am even more afraid of is that I am sitting at the herdsman's house right now, like a parent of a troubled child, being caught by someone, and I don't know how the lost herdsmen will open their mouths?I suddenly thought of the herdsman who sold the dead sheep to me. I really regretted going into this hut and drank five bowls of buttered tea. This was troublesome. I subconsciously hugged the camera tightly.Yifeng is not by my side, what if I can't get away today?Sweat dripped down my forehead... No, maybe the situation will be more serious than I imagined. I raised a "scourge", and maybe I will be regarded by the herdsmen as an enemy of raising wolves!And Green, my poor little wolf, there is no zoo here, and if you catch a "vermind beast", you can kill it on the spot! I thought about it, and I couldn't escape it. For Green, I must carry it: "Grandma, how much is that sheep? I... I... I will pay you!" Grandma was overjoyed when she heard it: "What do you poor lambs pay for? Who doesn't kill the cattle and sheep on this ranch? Eat it if you eat it. The wolf will always live! When the spring comes, the wolf will disperse." gone." "Ah?" I was so surprised that I couldn't believe my ears, "But, Mom, that day's eye wolf is...it's my one..." This is called the wrong and the debtor, you all caught me , still don't ask me to settle the account? The girl laughed even more happily: "I know you raised it. When we used to graze in the Dahewan area on the other side of the mountain, we often saw you walking across the river with that wolf, catching rabbits and mice together. Amazing. We call you wolf girl, but we never see you approaching. Hehe, don’t worry, grandma said, if a wolf comes to our ranch, we won’t beat him. I haven’t seen a wolf for many years. " My eyes were hot, God has eyes, I finally met a good person again, and my mother's kindness instantly broke my worries.On the same grassland, why is there such a big gap between herdsmen and herdsmen? I finally loosened my grip on the camera. The girl saw the camera in my hand, moved the stool and sat down close to me and asked, "Sister, can you take a picture for us?" I nodded quickly, wishing to do something for this good man, I glanced at the big photo frame on the wall of his house, and said, "I'll make photos like this later and send them to you." When the girl heard this, she happily entered the house and changed into the most beautiful clothes. Grandma filled the fire in the hearth, and the steamer was steaming with greedy heat.I swallowed, forced my eyes away from the steamer, and turned to look at the picture frame on the wall.Among the many photos in the photo frame, a face suddenly caught my attention. I took a closer look, and the more I looked, the more familiar I looked... Isn't this Dorje?That boy who loves wolves who led me to Wolf Mountain! I hurriedly pointed to Duoji's photo and asked, "Grandma, who is this young man?" Grandma looked up and said with a smile, "Oh, that's my son." Oh... All the doubts in my heart were answered immediately.People are indeed different. As soon as I returned to the hut after taking pictures of the girl, I saw my grandma lifted the lid of the pot, and the smell of meat was savory in the hot steam.My eyes were fixed on the freshly baked steamed stuffed buns, and I could no longer control my suppressed hunger. I blushed and asked, "Grandma, can I have a steamed stuffed bun?" "Eat it! Eat it! Hehe!" Grandma nodded enthusiastically, and turned around to find a plate for me to hold the buns. I couldn't wait to reach into the pot and grab one, and stuffed it into my mouth!Mutton buns, so delicious! "Eat slowly, be careful of being hot!" Grandma said repeatedly, and put a full plate in front of me.I stared at the plate, splayed my hands left and right, the mutton buns stuffed my mouth, and the hot buns stuck to the opening of my mouth, making my tears roll. Grandma asked, "Are you starving?" I didn't bother to answer, I murmured a few times, grabbed two more buns and stuffed them into my swollen mouth, and kept nodding, tears could no longer be held back It flowed down, this is the first decent meal I have eaten in months, and