Chapter 18 Chapter Seventeen The Real World

She: "This is what I just figured out not long ago. Do you know why sometimes it is difficult to analyze and dare not define when faced with some obvious things? In fact, thinking affects people's judgment. The state of thinking leads to It prevents people from seeing the essence clearly and interferes with people's ability to judge." Me: "But is that directly related to what you're doing?" Many people around this patient described her as being "possessed".Her boyfriend abandoned her because of this, her family thought she was hopeless, and her friends began to stay away from her... The reason for this is that she began to imitate others a few years ago.

At first the people around her thought it was funny, but later they thought it was scary, because she almost imitated it perfectly.Apart from physical characteristics, there is nothing alike in eyes, movements, tone of voice, habits, behavior, and manners.It was scary for those around her.Borrowing her ex-boyfriend's description: "At that time, she always imitated the elderly, not for others to see, but imitating all the time, I even felt like living with my father. And, the most terrifying thing is, the way she looked at me ...That's not her. I think she is possessed. I thought I was brave, but I broke up with her when she was not at home, and then I moved out as if I was running away. I called her to tell her after I moved out... I I think the voice she answered the phone was from an old man..."

But what I'm interested in is not any supernatural content, but another issue: those so-called "possessions" are all living people. She: "It's directly related. As I said just now, how can people not think?" I emphasized again: "Look, it's like this, I haven't been in touch with you for a long time, and I don't know much about the situation. Of course, I know some from others, but I haven't met you personally, so far, more than an hour. So... ..." Her: "So, you want me to explain clearly?" Me: "Yeah, it's good for you too."

She smiled: "For me? What good?" Me: "If you don't let me figure things out, you will face a series of assessments and inspections later, not to mention the time delay, psychologically..." She: "I understand, and I also know what you are going to say... It's a problem. However, I will try my best to tell you from the beginning. If you still don't understand, I can't help it, but I will try my best." Me: "OK, thank you." She is the kind of woman with sharp words. She: "Well... where do I start? How about this, put aside what I said just now, and let me ask you something: Have you ever thought that the world you see may not be like this?"

What she said surprised me, a question that had been bothering me for a long time. She: "Let's make it simple. You know that the structure of the human eyeball is spherical, right? Spherical crystals. According to the lens principle, the scene is projected to the retina as an upside-down image, but the brain handles this problem by itself, and the left brain controls the right hand." , the right brain controls the left hand. This solves the problem, but essentially, we see the world upside down." Me: "Well, that's right." She: "I started from here and thought a lot. This is the beginning. What I'm going to tell you next requires you to expand your imagination as much as possible."

Me: "...well I'll do my best..." She: "Let's go a step further: because each of us has thoughts, so when we look at things, we actually add our own subjective consciousness. That is to say, what you think is bright is not in my opinion. It must be bright, the red you see may be yellowish to me; the sweetness you taste may be sour after I taste it; Art, I think is very popular. Is that clear?" Me: "You mean: experience, attainments, knowledge, insight, knowledge, these objective factors affect the nature of our perception of things?" She: "You think too much about things, look at the essence. The experiences and knowledge you mentioned are all objective. Those objective things affect you. It is your thoughts, so in the end it is your subjective. When The more you know, the more you are different from other people. In fact, everyone is more and more different from everyone else."

Me: "Is that so?" She: "It's like this. The world each of us sees will be more and more biased, but there will be so-called collective values ​​that balance our subjectivity." Me: "Well...it seems to be..." She: "Later when I thought about this, I started to wonder what the world looks like in the eyes of others?" Me: "I see, that's why you started imitating people in the first place, right?" She: "That's right, I started to think of many ways, and finally decided to use the most stupid way, which is what we often say: look at it from another angle. However, changing the angle is much more complicated. Because you need to look at it from another angle What matters is not one thing, but the whole world! At the beginning, I slowly observed the details of others, and then remembered the characteristics of those details, and then began to try to imitate others and understand why they did what they did. To put it bluntly, I became you The imitated person. After imitating for a long time, you will understand the mentality of the imitated person, and further, you will learn to see things with the other person’s eyes. If you master it well, you can even know what the other person is thinking.”

Me: "It's a bit like an actor...but it's a bit mysterious to know what the other person is thinking." She: "Not at all. I know that many friends don't care about me because they think I'm scary. The so-called possession is just an excuse. In fact, it's more because I know what they think, so they think it's scary. But at that time I It's close to a higher level of imitation." Me: "Is it more similar to imitation?" She: "No, it's mental imitation. You can know the other person's thoughts without making a sound. Because I have been imitating others for a long time, and I am very accurate in grasping the details, so it is purely subconscious to figure out the other person's mentality. You can see through it without behavioral imitation. .Do you think it's witchcraft or magic?"

