Chapter 40 Article 37 Conditions to be met

He: "Why do you record these? Are you going to collect them and write something?" Me: "Maybe? I haven't thought about it that much." Him: "Is it a hobby?" Me: "Well." He: "Oh, some people watch movies, some people look for girls, some people go out to play, some chat, some read books, some study cooking, some calculate others, some use telescopes to observe stars, some raise small animals, some run, and some draw pictures , Some people play chess, some are in a daze, some watch TV, some think wildly, some collect stockings, some play computer games, some listen to music. And you, choose this way as your usual hobby?"

I'm right." He: "That's it... how many have you collected?" Me: "A lot, but I haven't had time to sort it out yet." Him: "Is it time consuming?" Me: "That's right, to digest, assimilate, organize and classify, you have to delete." Him: "Is it fun?" Me: "Uh...it's okay." He: "Then why don't you choose to run?" Me: "Running...maybe I'd rather collect these?" He: "I just like running. If you run, you will know some people who also run. Most of the runners are healthy, at least in terms of lifestyle. It is very likely that you will meet beautiful women. And they are still very healthy, The kind of beauty who has no worries about food and clothing. Because people who are struggling with life every day don’t have the thought and energy to run. How wonderful it is to run, to meet beautiful women who have affluent and healthy lives. If you pursue it hard, you will probably Marry that woman, imagine that you all run and are healthy, then your child must be in good health. Because your healthy lifestyle will bring it to him. In this way, you have a healthy and prosperous life, and your child It must be a healthy body, and at the same time, under your attention, it will continue to be healthy. Why don't you run?"

That's how this patient thinks.So far, it's been almost 2 hours, and I basically didn't say anything, he said it all.And he can talk a lot, no matter where the topic extends, he can always talk a lot. Me: "I didn't think so much..." Him: "Then what are you thinking?" Me: "I was thinking what you said was just a hypothesis." He: "If I don't assume, the topic between us will jump around on certain things. From this topic to another topic. It's out of control at that time. Wait until it gets into a topic that neither you nor I like, Then we have nothing to say, and we fell into an awkward silence. To use a very vulgar way of saying that the angel flew by at that time. We don’t know if something with wings flew by. If you say you see Now, I think you are about to be admitted to the hospital. You must not look good in hospital gowns, because it is too conspicuous for tall people to wear hospital gowns. Maybe you can wear a striped hospital gown with an old color. It's not a problem, if you wear it, it will look awkward. You wear this kind of hospital gown with me all day and say those things with wings fly by, but I think you are sicker than me, so you tell I will ignore the content. Because you are a lunatic and I am a lunatic with a relatively mild illness, we will have nothing to talk about at that time. So I will assume according to my thinking now. Are you right?"

I feel a little dizzy. Me: "I don't remember much, well, you can just assume, at least I don't feel pain now." He: "Is pain bad?" Me: "It seems... not good?" He: "Actually, suffering is a process of waking up." Me: "But not everyone needs that kind of process, right? Other ways are also possible, right?" He: "It doesn't matter if you're right or not. The important thing is that I think so. Of course you don't have to think so, that's your right, but you don't have the right to interfere with me thinking so. Some doctors have analyzed that I am generally optimistic. Emotional, but how can an optimistic person end up in a mental hospital? This seems paradoxical. Optimistic people can figure out everything and don’t make fools of themselves. Many people think so, right? Actually, no, mental patients don’t use optimism to treat them. Judging is based on other aspects. I forget how to judge, but after someone puts forward a point of view, many people say: This is the case. So someone is judged as mentally ill. Whether that person is It’s not optimistic. So many people’s views are wrong. They think that those who can’t take it easy will get mental illness, and those who can take it easy will not get mental illness. But there are many mental patients who can think it over me, and they are very open-minded. They even say they want to eat It’s okay to kill my own children to eat meat. I think about it very much. Because I didn’t have children at first, but I had them later, and now I don’t have them anymore. I ate them. I ate them, and I didn’t have them anyway. I just lost That's all. Emotional issues are not necessary..."

Me: "Wait a minute, killing people is wrong." He: "But soldiers kill people on the battlefield, and they still kill people they don't know. People who don't have any conflicts of interest with themselves have to be killed. You can say that it is for a certain purpose, so for a certain purpose. Murder? So that means that all murderers kill for a certain purpose. Or would you say that they kill for the benefit of the majority? Now the country with the largest population is India, right? Then India can Randomly kill people from other countries? A large population is really an advantage! Now you still insist that killing is wrong, then you should reject all methods and motives of killing. We can’t see the earth has national boundaries from space, but we In fact, there are many, many national borders. People kill people for the sake of the country and nation? And those who can kill people kill people, kill people in the name of their own country, and achieve a certain purpose. Why is it like this? Because people are like this .Once you have a powerful weapon, you will feel that you are great. Is it really great? It’s just that you have a powerful weapon. But there is nothing wrong with a powerful weapon, and it will not automatically and consciously kill people. , There is always a reason. Is this right? People in other countries also think that you are wrong. So the concept of killing is right or wrong is not decided by you, but by the group you belong to It’s decided. If your group gives you the right to kill, you can kill. If you don’t have the right to kill, you will be punished for killing. Because you don’t have a license to kill.”