the tears have been swallowed into my stomach with months of bitterness... I know that I may eat like Green, so this It's fireworks in the world, if Yifeng is here, it would be great! After a while of gobbling, I killed more than half of the whole pot of steamed buns. I hurriedly stopped, feeling very sorry, wondering if this was the family's dinner.Grandma made another plate and put it in front of me: "Eat it at ease, Grandma will put it back for you if you can't finish it. All the men in the family have gone to the temple, and it's too early to come back. Grandma will do it later." gone." I thanked my mother, and then I took another bun and bit into it, this time the movements were more gentle.My mother asked me a lot of things, and she said puzzledly, "Is it worth it for a city girl to come here and suffer for a wolf?" I swallowed a mouthful of the steamed stuffed bun, and the fresh and sweet taste slowly returned to my tongue, I nodded: "It's worth it." In fact, being with Green was just a natural motherhood and sympathy at the beginning, but as time went on, there seemed to be some magical things in Green that infected me, leading me to continue to explore and experience some valuable things in wolf nature, sometimes even without knowing it. Consciously compare wolves with human nature.Until I came to the grassland with Green, wolves, animals, people, and even the whole grassland touched me all the time. The deeper and deeper feelings of nature and the relationship between humans and wolves made me enjoy the cruelty and pain of this grassland. I never thought that a small life would bring me so many insights.I even want to stay here forever, running in the same wilderness with the wolves.However, for an urbanite who is inextricably dependent on modernization, returning to nature may only be a distant dream.Only then did I realize that maybe like many modern people, I have long lost the connection with the earth and the sense of nature. I envy my grandma very much. Such a kind-hearted family lives on the grassland and has their own beliefs. There are herds of cattle and sheep, accompanied by their children, and they feel the pulse of the grassland every day.I couldn't help asking: "Grandma, you have lived in the grassland all your life, do you feel happy?" Grandmother smiled and replied: "What is happiness? I never thought about it. People on the grassland grow crop after crop, grow up to raise enough cattle and sheep, get married, have children, die, and so on. This is how we live from generation to generation." As she spoke, there was a sense of satisfaction that she had no other desires on her kind face.Perhaps, this is how the older generation of prairie people live, simply, they never ask themselves whether they are happy, whether they yearn for another life, there is no other, only waiting for every prairie people from the distant past. that kind of life.Sometimes the pursuit of others is your present, and your vision is the reality of others. What about now?Under the social changes sweeping the grassland, the young grassland people have another choice, and there are too many things on the grassland that can be exchanged for another kind of happiness. What is the future of the grassland?I cherish the happiness of being a guest in the grassland. Perhaps ten years later, people will not feel such a simple and simple friendship when they walk into the grassland. After the meal, the girl took me into the sheep pen, and checked the hole where Green and the big wolf turned into the sheep pen yesterday. It was the shortest wall of the sheep pen, and the blood-stained wolf paw prints on the wall were clearly discernible.Although I had already foreseen it, when my fingers touched the familiar paw print, there was still a warm current of surprise in my heart.Really Green! After leaving the sheep pen, I said goodbye to my mother with gratitude and apology. My mother put all the remaining buns in my pocket and gave me a big bag of blood sausage, oil cakes, and air-dried meat. I hurriedly covered the hot buns In my arms, thank you again and again!Green is alive, and we have something to eat. I rushed