Me: "Speaking of which, I don't think so." She: "That's right. After several years of doing this, you will find it very simple. It is nothing more than paying attention to, grasping, and understanding the details, comprehending the eyes, and being familiar with the purpose of the movements. After getting used to it, I don't feel How miraculous. However, I think there is an element of talent in imitating the mind. That is to say, if you are naturally observant and keen, it will be faster." Me: "This will be very tiring." She: "No, this is very interesting. When you start to see with other people's eyes, you will see more essential. You will also be closer to the essence of the world."

Me: "But that's just looking at it through someone else's eyes. Didn't you say you want to see the real world?" She smiled. "Yeah, but like I said, it's a stupid way to go around in a big circle, and I can't think of a better way. I'm not going to go the religious way." Me: "You said you would know what other people think, can you know what I'm thinking?" She: "I don't know, because I'm telling you about it, so I've been in my own thinking. But..." She paused. "But I know you're confused about the nature of the world."

I froze. She: "Amazing? I don't think so, it's just a slight change in your eyes that I noticed just now. Has that question bothered you for a long time?" After I nodded, I suddenly realized that my position with her seemed to be reversed: "You are very powerful..." She smiled: "It's not that serious, let's talk about it again?" Me: "OK, but since you've already mastered a certain degree of mental imitation, why do you need behavioral imitation?" Her: "Do you know when I was called 'possessed'?" Me: "They didn't say that." Her: "Around when I started imitating older people." Me: "Is there any difference in imitating older people?" She: "In folklore, it is always mentioned that a certain animal has been cultivated for many years to become refined, right? In fact, I think that there is no need to practice, and it will become refined directly after living for a long time. It is because of experience. Did you find that the longer you live, the more experienced you are?" The more there are, the deeper and farther one's thinking becomes." Me: "Really?" She: "Think about it, an animal, living in the wild for hundreds of years in a cruel natural environment where the weak are preyed on by the strong, would not be able to become a genius! What haven't you seen? What haven't you met? What don't you know? Maybe it's true. There are, but humans can no longer see them, because they have lived for too long and have too much experience. The mandrills (sound xiao), mountain gods, and river gods mentioned in the past may be those wild animals that have lived for a long time. If people can live for seven or eight hundred years, everyone must be an old goblin! I don’t mean to promote feudal superstition and superstition, I just emphasize the importance of experience and experience.” Me: "So you deliberately imitated the old man's behavior?" She: "Well, that's it...do you have a cigarette?" I found a cigarette and handed it to her. She lit a cigarette and took a deep breath: "Sorry, I don't smoke easily..." I'm actually glad she was able to relax with me. She: "When I imitated those old people, I found that I was gradually approaching the essence I wanted to know." Me: "You mean..." She: "What is the world like?" Me: "I understand what you mean. The purpose of your choice of going around in circles is not to try to figure out others or simply see the world through other people's eyes, but to see the world without any subjective consciousness, yes Bar." She smiled: "It took me several years to be told that I was sick and possessed. Is it that simple? Let me tell you what I understand is not the case." I didn't smile and waited for her to continue. She: "Most old people let me down, because they have enough experience, maybe not enough experience, so they still don't have the kind of detached attitude I need in thinking. Because most of the elderly people still will There are very strong emotions, but the body does not allow a strong reaction, so sometimes their temper will be very strange... My mother is like this. If you don’t believe me, wrap all the joints on your body with bandages, so that Try it in a week, and you will be very depressed too... But what I want is not these, what I need is to see the world from the state of the world, and I don't know what to do." Me: "You mean, are you deadlocked?" She bit her lower lip: "That's right, but after a while, I found that I had made another step forward, because just when I thought these years of effort were wasted, I suddenly understood." Me: "Have you obtained the state of detachment?" She: "It's stronger than this." Me: "Could it be that you can't see the real world if you look at it completely without thinking and subjective consciousness?" She: "Yeah, that's not the real world." Me: "Then what is it?" She pinched her cigarette and smiled: "If you look at it with self-awareness, according to what I said earlier, what you see is actually yourself, right? Have you ever thought about it? What you really want to do is not to give up everything It’s not that you don’t look at it without any attitude, that’s not detachment, that’s indifference, it’s just like the saying goes: no one’s taste, that kind of state can’t be seen at all, at most it’s just being arrogant, it’s far from it.” Me: "But you've been talking for a long time, how can you see it?" She smiled proudly: "If you want to see the real world, you have to look at the sky with the eyes of the sky, the clouds with the eyes of the clouds, the wind with the eyes of the wind, and the flowers and trees with the eyes of the flowers and trees. See a rock with the eyes of a stone, see the sea with the eyes of the sea, see an animal with the eyes of an animal, and see a man with the eyes of a man." I listened carefully and looked at her stupidly, but my brain was in a state of boiling. Finally, she made a famous joke: "If one day you see me crazy, it's you." When I left that day, I felt dizzy, and everything seemed to be like that, and it didn't seem to be like that.Because what she said was so strange and unheard of.I must admit that her point of view and logic are extremely sound, and it turned me on its head.I think, maybe one day, she will see the real world, right?