Me: "I understand your situation, you like to complicate things very much." He: "No, I'm the opposite. I'm the one who simplifies things. You are the ones who complicate things. You have to give an excuse to everything, just like when you said murder, it's all an excuse. But An excuse is an excuse, not a reason. You will always explain this and that. Explanation is actually a cover-up. The real explanation does not need to explain. You don’t need to explain when you eat, you don’t need to explain when you drink water, because you need it, that is the reason. But Your purpose is to live. Why? You don’t think about such questions. I think, so that things can be simplified. I hope I can understand why I live, and it’s okay. Everything I do will be simple, because The purpose is for me to live. But you put these questions aside and think about how to live better, but why you live, I don’t know.”

He kind of confuses me. Me: "Ah...Actually, it's not important to be alive, because I'm already alive. So thinking about those things doesn't make sense." He: "It's still an excuse, that's not a reason. If you ask a person, what will satisfy him? Many people will say a lot of strange needs, but the most important ones are money, health, and longevity. You can't say One hundred percent, but this proportion must be the majority. But do those really satisfy them? Certainly not, why? Because this is satisfied, there will be new needs. If it is really satisfied, there will be no more needs You can say that it is a higher standard evolution of needs, but that is just an excuse, not a reason. You are satisfied and full, and you will not be very interested in even the best food. You're thirsty, you've had enough, you're satisfied and full, and you won't think about finding something else to keep drinking, because you're satisfied."

Me: "Are you trying to say that greed is the root of everything?" He: "I don't want to get into philosophy or religion. I just want to say, you guys, don't really know what you want. When you have money, you want a big house. When you have a big house, you want a good car. You When you have a good car, you want beautiful women. When you have beautiful women, you want status. When you have status, you want fame. When you have fame, you want power. When you have power, you want honor. After you have honor, you will want to be immortal. After you are immortal, you will want endless life to see yourself immortal. Then you see, you are satisfied, you have got it, and you will be satisfied and decide to die? I am afraid not Yes, who knows what you think of again. You got what you got, you really got it, you will not stop there, you will endlessly want more. But, are those really what you want? You want so much, I just want to know why I'm alive and I'm here. So who's the real problem? Do I have to be as crazy as you guys to not be here? Actually This is the residence of normal people, and it was made by you lunatics. But I think it’s good, at least I don’t have to go out and mix with you lunatics, and in the end I don’t know why I’m alive.”

I feel like my brain is messed up. Me: "Uh, didn't you just say that this is where crazy people live?" He: "Don't pick on such trivial mistakes in my metaphors. If you have to pick, then you just said that I was just hypothetical." Me: "But you are really assuming." He: "But I do think you're all crazy, too." Me: "Then are all the normal people here? So is the one next door who pooped and painted all over the wall?" He smiled: "Look at you, isn't it extreme? There are scum in the police force. There are conscience-discovered gangsters. There are also traitors in the Anti-Japanese War. Killing with a stick is extreme, right?"

I quickly looked through the information at hand, and found his original occupation to reconfirm: psychiatrist.I don't know what's going on, but a witty remark popped up in my mind: The gangster knows martial arts, and no one can stop him. Me: "You used to be a doctor..." He: "Yeah, I'm in charge of patients with delusions. But then I found out that something went wrong." Me: "What's wrong?" He: "For a while I felt that my spirit was abnormal, and then I was fine. After waiting for a few months, I found that feeling came back. I tried hard to get rid of those abnormal thoughts, and I took the initiative Go to psychological adjustment, take a vacation. When I think I am fine, I come back to work, but only then do I realize that the part I thought was abnormal is actually the real essence. It has been covered by an illusion before. I I have been confused for a long time: Could it be that I was originally a mental patient? I used some appearances to cover up something, and now I have an illness? Finally, I finally understood that the so-called normal concept was added to me by you lunatics, and I It turned out to be normal, but it was made abnormal by your excuses. As a result, I thought twice and decided to stay on the real side and stop booing with you crazy people. Here, I feel very satisfied."

He looked at me with a smile on his face, very calm, even very contented. I remember my hypnotist friend commenting on him before I came: "Maybe he will make you dizzy, and what he said is very complicated. In fact, in his heart, deep down, deep down, he is a very simple person. "