home to let Yifeng experience this double surprise! On the way back, I shed tears all the way... The herdsmen in the deep grasslands still maintain a harmonious relationship with nature and a simple quality of being kind to people.I don't know how many people like Grandma and Tashi are willing to leave room for the survival of wolves. In the blink of an eye, more than ten days passed.I was like a wolf mother desperately looking forward to reuniting with her lost only son. On this day, there was still a little sun at noon, but now it is overcast.Clouds hung thickly on the horizon, and the north wind carried fine snowflakes across the frozen river. "What kind of place is this? It looks like a frying pan." Yifeng stood at a slightly higher place with a telescope and looked around.Surrounding the grassland on both sides are hillsides that gradually slope into 30-40 degrees. The foot of the mountain is connected to the grassland, and the end of the grassland is connected to the sky.The north-south glacier in front of me meanders through the center of the bottom of the pot, dividing the meadow in the middle into the east bank and the west bank. At first glance, it looks like a picture of Tai Chi. On the east bank of the glacier, the snow on the meadow is not deep. In some places, the thin snow is melting here and there, exposing a little dry and rotten turf mixed with the snow-melted mud, sticking to the ground. .The grass looks like a limited supply, waiting for the yak herd to eat.Hundreds of yaks bury their heads and shake their big heads to break through the snow and eat the mud and grass under the snow. It doesn't matter whether it is mud or grass, as long as it can fill their stomachs.The wind blows the long hair of the yaks that can almost mop the ground, and the white air exhaled by the herd is thicker than the snow fog.Some yaks raised their heads after eating, and looked enviously at the west bank of the river—there was a large winter pasture, and the golden pasture that was knee-deep swayed in the cold wind, but that winter pasture belonged to another family. The herdsmen kept those for spring lambs, and they were strictly surrounded by barbed wire, separated by a steep and difficult riverbed.Yaks dare not cross the ice rashly. A fall on the solid ice may be fatal to a heavy yak, and the yaks on the east bank can only look at the river and sigh. Yifeng and I followed a large footprint of wolves to the west bank of this big river.The first night, we heard the howling of wolves from far and near. Early in the morning, we patrolled around in the direction of the sound from last night.Finally, I found a group of wolf footprints on the snow surface by the river beach, so I followed them all the way, but who knew that the footprints scattered around here for a few bends, and all of them disappeared strangely. After following for a long time, we found nothing. We sat on a small slope on the west bank in frustration, gnawed on dry food and complained. "What do you think they howled last night? So many wolves just disappeared." I gathered my collar to block the cold wind blowing on my face.Today, in order to facilitate tracking, I deliberately wore a jacket, and now I feel chilly when I stop.Yifeng took out his clothes bag, took out half of a pancake, broke it open and gave half to me: "Eat some, the dry food given by grandma is not much, so I have to save some food." I was so hungry that I sat down and grabbed a lump of clean snow and chewed on the pancakes: "Maybe this is a wolf that passed by last night, we lost it long ago, or let's go back." "Are you talking about going back to Chengdu?" Yifeng asked.I choked on the pancake and kept silent. We were nibbling dry rations, and we saw a commotion in the northwest corner of the cattle herd from a distance, and all the cattle grazing raised their heads and looked towards the northwest corner.The commotion turned into panic in the blink of an eye, and the herd of yaks began to jostle each other, their horns colliding with each other, and it was like a group of demons dancing wildly. Suddenly, an unknown cow stomped its hooves and mooed loudly, and hundreds of