Chapter 24 Article 22 The Lonely Watcher

Him: "Before I tell you, can I ask a question?" Me: "Okay, but don't use the name 'you' anymore, we are about the same age." Him: "Okay. I want to know, is the dream real?" I replied very cautiously: "Explain from the existing physical point of view: not true." He: "Then, are dreams random?" Me: "Uh... it should be the so-called thinking by day and dreaming at night, right?" He: "What if the things in the dream have nothing to do with the daytime?" Me: "Well...it should be that your subconscious mind distorted some reality and reflected it in the dream."

He: "The reason I came to you is that I have had the same dream every few years since I was a child." Me: "Touch the same every time?" He: "No, they are all in the same place, and the things I do in the dream are similar. But I will feel very real, from the first time I feel very real, so the impression is very deep. I even consciously know that it is this again Dream. Trying to wake up, but can't. I can't take it anymore. Every time I have that dream, it takes a long time to recover. So I came to you through a friend, and I wanted to know if I was crazy."

Me: "I can't judge whether I'm crazy, you need to do various tests to be sure... What did you dream about? It's scary?" He: "No, it's not scary." Me: "Can you tell me?" Him: "OK." I adjusted my sitting position. He: "I woke up and opened my eyes, surrounded by a very vague halo. I know I'm still inside the eggshell. I need to reach out and tear the soft, eggshell-like thing that wraps around me to come out. The egg The shell is in a square pool. The pool is very simple, filled with a water-like liquid to soak the eggshells. Every time I wake up, the liquid is still half. When I come out of the pool, I feel that I have completely slept enough. Feeling. I always find a one-piece suit to wear, which is thicker and the clothes are very old.”

Me: "Are you in the house?" He: "Yes, the house is also very old. There are a lot of old equipment in it. I vaguely remember some of them, but I can't remember what they are for. After I get dressed, I will go to a very old and big In front of the metal machine, pull a switch, there will be a rattling sound inside the machine, and then a metal slot is opened, and there are some things like cat food and dog food in it. The particles are very large. I know it is edible, so I grab it and eat it .I call that the food trough. There will be blisters in the food trough, and the blisters are soft. You can drink the water inside after you pinch and bite. The skin of the blisters can also be eaten.”

Me: "Is there color in food and things around you?" He: "Yes, it has faded, and many machines are rusty... After eating, I will open the hatch and go to a corridor. All the doors there are like the hatches on the ship, but they are thicker than that, and they are sealed. The performance is very good. It takes a lot of effort to open it every time. When I get to the corridor, I will open the hatches one by one to look at other rooms. Every room is the same as the one I woke up in. It is very big and has many machines.” Me: "Is there anyone in the other room?" He: "There are no living people, there are ten rooms in total, and I look at the other nine every time. Their sinks are all dry, and the soft eggshells are shriveled, and there are shriveled corpses wrapped in them. I dare not open them. .”

Me: "Afraid of those dry corpses?" He: "What I am afraid of is not the corpse, but the fact that I cannot accept the fact that I am the only one who survived." Me: "...Huh? Just you?" He: "Yes. After all the rooms, I will close the hatches again, and feel very sad at the same time. I can't help myself from crying. At the end of the corridor, I open several large hatches in a row , went to the small platform outside. I can see that the place where I live is higher than the sea. There are large and small ice blocks floating everywhere on the sea. The sky is very blue and the air is not cold. It is fresh and cool. The sea is basically It’s still, and I can see the depth of the water in places where there is no ice, and I can see that the place where I live is in the shape of a pyramid underwater, but there are no living things.”

I have nothing?" He: "No. Along the platform leads to a sloping corridor, and you can climb to the highest point along the steps, which is the roof of the building, the highest point. If you look around, you will clearly see other pyramids under the water, but They are all collapsed. I am the only one on the surface of the water. Every time I come to this time, I can’t help crying, crying silently. Standing there looking around for a long time, looking for anything moving, but there's nothing." I feel a little depressed: "Have you always looked at it like this?"

He: "No, I will go back after a while, to the floor below where I live. There is a large empty room with all kinds of big and old machines in it. Some of them are still running, but there is no sound. I don't know. I remember what those machines were for, I just remembered that I had to adjust the numbers in some small display windows to zero. After doing this, I went to the other side of the room to find a small square box, and took the box back to the room. Top. Turn a small switch on the box like winding, and then watch it slowly inflate automatically in my hand, turn into a balloon and fly away."

Me: "Have you tried doing anything else?" He: "I don't want to try, you don't know the feeling of standing in that place. Occasionally there is a slight sound of water around, and the iceberg slowly floats. At that time, I knew in my heart that I was the only one in the whole world. I think So lonely. After doing everything, I sat there and waited. I knew what I was waiting for, but I also knew it might not come. I wanted to kill myself, but I didn't want to give up. I hope there are people alive. Maybe it's looking for me, just like I'm looking for him... I can't help but cry when I wait. The loneliness grabs me so tightly that I don't even have the courage to talk to myself. I have Sometimes I want to jump down and swim in any direction, but I know I will die somewhere..."

Me: "Are you...married?" Him: "Well, there is a child." Me: "...Is life unsatisfactory?" He: "Everything is fine, maybe some people will envy me. But, you know, that dream is too real! That kind of hopeless loneliness can't go away for a long time. Can you understand the feeling of being the only one on the planet? ?I want to cry loudly, but dare not, I don't even have the courage to cry loudly. The feeling of loneliness is always with me, even if I wake up, I will still be sad because of it. I am doubly good to my family and friends, no matter the cost I don’t want anything in return, just to get rid of that feeling of loneliness. But it’s impossible. Even when I’m in a crowd, that feeling of loneliness is like a shadow, grabbing me. I don’t know what to do.”

I saw big tears falling from his eyes. He: "I'd rather be those dry corpses, I'd rather die in some disaster, I don't want to be alone waiting... looking for... But in my dream I just wait, I always bring I waited with such a little bit of hope, but I never waited. Every movement in my sight is just an iceberg, every sound in my ear is just sea water, every time..." He was sobbing, and I watched silently, powerless. He: "I can't escape. I used to look for pictures of icebergs and oceans on the Internet like crazy. I know it's a dream, but the loneliness is too real. There is no way to make me feel at ease. I would rather do it." Horrible dream, I would rather have a terrible dream than this kind of lonely dream. Every time in my dream, I would look into the distance on the roof, desperately trying to find any possible existence. I once searched all the rooms there to find Telescope, I want to see if there are any companions in the farther place. If there is, no matter who it is, I will give my all. Burned in my heart! I tried everything, but I couldn't get rid of it..." His despair is not morbid, but pain from the bottom of his heart.I stayed as calm as possible and searched my mind for any way to help him. Me: "Try hypnosis? This is the only thing I can help you with." About three weeks later, I found a friend who was more reliable in this area to do hypnosis for him. Two hours later, my friend came out, and I saw that her eye circles were red. Me: "You, what's the matter?" She: "I don't know, maybe I can't help him, his loneliness comes from a dream." I sent the patient to the gate of the hospital and watched him walk away, feeling inexplicably sad in my heart. It was a beautiful place, but only he existed.He bears all the loneliness and waits, he is a lonely watcher.