yaks immediately ran wildly. The galloping hoofs rolled up dust and snowflakes all over the sky, and the sound of hooves shocked the whole field. We were shocked by the thunderous sound, and the pancakes we were eating fell on the snow.Yifeng opened his mouth wide: "What's the situation?" I grabbed the binoculars on Yifeng's chest and took a look: "Wolf!" Through the binoculars, I can see the herd of cows in a mess, with calves scurrying around, cows crying anxiously, and bulls mooing loudly to form a herd.Several big wolves followed closely behind, driving the herd of cattle, running south along the river!The herd gathered together and surged like a tide.On the way, several large wolves rushed out from the flanks to stop the cattle trying to cross the river. Even across the glacier, I still felt the strong impact. The telescope was full of splashing mud and snow and bulging bull's eyes. In the cold wind, I could only hear the rumbling hoofs, panting and roaring of the cows.Yaks and wolves are fighting for survival in a ritual that has not changed for thousands of years.The herd of yaks was so terrified that they could no longer tell the difference between south, east and north. Unexpectedly, we accidentally ran into a pack of wolves hunting. This was the first time in our life.What puzzled me was that during the run, there were already a few yaks that had left the team. This was an excellent opportunity for the wolves to challenge the odd ones, but the wolves did not attack the yaks that were left alone.Not only that, there is always a wolf going around to drive these stragglers back to the team, with a friendly appearance, as if he is not a wolf at all, but a shepherd dog.The herd of yaks finally had a chance to protect the calf in the center of the bull formation, and the running speed of the herd slowed down slightly, as if the initial fear had calmed down a bit.This group of stupid wolves missed their chance, only chasing but not killing, what are you kidding? I let Yifeng snatch the binoculars away, and I was a little disappointed. The wolf pack is not as good as before, and this group of grass wolves who dare not attack really can't make a difference. "Look, there are wolves over there!" Yifeng shouted, pointing to the grassy slope by the river. The short and sharp neighing of the beast was like an omen, and several large wolves protruded from the grassy slope on the south side of the river bank, attacking the right flank of the cattle head-on.The running yak herd was attacked from both sides, facing the river to the west, and the hillside to the east. The number of wolves increased sharply, and the herd of yaks fell into a new round of panic with nowhere to run. They had no choice. Immediately, the direction was reversed, and the whole herd of yaks rushed towards the east hillside like a turning tide!To the east is a sunny slope of about 40 degrees, and mottled snow remains on the slope.The black herd of yaks was like a tsunami of flesh and fur. All the yaks shrugged their shoulders and horns, and rushed towards the steep slope with their heads hard, just wanting to save their lives. The wolves of several hunting teams came up from behind in a fan shape, bared their sharp fangs, twisted their nimble figures, followed closely the movements of the cattle, and jumped around the cattle quickly from left to right Fleeing, the cattle became more panicked and rushed up the slope with all their strength.The herd of cattle scrambled, their sharp horns like bayonets urging the front cattle to charge up! I was dumbfounded: This is a pack of wolves besieging! Seeing that the herd of yaks has already rushed halfway up the mountain.Suddenly, a howl of a wolf passing through the valley was heard from the mountain ridge. The high-pitched, thrilling howl rose into the air, and pressed down from the top of the high mountain ridge, as if a giant claw was rushing towards the group of trembling animals. Livestock for slaughter.Amidst the long howling, strange soldiers suddenly appeared on the mountain ridge, and in the blink of an eye, groups of big wolves appeared, baring their teeth at the cattle, as if they were about to launch a mighty general attack! I don't know when this group of wolves sneaked up and ambushed there.Yifeng counted the wolves with a telescope, but he couldn't count them in the chaos. The wolves roared loudly, showed their fangs and claws, swooped down, and rushed head-on to the climbing cattle. The two yaks rushing to the front stopped urgently, their front hooves flew into the air, and they almost fell backwards on their backs and fell downhill.In an instant, the whole herd of yaks fell into a great panic. The yaks running in the front hurriedly turned around and ran back, like a turbulent wave suddenly being blocked head-on by the embankment of the wolves!The muddy and slippery hillside is like a big slide. The hooves of the cows have no grip. The cows on the slope can't stop the car at all. Many turning back cows directly hit the sharp horns of the forward bulls.The yaks screamed loudly and tumbled down the steep slope, kicking up gravel and sand all the way.Some calves were so frightened that they tried their best to hide under the belly of the big yak. ​​Unexpectedly, the heavy body of the cow directly crushed their necks that had not yet grown strong, and some calves made no sound on the spot.A large bull stepped on a precarious rock and slid down, taking the yaks behind him with him.Several yaks struggled to regain their balance, but the slope was too steep, coupled with the slippery snow, several yaks kicked on the slope for the last few times, and rolled down together like a landslide. The yaks at the tail were driven up the slope by the wolves, and the bulls at the back even retreated backwards up the mountain. In the chaos, we couldn't see what happened on the mountain.The cattle at the bottom of the mountain are still lowering their heads and straightening their horns, rushing upwards with the strength of the cattle. The meat mountain above is pressed down in one piece. , and even the back of the cow's horn pierced through the neck socket, and some were pierced into the ribs by the horn and couldn't get out. The two cows rolled down the hillside together, like stones used in ancient wars, and the cow behind couldn't dodge. Being crushed all the way, calves were crushed to death and trampled, and in the smoke, dust and slush, only the cries and howls of wolves could be heard. Yifeng and I were completely stunned. Seeing the tragic scene in front of us, we forgot to pick up the binoculars. The lineup outside the camera was far more shocking than inside the camera.My God, how is this completely different from what we saw in the documentary? The wolves we know are used to silently launching surprise attacks, but the wolves in front of us are completely different. Although they are also making surprise attacks, more It was roaring with teeth and claws to build momentum, not a single wolf really bit, let alone penetrated into the herd of cattle and slaughtered wantonly.Perhaps people know too little about wolves.I suddenly felt a chill down my spine. Although the documentary said that the wolves would not attack if they had prey, but facing such a large pack of wolves, would they pick me and Yifeng as well?If people don't understand wolves, is what the documentary says reliable? Thinking of this, I dare not move, who knows where there are wolves in ambush?I subconsciously looked behind me. The moment I turned my head and ears, I suddenly heard the barking of "Huahua" from the roaring wolves!My heart beat faster, and the beating pulse pumped the excitement to every cell in my body!What a familiar "accent"!I quickly snatched Yifeng's binoculars, the rope of the binoculars made Yifeng hiss and hurt, I hurriedly silenced him: "Listen, Green!" As soon as Yifeng heard it, he heard "Hua Hua" again. Yifeng opened his mouth and shouted: "Ge..." I slapped him and covered him back, for fear of disturbing the hunting of wolves, and also for fear that if Green was distracted by his cry, he would be finished if he was stomped by a cow's hoof.I searched with binoculars, and there were wolves running around in the large herd of cattle. How could I tell who Green was? I felt that with Greene around, I wasn't afraid anymore. Yifeng and I looked at each other, and there was a wonderful illusion that we had found an organization, and felt that our family was hunting in front of us.With Green's support, we have already regarded ourselves as members of the wolf clan, and we are watching the battle of the large army, and our blood is boiling!There is a feeling of sending my son to be a soldier. Watching my son fight on the battlefield is both proud and worried. After the herds of yaks poured down like landslides and mudslides, the injured and the disabled were all over the field. The wolves stopped chasing, and they bypassed the yaks that were still fighting.The wolf doesn't need to do anything anymore, this battle has achieved brilliant results!I no longer dare to jump to conclusions about the wolf war. However, we thought it was time for the wolves to feast, but the wolves rubbed their noses and rubbed shoulders. Some walked behind the mountain, and some ran to the southwest corner... The wolves who were besieged retreated in small groups. They don't miss these disabled and dead cows.We are at a loss, don't want loot after working hard for a long time?What kind of circle is this? ! The yaks kicked their hooves and struggled to get up, leaving a large number of wounded soldiers behind and moved to a safe area. Human voices, horseshoes and dogs barking can be heard from far away... "Green!" Seeing that the wolves were about to retreat, Yifeng finally couldn't help shouting, the voice was not loud, but among the retreating wolves in the southwest corner, a wolf suddenly turned back, and Yifeng looked straight. "Is it him?" Yifeng hurriedly took the telescope to focus.I stared at the "turning wolf", not sure. Another big wolf brushed against the shoulder of "Returning Wolf" and bumped it lightly, as if urging him. Their small group—the other five wolves had calmly retreated across the glacier. "Returning Wolf" hesitated for a moment, then trotted along with the big wolf across the glacier and into the winter pasture. The herdsman's voice was closer than before. "Run!" As soon as I pulled Yifeng, I ran away in the direction of "turning back wolf".It was as if we were also two straggling wolves, struggling to chase our large army. However, we ultimately failed to catch up with the pack of wolves.The two ran with white smoke above their heads, and Yifeng asked pantingly, "People are here, why are we running? It's none of our business." I bowed my waist, put my hands on my knees and breathed heavily.I don't know why my first reaction was to run away, but it seemed that at that moment, I was more afraid of people in my subconscious, so that I forgot to be afraid of wolves, and it seemed that as long as Green was around, I would belong to the pack of wolves For one thing, as long as Green is around, those wolves must be our old acquaintances. I sighed: "I know what kind of wolves I will meet, but I don't know what kind of people I will meet. If the herd of cattle suffers heavy casualties and we are at the scene of the accident, what will happen? Can you predict it?" Yifeng thought for a while, but was speechless. Yifeng and I returned to the hut exhausted, I was almost paralyzed, the images of the day flashed in front of my eyes like a movie, I asked Yifeng with a glimmer of hope: "Have you seen Green clearly?" Yifeng shook his head.The two looked disappointed, thinking of the wolves they met during the day, their minds were even more confused.Wolves don't know how to fight pointless battles, but what kind of joke are these wolves playing?According to the theory of wolves, today is definitely not a good weather for hunting. Wolves like to use the weather to fight. For example, heavy snow and strong wind are excellent weather for wolves to hunt. If heavy cows cannot move on the thick snow, wolves will Taking advantage of it is conducive to siege.When the snow is very thin like this, yaks run fast and down-to-earth, so what advantage do wolves have? Yifeng has a different opinion on this point: "I don't know much about the habits of wolves, but I think it is this kind of thin snow that is good for cattle to run uphill, and it is this kind of slippery weather that makes the herd fall so badly." Big tussle. I think the wolves took advantage of not only the timing but also the location this time.” Yifeng took a pen and paper to draw the terrain and the ambush points of the wolves at that time. After his analysis, a cunning siege battle became more clear at a glance.This should be the gathering of several groups of wolves, optimistic about the thin snow and slippery weather and the favorable terrain surrounded by slopes, driving separately to scare the cattle, and just waving the flag and shouting can create a self-injury stampede!If compared to lethality, wolf teeth are far inferior to bull horns, and wolf strength is far inferior to bull strength. Wolves are too good at observing the weaknesses and strengths of their prey, and grafting the opponent's greatest strengths with their weaknesses to transform them into their own sharp weapons.Use the horns of the ox to attack the ribs of the ox, and use the strength of the ox to press the body of the ox. The greater the advantage of the ox, the greater the damage it will cause to itself, while the wolves will reap the benefits. After analyzing this strategy, the two couldn't help being surprised and awed.This kind of meticulous tactical arrangement is not necessarily imagined by humans, but wolves use it with ease. It is true that wolves are not tired of cheating.This kind of "Tai Chi combat method" that uses strength to fight, probably does not have this trick in the thirty-six strategies.And with such a complicated strategy, how did the wolves communicate with each other tacitly?How many tactics and wisdom do wolves have that we don't understand. "The wolf is still old and hot!" I sighed, and my respect for the wolf king spontaneously arose.Thinking back to the first time, the wolf king gave me the impression that he was still picking up leftovers around my camp, lingering like the leader of a gang of beggars, with no helpers. I didn't expect that he would be such an outstanding leader when he gathered in winter.The wolf king can not only endure humiliation, walk alone in the wilderness, but also command the wolf army to attack cleverly, and win the winter rations without hurting a single soldier. It seems that the real leader is not always majestic. Show his royal style!We thought that Green was scheming enough since he was a child. Compared with the wolf king, Green still lacks great wisdom, so he needs to temper it! Thinking of Green, we felt worried again.Is the sound of "flowers" we hear real, or an illusion?Is the wolf who turned back Green? "Tomorrow morning, let's go to the ice to compare the paw prints, and take a look at how the cows are doing. Since the wolves are surrounded, it is impossible not to eat them." Yifeng said. I nodded, hesitated for a moment, then shook my head: "I'd better go later, I'm afraid of meeting people." "Alright, let's take the walkie-talkie with us tomorrow, so you don't have to worry about anything. You also take the chain with you, just in case there are dogs!" In the afternoon of the second day, Yifeng and I came to the slope where the wolves were besieging the yaks. The snow had melted to reveal the dry grass, and vultures were circling low in the sky.Several big yaks died at the foot of the mountain, with large and small blood holes on their bodies like honeycombs, and a broken horn was stuck on the rib of one yak.Yifeng and I felt awe-inspiring, and we could imagine the tragedy of the yak rolling down the mountain.Not far away, the wreckage of a calf was lying on the grass, and several crows were still looking for the meat on the wreckage. When the crows saw us approaching, they all flew away with a huff.The calf's flesh has been eaten away, leaving only half a piece of cowhide wrapped around a thick spine, head and incomplete hooves.牛皮上留着很多狼牙洞，残骸周围的血爪印踩成怪异的狼圈，混杂着食肉猛禽的爪印和羽毛，杂乱得无法辨认。 若尔盖大草原上的生生死死每天都在上演，自然法则本就如此，哪一个生命不是在天敌的眼皮子下降生的呢？生物链中一物降一物，如果哪个物种已经没谁降得住了，那么这个物种就太可怕了。相信昨天那一战必将为牦牛群体的每个成员注入更多的胆气、力量和危机感。 亦风纳闷道：“为什么狼群把一头小牛啃得这么干净，其他死牛却一口不动啊？” “大约是小牛肉嫩，比较好撕咬吧。”我猜测。 既然这么多的死牛在这里，狼群必定还会来。我和亦风连续数日来到这里观察，然而每天都只看见头天还完整的牛，第二天就成了一堆带血的骨头和皮毛。兀鹫、乌鸦、狐狸甚至还有一两只我们不认识的动物分享着残骸，这群分享者能在半个小时之内把一头牦牛的残骸处理得干干净净，就连牛骨也被专吃骨头的胡兀鹫一块块带上天空，准确地扔在岩石上砸碎，然后囫囵吞掉全部骨髓和骨渣。最后牦牛的皮毛会被渡鸦们一点点分解叼走筑巢。只剩下谁都拖不走的硕大牛头留给细菌，用不了多久也会化为风中白骨。 多日来看着这群盛宴的分享者，我醒悟过来：狼群每天只剖食一只死牛，其实是有意义的。兀鹫这些猛禽能在顷刻间解决完腐肉，但他们的爪喙却无法撕扯开坚硬的牦牛皮，必须等狼牙来为他们“开饭”，而狼群则一天一头牛地按计划“放粮”。否则，一旦牛尸都剖开，狼食就变成鸟食了，而大量的牛肉吃不完也会迅速腐烂风干。我们一直以为狼进食一定是东撕西扯，遍地血肉“一片狼藉”，谁知道狼群进食竟然是这么有计划有步骤，让每一个分享者都消费不浪费。或许真正的“狼藉”乃是井然有序的。 数日后，死牦牛都吃完了。我们沿河往下追踪，远远地跟踪着大牛群。隔三差五地会看见伤残牦牛挣扎着倒毙在牛群之后。我们越来越佩服狼王的先知先觉。 人在进步，狼也在进步，相比里的人狼斗争，这三四十年间已有了明显的变化：人，不再用原始的套马杆、手电筒和猎狗，骑着马打狼，而是用带瞄准镜的猎枪、无色无味的毒药、高倍望远镜，开着越野车追猎。 狼，知道明智地站在人类猎枪的射程之外，知道远离公路，哪怕有人拿着望远镜、照相机，狼都会迅速消失。狼的打围也有了不同：其一，致伤不致死。狼群或许不再像从前那样，把黄羊大规模赶入雪窝子冻起来，以备春荒。他们想出了更保鲜的方法，几个狼群体集结起来将牛群一阵饱吓，制造踩踏事件，伤牛迟早过不了冬，冬天的牛肉没市场，牧民自身也消化不了，牛死在牧场上也没谁拖得走。我可以想象接下来的冬天里，狼群只需每天派个探子看看哪头牛撑不住了，回头就把伤牛赶到隐蔽的山坳里面收拾了，这样的鲜活肉食可以点杀到春天。其二，不固定进食地点，那么多伤牛在牧场上游走，啥时候咽气，在哪儿倒毙，没谁算得准，更不用说在死牛身上下毒下夹子。其三，最大限度保全族群。狼群非不得已不再冒险搏命猎杀，而用智取。数量有限的狼族勇士一个都不能再少了。 也或许，若尔盖草原没有内蒙草原那样的大雪窝子，没法替狼们冷冻食物。如果一次性杀死大量的牛群，露天摆着，很快就会腐烂。因此，这里的狼冬季打围有他们的独到之处，批量致伤，分期点杀，吃的是鲜肉，连血都是热的。 人不再是过去的人，狼也不再是过去的狼。 这天，我们照例跟上牛群。 突然，一小群狼横冲过冰河，迅速消失在河对面的冬季草场。我赶忙跳到冰面查看，有五只狼的足印。亦风在河岸高处大叫：“格林！”急忙招呼我，“快上来，他们在攻击伤牛！” 我心弦一震，连忙从河床爬上牧场，纷乱的牛群当中，还有两匹未及撤离的狼在和一头伤牛周旋。其中一匹狼见到有人出现，便很快奔过河面，也消失在冬季草场。另一匹狼猛回头惊讶地看着我们，浑身的毛被风吹似的奓了起来，他额头正中有一只“天眼”，正是我朝思暮想的格林！ 格林正要跑近，牧民和狗已叫嚷着追了过来。格林急忙转身，频频回头越过冰面逃走了。 “这家伙终于知道怕人了！”亦风高兴地说，“快，跟上！” 格林跑得并不快，似乎他也并不想跑快。另一只大狼不断回头探看，仿佛在催促他，虽然大狼的动作中并未流露出怕我们的感觉，但始终对我们保持距离和警惕。我们紧跟格林追到了一座远离牧场的山下，人声狗吠都已经远了。大狼迅速翻过山梁消失了，格林却留在山梁上徘徊不前，我怀着难以抑制的冲动急奔上山梁。 山风呜咽，与格林四目相对，我大喘着气，还没来得及叫他，他就快速冲过来扑入了我的怀中。我的热泪瞬间涌了出来，紧紧抱着这久别的孩子，仿佛要把分离的一切全都抱回来！格林依恋地轻唤，不断用脖颈蹭着我的脸颊。我单膝跪地，使劲抚拍着格林的脊背，搓挠着他的脖子和脸颊上的毛，揉捏他粗壮的四肢，他成熟了很多，身材也更加魁梧，狼眼炯炯有神，针眼一样的瞳孔透露出坚毅和只有荒野猎人才有的奕奕神光。他的皮毛光滑油润，狼群应该对他不错。 我捧着格林的脸，又哭又笑，和他碰着鼻子，亲着他的大脑门儿，这家伙长大多了，想当初刚找到这小狼崽儿那天，他像坨牛粪一样蜷在地上，听到我的声音，小耳朵突然就立起来了，爬起来像个盲人一样摸索到我怀里，那神奇的一刻已深深镌入我的脑海。如今，他已经找到了他自己的亲族，可心底里仍旧是我的孩子，我的小格林。狼的幼稚期很短暂，格林已经长成青年，狼只要死不了，就会变得更强。 “格林，终于找到你了，你还好吗？我好想你，你知道吗……” 格林可着劲儿地舔我的脸，他的眼里有种很深沉、很炽烈的东西，我笃定他都听懂了。 格林认真地看着我，似乎想好好记住我的模样，狼眼中那份久违和毫无保留的信任，这是我用任何其他人都无法认同的巨大牺牲为代价换来的。看着看着，他突然伸出舌头轻轻舔了舔我下巴上的泪滴，他不想看见我难过，但我的泪却流得更多了。 亦风在山腰上实在爬不动了，可他目睹了山梁上的一切，他心里一动，立刻打开了摄像机。亦风在对讲机里的声音有些酸涩：“如果你实在舍不得，就把他带回来吧。” 我凝望格林，泪水长淌。我当然舍不得这相依数月，有过那么多共同经历的狼儿…… “格林，别走好吗？我们再也不分开了。我怎么舍得你跟着狼群吃苦受难，我要一直守着你！看着你！养你一辈子！”我这样念着，心跳骤然加速，头脑迅速发热，以至于脸都烧烫起来。我哆嗦着手摸出铁链，呼吸更加急促，我生怕格林看见链子转身就跑。我很清楚自己任由情感超越了最后的界限，我把所有的忌讳都抛在脑后，把所有的禁条都踩在脚下，只要格林能留在我身边，我宁愿付出任何代价，宁愿守护他一辈子！他此刻怪我也好，咬我也好，管不了那么多了，哪怕绑也要把他绑回来！我把铁链挂在了格林的脖子上，他没有反对，安静地注视着我，我泪水背后的目光一定很自私，我心虚得甚至不敢看他的眼睛了，我从未感觉到跟他靠得这么近……又这么远，我咬牙颤抖着双手扣链环，心里进行着一场跟自己的战斗。似乎只有那条脆弱的铁链能将格林从艰难求生的狼群中拉回我的身边。我捏紧了铁链，捏紧了我全部的牵挂。 格林温存摩挲着我，铁链困不住狼，留下是因为我爱你。他转头望着狼群消失的方向，又回过头来，狼眼里慢慢溢出一层泪光……我顺着他的眼光看去，仿佛那所有的狼族亲眷也在远处荒坡上翘首相望。我的手抖得更厉害了，眼泪大滴大滴掉在冰冷的链子上。我把头埋在臂弯里，重重地抽噎着，心如刀绞。 亦风强作镇定的声音在对讲机里断续地劝着：“还是带回来吧……外面太险恶了……” 啜泣了一会儿，我抬头凝视着格林盛满荒原的眼睛，牙一咬，眼一闭，心一横，解下项圈，最后抱了抱他，站起身来艰难地说：“去吧！”格林愣了一下，退后几步，眼角低垂，耳朵帖服，唇吻紧闭，显得很伤感，喉间发出宛若哀泣般的声音，依依不舍地绕到我前方。我转过身不敢再看他，迈开腿往前走去，泪水模糊了天际线。格林跟了上来，一如之前每次看着我离开的样子。我回头看他，幸福激动伴随着痛苦失落在我心间翻江倒海……一对养父母要将他们一手带大的孩子交还给他的血亲，让孩子走到更大的世界中去，欣慰与悲凉千缠百转地交织着，笑容与眼泪也就自然地交替着。 对讲机那头，亦风已无法遏制地哭了起来：“不行，你一定要带他回来，我舍不得他！”他是唯一能够理解我进退维谷的人，也是唯一能和我并肩面对患难的人。然而，这次让我们共同放弃吧。 格林低垂着尾巴，犹豫着退后几步，回转身向狼群的方向走去。越来越远，每一步都像踏在我心上。我看见他小跑起来，前方的长草轻微晃动，似乎那些伙伴一直在等着他。格林快要回到伙伴身边了，突然，他猛地掉头，以十倍的速度狂奔回来，转眼间就冲回到我面前！ 格林大喘着气人立起来，拱我的手臂，我硬起心肠，极力忍住再抱他的冲动，我知道一旦抱住他，我就再也舍不得放开了。格林拱开我的手掌，把大狼爪在我掌心一印……我握紧了狼爪，仰头向天，使劲眨着眼睛，让泪水全落到心里。曾经我们的约定是带你重返狼群，而这次你想再和我约定什么吗？ 格林最后看了我一眼，放下前爪重新站回地上。我感觉狼头轻轻擦过我垂下的手背，然后是狼脖子，狼肩胛，狼背，狼尾……滑过指缝的狼毛像手中握不住的细沙。我知道他将离开了，我强忍着不敢哭出声，耳朵里听见格林流连徘徊好几次，终于，最后的足音消失了…… 我猛然转身，在挥别的同时却还在盼着他身影的出现，直到山那边的长草不再晃动……他没有再回来，我的心情随着山风的吹拂一步一步沉入谷底。站在山梁上，随风而起的雪片打着转抽在我脸上，犹如刀割一般。雪粒和着泪花凝结成白茫茫的一片，不一会儿就分不清天地了。 “为什么要让他走？为什么……”亦风问。 我步履沉重地回到山下，要说的话都堵在了嗓子眼儿，心如灌铅：“谁都不能为谁铺一辈子的路，格林是自由的，剩下的路该自己走了……” “莫嗷——欧——”山那边传来悲凉幽咽的狼嗥，格林在和他的人类亲人做最后的告别。 我一阵心酸的狂喜，双手围住嘴，长啸了一声……山那边，格林和他的家人回应了我。 我高兴得哭了出来，突然间，一种幸福感和解脱感让我仿佛飘在云端。 “嗷——欧——”消失的狼群隐隐回应着，自由尽管脆弱，却是唯一的财富，嗥歌尽管粗野，却是真情流露。风刮得更紧了，夹带着细细的雪尘，暴风雪即将拉开序幕…… 这是我最后一次见到格林…… 我们依旧留在狼山，舍不得离去。抚摸狼毛的感觉仿佛一直停留在指尖。我们一直守着和格林分别的小屋，希望当他需要我的时候，回来，我还能帮到他…… 然而，又坚持了一个月以后，我们弹尽粮绝。 亦风把行李收拾好了，屋子里一片凌乱，像格林当初捣乱过的房间一样。多么希望他能像从前一样跳窗而入，扑到我怀里撒娇。而现在格林不知浪迹何方，或许在跟伙伴一起相依相偎，或许在星空下对月长歌。一曲终了，给我留下的是一份无休止的惆怅和缠绕心间的淡淡幸福。 亦风珍惜地收好格林最后叼来的狼山石。我们最后一次坐在狼洞口发呆，泪水在寒冷的山风中凝结成了晶莹的冰珠。 雪后的天空重现碧蓝和空灵，起伏的远山，仿佛温顺的巨狼的脊背。若尔盖在一片素白中恢复了寂静，在这圣洁的草原上，仿佛什么也没发生过。 2011年4月21日星期四初稿于成都 2011年5月30日星期一二稿于成都 2011年6月5日世界环境日三稿于成都